Full of doubts, I turned my head to look at her, she has always been dignified and noble, today she has more sorrow, less momentum, sat quietly beside me and said nothing.

It's been so long since we've known her that we've sat together so calmly, so what's wrong with her today?

She didn't speak, and neither did I, and we just sat side by side on the bench on the side of the road.

"You can really be with Mo Chen with peace of mind!" After a long time, An Moya finally spoke.

"Perhaps!" I smiled bitterly, at ease? How I wish it was peace of mind!

"Don't you like Eisen? Empathy so soon? An Moya said lightly.

I didn't speak, and I was sorry for Zuo Yisen, except for guilt or guilt.

I didn't agree to be with him because I liked him, it was because he did so many things that moved me, and even did not hesitate to protect me with his life, and when he paid for me again and again, I confused kindness with love.

The person I love is Leng Mochen, perhaps, from the first time he said he loved me, I fell in love with him unconsciously, because he was so sincere and so steady.

Because I love him, even if he ruins my family, I will never be able to kill him.

Because I love him, I know that he is my father's killer, and I still want to be with him.

Because I love him, and he has hurt me so much, I can forgive him unconditionally.

Because I love him, I push myself to this point where there is no way out.

Love, really great.

However, there is also a kind of love called letting go.

Seeing that I didn't speak for a long time, An Moya smiled lightly: "Do you know why Yi Sen left?"

I don't know, he didn't tell me, An Chenxi gave me the reason that his foot was broken and he needed to go back to Singapore for treatment, but I don't believe it, Nanxi City is so big, is there no hospital that can treat it?

I have tried to guess, but none of them are true, so the real reason for Zuo Yisen's departure is still a mystery to me.

Actually, I don't really want to know, I'm afraid that something will be involved, and then I will be even more sad.

Now that he's gone, let everything pass in peace!

"Do you know how much Eisen has paid for you?" An Moya turned her head to look at me, her gaze as light as a clear spring.

"It's me who is sorry for him." What else can I say besides that?

"Can a word of sorry smooth everything out?"

"I know no, but that's how it happened, didn't it?" Can it be recovered? Can you get everything back?

"Yi Sen chose to leave silently in order not to bother you, and you, so soon to be with Mo Chen, if you didn't like Yi Sen at all, you shouldn't have promised him in the first place, otherwise, he wouldn't have become what he is now." An Moya's words were a little tight, and she was very anxious to listen to.

Yes, if I hadn't agreed to be with Zuo Yisen at the beginning, Leng Mochen wouldn't have sent someone to beat him, he wouldn't have had an accident, he wouldn't have left Nanxi, it was I who hurt him, I forced him away.

It's just, what is a connection? Zuo Yisen left so as not to bother me? Did he bother me? I've been bothering him!

"Why do you say that?" I didn't want to ask, but when it comes to this, can I not ask?

"Don't you know?" An Moya sneered: "Also, Yisen loves you so much, how could he bear to let you know."

"What the hell is the reason for?" When she said this, I felt uneasy and afraid.

"Do you really think that Essen left only because of a broken bone?" An Moya turned her head and glanced into the distance, sad and distant: "The doctor said that Yisen's eyes may be blind at any time, he is afraid that you will know, afraid that you will be sad, afraid that you will be affected, so he chose to let go, chose to leave, chose to escape, always felt that he was a child who did not grow up, and hoped that he would always be so carefree, but until you appeared, everything changed, and the pistachio in our eyes once became a melancholy fruit, all because of you."

The phrase 'eyes may be blind at any time' made my whole body stiff, and I sat up straight on the bench, time stuck in that sentence, my ears were booming, and I couldn't hear what An Moya said later.

His eyes would be blind, and he was afraid of causing me trouble, so he chose to leave.

At the beginning, he said that he wanted to break up with me, but he didn't give me any reason, he asked me to break up, and he said that I got rid of him, so I don't want to be sad.

He suddenly decided to leave, he didn't want to see me for the last time, he was ruthless and left, he no longer had any contact with me, all because he didn't want to trouble me, he didn't want me to be sad.

I want to laugh, I laugh at myself for being stupid, but I can't laugh.

"You know, sometimes I really hate you, it's not because Mo Chen likes you, it's just that you always think you're smart, that's why you cause so many things." An Moya retracted her gaze, paused and said, "Do you remember when you went to the southern suburbs to find Xu Hao?" Yisen has been injured for you, it seems to be a serious brain injury, the doctor said, the reason why Yisen may lose his blindness is the sequelae of that time, if you don't have much to do, how can Yisen be injured? How did it come to this point? Do you know what it was like when you returned to Singapore? My heart hurts when I hear my brother say it, let alone see it, I really feel sorry for him, who he likes is not good, but he wants to like you. ”

"I'm sorry......" It turned out that it had left a bane a long time ago, that time, Zuo Yisen was injured to save me, yes, it was I who was clever enough to go to Xu Hao, if I didn't care about idle things, those things wouldn't have happened at all, and everything would not have happened now, all because of me, it was me who harmed others and myself.

I finally understood what Leng Mochen warned me about, harming others and myself, and what I said was really not wrong.

After being silent for a while, An Moya said lightly: "Stay away from my brother, our An family doesn't owe you, and we don't need to pay you back so much." Leaving these words, she got up and left