The phone rang for a long time before it was connected, and Zuo Lan was surprised by my late call: "Yixi, is there something wrong?" ”

"I'm downstairs at your house, you come down, I have something to ask you." There was a moment of silence before I spoke.

Zuo Lan was even more puzzled: "Go down?" Come up, it's cold outside. ”

"Did Pipsqueak sleep?"

"I've slept a long time ago, I just finished the personnel form, you come up, I'll open the door for you."

.......

I smoked a cigarette downstairs before going upstairs, and Zuo Lan had already opened the door and sat in the living room waiting for me.

I walked into the living room and closed the door, Zuo Lan poured a cup of hot water and handed it to me: "Drink some hot water first, your face is frozen purple!" ”

I nodded and took the hot water from Zuo Lan's hand, and Zuo Lan sat opposite me and looked at me, waiting for me to explain what I meant.

I only took a sip of water, then put down the cup in my hand and looked at Zuo Lan...... But it's hard to speak.

Sensing that something was wrong with me, Zuo Lan asked me again, "Yixi, what is the matter with you looking for me so late?" ”

I looked into Pippi's room, gritted my teeth, and finally said to Zuo Lan, "Tell me....... Whose son is Pippi? ”

The living room was suddenly silent, as if you could hear each other's heartbeats........

.......

Zuo Lan's face sank like water, and finally said to me: "Zhang Yixi, are you crazy?" ........ Are you sure you're still awake? ”

I also calmed down and whispered, "Why do you want to go back to your hometown to give birth?" And it is said that Pipsqueak is a premature baby...... Give me an explanation, shall you? ”

"Pipsqueak was born prematurely, and I went back to my hometown to give birth because I needed my family's care." Zuo Lan looked at me without any expression and said.

"You must have all the records of giving birth to Pippi in the hospital....... Can you show me? I looked at Zuo Lan with sharp eyes and said.

"I lost it when I moved, and I don't have to prove anything to you, I hope you respect my dead husband and don't ask such a dangerous question again." Zuo Lan looked at me coldly and said.

I was speechless by Zuo Lan's words.......

"Zhang Yixi, let's go, just when we haven't met again, we won't meet again in the future!" Zuo Lan got up and looked out the door, and gave me an eviction order.

I don't know how I left Zuo Lan's residence, anyway, I left, and then I was in a blur, as if I was experiencing a dream, but there was an indescribable relief, although I knew that it was probably Zuo Lan's desire to cover up!

The mood is subtle in complexity, and then it falls into a blank again, and all emotions seem to be drowned in the thick of the night.

........

When I got home, I didn't go to sleep until the second half of the night, but I woke up before 6 o'clock and couldn't sleep again.

This morning, there was a light rain outside the window, and my mind was also in the light rain, and there were countless ridiculous thoughts swirling in my brain, which just showed that I had lost my opinion.

At noon, I asked Han Feng to eat together, and the two of them found a restaurant nearby, and after sitting down, Han Feng asked, "You asked me to eat at noon, I guess you are still stuck with that incident, right?" ”

"I went to find Zuo Lan last night......."

"What did she say?" Han Feng changed his sitting posture and looked at me with concern and asked.

"Swept away." I poured myself a full glass of wine as I spoke.

Han Feng said with an expected expression: "Zhang Yixi, I advise you not to be obsessed, just treat it as if you haven't heard the news and live your own life....... Some responsibilities do need to be borne, but the premise is that Zuo Lan needs you to be responsible, if not, you still have a so-called sense of responsibility to pester her, which is a burden for her....... And think about Angel again, if you insist on uncovering this scar that has already healed, you will hurt too many people around you! ”

I drank the wine in the glass: "You mean: I have been so confused in my life, even if Pipsqueak is really my son, I should not have it, and then Angel's side, I conceal this absurd truth and live with her for the rest of my life?" ”

"It can be understood that way." Han Feng nodded and said.

I laughed self-deprecatingly: "Then I have to live with a lie in my life?" I still reprimand others with righteous words, but in fact, I am the world's first sanctimonious hypocrite! ”

"This is an accident, Zhang Yixi, I warn you not to drill the horns, it's best if this thing is not broken!"

I didn't say anything, just poured a glass of wine and drank it all, but I still didn't know what to do.

......

I was slightly drunk, and when I returned to the office of "Seaview Coffee", I finally felt tired, so I fell asleep with a stomach full of worries, and when I woke up again, it was already 4 o'clock in the afternoon.

After sitting blankly for a while, I suddenly had a very strong desire to meet Pippi, and I understood this emotion very clearly, it was a simple father's desire for his son.

Like those unreliable fathers in the TV series, I went to the children's toy store to buy a lot of toys, and then drove to Pippi's kindergarten.

The rain was still falling, and I opened the window and looked into the school, hoping that I would be the first to spot Pippi.

After about ten minutes of waiting, a white golf ball stopped not far in front of me, and I immediately recognized it as Zuo Lan's car.

When the bell rang for the end of class, I saw Pippi with a schoolbag on his back, and Zuo Lan had already walked out of the car with an umbrella.

I hesitated for a long time, but finally got out of the car, but I didn't take the bag full of toys.

I stood beside Zuo Lan, Zuo Lan just glanced at me, and then looked at me as nothing, and I didn't care, I knew that when she decided not to have any contact with me anymore, I was just a passerby in her eyes, she had always been such a woman.

The rain suddenly became heavier, and the smell of humidity could be smelled in the air, Pipsqueak ran to Zuo Lan in small rain boots and found me standing next to Zuo Lan, and said in a happy tone: "Wow, Mom, you and Patrick are here to pick me up from school...... Are you going to take Pippi with you to eat something delicious? ”

Zuo Lan and I glanced at each other, I was a little embarrassed in the silence, Zuo Lan picked up Pippi and said, "Mom will take you to eat marshmallow ice cream later, okay?" ”

"Don't eat..... If you don't eat it, I'm going to eat grilled chicken wings. Pippi said with a shake of his little hand.

"Is it okay for Uncle to take you to eat grilled chicken wings?" I smiled and said to Pippi, but there was an indescribable bitterness in my heart, which stemmed from the fact that I thought of myself as an uncle.

"Good..... Pipsqueak wants to go with Patrick for grilled chicken wings! Pipsqueak said as he opened his arms to me and motioned for me to hug him.

I stretched out my hand to take Pippi from Zuo Lan's hand, but Zuo Lan glared at me fiercely, and then turned my back and said to Pippi in a stern tone: "Pippi, you want to eat grilled chicken wings, and my mother will take you there....... Don't talk to him again, do you hear? ”

"Mom, why don't you let Pipsqueak talk to Patrick, I love playing with him."

Zuo Lan didn't say a word, and walked towards her car with Pippi in her arms, which made Pippi cry and stretched out her hands to look at me standing in place with tears in her eyes..... This scene shattered my heart uncontrollably.