164 I didn't want to love you

"Can you help him?" I was surprised that he was slightly exaggerating, so I asked, "How can you help?" ”

"At least I can help with government relations. β–²-ε…«β–²-ε…«β–²-Readβ–²-Book,.β—‡.o≧Do you know who my uncle-in-law is? As he spoke, his fingers holding the steering wheel were still jumping rhythmically to the music, which seemed very pleasant.

From the moment I first learned who his father really was, I knew that he wasn't as ordinary as he seemed. Hearing his slightly ostentatious tone, I instinctively felt a little disgusted and couldn't help but be curious, so I asked, "Who is it?" ”

"My uncle's surname is Cui." He said lightly.

Last name: Cui ...... With such an ambitious tone, and mentioning the surname, it is naturally self-evident who it is. I was really taken aback, I didn't expect that his father's identity was already very heavyweight, and his uncle's identity was even higher.

"Is that him?" I asked tentatively.

Zhao Qinhan nodded knowingly, and then said, "Do you think I can help?" ”

"Even if you can help, Jin Yan won't accept your help." I say.

"You don't need him to accept it, you just appreciate it." Zhao Qinhan looked at me with a smile, his eyes were extremely gentle.

"No need." I struggled internally for a few seconds, but I still refused.

"That's fine," he still didn't care, "then if you have any trouble in H City, just look for me, and I can help you settle it." ”

"Sounds so imposing." When I heard him say this, I couldn't help but have a slight sneer in his tone.

"You," he laughed, "you always think of me in a bad direction, but I'm not a person who likes to show off." Like these relationships, I've only told you about one person. ”

Hearing him say this, I was slightly stunned. But think about it, he did rely on his own strength when he was Z big, but no one knew that his family's foundation was so deep.

"Then it seems that your life has been arranged, right?" I say.

"Yes, my dad paved the way for me from the time I was born. I can't help it, I can't help myself. ”

"This may be what countless people dream of, but you feel that you can't help yourself."

"Countless people? You don't have one. It seems that you have been deliberately alienating me since you found out who my dad really is. I understand your concerns, in fact, you are too worried, my family is a very democratic family. Zhao Qinhan said.

In fact, he didn't know that my dislike for him was not because of his family background, but because he later more or less used his single-mindedness to create an image for himself, which is the style of a politician, too hypocritical, and I can't agree with it.

We chatted all the way to the restaurant, where he led me to a very fancy restaurant and led me into a private room. When I entered the box, I found it empty.

"Didn't you say that Aunt Gu was waiting at the restaurant?" I was amazed.

"Oh, just now my mother sent me a message saying that my aunt was playing mahjong and called her temporarily." After Zhao Qinhan finished speaking, he hurriedly took out a text message to show me, as if to prove that he was not lying.

I felt an instinctive displeasure in my heart, and I vaguely felt that maybe Aunt Gu was just an excuse for him to invite me to dinner, but he covered it up so seamlessly, and Aunt Gu's text message did apologize to me, which made me suspicious, and I didn't know whether I should be angry or not.

He motioned for me to sit down, picked up the menu and skillfully ordered a lot of dishes in one go, I took the menu and looked at it, only to see that the dishes on the menu were ridiculously expensive, but he ordered a dozen dishes in one go.

"You called someone else?" I couldn't help but ask.

"No, I don't. It's just that after graduation, I invited you to dinner for the first time, so of course it had to be a little grander. He said with a smile, then took off his military uniform and set it aside.

"Is it okay to be so extravagant and wasteful in military uniforms?" I said angrily.

"It's okay, this store is owned by my family, don't worry. Besides, I don't need any money in the army all year round, so it's rare to be so happy today, and it's okay to be extravagant and wasteful, as long as you can be happy. He said with a smile, his tone sounding extraordinarily sincere.

After a while, the huge round table was filled with all kinds of exquisite dishes, and this scene reminded me of the past with Jin Yan. He used to be like this, he liked to order a large table of dishes wherever he went, knowing that we couldn't finish it, but he insisted on doing so. It wasn't until we were actually together that I slowly corrected his habits.

I couldn't help but feel sad again, thinking of his indifferent tone, thinking of his haggard face, thinking of him alone in the face of all those disturbances, my mood suddenly fell again, a large table of food in front of me, and I had no appetite for food.

