When he saw that I didn't look right, he immediately looked at me nervously and asked me, "What's wrong?" What to talk about? ”

"Jin Yan," I said solemnly, looking at him, "the origin of what you are referring to?" Is it ours? Do you think our past is a good place to start? If it's a good place to start, how can we break up? ”

He looked at me in confusion and asked me suspiciously, "Isn't our past in your heart beautiful at all?" ”

I shook my head slightly, and I said, "No." ∝ eight ∝ eight ∝ reading ∝ books, .◆.o+ is between us, there has never been a real beginning, isn't it? ”

In order to prevent him from distracting me from wanting to talk with my heart through some ambiguous movements in the process, I stepped down from the bed, moved the chair and sat in front of him, I said: "Our past is profound, but looking back, we have handled many things very naïvely, and we have not communicated with each other well, and when we look back, we always feel very unreal, not at all down-to-earth." Don't you think? ”

He is still at a loss, maybe he has never thought deeply about the true meaning of love, he is such a hot person, his emotional outlook has always been desperate and crazy plundering, he will not substitute too many emotions, nor will he pay attention to my emotions, but it is undeniable that he does have a heart for me.

He sat at the head of the bed, shook his head, and said, "I only know that I love you, I can't forget you, I want to be with you, and I don't want to think about the rest, and I don't want to think about it." Why do you want to do so much? What's the use of thinking about it? ”

"It's not that if you don't want to, it won't exist, I'm no longer the girl who used to be crazy and defect with you without thinking about anything." I looked at him softly and said slowly.

"So what do you mean? I don't understand, just say it. He suddenly smiled bitterly, crossed his hands on his legs, looked away, and said, "So, everything just now is fake, isn't it?" Do you just want to take my words? You don't even plan to be with me anymore, do you? ”

He has become extremely sensitive, and like all children who have been uncared for for many years, the slightest disturbance will make him think that the world is about to be in chaos. I know this sensitivity in particular, because I'm too. Because of the fear of being abandoned, he never dared to deliver his sincerity easily. Once it's delivered, it gets a lot of money.

"Yes." My answer made his gaze change from love to hate, I clearly saw that his gaze dimmed, at that moment, I was very unbearable, but my heart was telling myself: Pan Rushu, you can't make mistakes again and again and let yourself repeat the mistakes of the past.

"I can't accept you like this now. First of all, I can't accept that you have another woman by your side. Secondly, I can't accept your attitude of wasting your studies and playing with life. Again, I'm no longer the woman you call and go. If you want to get me again, you'll have to work hard enough for me to see what you really mean. Otherwise, it's no fun. My tone was firm and I didn't hesitate.

But he didn't know how apprehensive I was when I said this. The person of my dreams is within reach, the hugs I have been thinking about day and night are at my fingertips, and if I am gentle enough to give him a chance at this time, we will surely have a wonderful night here. But...... What happens after this night? Is it all back to the way it was before?

No, I will never accept such feelings again, and I will never allow myself to be so humble again. But I knew that he might not understand my words at all, and that he might give up on me. How can a person who is so proud of him lower his body for a woman to pursue? …… He probably won't say yes.

But I won't show my inner apprehension, although my heart is about to jump out of my chest, although I can't help but hate in my heart when I see his beautiful and fair face, I can't help but rush into his arms immediately, but the bloody lessons of the past remind me: Pan Rushu, be reserved, and then there will be a better love.

After my words came out, his gaze was shocked, and he was surprised for a long time, looking at me and unable to say a word. Perhaps it was the man's arrogance and face that were at work, he lowered his head, and after a long silence, he said softly: "Pan Rushu, you know, I haven't taken the initiative to pursue any woman." ”

"I know." I looked at him with sincere eyes, and I said, "Perhaps, we can try to be friends first." ”

"Be friends?" He looked at me like he was hearing a joke and said, "Do you think we might be friends?" I only have two choices for you, either be my woman or be a stranger, and it is impossible to be a friend. ”

"If that's the case, then I'd rather be a stranger." I looked at him with a firm gaze, and my words were so stiff that he couldn't accept them.

He bounced off the bed sadly, quickly straightened his clothes, and said, "You make me think about it, my head is messy right now." ”

"Okay." I sat in my chair and didn't move.

