This was the first email he sent me in all the years we've known him. ⊙√ 8⊙√8⊙√ read ⊙√ book.2●≥ When I opened it, I found that it was a long letter, and Jin Yan wrote:

Wife:

I thought about how to say goodbye to you for a long time, I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to say anything when I called, and I was afraid to see you cry in person, and my words were too ugly to write to you. So I thought about it, and I'd better send you an email.

Let me think about what you look like when you see the letter, at this time, you should be looking at every word I wrote to you with a flat mouth and tears, maybe you are wearing a couple shirt I bought for you, and you are wearing handmade high-heeled leather shoes that I ordered for you, I guessed right?

Wife, I have taken care of all the things that should be sold, leaving a house for Aunt Xu and her two younger brothers to live in, and sent my father to a nursing home, and I have entrusted my best doctor friend to take care of it. By the time you read the letter, I was on a plane to Seattle, USA.

Don't be sad to see this. I didn't go to the U.S. to escape, but to do something, something that might sound unreliable to you.

Forgive me for not being able to tell you exactly what to do, anyway, I'll take care of myself and I'll always miss you.

My heart has been quiet these days, and this feeling is like being in a smoky barren valley, at first I was afraid, apprehensive, and uneasy, but then when I saw that the road was endless, my heart suddenly quieted down when I saw that there was no end to the road through the fog. I realized that I had changed, I had come to terms with the blows of bad luck, and I was willing to face it and think of a solution.

I may not be able to return to my home country anytime soon because I need to concentrate on one thing. Wife, you should be crying at this moment, right? I guess you must have two lines of tears hanging from the corners of your eyes? If I were by your side, I would love to kiss the tears from the corners of your eyes. I love you.

I don't know how long I'll be back, and I don't know how long it will take, maybe a year, maybe five years, maybe a lifetime. If you encounter happiness that truly belongs to you, I will bless you and I will not blame you. If you don't meet, please wait for me, one day, I will come back to you again, give you happiness, and no longer let you cry.

Pan Rushu, any words to express my heart at the moment seems pale. For the rest of the time, I can only work hard and try hard, and prove myself with actions. Take care and don't go back.

Jin Yan

When I saw the email, I panicked. Seattle, USA, what did he run there without warning?!

I hurriedly called Xing Feng, and as soon as I connected the phone, I heard Xing Feng's rather heavy tone, and before I could speak, Xing Feng said, "Did you receive Jin Yan's email?" ”

"Well, brother, he went to the United States, what did he do in the United States? Does his family still have an industry in the United States? I asked hurriedly.

"As far as I know, no, and I don't quite understand why he went to the United States at this time. Moreover, he left his father's last funds and savings to my cousin, and he himself left nothing. Xingfeng said.

"And what about his expenses when he goes to the United States? What can he do over there? When I heard Xingfeng say this, I cried again for a while.

"I checked with a friend at the airport and he had flown away. He must have set a timer to send it, and he only sent it after boarding, just for fear that we would go to him. Don't worry too much, although that kid used to be more reckless, he has his own opinions on doing things, and there must be a reason for his choice this way. You work well, rest assured, don't think too much. Xingfeng said.

After hanging up the phone, my heart was even more distracted, and I sat in the office all afternoon without thinking about going to work at all. The current position of general manager of the company is vacant, and there is no one to take over the office where Jin Yan used to be, so I turned on the computer he used to use.

The computer desktop is messy, except for some documents sent to him by the company's employees, the desktop is full of files such as some online game clients and game guides. For the past three years, he has devoted a lot of effort to the study of games, neglecting the management and development of the company.

I looked at the messy desktop, shook my head, and closed the computer in a huff. Sitting at the desk, thinking of the past, I couldn't help but be in a daze.

When this company first opened two years ago, I went with him to purchase all the facilities and equipment in the office, and we decided on everything in the office, the placement of potted plants, and the style of the desk......

On the first night of the company's opening, after inviting all the friends who came to congratulate the opening of the company after drinking, we returned to the company drunk, and as soon as we entered the door, he locked the door of the company badly, and suddenly took out a bouquet of flowers that had been prepared from the front desk, and then kissed me frantically, and we kissed all the way from the front desk to this office.

