I laughed self-deprecatingly, "I mean, if I listen to you, I'll pretty much get a glimpse of the end between us." ”

The pupils widened more and more, and the corners of Chen Tu's mouth twitched: "Anyway, no matter what the process is, I know that we will grow old." ”

The facial expression was already stiff, and I couldn't even grin: "Chen Tu, you may still be young, you don't understand the meaning of a child to a woman, especially to a woman who has lost her own child." ”

Gritting my teeth again, I bit every word very hard: "Chen Tu, I have always been an adventurer, before I met you, I liked the outdoors, I liked to use those thrilling activities to warn myself with those thrilling activities, even if I have experienced so many tribulations, I Wu Yi is still alive." Later, we were united, and I braved the wind and rain to go up the mountain for you, and I never thought I would survive. After we divorced, I lived a life of licking blood at the tip of a knife, many times I was on the verge of life and death, maybe King Yama thought my character was too difficult, and he didn't want to accept me, so I lived. So I survived the adventure again and again. I'm already experienced with adventure, and I'm sure I'll be able to take it in stride this time. It only takes nine months. You let me try, okay? ”

Taking Chen Tu's hand off my shoulder, I kept drawing circles around his arm: "Let me try." I don't want us to follow the old path of Chen Zheng and Liang Jianfang. ”

Because of the pain, Chen Tu's face twitched, and he spoke again, his voice even more hoarse: "I'm different from Chen Zheng!" My desire for children is not as strong as Chen Zheng! For me, you accompany me to old age, which is the way I want to live the most. And Wu Yi, if you really want a child, we can adopt it in the future, it's good to adopt one, we just treat it as our own. ”

I directly took Chen Tu's hand and pressed it on my abdomen: "Chen Tu If you confess to me before I get pregnant, I may accept the proposal of adoption after being depressed for a while." But Chen Tu, if you touch it now, there is a life growing in my place, we created it, and it has the right to come out and see the world! It may seem to you that it's just a combination of sperm and egg, it's not even the size of your little thumb, but it's fate! It's crawling in my body, it's still sleeping in silence, it's not capable of deciding its own direction, the only thing it can trust and rely on is us. Chen Tu, you touch it, you feel it, you feel it, and see if you still stubbornly want to rip it off my body! ”

Chen Tu's hand didn't move at first, but slowly it became trembling, and then it broke away from my confinement and kept wandering around my abdomen, and finally, Chen Tu's eyes turned red.

He turned around, and then kicked the trash can that was placed aside: "Chen Tu, you good-for-nothing soft egg!" What did you say, stepped on the horse, I protected you, and did you do it! ”

After scolding, he pressed his back against the wall, and he ventilated back and forth several times, and finally, he said, "Tomorrow, I will find a doctor to come and give you another examination." Wu Yi, if the doctor says yes, then let's give it a try. ”

I don't know if Chen Tu and I have reached a deal, but the war that lasted between us was temporarily extinguished.

Helping me to the sofa, Chen Tu brought a basin of warm water to wash my face.

He was half-crouched there, helping me in great detail, and his care made me feel like a priceless treasure.

Seeing that the night was getting thicker, Chen Tu ordered takeout, so the two of us ate the meal silently.

When I came out of the shower, Chen Tu had been stunned by the fish-hiding cat, I called him a few times to let him take a bath, and he came back to his senses, and rushed to the bathroom without even taking his clothes, and then called me to help take it.

This time, Chen Tu washed very quickly, he came out a few minutes later, wiped himself dry, lay down next to me, tucked the quilt for me, and then grabbed my hand and rubbed it back and forth, without saying a word. ad_250_left();

In the tossing and turning, it was dawn.

In the process of waiting for the doctor Chen Tu said, I didn't have any apprehension or crampedness, but I was surprisingly calm.

At a short time ago, led by a gray-haired Dr. Zhao, eight people came and brought a bunch of medical equipment that I can't name, and they set it up with all their hands and feet, and finally I was arranged to lie there flat, subject to a series of probing and groping.

