Jin Yan was stunned at first, and then quickly returned to normal. He walked straight to me, bowed slightly to Zhao Qinhan, and said to me, "Xiaoshu, I'll go to your company to get a document." ”

"Oh," I quickly came back to my senses, "Okay, I'll go with you." ”

"Are you going out to dinner?" Jin Yan asked lightly, his gaze fell on me, and he regarded Zhao Qinhan on the side as air.

When Zhao Qinhan saw this scene, he didn't greet Jin Yan, but just said to me: "Xiaoshu, then I'll wait for you in the car first, and call me when you're ready." ”

I nodded, and went back to the company with Jin Yan in embarrassment. As soon as Zhao Qinhan left, I hurriedly explained: "He said that his mother came here, and his mother took care of me for a year in her third year of high school, so I wanted to treat them to a meal." ”

"Well," Jin Yan didn't seem to care, and said, "There were a few documents in the filing cabinet before, so I came over to get them and take a look at you by the way." ”

Hearing him say this, a softness in my heart was touched again, and I quickly asked, "How are you doing?" Is everything alright? ”

"It's the end of the day, and everything that needs to be taken care of has been taken care of. What about you, how are you doing? After Jin Yan finished speaking, he subconsciously glanced at me, and then stopped, his eyes were extremely deep.

"I'm fine, I've been here for a few days now, and I'm working on the company's policies. If you take care of everything, come back to work, and let's work together and start from scratch. I also stood still, looked at him and said expectantly.

He had lost a lot of weight for days, his face was pale, his eyes were tired, and the shirt that had once fitted him was now hollow in his body. Such a man makes me feel very distressed.

"No, I have other plans." He said in a deep voice, "You take care of yourself, don't worry about me, I'll be fine." ”

Hearing him say this, I felt even more sad in my heart, and I couldn't help but rush over and hug him, and I said, "Why do you have to choose to be separated from me?" Wouldn't it be better for us to face it together? ”

My hug made his body shake strongly, he gently pushed me away, and I hugged me tighter, and he didn't resist anymore, just wrapped his hand loosely around my waist and whispered, "Do you remember what you said before?" Some roads need to be walked alone. I think now, maybe I'm going to walk alone. ”

"But I don't want you to be so tired, I don't want you to be alone, I want to be by your side, I want to take care of you." I wrapped my arms around his waist so hard that I couldn't fit into his body than I could bear the taste of being separated from him.

"Because I need to grow too," he said with a faint smile, "haven't you always blamed me for not being mature for the past three years?" Didn't you tell me that you became mature because you gritted your teeth alone and survived for two years? I'm also at a point where I need to be alone to try to walk around, without my father, without you, I'm going to break through alone. ”

"But I don't want that, I can't even think of life without you. In the past three years, I have become accustomed to you being by my side every day, although you are sometimes very pestering, sometimes very naïve, and often make me angry, but my love for you has not changed. In the past three years, my heart has been filled by you, there is no gap left for others, although we often quarrel and say to break up, although we almost came to the verge of breaking up, but when it comes to the real moment, everything becomes unimportant, only with you, everything is meaningful. I hugged him, tears streaming uncontrollably.

I know that his state of mind has changed dramatically these days, he seems to have matured in an instant, he seems to have had an epiphany, just like I felt in the year of my senior year of high school, I understand what it is like to "break through alone". It is true that sometimes some roads just need to be walked alone, and sometimes we have to grit our teeth alone to endure a long, long road, and then we can really grow up and treat the people and things around us rationally and soberly. But...... I can't bear it, I can't bear it.

"I know, so I didn't think much of it when I saw you with him just now," he gently stroked my hair and said softly, "I just want you to have sex well, don't cry, crying makes my heart hurt even more." ”

His cold was still not cured, and his voice was still a little hoarse, and his voice sounded particularly low, which made people even more sad. He hugged me hard, then pushed me away, hooked my nose with a smile, and smiled: "Didn't you always say that you were an independent woman in the new era?" Why are you crying like a little flower cat now? Be happy, I'm not dead, don't you think I'm good? I just want to settle down on my own right now, and start all over again, as you said. ”

"Wouldn't it be nice for us to start all over again?" It's been a long time since I've heard such a doting tone from him, and now seeing him say this like a man at last makes me even more worried.

