When I was young, my heart was like a mysterious and compassionate tree buried deep in my heart, and once I remembered it, I was like a dandelion floating around in the direction of my lover at the end of the path.

I thought that the unknown first love would disperse with the wind after graduation, but I didn't expect that when you miss someone, he will always appear in front of you perfectly when you can't catch off guard, no exclamation, no accident, just among thousands of people, you still recognize him at a glance.

This time, it is no longer like the original heartbeat, but the pain of growing up.

It wasn't until now that she understood that a secret love is, after all, a person's chaos and a person's solitary happiness. ――Xicheng Tears——

The next time I met Bai Cheng was in her sophomore year, when she thought he had completely disappeared from her life, but he stood at the door of her dormitory alive, except that he was holding a guitar and confessing to the girls in the same dormitory.

She still remembers that it was a starry night, and when she was busy returning to the dormitory from the evening self-study with her reference books, she found that the normally quiet dormitory building was crowded with many students, and the black crowd poured up.

It turned out that someone was confessing, like this in front of the girls' dormitory building full of heart-shaped candles, holding the guitar and singing to confess is not a pleasure, but it is still very romantic, she can't wait to know who is the happy person tonight, but her eyes are fixed on the boy surrounded by a candlelight in the distance for a long time!

Bai Cheng is still the same simple white shirt and jeans, the only difference is that the big boy has become more sunny after the polishing of time, and there is a smile on the corner of his mouth that makes all the girls addicted.

For the first time, she found that Bai Cheng's smile was so charming, so penetrating her excited heart, but all this was reserved for another girl she didn't know.

She heard the ringing in her ears "Together, together!" Bai Cheng was also surrounded by a group of people in the center, singing sweet songs, and the red candles under him shone with a little light, illuminating the young man's innocent face into a patch of red.

"Xiaotong, I like you, be my girlfriend!" Bai Cheng shouted, the sound deafening to her.

It's a pity that the heroine didn't show up after waiting for a long time that night, the boy's face gradually darkened, and the crowd gradually dispersed, she stayed in place, staring blankly at the boy from joy to loss in the distance.

A light rain came to the world, and the tiny raindrops hit the boy's confused face, hit the girl's black skirt, hit the familiar old guitar, and hit someone's slightly cool heart......

Everyone hurried away, but she was the only one standing in the dark with a transparent umbrella, watching the boy still paranoid and refusing to leave.

Finally, it's still closer, do you know, the greatest happiness in the world is that you are not alone with an umbrella when it rains, and she didn't expect that there will never be that person under her flower folding umbrella.

Bai Cheng kept looking up in the direction of the dormitory building, not feeling that he had been drenched by the rain, until an umbrella suddenly appeared above his head, he looked up in confusion and found that the girl's quiet face was staring at himself with a pair of star-like eyes, and he naturally said, "Who are you?" ”

The umbrella, at that moment, fell into the rain; The heart, at that moment, fell into the sea.

That night, she took out the light blue guitar and wiped it habitually, carefully as if it was not a guitar, but a memory that she didn't want to lose.

I thought you just didn't know I loved you, but in the end I found out that you had always loved you, but it wasn't me.

In the days that followed, I rarely met at school, and even if I did, it was at some large-scale events, he was speechless, and she was silent, like a passerby who had no intersection.

Hearing the news about him was also from the mouths of his roommates in the gossip place, and it was rumored at school that he chased a girl for four whole years, and he was rejected a thousand times and did not give up.

She didn't react much when she heard it, as if she just heard a story that had nothing to do with her, but only she knew that she wrote this sentence in her diary that night: "It turns out that we are all infatuated people, but your infatuation is not mine." ”

The last time she saw him in the bar where she was part-time, she saw him sitting alone at the bar, the beer bottles on the table were gradually piling up, and the boy's face was getting redder, she still watched silently, as if the only scene she had with him was that he was lost and she was observing.

It's just that this time, she no longer had the courage to approach him and say a word of comfort, because she was afraid, afraid of his simple eyes, and simply said: "Who are you"

She didn't want to hurt herself again because of her kindness, she didn't want to remind herself that all the past reveries were a beautiful dream, and the person in the dream had long forgotten about herself, leaving no trace.

Walking alone in the remote alley, with slow loss and decadence, the autumn wind was shining, the coolness wrapped around her single thin clothes, several bad teenagers blocked her in the corner, her body was trembling, several people surrounded her, so that she had no way out, she began to shout, but there was no response in the dark alley.

Just when she thought she couldn't escape, a person quietly appeared in front of her, and after a beating, she took him to the hospital with a red and purple face.

She stared at the bloated face, even if it was ridiculous, but she couldn't laugh, but Bai Cheng, who was dizzy after drinking, talked to her a lot, like spitting the truth after drinking, she talked to him a lot of intimate words, and she understood the pain in his heart for several years, and the girl he couldn't get in his mouth.

He doesn't remember what happened to him, as long as he can still love him, that's enough. She raised the stars flickering in the sky, silently muttering in her heart.

It's still the guitar, it's still the same person, the time in college, she didn't send it again, because she knew that even if he accepted it, she wouldn't be happy, but she was used to getting up nerves in the middle of the night to wipe the strings, and she was used to holding the guitar that was a little old-fashioned all day.

Later, he disappeared, just like a few years ago, and flew away, and her one-man show, buried in the bottom of her heart with time, gradually fell with dust, and exuded a different kind of brilliance in the sun.