Xiaohua's words are very scenic, but I understand that she has some deliberate elements, since she knew that Jin Yan came to me as a waiter, her attitude towards Jin Yan has always been very unfriendly. When she said this, of course, she meant it to Jin Yan. However, we were all stunned, and Xing Feng and the eldest sister were instantly embarrassed.

Jin Yan's reappearance of this matter, in fact, Xing Feng and the eldest sister felt more or less awkward in their hearts. But they are mature enough, no matter how unbelievable people and things are, they will not express too many opinions, and they will look at it with a tolerant attitude, they will not easily explore other people's **, and they will carefully try to avoid embarrassment, maintaining the appropriate temperature of human nature. Xiaohua has naturally not reached this realm, and she still has countless complaints about Jin Yan in her heart, and she is afraid that Jin Yan's approach will hurt me again.

So, I calmly asked her, "And then?" ”

She glanced at Jin Yan angrily, pointed at Jin Yan and said, "I think if I were you, I would be embarrassed to sit here." It's our family gathering, why are you showing up again? Tao Mengran's belly is so big, why don't you take care of her? Isn't it that she is down now, and my sister is doing well now, so you came back to my sister again? ”

"Xiaohua, today is the Mid-Autumn Festival, don't talk like that." The eldest sister reminded at the right time.

"When I went to the hospital for a gynecological examination two days ago, I saw that Tao Mengran, his stomach looked at least five or six months old, he looked dirty, and now he is so fat, his face looks pitted, and I don't know what's wrong. If the doctor hadn't called her name, I wouldn't have recognized her. The little painting said stupidly.

I fiddled with the toothpick in front of me with my head down, and didn't say a word. Seeing that everyone didn't speak, Xiao Hua said again: "This Tao Mengran, every time she is scheming, everyone else has entered, she is good, and she is still at large." I pulled her and had a fight with her, and she looked at me with such a terrible gaze, and she said she wouldn't let my sister go. Sister, you have to be careful in the future, maybe one day she will rush over to trouble you. When she is a pregnant woman, if she deliberately touches porcelain with you, you really can't eat and walk around. ”

When Xiaohua said this, I couldn't help but feel a little more vigilant. These days, as life gradually returns to peace, I gradually let my guard down. When I say that, I think it's really possible.

Jin Yan didn't speak, and Xiaohua said to Jin Yan again: "Is the child in her belly yours?" You were so good in your relationship before, why did you ignore her when she had an accident and now you came to join my sister? Jin Yan, you speak. ”

At this time, Jin Yan slowly raised his head, he looked at the small painting and said, "I have explained everything that should be explained to your sister in the past." ”

"Sister, do you want to forgive him? Don't forget how he hurt you in the first place. The world is so big, how many men can choose, I don't understand, why do you have to hang a tree, tired or not. Xiaohua looked at me with a frown and asked, and said, "And now that Tao Mengran is pregnant, and the child was born to him, what should you do?" ”

"The child is not mine." Jin Yan hurriedly said, "I dare to promise." ”

"Who can believe this except for a paternity test." Xiaohua said disdainfully.

My originally calm mood was a little messed up by Xiaohua's words, and the trace of good feelings towards Jin Yan that had sprung up in my heart these days disappeared in an instant.

The past is indeed the past, but where are the thorns left in the heart by the past so easy to pull out. Sometimes in the dead of night, when I can't sleep, I also try to ask myself, even if it is not for love, for Qiuqiu to accept this man, can I do it? I asked myself thousands of times, and at a certain moment in my heart I almost told myself that I could, but suddenly I thought of the intimate picture of Jin Yan and Tao Mengran, and the slight ripples that had just been stirred up in my heart instantly gathered again and stopped struggling.

The most difficult thing for a single-minded person to accept is to live up to and betray, the incident itself may be excusable at the time, but a series of consequences derived from the incident later are difficult to bear. Therefore, once there is a rift between men and women, it is difficult to repair it as before, and the passage of time will not eliminate those cracks, and those traces will still remain there, seemingly fading, but every time I think about it, it still hurts faintly.

