She was very surprised and asked rhetorically: "Am I attractive?" ”

Qi Yanmo handed her the medicine and said slowly: "An An, you are just too unconfident. You love to read, love to learn, love to laugh, see the mentally ill will not discriminate, and do not skimp on your smile, although your smile always carries a trace of sadness, but I have seen when you smile sincerely, you are very attractive at that time, and people feel very warm. ”

Su Nian'an swallowed the medicine in one go, and said slowly, "Yanmo, are you sure you're talking about me?" ”

Where does she love to read, where does she love to study, where does she love to laugh? She just doesn't want to give herself time to think about Qin Muchen when she reads, she studies because she wants to be self-reliant, and she can live a good life without any help, she loves to laugh? Now she is just a barely perfunctory smile, she is good to the mentally ill, she is afraid that one day she will become like them, she hopes that others will be good to her at that time.

He smiled lightly and rubbed her hair, which made Su Nian'an's pupils shrink in an instant, "An An, maybe you don't know that you are very attractive, but many people in the same family like you." ”

Someone likes her? Su Nianan was a little surprised, there are not many people in this school who know Chinese, and many people even have language communication barriers with her, many times, what the teacher says in the classroom is not a sentence she translates, she always carries a dictionary, and all the time she doesn't understand the record, and then go to the library to check it, fortunately, there are few foreign teachers in the school who know Chinese, she often goes to ask for advice, as for classmates? Except for those in the same dormitory, she has very little contact.

Because whether she is eating or in the library, she has a humanoid 'online translation dictionary' Qi Yanmo by her side, and there will be other men approaching?

But no matter what position she stands, maybe she really needs to try, maybe he can really bring her light?

Su Nianan hesitated again and again, and slowly spoke: "Qi Yanmo, I try to accept your kindness, but I really can't guarantee that I will like you, if I still didn't have a little heart for you a few years ago, can we still be friends?" ”

"Okay."

He hooked his lips and smiled, not handsome enough, but elegant and moderate, he couldn't get into her heart, but he could always make her feel warm. Does she need such a person to warm her and heal her scarred heart?

Since that day, Su Nian'an has not just shifted her attention to books, occasionally she will ask Qi Yanmo to take her out for a walk, in the romantic and warm France, you can see couples hugging and kissing on the street, she has not walked out of her campus for several months, and has never enjoyed a leisurely slow time.

They never held hands, just walked side by side.

The misty trail has a romantic sense of mystery, Su Nian'an walked on this trail, his heart was like water, no impetuousness, no restlessness, and at the end of the trail was the misty castle, which looked full of quiet green. She fell in love with it at first sight.

You can relax and enjoy yourself, not only visually, but also a lot of touches on her soul. I used to think that the most romantic was 'Venice', but after really feeling a relatively hurried trip to Venice, she suddenly found that this slow life in France may be more suitable for her.

Looking at the young couples hugging and kissing around them, and looking at the old people with gray hair walking hand in hand, it began to make Su Nianan feel that France is a magical place, maybe it is really like what Yin Biwei said - you are not in love when you arrive in France, unless you lose your sense of sight, hearing and touch! Keep it simple, unless you're a wooden man!

Is the person who accompanies her also suitable for her?

Su Nianan lowered his eyes, thinking about Qi Yanmo, but he could only be called moved, he could be regarded as a friend and a relative, but he could never see him as his boyfriend and a person who would accompany him through his life in the future. Is it because she has been looking forward to a vigorous love, or is it because the two of them are really too bland, plain like ordinary friends who can't be ordinary friends, or because she still can't forget that person?

She doesn't know herself, she doesn't know what kind of person she will like now, she doesn't know who she will be attracted to now, she doesn't know if Qi Yanmo is suitable for her, and she doesn't know if she can forget that person.

Qi Yanmo has never persecuted her, and even treated her surprisingly well.

He is not a person who will do everything possible to make her happy, but he is a person who will be by her side all the time and not make her sad.

But his lack of asking for anything in return seemed to make her even more unimpressed. She will be afraid, she will always have an inexplicable uneasiness in her heart, she will always worry that everything she is used to will be reversed again, and she is afraid that she will not be able to bear it next time.

It's not easy to like someone, it's even harder to fall in love with someone, not to mention that she has had pain, and she can't forget it, and she can't erase the uneasiness and gloom in her heart, how can she accept another emotion?

