With Fang Jinghao coming to Li Xiaoyun, who was at the police station where his mother's suicide case was handled, he had been pondering for a long time, and the car drove to the destination before passively getting out of the car with him.

Fang Jinghao took her cold hand, walked into the police station, and helped her go through the formalities to get the deceased's suicide note, which had turned yellow and old.

"I want to see for myself." Li Xiaoyun broke free of his hand, hid under a tree on the side and sat on a chair, and hurriedly opened the letter.

Every word in it began to meet her eyes.

Ah Jun, Yi Yi:

Mom knows that I will be long gone by the time you read this letter, but I still want to write it down because it is the last thing I can leave you with.

I just want you to know that Mom had to leave you behind! I was hopelessly ill, but I didn't have a dime on me, and to be honest, I didn't have the courage to live in the world. I originally wanted to take your brothers and sisters to jump into the sea together, but seeing your cute little faces, I really can't make up my mind, if you want to die, let me die alone!

I don't want you to know that your mother is a useless person who doesn't even have the courage to stand up to fate, and I admit that this would be a very unsuccessful example for you.

I don't want you to cry over my death, you are still so young, how can I bear to make you sad because you have lost your mother?

The only thing I can do is make you think that I don't want you so that you can be strong, right? Tell Mom, are you really strong kids now?

Hate me, hate me, if resentment can give you the courage to live in this world, then this is the only gift that my useless mother can leave you!

It's my obsession that hurts you. I was just bent on not letting that damn man get my way, and I refused to divorce your father in order to keep that woman out the door, but I didn't realize that I was wrong until the end, and if I hadn't been blinded by hatred, you wouldn't have had such an unhappy childhood. In the end, I was cruelly abandoned by him, it doesn't matter if I suffer alone, but I can't let you suffer with me. If I had left the Zhao family earlier, the three of us might have been able to start a new life happily together.

I am a failed mother, especially emotionally, so I hope you must be brave enough to find true love, find someone who truly loves you, and use the happy life of the second half of your life to make up for the damage caused by your mother. Don't always dwell on the hatred of the past, face the future calmly, cherish the people around you, and be able to see you happy, and your mother will be happy for you in heaven!

"Mom......" Li Xiaoyun, who was in tears, kneaded the letter paper into her heart, and the pain over the years turned into tears, which kept flowing.

I don't know how long I cried, Li Xiaoyun just kept crying until a man's hoarse voice sounded in her ears: "Don't cry!" If you keep crying, I won't be able to stand it! ”

Raising her blurry teary eyes, looking at Fang Jinghao's loving and pitiful gaze, she threw herself into his arms and cried: "I'm such a bastard, I always thought she didn't want me anymore, I used to hate her so much!" However, I didn't expect her to have so much bitterness in her heart. ”

"And now? Do you still resent her, hate her? ”

"I don't hate, I don't hate anymore. My mother loved me, and she was afraid that my brother and I would be hurt, so she chose this path. Li Xiaoyun's tears penetrated the fabric on Fang Jinghao's chest.

"You don't mind showing me her letter, do you?" Fang Jinghao quickly browsed the content of the letter, and couldn't help but secretly sigh at the good intentions of a mother.