I just said goodbye to the workplace, I don't know if this decision is correct, but I will definitely be responsible for my decision, if the future days are bleak, I Zhang Yixi gritted my teeth and endured, if this ushers in a new dawn, I would like to share this glory with all the people around me.

I stood on the road opposite the company and waited for a taxi, and the sun disappeared in the twilight........ I looked at the horizon where the sun had disappeared, and there was a blush and a blackness, which was a sign before the night came, but where should I place myself this night?

........

This night I set myself up on the rooftop where the wind was howling, accompanied by dozens of beers, a pack of cigarettes, and some inexplicable emotions.

Night after night, the world is a thick black, and I seem to see a dense group of poor souls trapped in such a thick and difficult way......... But the neon sign flickered coquettishly because of this thick black.

Drink bar, drink happily, drink too much, drink dizzy, I can also create a prosperous and coquettish illusion for myself! Now that I had removed the staircase with my own hands, I could only stand in the illusion of prosperity and charm that I had created, and lean down at the lights below.

I was a little sleepy after drinking too much, but the autumn night was cold and I was awake, so I wandered on the edge of sleepiness and sobriety.

"Between happiness and sadness, there is bitterness to taste .......sweetness," I muttered, holding the beer can in my hand high, raising my head, the liquor fell into my mouth in a line, and more flowed down my neck into my clothes, and I was more awake with a chill, so I saw the few stickers that were stuck to the guardrail.

Several images flashed through my mind, and I missed her........ For the first time, I missed her after being drunk.

"Miss her....... If you want her, go for it......."

With my head up, I gulped down the rest of the beer in my mouth, tossed the can high into the air, and just as I was about to hit the ground, I kicked it hard, and the beer can flew from the candle-lit utopia to the earth........

.........

I rushed home, I was going to pack a few clothes, immediately took a taxi to Yangzhou overnight, and then told her in person that I missed her.

I came to the door of the community where I lived, and to my surprise: I saw Wang Mengmeng's red Oncora, and I slowed down and slowly approached the car.

I finally came to the car, the cat looked into the car, Wang Mengmeng was already asleep in the car, she was only wearing a thin coat, I was worried that she would catch a cold, so I knocked on the window with my hand, and finally Wang Mengmeng opened her sleepy eyes.

When she saw me at first glance, her expression was not only a natural smile, but also a trace of worry, she opened the car door, maybe her consciousness was still a little blurry, she stumbled and almost fell, I quickly helped her.

"Sissy, you're drinking again?" Wang Mengmeng asked me with a frown.

"yes, drink some."

"Do you only care about drinking and don't answer the phone?"

I touched my pocket, and then I remembered that I forgot the phone when I went out, and I didn't have it with me: "I didn't have the phone with me." ”

"Sissy, you don't want to be so decadent every time you encounter a setback, okay! You should have gotten used to these setbacks a long time ago........? ”

I smiled and said, "I just drank some wine, and I usually like to drink some wine when I'm fine, and you don't know it!" ”

Wang Mengmeng still maintained her unique childish seriousness and said: "Setbacks in life are inevitable, you must not hesitate, I don't want to see you like this." ”

"Mengmeng, these comforting words of yours, can you take them out to comfort me when I really encounter setbacks, I really don't need it today........ However, I have nothing now, and it's true that I'm in debt. I shrugged my shoulders and said in a helpless gesture.

"Then you have to work harder, you're not young anymore."

I scratched my head, I didn't know what to say to Wang Mengmeng for a while, and followed her words for a while: "I know, I will definitely work hard." ”

Wang Mengmeng had a natural smile on her face again, but she said with some loss: "Xixi, my brother and Sister Shen Man are getting married!" ”

"Mengmeng, this is a good thing, why do you have an unhappy expression, if the prince knows that you are not happy for him, he will have to expel you from your royal family's family tree!"

Wang Mengmeng looked at me with a pout, and said in a low voice: "Xixi, I haven't been happy for them, I'm envious of my brother, he can be with the person he likes." ”

I was silent and wanted to smoke, but I didn't!

"Xixi, on the day of my brother and Sister Shen Man's engagement, shall we go together?"

"We're definitely together, and we have a lot of friends!" I said.

"That's not what I meant....... I hope that by the day I can tell everyone that you are my boyfriend and we will be engaged soon!! ”

I was silent for a long time and said to Wang Mengmeng: "Mengmeng, you don't know my situation, I'm like this now, I have no savings, no stable job, and debts everywhere, how can your parents agree with me?" ”

"I don't care, no matter what they think of you, I want to be with you!"

"But you've compromised with them before, and you care about their feelings, right, Moe!!"

Wang Mengmeng looked at me with tears in her eyes: "But I don't care now, I, Wang Mengmeng, just want to be with you, I'm already 25 years old, I broke up before because I still have time to wait for you, and now I don't have to wait any longer....... Even if there is a knife paved road ahead, I will walk it with you. ”

Looking at Wang Mengmeng in front of me, I can't help but be moved, a woman said these words to you when you were down, if this man doesn't know how to cherish it, then he is a beast who doesn't know what to do.

Yes, Shen Man has already compromised for a man who truly loves him, why am I still so persistent? Do I Zhang Yixi still have youth, passion, and capital to pursue the love I want? ”

"Mengmeng, you go back and rest early, I'm a little messy now, give me a little space, okay, there are some things I really haven't figured out yet." I whispered to Wang Mengmeng.

"How long will it take you to figure it out?"

"One night!"

.........

I walked step by step towards my house, opened the door, closed it, and sat motionless on the couch........ I don't know what I'm thinking at the moment, but one thing I know for sure is that I won't choose to go crazy to Yangzhou to find Angel this night.

Can I be single-minded with Angel? I kept thinking about it, I can't do it, at least not now, and I'm not sure I can do it in the future.

I gradually calmed down, calmly examined the relationship between myself and Angel, I couldn't imagine the future of myself and Angel, because space, too fantastic, we are not people of the same world, we can't find the bond that binds us together, is love okay? Don't laugh, it's not a fairy tale! Besides, she's a princess, but I'm not that prince either!

She is a woman who is too demanding of her other half for love, and she also has such capital, but I Zhang Yixi can't meet her standards, I'm not worthy! I'm a messy man!

The text message prompt sounded in a dead silence, picked it up and looked at it, it was sent by Anqi: "If you haven't rested yet, call me back." ”