After a long silence, the prince finally spoke to Shen Man again: "I admit that I have what you said, I am a possessive and extremely egoistic person, but I am also the person who loves you the most in this world..... If there is no Zhang Yixi, maybe you will enjoy my attachment to you, but because you have him in your heart, my attachment has become your burden, so we have entered a vicious circle...... Zhang Yixi deliberately alienated you because of my attachment, you because of his alienation, his instinctive approach to him, and I am even more persistent because of your proximity to him........"

The prince shook his head bitterly: "I thought that after we got married, this would be an end, but ..... When you fought for him to block a stranger at the press conference, do you know how I feel as your husband? .....”

Shen Man still had tears in his eyes: "Do you know what consequences he would face if he really stabbed Sun Hai at that time?" Whatever you feel, I have to do it......"

The prince looked at me with hatred in his eyes.

I closed my eyes, exhaled the dull breath that had accumulated in my heart, and after a long time, said, "There is nothing wrong with it, we have all been doing what we think we should do, and there is no so-called self, because we are all self-...... I hope that after I leave, it will be a real end, and I hope that in a few years, when we look back on what we are today, we will only feel ridiculous, laughing at our ignorance, and not regretting it! ”

After a pause, I continued: "I remember Meng Meng once described me like this, she said: For so many years, you are very much like a lonely dog, and this dog is not as strong as it seems, so fearless, so courageous, on the surface I think you seem to be quite smart, in fact, I am a child in the eyes of others, a child who lacks a sense of security, lacks a sense of trust, has low self-esteem, and is cowardly, and this child thinks that he is very smart, can see through others, has foresight, and does things without leak........ ”

"Yes, now that I think back to what Meng Meng said to me, I know how apt she described it, I was insecure, so I hurt Zuo Lan, Lin Xi and even my senior sister, I lacked a sense of trust, so I hurt Qingyi again...... I am inferior in front of Anqi, and I am cowardly in front of Mo Han...... So I've been trying to escape by thinking that I was leaky, but I still hurt so many people...... None of this was what I thought, but it happened...... I don't know how to redeem my life, but I envy you, Prince, because you can still redeem ...... And I can only continue to run away from ......"

I didn't say any more, I was sad at the moment, but I was even more determined to go to Ireland with Chen Qingyi, because all I could do in my life was to escape, and use escape to solve all problems, so that I don't have to be angry about who betrayed me, I don't have to grieve because of Anqi's marriage to someone else, and I don't have to feel guilty because I ruined Shen Man and the prince.....

.......

Grandpa's funeral was held two days later, and the prince and Shen Man attended the funeral, only this time they didn't have the previous rivalry, they looked very peaceful, maybe it was my decision to leave, so that they had this peace after the dust settled.

In front of the tombstone, we stared, in the face of the grandfather who had returned to the dust, I was surprisingly calm, I didn't want to cause any more pain to myself, because I knew that one day I would lie under the tombstone like this, since all the pain and happiness have disappeared one day, why should I care too much about the falsehood of life, everything should be regarded as an unavoidable passing year.

On the way back, me, Chen Qingyi, Pippi, my father, and my mother walked together, and I said to them for a long time: "Dad, Mom, I have already thought about it, I want to immigrate to Ireland with Pippi and Qingyi." ”

Dad and Mom glanced at each other, but didn't say anything, but Pippi asked excitedly, "Dad, are you telling the truth?" Can I live with my mom again? ”

"Hmm."

Dad and Mom looked at Pippi, their eyes were very reluctant, but they still said, "Go, as long as you are together, we will have no regrets!" ”

Chen Qingyi took over the words: "Dad, Mom, you should also immigrate with you, let me and Yixi fulfill our responsibilities as children!" ”

Dad and Mom shook their heads and said, "It's good for Yixi to take Pippi, we also have the responsibility of being children, now that Yixi's grandfather is gone, only his grandmother is left, we can't leave her and run abroad!" ”

"Take grandma with you, the climate there is very good and very livable!" Chen Qingyi added.

"Your grandmother was born and raised in this small town all her life, foreign culture, lifestyle, she can't adapt to it, you can go with peace of mind, come back to see us every year, we are very happy!" My dad patted me on the shoulder and smiled.

Chen Qingyi and I looked at each other and chose to remain silent, we both understood that it was impractical for my family to follow the immigrants.

......

This night, I slept with Pippi, and I looked at the ceiling for a while, and Pipsqueak looked at it with a villain book in her arms.

"Dad, why do you look a little melancholy?" Pipsqueak asked me.

This little thing, what words the teacher taught him recently, he will use them bluntly, I smiled, and said: "I'm dazed, not depressed, my dad has long passed the age of melancholy!" ”

"Oh, what does that mean, is it as edible as mangoes?"

"It's a state of not being able to eat at a loss, that is, I don't know what I'm going to do."

"Then why are you at a loss?" Pipsqueak asked.

I touched his head and changed the subject and asked, "Pippi, tell Dad, why do you like Mother Chen so much?" ”

"She smells the same as her mother, their hair is soft, and they all speak in a nice voice.....

I was a little stunned, and then I recalled that Chen Qingyi seemed to really use the same flavor of perfume with Zuo Lan, they both had OL-type short hair, and their voices were also the same standard host voice, and I hadn't paid attention to these details......

Pippi added, "The most important thing is because Chen's mother loves me as much as her mother!" ”

I nodded..... The phone rang unexpectedly.

I picked it up from the cabinet and looked at it, it was Wang Jing calling, but my heart was no longer calm, I knew what Wang Jing meant by calling me.

"Zhang Yixi, I'm sorry to you first, I originally planned to go to your grandfather's funeral with Tian Tian, but there was something wrong with the company, so I really couldn't leave...... I hope you mourn! ”

"Thank you."

Wang Jing on the other end of the phone was silent for a moment and said: "In addition, what I want to tell you is: I asked Mr. An's special assistant to inquire, Mr. An has no marriage contract, and the reason why the special assistant told you that Mr. An was going to get married that day was because she couldn't be angry with you for being like that to Mr. An, just to retaliate and stimulate you, so that you can also taste that taste....... Later, when you asked Mr. An, she admitted that there was nothing to do! ”