Wang Jing's words made me fall into an uncertain emotion, and I didn't know what to say about Anqi's lack of a marriage contract.

"Zhang Yixi, why don't you speak, Anqi doesn't have a marriage contract, isn't it a good thing?" Wang Jing asked me suspiciously.

After a long silence, I said to Wang Jing, "I have decided to immigrate to Ireland." ”

"Did I hear me right? You're emigrating to Ireland ......! Wang Jing sighed incredulously.

"You heard it right, I immigrated to Ireland with my son and Chen Qingyi."

This time it was Wang Jing who fell into silence, and he said to me for a long time: "Zhang Yixi, you have to think twice....... Why did Mr. An lie to you that you have a marriage contract? This shows that she still cares about you, and if she doesn't care, there is no need to tell you this about how and how you love...... You've hurt her once, and if you hurt her again, you're ....... I can't rate it! ”

Wang Jing's words made me have mixed feelings, and I seemed to be approaching that terrible fork again!

In the face of my silence, Wang Jing continued: "I think you have 10,000 reasons to immigrate to Ireland, but I think it is necessary for you to meet with Mr. An before leaving, if she doesn't care about your departure, then you don't have to worry about it, if she cares a lot, you still have to think twice....... Don't let miscommunication and misunderstandings ruin the two of you again! ”

It is true that Wang Jing's suggestion is very sensible, and it is necessary for me to do it, but I am afraid that I will give up the decision to go to Ireland the moment I see Angel...... Then it must be Pippi and Chen Qingyi who will be hurt, and this is also a secondary injury for them! And from the bottom of my heart, I really want to escape, maybe Ireland is the paradise of my dreams...... There is the sea, there is beer, there is a manor, there is the relaxation of strolling in the sunset, and there is the comfort of lighting a cigarette with the sea breeze! And the country is just repeating the endless pain and entanglement, and the enemy who wants to kill me at any moment!

After a long time, I said to Wang Jing: "I am still loyal to my choice...... I believe that no matter who she is with, she will be happier than with me, so I wish her happiness! ”

Wang Jing sighed: "...... I've said everything that should be said, and if you insist on doing so, then everyone should settle their destiny! ”

.......

After ending the call with Wang Jing, I was very depressed, and I said to Pippi: "Dad goes out to smoke a cigarette, you go to bed first, and tomorrow you have to get up early to go to school with Dad to go to school to go through the withdrawal procedures!" ”

"But Dad, why do you smoke, you should go to bed too!"

I didn't answer Pipsqueak, I just touched his head and said, "Good, go to sleep......."

"Okay, then Dad, remember to rinse your mouth after smoking."

"Well, I promise!"

.......

It was a dry and cold night, and I stood on the balcony and lit a cigarette, looking into the distance, and at the moment I didn't know where Angel was and if she had slept peacefully......

Looking from afar, my vision gradually blurred, I seemed to see Angel far away in the world, she was wearing a red and white coat, working under the dim lamp, no one gave her a few thoughtful words, no one brought her a cup of hot coffee, she was a little lonely, some lost, some helpless....... In the make-up mirror with the light in the light, I saw the moist corners of her eyes.

I struggled to let my reverie leave the image, and I breathed deeply, trying to calm myself.

But I couldn't calm down, and I couldn't help but think back to the women I had experienced over the years...... Wang Mengmeng went to Europe to study, has not married yet, and has entered the ranks of older leftover women, Zuo Lan died in a hurry, Shen Man is experiencing a marriage that makes her painful, Mo Han is divorced, and An Qi is grieving in the sinking...... They are not doing well, some of this bad is caused by objective factors, such as Mo Han and Wang Mengmeng, and some are caused by my mistakes, such as Shen Man, such as Anqi, such as Zuo Lan......

It took me a long time to realize that I had neglected Lin Xi, and among my many girlfriends, there was Lin Xi, why did I forget her? I was looking for answers.

In just a moment, I understood: because among the many women who have had emotional entanglements with me, she is now the most complete, listening to Chen Qingyi: she has accepted Colin's marriage proposal, and they will be married in Ireland in the near future, and at the end of summer next year, she and Colin's first baby will also be born.

When I learned that Lin Xi's life was perfect, I didn't care about it anymore, so I would forget about her.

I suddenly remembered the journal she had left me many years ago, and now I wanted to see what the most complete woman of the present life would have recorded in the diary four years ago, and she had said that when I wanted to read the contents of the diary, I could break open the locked diary.

I turned back into the room from the balcony and found the diary in the cabinet in the study that I would probably forget for the rest of my life.

........

Four years have passed, and it has been so long and so short for me, at least when I face this journal again, it feels like I'm back in time.

It was the night before Lin Xi's wedding, and she came to our former rental house with her wedding dress, and then she put on her wedding dress and asked me to take her for a ride on an electric car on a late autumn night.

This is a night that I will never forget, because I enjoyed the sweetness of this night, painful but short-lived, looking at Lin Xi standing in front of me in a wedding dress, I thought she was my wife, but in the end, this dream was cruelly broken in reality, and it was the diary that Lin Xi left at the beginning that completely shattered the dream.

For a long time after that, I was thinking about this diary, but I didn't want to open it, and I also knew that if I grabbed Lin Xi that night, didn't let her leave, and then opened this diary, maybe she would give up the marriage that was only because of material union and return to me again.

But after all, I didn't do it, because I was so poor at that time, even if I left Lin Xi, what else could I give her besides being at a loss and giving her a future that she couldn't see?

.......

When I really wanted to open this diary, which had been sealed for a long time, I realized that it took a lot of courage, because the contents of it might have been a flogging and torture of me!

I lit a cigarette, smoked silently for a long time, and finally raised my hand to break the lock, the process was so simple, so simple that I was stunned, if I wanted to see it, it was just a matter of raising my hand, but I waited until four years later, after years of years before I opened it!!

The lock was broken, and the diary was like a freed trapped beast, turning page by page under the blowing of the wind, and I saw the dense words that had been recorded.

These words mean the past, they mean memories, they mean emotions, and they mean destruction...... But after being destroyed, can everything be reborn like the weeds that have been burned by wildfire?