Too excited, too gaffe, my body couldn't help shaking a lot, one was careless, the back of the head fell straight to the wall, but I didn't have a chance to fall into a concussion in the end, and the whole person was dragged into Chen Tu's arms.

Those lunch boxes were thrown down by him, and the hot soup that burst out was sprinkled on our thighs, but Chen Tu didn't realize it, he imprisoned me to death, and squeezed out a sentence from between his teeth: "What do I want to do, you are so smart, can't you see it!" ”

I struggled, but he hugged me tighter, he borrowed the disparity in strength between men and women, dragged me into the room in three or two strokes, hooked the door with his foot and closed it, he stuck me to the door, pounced on me like a beast and sealed my lips, his tongue deftly explored, trying to pry my mouth open, I tried to remove my face, but I was fished back again and again, his hand inserted into my clothes and roamed, and finally landed on my abdomen and stroked back and forth, and went deeper and deeper.

The blood all over my body rushed to the door of my head, and I bit his lip fiercely in Chen Tu's increasingly inseparable confinement, I felt like I was going crazy, as if I was going to tear him in half!

Chen Tu was naturally in pain, because his face spasmed and wrinkled, but he didn't let go of me because of this, his attack became more and more intense, like an unconscious beast, frantically gnawing at my cheeks and neck.

In the midst of such a tear, he said fiercely: "If you don't hug me, don't kiss me, don't hold hands with me, who are you going to do this with?" I care about you, do I still need to pretend! Why do I need to pretend! Or I should pretend that I don't care about you at all, so that I don't look so humble and decent when I face you! ”

I froze for a moment, and then looked at Chen Tu, which was already a earth-shaking strangeness.

Yes, I am already strange to his affection, and timid.

This very affectionate look of him is simply a devil, and he seems to be trying in vain to drag me back to hell again, back to those biting coldness.

But I've seen the darkness of hell, I've seen myself sinking into hell without people or ghosts, I've seen myself crawling forward with blood while pulling out the thorns on my body, and I won't give this man another chance to stuff me back into hell.

After a few seconds, I calmed down completely.

yes, I'm so calm that I feel terrible to myself.

Like a lifeless puppet, I looked at Chen Tu with a blank face: "You let go of me." ”

Chen Tu's body paused obviously, he seemed to hesitate, but finally let go.

I pulled my messy clothes that he had messed up, brushed my hair again, and looked at him without a trace of emotion in my tone: "You said so much, it's just that you want to sleep with me, right?" Do you think I'm easy to get started with, easy to be coaxed, I'm like a dog in front of your Chen Tu, you beckon me to come, spread your thighs and let you do whatever you want, you wave my hand and I'll roll, it's neat and not sticky, and it won't bring you any trouble and grinding. I admit that I used to have no principles and no bottom line, knowing and a strong. Adulterers are together, it is an extremely cheap act, but they don't know it. I don't understand the end of self-love, I deserve to be snubbed by you, I deserve to be stabbed by you with cold words, I deserve to accept your repeated cold violence for no reason in marriage, I deserve to be forced to drink too much bitter water, I deserve to take all the ruthlessness you gave me without a sound, and everything I have endured is what I deserve. I only blame me for deserving it. ”

The face was expressionless for too long, after all, it made my face too tired, I couldn't hold it, and continued with a sneer: "People can't live in ignorance all their lives, and I can't be so cheap all my life, I have too many dreams, I will naturally wake up, I woke up, I knew that I was immeasurable, I knew that I was stupid and ridiculous, and I knew that practicing myself would only get more trampling, I woke up completely." And Chen Tu, it's time for you to wake up. When I love you, you are my sky, my earth, all that I have, the center of my whole world, my warmth and my harbor, whether you are affectionate or not in front of my eyes, I feel that your affection for me is unfathomable. But when I don't love you anymore, you're not even a fart, and no matter how good your acting skills are, I just think it's clumsy and ridiculous. ”

Listening to me quietly, Chen Tu's face changed from dark to iron-blue.

He was less than thirty centimeters away from me, and his gaze was terrifyingly cold.

After a silent confrontation for I don't know how long, Chen Tu's brows furrowed and twisted, and a sentence popped out of his mouth: "It turns out that in your opinion, all my feelings for you are acting?" ”

I grinned and smiled nonchalantly: "It's not a shame to admit that you didn't love me. ”

His brows twisted into a knot, Chen Tu suddenly raised his foot and kicked the cabinet next to him fiercely, and he scolded: "Damn!" ”

The poor cupboard, which he had vented to, made a dull noise.

With this dull sound, Chen Xiang was like crazy, and when he saw what was in the cabinet, he grabbed and threw something, and his whole person seemed to have fallen into a violent state, and he spoke incoherently: "Hehe, I don't love you." Hehe, it turns out that I don't love you. I only found out about this fact today, so I don't fucking love you! Yes, I don't love you! Yes, I don't love you! I don't love you, all I can accept that you lie down next to me and sleep, but shout the names of other men over and over again in your dreams, all I can accept that you went to Zhanjiang with Wu Yidi in the name of a business trip, and hugged Wu Yidi while calling me, so I can accept that you personally say that you love other men and you take the initiative to kiss him, so I can accept that you immediately find Wu Yidi to bring you comfort after arguing with me, so I can accept your appointment to go out to Wu Yidi in the middle of the night. Yes, I certainly don't love you, so I can accept it completely, and intend to digest it, and like a psychopath, I want to defend that marriage that lasts, and try to bind you to my side, thinking that if I humbly throw away my pride, you will belong to me forever and ever. That's right, I definitely don't love you! I don't fucking love you at all! will follow your traces like a fool after the divorce, take the route you may take over and over again, practice over and over again, when I am lucky, when I can meet you by chance, how should I perform, how should I react, so that it seems that I don't love you as much as I imagined! ”

When Chen Tu said this, his emotions were very excited, and his voice was raised very high between his words, and many words were not very clear, but I heard every word clearly.

