I hugged the box, leaned against the door, embarrassed, crying loudly, clutching my chest, and kneeling on the ground, it hurt so much.

"Ahh Yes! ”

I was like an out-of-control madman, crying and yelling, desperately trying to break free from my choked throat, crying so much that I retched, crying so much that I convulsed.

Outside the door, Diananne and her sister knocked anxiously, and as if I couldn't hear them, I pressed against the door, but the cries resounded throughout the room.

"Ahh

The cry was terrible, as if it was being brutally killed, and my fate with Su Xin was ruthlessly killed by fate.

Broken emotions, broken people, roaring crying, all the memories of the past, all the memories about her, scene by scene, like a movie, flashed one by one, from acquaintance, acquaintance, to love, death, reunion, recognition, and finally companionship......

Until the parting ended, the brain was so chaotic that it was instantly pitch black.

I seemed to be crying with all the tears of my life, venting the pain brought to me by fate, venting the powerlessness of reaching out but never being able to grasp it.

It's dark, my eyes can't see anything clearly, crying and fainting? It is said that fainting is a self-protection that the brain cannot withstand the stimulation and is temporarily turned off. But how long will it protect me?

I'll never see her again, never again in my life.

I don't know how terrible it is to not see a person in my life, because the terrible thing is that you will not be able to remember her and your memories because of the loss of time, I suddenly understand that the passage of time and the forgetting of years are the most terrible.

And from now on, all the memories of me and Su Xin will be in the devastation of the years until the end of this life.

This is the end.

I hugged my head and cried, maybe it was a cry in a fainting, and all day, I locked myself in my bedroom, crying, crying, talking to myself, going crazy, I knew that I couldn't accept such a sudden ending, I couldn't regret it, I couldn't bear it.

Is this God's greatest reckoning with me? The biggest punishment?

Until outside the window, the sun turned from east to west, from light to dark, and the sky slowly darkened, and I sat at the door, always motionless, feeling the first time of the years, I told myself that I had not forgotten her, and that I had survived the day.

Holding her picture, muttering to herself, looking at it over and over again, carefully.

I cried and dried my tears, and I was also tired and fell asleep in a daze.

In my dream, I seem to be crying, and I seem to be chasing, when I was a child, chasing her young, under the big tree, she turned back to me and smiled faintly, is this our next life?

In the next life, I will definitely find you and catch you.

When I opened my eyes again, I didn't wake up in pain, but got up calmly, calmly looked out the dark window, the sky was not yet bright, I calmly lit a cigarette, the faint firelight, not lighting the pitch black.

It was my first time smoking in my bedroom.

"Xiao Nuan, you're awake." Diannie, who was beside her, also slowly got up from the bed, lying down beside me tiredly, worried, "Are you okay?" ”

"Well, I'm fine."

I know that Su Xin was personally delivered to the airport by Diane, and she thanked Diane for her final fulfillment and made the ending have no regrets.

Is this emotional whirlpool completely over after Dianne lets go of her burden?

"Are you hungry? I hadn't eaten all day, and it was only four o'clock, and it was still early in the morning. She wanted to get out of bed and cook something for me, so I gently hugged her and snuffed out the cigarette: "I'm not hungry, I can't sleep, let's hold you and lie down for a while." ”

She silently lay back in my arms, the two of them hugged quietly, looking at each other, and in the room, only a slight breathing could be heard.

"Husband, cry if you feel uncomfortable." She touched my face considerately.

"It's not uncomfortable, it's just a little tired." I let out a long sigh, the tiredness of my brain that I had never felt before, and I really needed a sense of security, and I held her security.

"You've been in a depressed mood lately, or in a few days, just go out with your sister for a while, I'll wait for you at home." She rubbed my shoulder, comforting.

"Aren't you going?"

"Don't, just your sister and brother this time, don't worry, I'll wait for you at home." She looked at me affectionately, and I understood that she had also endured a lot of struggles, but she didn't want to affect my emotions and endured it alone.

"Annie, I love you."

"I love you too."

In the early hours of the morning, two people who loved and embraced each other, in a confession like comforting each other, fell into silence and looked at each other silently.

Until the sky has just lit up, the early morning of winter, it comes very late, we didn't close our eyes, as if the night was quiet, we were digesting the pain and gradually healing.

"Good morning, Annie."

"Good morning, husband." She smiled and kissed me, and took the initiative to get out of bed: "I'll cook for you, you didn't have anything for the day yesterday." ”

"Make a bowl of hot noodles, and I'll try your craftsmanship." I smiled faintly, she gave me a shy look, didn't even go to wash, and cooked for me directly.

