The night was bottomless, I didn't know how long I slept, and when I woke up from my physical pain, I went to the bathroom again and threw up hysterically.

At half past three in the morning, I didn't rest again, just opened the door in my bedroom and stood on the balcony looking at this strange city.

I vaguely saw the depraved beauty of the city, lit a cigarette, opened the window, and let the cold wind of late autumn blow on my face.

The night was too dark, the alcohol burned everything to ashes, and the pain and hatred seemed to disappear from my mind, and I was left with only a blank shell.

The door in the next bedroom was opened, and Chen Qingyi didn't know when she was wearing a pink cotton jacket, standing on the balcony of her room, in the same posture as me, holding on to the railing, blowing the cold wind of late autumn.

Despite being high in the air, there was less than 3 meters between the two balconies, and I could clearly hear Chen Qingyi's cough.

"Pink Girl, why did you come out too?" I teased Chen Qingyi's pink dress.

"Look how dark it is!"

"In three hours, it'll be dawn."

"When the sun comes out, does it light up your world?"

I shrugged my shoulders and said, "Who knows! ”

Chen Qingyi was silent, her hair was messy from the wind, she coughed lightly, and she was like a pink fairy who had fallen into the world in the dark night.

"Zhang Yixi, let's watch today's sunrise together."

"You've got a cold."

"I want to see the sunrise." Chen Qingyi said indifferently.

"You go back and sleep for a while, there is a sunrise, I call you."

"The sunrise you wait for is the most beautiful."

I smiled, took off my coat, and threw it to Chen Qingyi: "Put it on warmer." ”

Chen Qingyi caught my coat: "Give me your clothes, you will catch a cold." ”

"It's fine." I turned around as I spoke, leaned my back against the railing, and lit myself a cigarette......

I don't know how long it was silent, the phone in the house rang, it was the ringtone of the incoming call, and there would be no one else but Angel who would call me so late.

I froze there for a long time before I walked inside and picked up my phone......

"Good evening." I answered the phone and said to Angel.

"Haven't you rested yet?" Angel's voice was soft.

"Blowing on the balcony."

"It's late on your side."

"There are three hours to go, and there will be sunrise, so it's not late, it's early." I said to Angel in a calm tone.

Angel was silent...... My heart was in a mess, and at this pace of conversation, it was likely that she would say to me, "Let's break up." ”

I couldn't bear it anymore, and finally asked Anqi, who had been silent, "You won't call just to greet me, right?" Tell me about you and Yan Zhiyuan....... I'm mentally prepared. ”

Angel's voice was still very soft: "He's divorced, and he said he can't forget me." ”

After a long silence, I asked, "Actually, you've always been in touch, right?" How else would he know that you are in France and know your exact address? ”

"Am I such a woman in your eyes?"

"Then please give me a reasonable explanation, okay?"

"I don't need to explain, if I'm that kind of woman in your heart, you should always be in touch with us." Angel controlled her emotions and said to me.

I was disgusted by Angel's hazy attitude, I wanted a clear answer, but I controlled my emotions and didn't want the conflict to intensify: "OK, I shouldn't doubt you....... I just want to know what you think, whatever the outcome is, please give me a good time. ”

"When he stood in front of me in despair, I realized that I hadn't let him go, and I still felt sorry for him........"

"Really? Now that he is free, if you need freedom too, you tell me and I will give it to you. My heart was twitching, but I said very calmly, I had guessed that this was the result, I understood the status of this man in Anqi's heart, if I forcibly forgot it before, it was because that man had a family, and now that Yan Zhiyuan is free, it will be difficult for Anqi to resist the temptation of being together...... Even if she gave up on me, I could understand her decision, because it's human!

If it weren't for the hopelessness of love, how could An Qi commit suicide for that man, her feelings for me and Yan Zhiyuan may not be worth mentioning at all.

"Give ..... Give me a moment, okay? ”

"Give you a little time to make a choice?"

"Well, I know that's a bit excessive, but ......"

"But you loved me too, didn't you?" I smiled and said, I only felt more humbled, like a commodity, put on the shelf, for customers to choose according to their preferences.

"I didn't love you, but I still love you....... I'm really messed up right now! ”

I took a deep breath: "I don't force you, I can understand you, and when you think about it, tell me...... Now I'm going to wait for the sunrise. ”

"Why are you so calm, maybe you won't care whatever I choose, right?"

"I'm not calm, and I'm not uncaring...... It's that I'm not qualified to ask you what to do, and I've been so entangled and so difficult to choose like you are now, so I know how you feel! ”

.......

After the end of the call with Angel, my soul was hollowed out, looking into the distance, I can foresee how painful and reluctant I would be if Angel's final choice was not mine...... But the most undesirable thing in this world is love, and the only thing I can do now is to wait quietly, like waiting for the sunrise to appear.

Chen Qingyi seemed to give me enough space, she didn't disturb me, just stood quietly on another balcony, looking into the distance from the same angle as me, maybe we will have the same scenery in our eyes, but the mood, is it the same?

.......

At five o'clock, I was still in one position, standing in the wind, but I had already smoked several cigarettes.

"Zhang Yixi, I'll go to your side, let's watch the sunrise together, okay?" Chen Qingyi said softly to me.

I looked at her and finally nodded.

Chen Qingyi took out a fabric bench, put it behind me, and said, "Sit down for a while, you've been standing like this for a long time." ”

I nodded, sat down on the bench, and Chen Qingyi took out a blanket from the room and draped it over me, and sat side by side with me.

After sitting down, I finally fell asleep, and in a daze, I leaned back in my chair and fell asleep.

When I woke up, I found that Chen Qingyi next to me was also asleep, we leaned against each other, her head resting on my shoulder, and the fragrance of her hair made me gradually wake up...... I looked at the time, it was 6 o'clock in the morning, and in a quarter of an hour, we could see the sunrise.

I gently pushed Chen Qingyi, who was leaning on me: "Wake up, there will be sunrise later." ”

Chen Qingyi opened her sleepy eyes, found that she was leaning on my shoulder, touched her face and said to me, "I'm sorry." ”

I smiled, signaled that it was okay, got up, walked back to the railing, looked to the east, there was already a faint whiteness of the fish's belly, and dawn was coming!

Chen Qingyi stood beside me and said with a hint of relief: "The night is about to pass!" ”