In the driver's seat, Shen Nuoyan said lightly: "Since you are so tired of acting, why don't you just make it clear to her?" ”

I whispered, "I can't say those cruel words to her." ”

"So you're thinking about letting her know the difficulties herself? But...... Didn't you notice? She doesn't have any intention of backing down at all, the reason why she came to the company is just to use these people to put pressure on you, she thinks she knows you very well, and thinks that you will take care of her image and face in front of everyone, so she won't 'push away' her, so as to confirm the relationship between the two of you, all of which shows that she is bound to you to win, even if it is by despicable means. Shen Nuoyan calmly analyzed.

How could I not know what Shen Nuoyan said? In fact, Su Ruoshui's actions have exceeded my imagination, but this also makes me more and more sure of the conjecture in my heart.

Seeing that I didn't speak, Shen Nuoyan thought that I still couldn't make up my mind to cut through the mess quickly, and said: "In my opinion, you just tell her directly that you see that she likes you, and then clearly tell her that it is impossible for the two of you." ”

I said, "Promise, she shouldn't have lost her memory, or rather, she should have regained her memory." ”

Shen Nuoyan was originally driving, but when he heard this, the car suddenly shook, and he said in surprise: "Why are you so sure?" ”

I said lightly: "I was lying in bed last night, thinking about a lot of things, only to realize that I actually ignored a lot of small details. ”

"What details?"

In fact, from the beginning when I met Su Ruoshui, I had a strong feeling in my heart, that is, she and I were still very familiar, but because she looked so normal, I didn't find any clues, and now in retrospect, she actually exposed herself from the beginning.

Su Ruoshui is a woman who looks lively and generous, but is actually relatively conservative, although she is very charming and seemingly frivolous, but she will keep an appropriate distance from men, but when she was in Dongbei, her attitude towards me was very intimate, that kind of natural intimacy, which can not be described simply by words or body movements, it is a sense of dependence from the heart.

Not only that, Su Ruoshui has always been very smart, knows how to observe words and feelings, and knows what to say and what not to say, but when I was in Dongbei, when I went with her to see Song Jiayin and Duan Qinghu, she asked many questions that made us very embarrassed one after another, even if Su Guangsha reminded her, she still didn't mean to stop, I thought it was normal at the time, but now that I think about it, I feel that she seems to be intentional at all, and the purpose is probably to test whether my attitude towards feelings is still the same as before.

In addition, when I was in a hurry to clear up my relationship with her and tell her that I had a way to solve the scandal, she was not happy, and even a little unhappy, which shows that she actually longs for this scandal to be known to the public and believes it.

People are like this, when they are careless, many things that should be noticed will be ignored, it is I who ignore Su Ruoshui, no, it should be said that I don't take Su Ruoshui too seriously, so I didn't notice so many things.

After listening to my analysis, Shen Nuoyan was silent, and I only felt like I was being pressed against a stone in my heart, and it was very heavy. If Su Ruoshui really never had amnesia, why did she pretend to have amnesia? Why did she not want to recognize me at first, but now she suddenly wants to renew her relationship with me?

I really wanted to ask her, I thought, that answer must be very uncomfortable in her heart, but I am afraid that if I ask her, she will ask me if I remember the things we experienced between us, and ask me if I remember the promise I made to her, even if I am ruthless, I am afraid that in the face of her 'recovering memory', I don't have the courage to say that I don't remember.

Thinking of this, I covered my face, I knew that this psychology of mine was escaping, I thought of Song Jiayin, thought of Duan Qinghu, and finally made up my mind, clenched my fists, and said: "Give me a few more days, I want to think about how to make it clear to her." ”

"Got it figured?" Shen Nuoyan asked with some concern.

I nodded and said, "I've thought about it." ”

I know that if Su Ruoshui doesn't remember everything before, I can take my time and tell her to retreat, after all, if she doesn't remember that, even if she likes me, it can't be too profound, but if she remembers that, I'm afraid that no matter how much I use a knife to 'stab' her heart, she will never let go.

So I had to make it clear to her that I had delayed the best years of her youth and could not delay her any longer.

After getting off the bus, I saw that Su Ruoshui had already put on a cap and a mask, she glanced at me, followed Wang Mengru to the ticket office to buy tickets, and then stood not far away waiting for us.

After Shen Nuoyan and I bought the tickets, we walked towards Linggu Temple with them one after the other, maybe it was the incident in the company just now that affected her mood, Su Ruoshui just walked with her head down and didn't say a word, that look of lost soul was really distressing. There were a few times when I wanted to go over and chat with her and make her happy, but when I thought of the relationship between the two of us, I endured it, perhaps, I was cruel and selfish at this time, but I would rather be selfish at this time, and it is better to make her hurt for a while than to make her hurt for the rest of my life.