But it was as if someone had put a bomb in my ear, and it exploded unpreparedly, and there was a loud explosion, and I didn't seem to hear anything.

When he raised his eyes and looked at Chen Tu again, he saw that his eyes were completely red.

Seeing me looking at him, he slightly covered his eyes with his hand, and his tone was full of desolate powerlessness: "Don't look at me." I'm afraid that you will see all my bad looks, that I will be despised by you, that I will be disliked by you, and that I will be disgusted by you. ”

I seemed to understand in an instant why Chen Tu suddenly became so indifferent to me when he came back from a business trip.

But I didn't seem to understand anything.

I've passed the stage where he says something nice to me, and I don't care about running towards him, whether or not I'm going to bleed because of it.

As if all the strength in my body had been drained, I couldn't stick to the door, buried my head, and after a while, I said: "First of all, I declare that I am not saying the following words to renew the relationship with you, I just feel that since all the words have been spoken, it is necessary for me to make it clear to you, I can't always carry these unwarranted black cauldrons." First, I don't know why you always insist that I called Wu Yidi's name in my dreams, but I'm pretty sure I didn't. Second, I did go to Zhanjiang on a business trip with Wu Yidi, and when I finished talking to you on the phone, I stepped on a stone and almost fell, Wu Yidi did help me, not as you said I used an excuse to go to Zhanjiang and hug Wu Yidi. If I'm really sure that the person I want to hug is him, basically nothing will happen to you, and we won't get married at all, this is something you can figure out with a little bit of intelligence and a little brain, and now I want me to talk nonsense to you again and again. Thirdly, I have a clear conscience about that short marriage, I have never spoken of love to any man outside of my marriage, let alone kissed anyone, and I have not driven out in the middle of the night to meet anyone's appointment. I will admit what I have done, what I have not done, please don't pour dirty water on me, don't stand at the highest moral point and accuse me, as if you are a victim and I am a perpetrator, I will not carry this pot. ”

After a pause, I turned my gaze away, and my heart was full of coldness and alienation: "I think between us, what should be said and what can be said has been said, you should go, Mr. Chen." ”

With that, I turned around and tried to open the door.

Unexpectedly, Chen Tu hugged me from behind, his chin rested on my shoulder, and his unshaven beard poked at my collarbone, making my body tremble, and I hesitated for about three seconds before struggling to escape from his confinement.

But the more I struggled, the tighter Chen Tu's hand was wrapped, and the more he leaned over, pressing his whole burning body against me, and he seemed to whisper: "Okay, is it okay?" ”

I laughed, laughed and laughed, tears almost fell straight down, but fortunately I completely controlled the vulnerability that I showed so easily, my voice did not have much emotion, it was very steady, very calm, I was satisfied. What I said was: "Chen Tu, do you think there is still a possibility of reconciliation between us?" ”

As if to crush me, Chen Tu's hand was wrapped around him, like the toughest vine growing and entangled, his voice was lowered, as if picked up from the dust and stuffed into my ears: "I thought I could let go slowly after the divorce, but every second after the divorce was torment for me." I thought left and right, thought before and after, thought about it, I couldn't imagine that you look like you belong to me all your life, how come we have become strangers in a blink of an eye. Wu Yi, I can't stand it anymore. I can't get through it for a second. Be reconciled, I beg you, reconcile with me. In the future, I will slowly learn to be generous, learn to be generous, learn to be tolerant, learn not to lose my temper with you, learn not to be cold and violent, I will never be as serious as before, I will really change, I will change to a way that can give you happiness, I promise you, I will definitely do it, reconcile, okay. ”

I didn't see Chen Tu's expression.

It was because I could not see his expression that I was able to devote all my mind to his words without distraction, and I was able to hear his full vulnerability and humility, but I was so unfamiliar with his seemingly affectionate emotions that I was too timid to accept. My heart was once burned to ashes by him, and I always remember the pain of the bones.

And at this moment, I couldn't help but put my hand on my abdomen and pinched it a few times.

The pain made me grin and dragged me back to reality.

In this scorching summer day, I suddenly felt that my whole body was cold, and I shivered with cold.

This cold is transmitted from the bones.

Gritting my teeth, I struggled to squeeze out a sentence: "Chen Tu, do you really love me?" ”

Biting the end of my words, Chen Tu fell down a sentence: "Aren't you talking nonsense!" ”

I wanted to keep laughing, I really wanted to laugh out loud, but my mouth opened and I couldn't stop crying.

I was afraid that if I continued to ink, I would create the entire Pacific Ocean, and I would drown the man behind me who had broken me so much, so I bit my lip again, endured the tearing pain, and almost word for word: "You love me, right, you really love me, right, then Chen Tu, tell me, what dominates you, so that you can leave me without hesitation at the moment of life and death, and save Lin Siai." You love me, but why don't you save me!? "Mobile phone users please browse m. reading, a better reading experience comes from.