This process lasted for more than two hours, and it took all those cold instruments off my body.

After dismissing all the medical staff and calling Chen Tu over, that Dr. Zhao raised her glasses, she glanced at us, and slowly spoke: "Mr. Chen, Mrs. Chen, my next words may make you feel emotionally uncomfortable, do you need to make emotional adjustments first?" ”

Quietly grabbing my hand and putting it in his palm, Chen Tu's eyebrows were completely covered with wrinkles, and he looked at me.

No matter how stupid I was, I could have foreseen the result from Dr. Zhao's words just now, and my throat was dry for a while, and after about half a minute, I said, "Dr. Zhao, thank you very much for this trip, since what you are going to say next may cause us emotional discomfort, then you should keep it in your heart." ”

With that, I stood up with a thud.

Glancing at me deeply, Dr. Zhao slowed down his speech very slowly: "My conclusion is to terminate the pregnancy immediately." The sooner the better. ”

As if stabbed by something, I stood up straight and met her eyes: "Thank you for the conclusion." ”

A layer of anger suddenly appeared on her face, and Dr. Zhao stared at me, her tone had slowly changed from serious to cold: "Mrs. Chen, of course you can act willfully according to your ideas, but I may need to remind you that a woman's womb is like a piece of soil, if this soil is too poor, no matter what it brings, it will not sprout healthy things!" You can go your own way, but you have to think about whether you can have a healthy and healthy child! I have been practicing medicine for 35 years, I have encountered countless patients in my hands, my misdiagnosis rate is zero, I never make recommendations, I only draw conclusions, and my conclusion is to be more detailed, if you don't terminate the pregnancy quickly, not only are you alone at risk, the probability of the child being deformed is 99%! If you think that it is a mother's love for you to be stubborn and keep this child, then I can tell you that it is respect and compassion for life to stop creating an unhealthy life! That's the end of my words, you accept it or reject it, you choose! ”

After firing like a machine gun, Dr. Zhao stood up with a loud voice, and she glared at me angrily: "How can a girl who is so stubborn!" If you were a girl in my family, I would have discounted your legs! Fooling around! Forget your own life, think about the feelings of the people around you! ”

After dropping these few words, the old lady, who was no longer too old, rushed out of the guest room with a brisk walk, beckoning the medical staff to come and move the equipment.

During the whole process, I stood still and Chen Tu sat motionless, and we quietly watched as the medical staff withdrew from the house as quickly as possible.

In such a state of immobility, I saw Chen Tu's eyes with the corner of my eye, occupied by loneliness, confusion and despair, and I suddenly felt that I was not only stubborn, but even overly indulged in satisfying my own psychological feelings, so I quickly made an extremely cruel decision in my heart.

After a mess and a lonely place, Chen Tu slowly stood up, he stuck up, wrapped around me, and said half-loudly: "Wu Yi." ”

My nose was full of acid: "The reality is terrible. ”

Chen Tu's hand came up and covered my eyebrows, he opened his mouth as if he wanted to say something, and I had already picked up his own words: "Since you can't be at your mercy, then accept it." ”

Pushing Chen Tuyi away, I raised my eyebrows: "Help me find a reliable doctor with quick hands and feet." I'll let me know if I'm connected. Now, I'm going to cook, I'm going to have something to do, and I'm probably going to feel better. ”

After saying that, I walked straight to the kitchen unhurriedly, opened the refrigerator and slowly rummaged through the materials, and after a while, the table was full of things.