He quickly got dressed, he looked at me, and he said, "It's late, you can sleep here, I'll go to the car and be alone." ”

Jin Yan ...... "I couldn't help but call his name."

He looked at me again, and I held back his voice, and I said, "I want you to think about it, and I know that maybe you've always been thinking about things from your own point of view." But I think that if you love someone, you should learn to think from the other person's point of view. ”

"You've changed." He looked at me for a long time and said softly.

"Two miscarriages, so many separations and reunions, so many experiences, if there is no change in the slightest, do you think I can still be saved?" I whispered.

I saw his body shake violently, and then he said, "Okay, I'll think about it." You sleep. ”

He got up and opened the door and went out, and when he got to the door, he looked back at me, and saw that I had no intention of holding back, so he closed the door.

The room was quiet, I could clearly hear his footsteps, I could even hear him pressing the elevator, and the moment I confirmed that he was going downstairs, my strong willpower finally collapsed, and I collapsed on the bed in a daze, looking up at the ceiling, wondering if I was right to make such a decision...... After thinking about it for a long time, I still feel that I did the right thing this time.

I never fell asleep, and about two hours later, there was a knock on the door. I ran to open the door, and saw him standing in the doorway with a tired face, and as soon as I opened the door, I heard him say, "You're right." ”

At that moment, my heart suddenly fell to the ground. How the ending ended at that moment did not seem important, what was more important was his recognition and understanding.

He entered, and then closed the door. This time, I sat on the bed, he sat in the chair, he crossed his legs, and his fingers kept crossing, showing the frequency of his mental activity, and he said, "I'll do what you say, that'...... Wait until I break up and come back to you? ”

His sentence was a question, not an affirmation. I could hear the hesitation in his words, and I knew that he was exercising the same restraint as I was, and if we had the slightest collapse of our sanity, we would not hesitate to be entangled in the next second.

"Good. But if you look for me, I won't ......" I suddenly couldn't bear to continue.

"I know," he said, adding a little more in his tone, "I broke up with her, and I still need to pursue you until my sincerity impresses you...... Damn, you know you're going to have a problem for me. ”

His hateful tone made me laugh dumbly, and my tone eased a little, and I said, "You can retreat." There are so many forests in the world, you don't have to care about my little green leaf. ”

"You don't talk to me." He bit his lip and looked at me and said, "I really can't do anything about you." ”

"I used to follow your rules, but now, I have to follow my rules." I said with some smugness.

"You're bullish now, aren't you? I heard that you are going to host the New Year's Day party next? He looked at me dumbfoundedly and said, "Look at you now, flying around like a butterfly every day." ”

"No, I'm serious in college, unlike ......you," I laughed, and the love-hate tone of his words was so cute.

"Okay, I'm not going to talk to you. I want to bite you when I see your face, and I'm afraid I won't be able to control it if I stay any longer. I can't do it for you now. He tried his best to hide his **, but his eyes seemed to breathe fire.

"You can choose to sleep with me for one night and be a stranger with me, or you take care of everything and make me your girlfriend." My tone became more and more determined, and the old sense of apprehension gradually faded.

"You know I like a challenge, and the harder it is, the more interested I am." He stood up and smiled.

"Good. Then I'll see. I said.

At this time, the sky is already dawning, who would dare to believe that we who were once together were out of control would be alone all night without incident? When the morning light came through the window, he stretched out and asked me, "May I treat you to breakfast?" You won't even refuse this, will you? ”

He even started asking for my opinion...... It's incredible.

"Let's go, I'm hungry anyway." I laughed, got out of bed, and suddenly realized that I was still wearing pajamas, and was dumbfounded for a moment.

He also realized that he took off his coat and threw it at me: "Put on my coat so it won't be cold." ”

In this way, he took me downstairs, and we picked a clean breakfast shop and had breakfast together. Although I only eat ordinary food, my heart is as happy as a flower.

After breakfast, he insisted on sending me back to the dormitory, but I didn't agree, I watched him drive away in a frustrated manner, but he still insisted on leaving his coat for me. I was willful and really put on his coat and returned to the dormitory, completely ignoring the gazes of others, and my heart was only full of warmth and gratitude.

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