Thinking of this, I hardened my heart coldly, but even Wang Mengru was unwilling to deal with me.

Fortunately, Shen Promise has always been by my side and comforted me from time to time, otherwise I really felt that I would have run away a long time ago.

When we arrived at Linggu Temple, we saw a group of people sitting cross-legged in the temple, listening to a monk chanting and chanting Buddha, talking eloquently, Su Ruoshui said lightly: "I can just listen to the lecture here by myself, you can walk around." ”

Wang Mengru said: "I also want to hear what this master says, I will accompany you." ”

After she finished speaking, she motioned for me and Shen Nuoyan to leave here, and the two of us had to hang out somewhere else. Walking aimlessly round and round, when Shen Nuoyan and I came back, most of the people were scattered, and in the distance, I saw Su Ruoshui kneeling in the hall of the temple, kowtowing to the Buddha statue, and Wang Mengru was sitting on the steps not far away playing with her mobile phone, and when she saw us coming back, she said: "Ruoshui said that she wanted to talk to the master, let us wait for her here." ”

"Let's talk?" I looked curiously not far away, and suddenly wondered what she was talking to the master.

Thinking of this, I walked towards the Buddha Hall, Wang Mengru wanted to stop me, but was stopped by Shen Nuoyan, she sighed, and said in a low voice: "What is going on?" ”

A few of the little monks had obviously been instructed not to allow anyone to approach the temple, but as soon as they came, they were stopped by my bodyguards not far away, and I was able to come to the gate of the hall unimpeded, and the master saw the behavior of my people, and only glanced at me, and did not stop it, but that glance was meaningful, as if he had understood everything.

I was standing at the door and heard the master say, "Su Jushi, I haven't seen you for many days, you are still so tired, did you not let go of the things you said you wanted to let go of before?" ”

Layman is the name of a modern monk for the laity, and from the words of this master, it can be heard that it is not the first time that he and Su Ruoshui have met.

Su Ruoshui said in a low voice: "The master told me before, 'There is suffering if you ask for anything, there is happiness if you don't ask for anything, breaking the attachment is 'doing nothing', but I am a layman after all, even if I know that there is suffering, I can't help but ask, even if I know that the more I let go, the more I feel that I have more, and I can't let go." Because in my heart, there is such a person, who has taken root and planted a tree of affection, so that I can taste the pain of love but can't recognize each other, and I still can't give up and forget. ”

My heart slammed into the abyss, from these words, I can already be 100% sure of one thing, that is, Su Ruoshui She really hasn't forgotten me, not only has she not forgotten me, she is still in the place where I can't see, she has been silently, affectionately loving me, this love is too humble, too lonely and too heavy, it makes me breathless, a sourness suddenly wells up in my heart, my eyes and nose are sour, I clenched my fists tightly, as if only in this way can I calm myself down.

The master said lightly: "Female layman, if you can't do everything that the Buddha asks you to do as illusory, why do you come here to worship the Buddha, the Buddha can't help you, what can help you is only the affectionate tree in your heart, you can't follow your heart, follow your nature, follow fate, why don't you get a liberation from him, that may be the beginning, or the end." ”

Su Ruoshui said in a low voice, "Does the master want me to recognize him?" ”

The master nodded and said, "Not bad." ”

Su Ruoshui shook his head with a wry smile and said, "No, I don't recognize him, I originally wanted to start over with him, because when I met him, I was dirty and hateful, and I felt that I was not worthy of him, let alone the person in his heart, so I wanted to start from scratch, but I didn't expect ......"

I gritted my teeth, stepped into the threshold, and said, "But you didn't expect that I would be with you for the rest of my life, and I obviously owed you my life and love, but I didn't hesitate to reject you and push you away, so that you didn't even have a chance to start over, right?" ”

At the moment when I spoke, Su Ruoshui had turned around suddenly, when she saw me, she burst into tears, at this moment, she seemed to cry out all the grievances in her heart, she slowly got up, looked at me and said, "Yes." ”

I came to her and looked at her tearful face, the guilt and self-blame in my heart were rolling, but no matter how sad I was, there was one thing that couldn't be changed, and that was that I really couldn't give her what she wanted.

Thinking of this, I hardened my heart and said, "Sister Shui, thank you for your infatuation with me, but I'm sorry...... I really can't give you what you want, I used to be bad at me, not a prince and general, but I thought about hugging left and right, and I walked a long way to understand that feelings can be divided equally among many people, only love is the only one, I'm sorry, I gave love to Jiayin, I can't give it to you anymore, don't waste time on me as a bastard. ”