He spread his shirt flat on the floor, put me on the cold floor, and frantically lingered with me, and then, it was at this desk that he pushed all the obstacles on the table, and it was on this desk that we had a night of passion......

At that time, we still love each other very much, but we always find the wrong way to love, we love while desperately stinging each other, quarreling and crazy lingering, just like that and tossing repeatedly, tossing and turning later, both of us are tired, cold, tired, light, and even think that we are going to separate, but that love has always been in our hearts and has never been far away.

When I met Jin Yan, I realized that there is a kind of love that is so deep in the bone marrow, as if it has been poisoned, whether he is good or bad to you, whether we are in love or quarrel with each other, whether we are together or apart, whether it is life or death, that love is there, never far away.

I have been sad for a long time, but I understand that life still has to go on, and in addition to being sad, I still have to go to class, and I can't do anything less. It's just that H City without Jin Yan is already an empty city for me.

I took the earliest bus to work every morning, and returned home in the afternoon on the latest bus, desperately doing all kinds of things to divert my thoughts, and when I couldn't sleep, I desperately did sports, so I persevered for a month, and I felt that the world was gray, and there was no more brilliance.

I miss him, I miss him, I miss him beyond the ordinary, sitting on the last bus, I look blankly at the street scene in this city. The city I've been in for so many years has become more and more prosperous, but this prosperity is just a passing cloud for me.

There was a thin layer of mist on the glass, and in a blink of an eye, winter was coming again, I used my fingers to draw a big "heart" shape on the glass, and then drew two small people on that heart, and I was bored with my heart, so I smeared it with my fingers, and the blurred window became clear in an instant.

At this time, the bus stopped at the traffic light, I looked down at random, and was stunned to find that the silhouette of a man riding a bicycle next to the bus was similar to Jin Yan!

I was so surprised that I quickly wiped the glass window clean with my cuffs, and leaned the window to look at the man on the bike.

It was raining heavily, he was wearing a white shirt and gray trousers, without any covering, his shirt was wet and clinging to the flesh, and his emaciated figure was clearly visible through the car window, because he was parked in the rain, and his long legs stood out.

My eyes were almost on the car window, I stared at this man in a daze, his every move, the way he rode a bicycle, his figure, his hairstyle, his style of dressing, everything was very similar to Jin Yan, for a moment, I almost couldn't control myself and rushed out of the car, I really wanted to grab this man and take a closer look to see if it was Jin Yan.

At this time, the green light was on, the bus slowly drove forward, I saw him struggling to board the bus in the rain, the rain was flowing down the window, and I saw his front through my sight, and I was full of surprise at that moment! Although the rain was hazy, and despite the dimness of the night light, that face was like Jin Yan's face!

I quickly stood up, and I desperately pressed against the window to see more clearly, but at this time, the speed of the bus was getting faster and faster, and I couldn't see him in the blink of an eye.

I got off the train at the next stop, and ran like crazy in the rain in the direction I had just come, and I ran all the way and looked around, but in the pouring rain, where was there still a trace of that person?!

I didn't give up and ran to the traffic light intersection where I first saw him, by this time my clothes were soaked, the rain was running down my hair, the wind was blowing, and my body was as cold as my heart. I can't help but laugh at myself for being so stupid, he went to the United States, how could he be in H City? Even if he appeared in H City, how could he not come to me?

However, how can there be two people in the world who are so similar?! Did I miss him so much that I hallucinated? My head was filled with all sorts of questions as if it was about to explode, and when the rain was getting heavier, I walked alone in the rain like a complete idiot.

Missing is like a kind of disease, tormenting me day and night, I walk on the road in despair, like a madman, I have money in my pocket, but I don't want to take the car. I just thought like this, I walked slowly along the way home, maybe the man in the white shirt would appear at the next stop, maybe he was Jin Yan, maybe the next second I would get a call from him, and I heard him tell me "he has returned to China"......

I laughed at my own naivety, and continued to be naïve, walking and walking, and a car stopped in front of me, and someone rolled down the window and shouted my name. I thought it was a hallucination, so I numbly turned my head to look at it.

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