The so-called maturity is to tear one's past and then reassemble into a new self, but this tearing process, just like a silkworm chrysalis breaking out of the cocoon and a baby being reborn, needs to go through a break of the inherent state, pass through many obstacles, and then be reborn and peel off a new self. Jin Yan, he is currently in such a process, and I understand that I can't help him in any way. But I just can't rest assured.

Still shaking his head, he said, "Don't worry, I'm not going to be playful anymore like I used to, I've figured out what I should do." You promise me to be strong, not to cry, not to be sad, and to work hard to be an independent and self-reliant woman. One day in the future, when I stand in front of you, I hope that I can give you happiness by my own efforts. At that time, no matter who you are with, I will do whatever it takes to snatch you back. You are mine. ”

After he finished speaking, he pushed me away hard, then turned around and tried to suppress his emotions, turned around and gave me a big smile: "Okay, don't be too pretentious. Let's hurry up and get the papers, and there's someone waiting for you to eat." ”

The open-mindedness in his words tingled my heart even more, and I saw that his eyes were red but he didn't cry, but strode in the direction of the company. I followed him closely, and I looked at his back, both excited and sad. I am excited that he is now so calm and calm is what I once expected very much, and sad that he wants to mature but must leave me behind, I understand that anyone who wants to succeed needs to go through a long period of gritting their teeth and crying every time they recall the rest of their lives, but I am really afraid that we will part ways from now on. One day when he became the man I imagined, the woman standing next to him was no longer me.

My thoughts kept flying, I went to the company with him, he opened the filing cabinet to find a few documents he needed, and then, patted me on the shoulder, smiled slightly, "Okay, I'm leaving, take care of yourself." ”

I looked at him in a daze, and I couldn't say a word, I could only watch him stride out of the company's door. By the time I realized that I wanted to catch up with him, he was gone.

I ran to the gate of the company in one go, and I looked around in despair, the sun was shining, and there were rows of neat vehicles parked around the gate, and everything was still the same as before, as if he had never appeared at all.

I was in a trance, I couldn't help but feel sad, I was about to call Zhao Qinhan to say that I was not going to eat, but a black Bentley parked at the front door honked its horn, and then the window rolled down, but I didn't expect that the person sitting in the cab was Zhao Qinhan.

He'd never driven a car before, so I didn't even think it would be his. Seeing that I still had tears on my face, he quickly opened the car door and got out of the car, came over to me and said, "Xiaoshu, are you okay?" ”

I shook my head, and I said, "Qin Han, you go to eat, I don't want to go." ”

"Go," he said in a resolute tone, "my mother is already waiting at the hotel, and she will be sad if you don't go." ”

When I heard him say this, I thought that it would not be very good to take care of my aunt's pigeons, so I had to get into the car. There was a hint of a smile on the corner of Zhao Qinhan's mouth, perhaps because he saw that I was preoccupied, so it was not very obvious.

He diligently opened the car door for me and put me in the co-pilot, and then quickly got into the car, skillfully started the car, and then said, "I saw Jin Yan leave in a hurry, did you quarrel?" Having a breakup? ”

When he asked, I immediately said angrily, "No, don't you want us to break up?" ”

My unfriendly tone made Zhao Qinhan stunned, and then he said, "No, I didn't mean that." I just want you to be happy. ”

"I'm fine." I said lightly.

He drove me quickly in the direction of the hotel, my cold attitude did not make him any displeaser, he saw that my lips were a little dry, took a bottle of imported blueberry juice from the back seat and handed it to me: "Drink some, I see you are thirsty." ”

"No, you don't." I replied stiffly.

"Hehe," he said with a wry smile, "how disgusting am I?" Like a book, I remember that you didn't reject me like this before. ”

"No, I'm in a bad mood, I'm embarrassed." When I heard him say this, I suddenly realized that there was something wrong with my attitude, so I softened my attitude a bit.

"Actually, I know why you're in a bad mood, maybe, I can help Jin Yan." Zhao Qin said softly, and said, "As long as you speak, I am willing to help him." ”

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