I love you, my exclusive memory.

The best time in your life is not to laugh with you, play with you, or go crazy with you, but to cry with you!

I remember, I still remember clearly, that year, that month, at that moment, you cried, and I cried with you.

I hurt, I hurt for you.

I hate, I hate myself.

I always thought I was amazing, however, when you needed me the most, I chose to let go and chose to leave.

The stupidest thing I've ever done in my life is to let go of your hand.

Love is as deep as a shipwreck, if you are well, I will be sunny-

Happiness came too suddenly, and it left too suddenly, so suddenly that I was caught off guard.

When Shinoshi agreed to go to Singapore with me, I couldn't believe it, it was like a dream.

I happily prepared everything, ready to take her to the place where I lived, to integrate her into my world, and we never separated again.

However, tragedy and comedy are often only momentary events.

I went to get my passport that day, thinking that tomorrow I might be hungry on the plane, so I was going to buy something, and I parked my car in the underground garage, and before I could take two steps, I was surrounded by a group of people who didn't say anything, rushed up and violently attacked me, and I was defenseless and unprepared.

I was knocked to the ground by them, someone stepped on my hand, someone stepped on my foot, and someone hit me in the head, back and thigh, and I couldn't do anything to do it.

Maybe it was numbness, I didn't feel the pain, my head was dizzy, I didn't know how to fall asleep, and when I woke up, I was in the hospital, and the morning sun was with me.

Being injured was completely unexpected, and I never thought that I, who had attended a martial arts school since I was a child, would be planted in the hands of a group of riffraff.

I don't know why they beat me, I just hope this matter doesn't affect Shinoshi, she can't be fine.

Originally, I said that I would go to get my passport together at noon, but I am afraid that I will not be able to go now, knowing that Xiaoxi will ask about the situation, I specially told Chenxi not to tell Xiaoxi that I am in the hospital, I don't want her to worry about me, and I don't want to see her disappointed, because I said that she would take her to Singapore, and now I can't fulfill my promise, and I don't have the face to face her.

Under Xiaoxi's repeated questioning, Chenxi couldn't help but tell her.

Seeing him feel sorry for me, I feel so bad, I hate myself, why am I so useless, I can't even protect myself, and I make her worry about me.

I always thought I was great, but in fact, it was nothing more than that.

I wanted to tell her to go to Singapore later, but as fate would have it, I got the bad news that I could go blind at any moment.

When the doctor spoke, my head exploded with a "boom", blind? Did he mean I'd go blind?

I can't believe it, I don't want to believe it, but the facts are the facts, and I can't change them.

Suddenly, the whole person was like falling into a big swamp, and the more I struggled, the deeper I sank, until I was buried alive in it, I hurt, I hated, but I couldn't do anything!

I'm not afraid of going blind, but what if I'm blind? Who will take care of her, who will protect her, who will take her to play, who will make her happy......

Would Shinohi be upset if she knew I would have insomnia? She would, she would!

I don't want her to be sad, I don't want to drag her down, if I can't take care of her, but let her take care of me, I'd rather die.

People say that contentment is always happy, Xiaoxi brings me so much happiness, I am content, in the days to come, even if I can't see the dawn, I can't see the daylight, every time I think of her laughter, I will be happy.

For her sake, for her to have a better life in the future, I can only choose to let go, even if it hurts, although I am reluctant, I have to let go.

She doesn't belong to me, I can't catch it, and even if I do, sooner or later I'll slip away.

Xiaoxi, I'm sorry, in the future, I can't be with you anymore, you have to learn to protect yourself, don't feel sorry for me, don't be sad, maybe, without me, you will live better.

Shinoshi, I love you, really, really love you, but, I'm sorry.

I asked Chenxi to keep things a secret, and I planned to be discharged from the hospital early the next morning and then go back to Singapore, so it was over.

I don't want to say that I broke up, even if we can't be together in the future, I still don't want to talk about breaking up, it's the only little relationship between us, I don't want to draw it up, I want to keep it forever, in the days to come, to remember, to comfort.

But I didn't expect that Xiaoxi would come to the hospital so late, is it destined to draw a line?

She is who she is, I am who I am, and there is nothing to do with each other, is that right?

Since she's here, let's make things clear, I'm leaving, and I should also let her go and let her fly.

I didn't know how to speak, I couldn't say anything so cruel to her, but she was so smart that I didn't say it to her.

I really want to say, Xiaoxi, I'm going back to Singapore tomorrow, and I want to take you with me. However, when the words came to his mouth, he changed his words stiffly: "Xiaoxi, I'm going back to Singapore tomorrow, but I can't take you there." That "no" word deeply shattered my heart.

"You don't want me anymore? Don't you want me too? Xiaoxi originally looked at me, but after saying this, she lowered her head, and I saw tears swirling in her eyes, and my heart ached, and it hurt so much.

It turns out that this is the feeling of heartache, which has never been felt before.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry Shinohi." It's not that I don't want you, how can I be willing not to want you, but I can't help it, I can't drag you down, you are a princess, you should live the life of a princess.

I didn't want to talk about breaking up, and I didn't want her to talk about breaking up, but in the end, I said it, and the only thing I had to do was clear.

My heart hurts, it hurts indescribably, as if it has been torn into countless pieces, and it can no longer be sewn up.

Tears ran down the corners of her eyes and landed on the back of her hand, and I heard a crisp sound.

In the future, I can't laugh with you anymore, so now, let me cry with you!

Xiaoxi, I don't regret shaking your hand, I don't regret letting go of your hand, I just hope that you will be stronger and braver on the road of life in the future, know how to protect yourself, and know how to be happy!

You hate me, you hate me, I have nothing to say, because