Ye Yiyi and I chose a direction to wander along the side street with relaxation and leisure, I comfortably lit a cigarette, and felt that there was nothing more comfortable in the world than this scene.

I leisurely exhaled the smoke in my mouth, Ye Yiyi and I are separated by a safe distance of more than one meter, and have avoided inhaling my second-hand smoke, which makes our companion walk seem in vain, but it doesn't matter, each has its own scenery, my scenery is to smoke a cigarette, enjoy the flowers, the moon, and the autumn wind, and Ye Yiyi's scenery is obviously not consistent with me, so we have a distance.

After smoking a cigarette, I bounced off the cigarette butt in my hand, and watched the trajectory of the cigarette butt with a touch of red in the air, I was a little stunned until the cigarette butt fell back to the ground.

The disillusionment of the smoke finally brought Ye Yiyi closer to me.

"I'm sorry Mr. Ye, I smoked a cigarette selfishly." I said to Ye Yiyi beside me.

"What, do you think smoking is a surprise to the view?" Ye Yiyi asked with a smile.

I shook my head and said, "Without smoke, any beauty is not valid for me, it is an illusion!" ”

Ye Yiyi looked at me with a pair of beautiful eyes.......

I smiled and said, "It's just pretending to be deep gibberish, you can just listen to it." ”

Ye Yiyi glanced at me: "You're boring!" ”

"I don't deny it."

........

The two of them continued to walk forward, the road was no longer street lamps, but the moonlight still stretched our shadows up and down, a kind of tranquility permeated the mountains, and people seemed to be drifting away.

"Zhang Yixi, are the two women who came last time really your ex-girlfriend and rumored girlfriend?" After walking in silence for a long time, Ye Yiyi found a topic that proved that she had gossip potential.

I pursed my lips and said, "When I hear a question like this, I want to smoke." ”

"Then you smoke it, and tell me when you're done."

"You're so persistent!" I sighed.

"I just think that two such wonderful women have been intimate with you, you must have a lot of stories in you, and it's everyone's nature to love stories, isn't it?" Ye Yiyi said with a gentle smile, as if encouraging me to let down my guard and tell her everything.

I do have a lot of bitterness in my heart about love, but I have passed the stage where I need to talk about my depression urgently, so I don't have much need to talk about, so I shook my head and said: "It's all over, all the happiness and depression are just fragments of memories for me." ”

Ye Yiyi looked at me with some shock: "I think you are a little scary to treat feelings calmly!" ”

"Really?" I didn't know how to answer, so I asked rhetorically.

As if she didn't agree with my attitude towards love, Ye Yiyi didn't respond to my rhetorical question, but just walked forward in silence.

........

Unconsciously, Ye Yiyi and I walked to the foot of the mountain where I often sit, Ye Yiyi was tired of walking, and found a flat stone before me and sat down.

I sat down next to Ye Yiyi, the two of us kept a distance of about 50 centimeters, perhaps because the beauty of the autumn night was more attractive than chatting, we all tacitly chose to be silent, looking up at the moon in the sky that was somewhat broken.

"Zhang Yixi, do you have a dream?" Ye Yiyi clasped her hands on her knees and asked me thoughtfully at the sky.

I asked myself in my heart, "Do I really still have dreams?" ”

"Yes."

"Ever there? Don't you have any dreams now? ”

"Yes, but now my dream is more like a redemption for me!" I smiled and said, taking another cigarette out of my cigarette case and lighting it for myself, I always need a cigarette at this time.

This time, Ye Yiyi didn't avoid my second-hand smoke: "Living for salvation, will you be very tired?" ”

"At least I won't let the people around me think I'm tired!" I took a heavy puff of my cigarette and lay down on the rocks, looking at the sky a little sluggishly as I smoked.

"If I die one day, I really hope that those who have misunderstood me will engrave the misunderstanding on my tombstone with their own hands." I said in a very calm tone, but pathos passed through my body in reverse.

Ye Yiyi looked at me with a complicated look: "Don't say that, I will feel sorry for you." ”

I smiled, I was a little tired from the gentle wind, and I closed my eyes.......

This half of my life is a misunderstood half of my life, and I never want to hurt Wang Mengmeng with evil deeds, but I did it....... I care about the brotherhood with the prince, so I am willing to pretend that I don't have any love for Shen Man, I think the prince and Shen Man both left with misunderstanding and hatred for me....... I was reluctant to leave Angel alone, I swore I had sincerely wanted to keep her, but in the end she still left with misunderstanding and hatred....... And Mohan, the woman I loved, she felt that I was not faithful enough in love, and I swore that I would only love her for the countless days that I had been waiting for her, but she would not believe it....... I was willing to create and fight for every woman I loved, but they left with a misunderstanding of me....... And Xiaomin, who hasn't really forgiven me until now!

I smiled because I thought about it too much, and my eyes became sour, thinking that this would prevent the tears from falling, but I still felt the warmth coming from the corners of my eyes.

"You're crying!" Ye Yiyi took out a tissue and handed it to me.

"No, you don't." I covered my eyes with the back of my hand, but my heart was full of painful confusion, it turned out that it was so painful to uncover my scars.

"I'm sorry, but I reminded you of those sad pasts." Ye Yiyi's tone was sincerely apologetic.

I waved my hand to show that it was okay, that no sorrow would last forever for me, and that a glass of wine and a cigarette would make me forget the pain, even if it was only temporary.

.......

Ye Yiyi lay down beside me, and she also looked up at the sky, as if she had some thoughts.

"Zhang Yixi, you have had so many love experiences, do you still have expectations for love now?" Ye Yiyi turned her head to look at me, and under the moonlight, her face seemed so clear in this night.

"Yes....... I look forward to a simple love, so simple that I met her on the crowded street, we don't need words, just a few eye contacts, and we fall in love, I don't need to care if I have a good friend who loves her deeply, she doesn't care how much I will earn a month, we laugh together when we are happy, cry together when we are sad, and we don't need to hide it....... That's the love I want! ”

Ye Yiyi looked at me a little distractedly, as if imagining the kind of love I depicted: "Is there really such a love?" ”

"No, I imagined it myself."

Ye Yiyi smiled and said, "Then you should be a complete idealist, right?" ”

"I admit that I am an idealist, but I have more respect for reality, so I will tell you that what I have just described is only what I imagined, and I have never imagined that it will come true......." I said as I stopped lying on the rocks, afraid that I would stumble again and fall into those unbearable pasts.

........

I thought it was going to be a pleasant night, but the heavy past desecrated it, and I was still a little depressed until I returned to my place.

I drank a can of beer and adjusted my emotions until I managed to divert my attention, and then I turned on my computer and continued with my unfinished work.

About an hour later, the text message on my phone rang again, and I knew it was Angel, and it was a message she sent me three days later.

Will she answer the question I asked her last time, "Can you forgive a man for disappointing a woman over and over again"?

I thought she would answer, and the reason why it took three days to reply was because she was also thinking, and three days later, she had the answer!