I have not been liquidated for nothing, I have experienced the destruction of the whirlpool of feelings, and there are people who love me without abandoning, the pain is meaningless, I should laugh, I should be happy, remember her in my heart who is far away in the sky, and tell her that she is incompetent in this life, and Xu I will live in the next life.

"An An! You...... Are you alright? "My sister, who had just walked out of the room, was sleepy-eyed and startled when she saw my calm appearance.

"It's okay, don't worry." I calmly walked to my sister's side, reached out and grabbed her hair, and said with a smile: "Sister, you are really embarrassed to sleep, your hair is so messy, it's not beautiful, go and comb it." ”

She ignored my laughter, reached out and touched my face with pity, and said gently: "An An, your eyes are swollen, let me help you rub some medicine." ”

"What kind of medicine is this, just rest for a day, your brother is not so fragile." I smiled indifferently, my sister gently hugged me, and whispered: "An An is very strong, the strongest person I have ever met, during this time, you are very tired." ”

"It's all over, what are you tired of, isn't it still good at home, you moved here, your younger siblings are also there, this is the best and warmest environment in our family, if it weren't for Anne and still a student, I would have added a nephew a long time ago."

I said optimistically and relaxedly, my sister snorted and laughed, pushed me and said, "Don't fight bad ideas, I didn't rush you two." ”

Eating hot noodles, the clogged mood and stomach seem to be slowly warmed up, I survived one collapse after another, it's time to calm down, just like this bowl of ordinary hot noodles, light and ordinary life.

"Even the following is better than me, will my craft not be needed at home in the future, and I will be eliminated?" I teased as I ate.

Diannie blushed when she was connotated, and said angrily: "Your skills have long been eliminated, and I will cook at home in the future." ”

"You are more careful than me in housework, so what else does the family need me?" I raised my eyebrows and asked, she looked at me, and suddenly smiled warmly: "Of course I need you, I need you to be a rogue to me, and keep being a rogue to me." ”

My heart softened, and I almost couldn't swallow the noodles in my mouth. I was actually touched by the tsundere senpai.

After eating the noodles, my sister and I directly proposed to travel in a few days, this decision was very hasty and hasty, but my sister did not object, she seemed to know that I needed to relax, and she also needed it.

Maybe it's really too tired, since the night of the surface identity, I have been immersed in depression, and I have experienced my sister's accident, Su Xin's parting, and one blow after another, which makes my brain tired, it needs to rest very much, and I can't bear the blow.

Let's just use a trip to end this painful reckoning, I think, life should return to peace.

In the afternoon, Dianne and her sister took me and went out to buy a lot of things, things needed for travel, and the place has not yet been decided, but I have thought about the general direction, which is to visit the landscape and scenery, so the things I buy, without snacks, are all practical to eat.

"Annie, when I come back from traveling with An An, we will meet your mother together." The sister pulled Diane and offered to do so.

"Okay." Dianne nodded happily.

My heart instantly tingled, my sister did so much, just for the sake of generosity at this time without pressure.

I immediately shook my head, not thinking about it, not wanting any sting to affect the peace I had so managed to regain again.

Since God has arranged a bumpy fate for me, I will finish it bumpy. I can't control everything, I can only control myself, Lin Xiaonuan's life.

When I got home in the evening, my sister and Diane were busy in the kitchen together, which was the first warm reunion of the family, and they officially lived together.

The kitchen was full of warmth, and the two of them were worried about my sudden calm state of mind, worried that I would endure too much alone.

"An An, the ribs are sweet for you."

"Okay, I'll eat it all, don't rob it."

"Husband, you don't like to eat fish, I'll make you a sea fish, no spines, very tender, you taste it."

"I like to eat everything you make, and I'm going to kill tonight."

I understand the words of comfort, in fact, I am calm, I don't need comfort, just have you.

Didn't bother them to cook, I went back to the bedroom, turned on the computer, unfortunately, Su Xin didn't leave any contact information, it was really like a dream, disappeared without a trace, looking at the tassel on the flute, I could remember that she had come.

There was only one thing left behind.

I took the flute off the wall, sat on the windowsill, looked at the end of the day, and fell into calm contemplation.

Is she okay at this moment? The beginning of each other's love, but the end of forgetting each other in the rivers and lakes, leaving only a small tassel, carrying all our memories and swearing that we once loved each other.

All of this, the clouds and smoke of the past, are only engraved in this small tassel, the lightness of life, the weight of memory, silently close your eyes, with Xiao Ming, this life has no fate, I promise you the next life.

The low and mournful prelude sounded, describing my heart for eternity.

Suxin, I love you, goodbye.