She didn't want to.

Su Nian'an's expression was a little stiff, she didn't know what to react to, she had guessed that Qi Yanmo might have said these words just now, but she had already deliberately skipped the topic, but he still said it.

She really didn't know what to do, she would never accept this feeling, but she didn't know how to refuse, she didn't know how to refuse without hurting him.

Qi Yanmo, you are very good, but you are less motivated, less heartbeating.

He smiled softly and held her hand, "Nian'an, you don't need to say anything, I know your answer now, but I will keep trying, trying until you change your mind, trying to make you have me in your heart." ”

Su Nianan looked at Qi Yanmo, never said a word of refusal, and turned his face, "Don't waste time on me." ”

Qi Yanmo smiled lightly, "That's not a waste, you don't need to take the initiative, everything is up to me." ”

He is getting better and better to her, appearing by her side for longer and longer, he knows all her whereabouts, and he even appears in her class, as a substitute teacher, but the more he is like this, the more uneasy Su Nian'an's heart becomes.

She couldn't accept his kindness, and every time he smiled, it made her feel an invisible pressure.

"Qi Yanmo, don't be so nice to me."

The corners of his mouth hooked up a hint of curvature, and a faint smile hung on it, "Nian'an, you deserve my kindness to you." ”

But your goodness can only make me think of Qin Muchen, and it can only remind him of his good past. Su Nian'an bit her lip, frowned, and looked at the upper of her shoes, "I'm not worth it, you know?" I have a person in my heart, even if you are good to me, I can't accept it. ”

Qi Yanmo was very relaxed, and there was still that familiar smile on her face, "Nian'an, do you know? There are some things that you may regret for a lifetime if you don't do them. I'm good to you, I didn't think about asking for any response, I know that you have someone in your heart, and if I take action, it may make you shift your focus to me, but if I don't take any action, then you don't even have a little bit of me in your heart. ”

Su Nian'an was a little big, she never thought that Qi Yanmo would like her, she just treated him as a brother and a relative, but after he deviated from the track of her relatives, she was even afraid to see him, she was afraid that she would hurt him by saying ugly things on impulse, and she was afraid that they wouldn't even be friends.

"I ......"

"Nian'an, don't say anything, I just want to be nice to you."

Su Nian'an bit her lip, but she would feel that she owed him a lot, and she would feel that he was so good to her, but she didn't give the slightest response, which was a very hateful thing. She—

As the days passed, Qi Yanmo still supervised her to eat, took her for a walk, appeared in her class from time to time, appeared downstairs in her dormitory, not only the dormitory attendants knew about him, but even the dormitory administrator knew about his existence.

Su Nianan knew that he was good and promised to go out together on Christmas Day. But ushered in Christmas, she was rarely sick, she was lying on the bed, shivering with cold, holding the quilt tightly, with a splitting headache and a hoarse throat.

The classmates in the same dormitory had already gone out, and she was so uncomfortable that she didn't have the strength to pour a glass of water when she thought about it. She closed her eyes and comforted herself in her heart, everything would be fine when she fell asleep and woke up, but when she was sick, people's hearts were fragile, she felt lonely in a foreign country, and she began to miss the taste of her family......

She picked up the phone, but inexplicably pressed Qin Muchen's mobile phone, she forgot the jet lag, but it was a woman who answered, and she quickly hung up the phone.

Tears fell inexplicably, Qin Muchen, it turns out that forgetting is such a difficult thing, but our love has been for a few days, and you have been good to me for a few days, but I have taken several times as long to forget you, but I still can't erase the thoughts of you in my brain.

I want to say, I'm so uncomfortable, I want to be by your side.

But there are always other women around you.

Su Nianan smiled bitterly and hugged the quilt and cried. The physical pain and the psychological discomfort were superimposed, and he muttered to himself: "Bastard Qin Muchen, you bastard!" You're a big bastard through and through! But why you are like this, I can't forget it, obviously there are other women around me, why I still can't forget it! ”

The sound of the key opening the door, Su Nianan thought it was a roommate, stopped crying, and secretly hid in the quilt to wipe her tears.

"Nian'an, what's wrong with you? Uncomfortable? Sick? An eager voice, a warm hand on her forehead, obviously very warm, but Su Nianan cried more fiercely than just now.

Qi Yanmo, why are you being so good to me, why!

"Don't cry, I'll be there for you." Qi Yanmo wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes with his hands, wiped the sweat from her forehead with a towel, helped her up, and brought her a cup of hot water.