Once again, I became cold to Jin Yan and stopped letting him touch the ball. A few days later, he came to my office in pain, and he said, "Little book, what do you want me to do so that you can forgive me?" ”

"It's not a question of forgiveness or not, it's that I want to forgive, but I can't do anything about it. Jin Yan, your appearance like this now is not good for me, for Qiuqiu, and for yourself. Let's take it easy and let each other forget. I hope you don't work here anymore, now I have a lot of gossip, the villagers have to gossip, and my father has mentioned several times that he doesn't want to see you. I said.

"I'm trying, and I'm going to try to make everyone accept me." He said sincerely.

"What you are doing now, Zhao Qinhan has done it at the beginning. Once bitten by a snake, he was afraid of the well rope for ten years. No one believes in this set anymore, the countryside is not as good as the city, and the concept is not so open-minded. The way we are now will only make it difficult for each other. I said.

"Hehe, it's Zhao Qinhan again. It is clear that he has ruined all our happiness, and it is clearly he who has taken away everything that belongs to us. Well, now I'm a sinner. When he heard me say this, he suddenly felt a slight emotion.

"We have all paid enough price, he has completely passed away because of this incident, such a heaviness, how can we survive bear it? Do you think that even if I promise you now that we are together, will we be able to relax? Jin Yan, I want to live for myself for a few years, and you will live for yourself for a few years, okay? I couldn't help but ask.

"It's not good, all the goals I've been fighting for in the past two years are to be able to be with you. Little book, do you know? He looked at me and asked me bitterly.

"I used to feel that because I loved you, I had to live for you. Maybe it's because we care about each other too much that we're all in an awkward situation like we are now. Now I have found that the life I live for myself is real, and I can look at it with a normal heart and walk through it peacefully. I said.

"I don't know where I'm going to get out of here. Dad and Aunt Xu have settled down, and Jin Fei and Jin Fan have grown up. I thought that after all this was over, we would be able to form a small family again, and I would fulfill my responsibilities as a father, and you would be my gentle wife as you did in the past. Now it seems that I was naïve. Jin Yan said stupidly, looking at me and smiling bitterly.

"There's no going back, only moving forward. I hope that at the next intersection, we will meet a new us, and maybe there will be a new beginning. I said.

Jin Yan left my office gloomily, I know that he still refuses to let go, and I know that he still wants to continue to work hard. However, there is no way out. Our feelings have become like flies lying on the window with a bright future, but there is no way out.

At dinner, I didn't go out for dinner, and the chef brought me a porridge and a few side dishes that I usually like to drink, and an extra tonic soup, which smelled so good that I don't know what it was made of.

"What kind of soup is this?" I asked hurriedly.

The chef's eyes flickered for a moment, and then he said to me, "This is pigeon soup, I saw that you have been very tired lately, and I specially stewed it for you." ”

I've never been particularly fond of greasy soup, but I thought of the chef's kindness, so I let him put it there, and then I watched a variety show, watched it, and unconsciously drank a small half bowl of soup, completely ignoring what the soup tasted like, and by the time I realized it, I had already taken several sips.

I slept very deeply that night, and when I woke up the next morning, I suddenly felt that the room was unusually quiet, as if something was faintly wrong.

Usually Qiuqiu has to get up twice at night, but last night I didn't hear a little cry from him, and I slept exceptionally peacefully until the morning, I thought so, my heart was suddenly shocked, and I hurriedly took care of everything and lay down next to the crib, and saw that the quilt inside was bulging, but as soon as I lifted it, where was Qiuqiu's figure!

At that moment, it was as if the world was spinning, and I burst into tears! I hurriedly opened the door and shouted like crazy, "Qiuqiu! Ball Ball! ”

As soon as I shouted, several people rushed over and asked me why, at this time I had collapsed, I shouted the name of Qiuqiu like the wind, and then I went crazy and opened every room to look for it, and at that moment my heart was incomparably desperate!

I suddenly thought of the bowl of soup from last night, and I shouted, "Where's the chef?" Where is the chef? There must be something wrong with the soup he gave me last night! ”

Everyone didn't know what was going on, everyone looked at me blankly, I stood in the same place and was so anxious that I couldn't say a complete sentence because I was too sad, and it took me a long, long time to say: "I...... I...... The ball is lost! The ball is gone! ”

As soon as I said this, my father sat directly on the ground, I looked around and found no trace of Jin Yan, and my heart was cold at that moment! I thought Jin Yan secretly took the child away from me! Why did he do it! How could he be so selfish?!