She was in the dark, and if she couldn't get out, how could she see the sun?

She smiled faintly and said to Qi Yanmo: "Let's come here for a walk when we have time in the future, Paris is indeed a good place." ”

Qi Yanmo began to introduce Paris to Su Nian'an, and talked about it eloquently. Su Nian'an heard it extremely seriously, this is a city that makes her feel full of unknowns, this is a romantic country, and it is full of love all the time.

She wants to be among them, to laugh and fall in love here. But even if she listened to it again, she just had a better impression of this city, and for Qi Yanmo in front of her, she looked at him like a teacher.

He is like a teacher who is giving her knowledge, but not like a man who is pursuing her. Although he is good to her, it is not like a pursuit, just like a long-time friend, he doesn't need words, he can know what she wants with a look.

No surprises, no passion. Occasionally, Su Nianan thinks that this kind of love seems to be good, but there is no girl who doesn't love romance and surprises. Although Su Nianan never asked Qi Yanmo for anything, she had hinted to him that she liked something, but he seemed to be able to only read her academic eyes, and he couldn't read the thoughts of the little woman in her heart.

"Yanmo, have you ever thought about your future and why did you choose this major? Do your parents approve of this? ”

Since they are familiar with the An family, Qi Yanmo's family must also be rich and official, but which family's parents would be willing to let their children choose psychiatry? If Father An didn't feel that he owed her too much, she thought he wouldn't agree. But I'm a girl anyway, so I won't have too much pressure on work and life, but a boy chooses this-

Qi Yanmo smiled lightly, looked into the distance, and slowly spit out: "I used to have a girlfriend who loved me very much, but she always wondered if I had someone outside, always checked my phone, and she had to follow her when she was partying with friends, she couldn't wait to stare at me all the time." There was no personal space, we argued a few times, I proposed to break up, but she couldn't accept the result, and ended up with depression. ”

Su Nianan was a little surprised, there were a lot of questions he wanted to ask, but he waited patiently for him to continue.

"During that time, she was in a trance all day long, she didn't eat or drink, and she couldn't sleep at night, her parents refused to take her to the hospital because of face, but begged me to see her, to accompany her, I was with her whenever I had time, I fed her and she would eat, but I would also have my own affairs. I still remember that day, my parents called me home in an emergency, and I told her to be obedient, and I also called her parents to watch her more. But before I got home, I received the news from her parents that she had jumped to her death, and at that time, I thought that psychiatry was a very important subject. ”

Qi Yanmo's words caused Su Nian'an to think deeply, if she had depression during that time, she might really be like his predecessor, because she was not afraid of death at that time, at that time she only hoped to escape from Qin Muchen's control and escape from Qin Muchen's torture.

Looking back now, thankfully, fortunately, she was not too depressed, she was not alone.

"That's none of your business! Don't blame yourself for all your faults. ”

Qi Yanmo smiled softly: "Am I that stupid? Her life is not something I can control, but the reason for it is still because of me at the beginning, I feel a little guilty, if I take her to check her spirit at that time, and the doctor prescribes some medicine to relieve her condition, I think maybe it won't be like this. ”

Su Nianan lowered her eyebrows and said thoughtfully, "Is it true that every successful parent cares most about his own face?" How could they ignore their daughter's body? I never wondered if that girl was fortunate or unfortunate to be born into such a family. But once had you, a twenty-four filial boyfriend, I think she should still be very happy when you are in love. As for the suspicion in the back, you also know that women are easy to be cranky. ”

"When did An An think of one to show me?"

"Qi Yanmo, you're kidding me!"

She chased Qi Yanmo like crazy and couldn't help laughing. Qi Yanmo stopped, let Su Nian'an beat, he stared at her, "An An, you just now are the real you, very energetic, and you smile very sweetly." ”

Su Nianan shrugged her shoulders, withdrew her hand, and smiled, "But that's not a lady." ”

Qi Yanmo couldn't help laughing, and said very bluntly: "An An, you don't look like a lady now." ”

Su Nianan glanced at him and said very seriously: "You still love to tell lies so much." ”

This was the first time, Su Nian'an forgot her sadness, and when she was crazy, Qin Muchen's figure was not reflected in her brain, but after calming down, she thought of Qi Yanmo's words, which was a point that Qin Muchen repeatedly mentioned at the beginning - she had no vitality.