At this moment, Chen Tu suddenly stepped forward and grabbed my hand: "Wu Yi can cry if you want to, don't look like this, I'm afraid." ”

I let him grab it and smiled wryly, "I didn't really think about it. Now that everything has been said and the dust is nearing settle, then we don't have to worry about it anymore. I haven't been able to control my emotions for the past two days, Chen Tu, forgive me, anyway, I can't find a time machine to send me back, take care of your feelings at the time. Chen Tu, don't suffer anymore, my body is in trouble, and it has nothing to do with you, don't just take it to yourself at every turn, and keep blaming yourself. Let's all be tolerant of ourselves, or we won't be able to live this life. ”

His brows twisted into a deep knot, and Chen Tu slammed me into his arms, hugging me until I was about to suffocate, I slapped him, and he let go of me.

With each heavy heart, Chen Tu and I finally replaced the communication with the sound of pots and pans colliding, and in the silence we cooperated well, and soon got the table full of dishes.

However, our appetite did not improve because of the flavor and flavor of these dishes, and in the end, the shiny dishes almost all ended up in the trash.

These low pressures are still continuing, but when I was sleeping at night, I deviated from Chen Tu's arms several times, and was forcibly imprisoned by him.

I used to think that Chen Tu, who was resolute and efficient, was very charming and extremely cute, but he finally had such a moment that I decided to overturn my previous thoughts.

At eight o'clock in the morning, when I was washing my face at the sink, Chen Tu came over, he seemed to be trying to comfort me, he put his arms around my waist very lightly behind my back, and he said in a deep voice: "Wu Yi, I will go to Peking University Hospital later." ”

My body was completely stiff, and the handful of water in my hand didn't hit my face for a long time, and after a while, I pretended to be nothing, and said lightly in a tone without the slightest emotion: "Chen Tu, your efficiency is really high." ”

Wrapping me around a little more, Chen Tu buried his face directly in my hair, silent.

I don't dare to say that for all women, it is a lifelong regret not to be able to have children of their own in this life, but for me, it is.

I don't know if the sky above Chen Tu's head has collapsed. But I'm pretty sure that in my case, it collapsed completely, and the rubble was flying, shattering, and devastated.

But I can't show my sadness excessively, and then let it expand infinitely in the tug-of-war, and pull Chen Tu into this whirlpool to accompany me and can't extricate myself.

I kept my body level, but I let go of my hand slightly, watching the water slip through my fingers, I took a deep breath, and my tone was lighter: "Chen Tu, you hold me like this, I can't wash my face." Let go, be mature. Everyone be mature, don't look like the sky is falling. ”

I patted him on the arm again, and I said, "I want to drink milk today, it's hot, can you go and help me?" By the way, I can get a little bit of the little dodgefish, it tastes similar to mine. ”

As soon as Chen Tu walked away, I immediately buried my face, twisted the faucet to the maximum, and kept pouring water on my face, so that those tears that could not be controlled at all naturally collected with the water and flowed into the sewer.

So, I was able to walk out casually, drink the hot milk handed by Chen Tu with a calm face, and then wandered all the way to Peking University Hospital.

Probably because I was afraid that I would be stimulated by seeing a lot of pregnant women with bulging bellies in the obstetrics department, Chen Tu arranged everything in advance, so I didn't walk in line in the obstetrics department like other patients, and was arranged in a very good but lonely ward.

Without moving, I lay on the hospital bed, looking at Chen Tu, who was so capable in his usual work that he could no longer be capable, and always looked strategic, he was nervous and cramped, more like a panicked elementary school student.

Not long after, a group of doctors came, Chen Tu was invited out, as for me, after being pushed into a place similar to the operating room, not long after I fell into a deep sleep under the effect of anesthetics.

Yes, deep sleep.

No mood swings, no crying, no dreams, nothing.

Obviously I was just a little more than a month old, and I was still very small, not even the size of a peanut, but I felt that my whole body was hollowed out.

Under the domination of such a desperate state of mind, I didn't want to wake up so early, I didn't want to face reality so quickly, but the effect of the anesthetic eventually passed, and I woke up after all.

As soon as I opened my eyes, I didn't see Chen Tu, but met a pair of quiet, peaceful, beautiful and not too strange eyes.