Zhao Qinhan kept putting vegetables in my bowl and asked me to eat more, seeing that my chopsticks had not moved, he seemed to know my thoughts, and said to me: "I know you miss him, right?" ”

"Hmm. Actually, you really shouldn't have a treat today, I'm not in the mood to eat at all. ”

"I understand," he said, as he looked understanding, "but you don't need to worry, as a man, who doesn't need to go through a bit of wind and waves to be truly mature?" If he is a man worthy of your life, I think he can carry it. ”

"Of course he can." I said in a firm tone.

When Zhao Qinhan heard my tone, he immediately smiled knowingly, and he said, "Okay, then even if I understand too well, I will punish myself." ”

"Don't you drink, don't you have to drive later? Do you know the law and break the law? "Although I am joking, when facing Zhao Qinhan, there is always a thorny meaning in my words.

"It's okay, I can call the driver to drive." Still smiling, he said, "You're in a bad mood, do you want a drink?" I think of the time we drank together in college, and how good our relationship was back then. ”

"People will always grow up, and they must always look forward." I say.

"Little book, can we still be friends?" It wasn't that he couldn't hear the indifference in my tone, but he insisted on it.

"If you always think of me as a barrier you want to break, then I tell you, you don't want to succeed in your life. I won't fall in love with you, it's impossible in this life. As for friends, didn't someone say it? There is no real friendship between the opposite sex, and you always see me as a goal, how can there be friendship between us? I replied sharply.

"Hehe," he said, making a hearty gesture, "do you know how brave I mustered to dare to come to you?" It's not that I'm afraid of you, but I'm afraid of this heartache. You really don't understand my feelings for you. If you were willing to spend one percent of your mind on Jin Yan to understand me, you would definitely not think of me like this. ”

"My heart is given to Jin Yan, and I won't tolerate anyone for a while. Whether he is in or not, my heart will only be given to him in this life. I replied awe-inspiringly.

"What am I inferior to that boy? Little book, why do you have such a soft spot for him? There was a hint of anger in Zhao Qinhan's tone, but he was desperately restraining himself.

"It's not a question of being comparable, but from the beginning, I didn't want to love you." I saw that our conversation had broken down, so I got up and prepared to leave.

Zhao Qinhan took the red wine bottle and drank most of it in one go, and then said loudly behind me: "Pan Rushu, how much you hurt me, do you know?" ”

At that moment, I felt a sense of weakness in my heart, but I really didn't want him to continue to waste any thoughts on me.

I silently said to Zhao Qinhan in my heart: "I'm sorry, I have no intention of hurting, but my feelings can't tolerate affection." ”

To be devoted to one person means to be indifferent to another. Love has always been selfish. I left there without looking back, I don't know how much my actions hurt Zhao Qinhan, I just hope that he won't come to me again, just forget about me, my heart just wants to wait for someone.

However, Zhao Qinhan's personality is also a character who goes all the way to the black, even if I hurt him like this, he still sent me a text message, he said: "Xiaoshu, my heart will not change, no matter what you think of me, no matter how much you misunderstand me, no matter how much you love another man." It doesn't matter, I'll wait until the day you're mature enough, until you understand enough. I believe that you will choose me, because only I can give you a lifetime of stable happiness. ”

I was speechless and helpless, and I didn't text him back because I felt like I had said everything. He is such a smart man, he knows that Luohua intends to be ruthless, why is he so paranoid. I couldn't figure out why, so I just stopped thinking about it and took my work seriously.

A few days later, in the afternoon, when I was about to get off work, I received a call from Xing Feng, who asked me, "Xiaoshu, have you been in touch with Jin Yan recently?" ”

"Nope. What's wrong, brother? I hurriedly asked.

"I called him several times in the afternoon and couldn't get through, so I asked you." Xing Feng said with some concern.

"Won't it?" When I heard this, my heart became anxious, thinking of what he said to me before, and I suddenly had a bad premonition in my heart, "He won't leave here, will he?" ”

As soon as I thought of this, I couldn't help but "chuckle", did he say goodbye without saying goodbye?! How can it be? Where can he go? Where will he go in his current situation?

"I'll contact you again, don't worry, come to me after work in a while." After the punishment wind finished ordering, he hurriedly hung up.

After hanging up the phone, my heart jumped up and down, and even the hand holding the mouse began to tremble. At this time, the mailbox prompt automatically popped up, and I inadvertently saw the four words "My wife opened it personally" on the title, and at that moment my mind was spinning, and I opened the email in a hurry.

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