"Drink a little to moisten your throat, do you have any cold medicine here, if you don't want it, I'll go out and buy it now."

Su Nian'an shook her head, she didn't have the habit of preparing medicine.

Qi Yanmo asked her to lie down, and left in a hurry. Su Nianan bit her lip, obviously he was so good to her, why did she still think about Qin Muchen in her heart, why didn't she call him, but dialed the person who would not appear by her side at the first time?

Su Nian'an, you are really a big fool. Obviously, there is a good person by your side, why do you have to go near and far, or ask for a person who is impossible at all!

She closed her eyes and didn't let the tears flow, she didn't know how Qi Yanmo got the key to the dormitory and how he entered the girls' dormitory, but he really moved her and warmed her heart this time.

The temperature of his palm, his concerned tone, his appearance seemed to give her hope, and his originally sad and torn heart healed, but she understood that this was just moving, not moving, but he had a place in her heart.

After a while, Qi Yanmo came back, holding porridge and medicine in his hand, he took a spoon to feed her personally, Su Nianan looked at him, slightly stunned.

Qi Yanmo blew a few mouthfuls of the porridge in the spoon and smiled gently, "It shouldn't be hot." ”

Su Nianan closed his eyes, "Don't push me so well, okay?" I don't know how to bear your feelings, from the time we know now, you have changed from being good to me to being good to me, but I ...... But he was stingy with his response, Qi Yanmo, do you really not mind if you just pay without return? But even if I don't mind, I don't mind, I feel that I am very hateful, I can't tolerate you in my heart, but I still let you do this, am I very hateful? ”

"Nian'an, don't think too much, drink the porridge first, wait for the medicine, sleep, and wake up with nothing."

His gentle smile, his attentiveness and intimacy, what should she do with him?

But Qi Yanmo, have you ever thought that no matter how well you treat me, I won't like you, and no matter how much you care about me and how to stay by my side, I won't be tempted?

But how could she bear to say such a thing to him? She can't hurt a person so much, but the beating sound of her heart clearly tells her that this is not love, there is no heartbeat, there is no throbbing, only intimacy, almost accustomed to his appearance, almost accustomed to being taken care of by him, but when she is the saddest, she is not thinking about him.

It's ironic.

Su Nian'an looked at Qi Yanmo's concerned look, she finished the porridge one bite at a time, he didn't immediately help her lie down, but played some soothing music for her, he slowly spoke: "Nian'an, in fact, your father intends to let us go home for the New Year this time and get engaged, I don't know if you will like me, so I have been working hard to make you accustomed to my existence and my goodness." A woman doesn't necessarily have to choose what she likes, if you like him, it's good that he just likes you, but where in the world are there so many lucky things. If you like him, he doesn't like you, even if you get married, the marriage will not be happy, a woman needs to find a man who cares for herself, he likes you more than you like him, then he will be better for you. ”

She knows that she knows all the theories, but when it actually happens, the theory can never compare to her heart, she doesn't want to forget, she can't forget, she always has a place in her heart called 'Qin Muchen', if you touch it, she will feel distressed and sad, but it is her weakest place, the place where she doesn't want to touch the most but can't get rid of.

Qi Yanmo smiled softly, "Nian'an, I don't need you to take the initiative, I'll take the initiative." You just need to accept my goodness, we are plain, isn't it good to get along with each other? ”

Su Nianan gritted her teeth, should she refuse, and whether she could refuse. If she agreed, did she give him a false hope, but if she refused, she refused before she tried, what if he could pull her out of the swamp called 'Qin Muchen'?

She didn't want to be trapped, she didn't want to waste too much time on Qin Muchen's body, but she also needed time to accept it, and she needed time to digest the happiness that came too quickly.

"Is it because our parents want us to be together, or is it your own will? Qi Yanmo, I hope you can say it from your heart, I don't want you to be good to me because of my father, and you want to be with me. What is the difference between that kind of matchmaker and pressure, not necessarily the result of the marriage that the parents are optimistic about is happy. I also don't want me to stand by the people who are with me, just because of a few words from my father. You know what I mean? ”

Su Nianan raised his eyes and looked at Qi Yanmo, waiting for his reply.

"An An—"

Su Nian'an's face turned pale, and Qi Yanmo continued: "I don't know if I can call you like this, but I have shouted it thousands of times in my heart, I said before, I was tempted at the first sight of you, at that time I didn't know that you were Uncle An's daughter, and I didn't know that we would be in the same school, do you believe it?" It's a kind of fate. Maybe I'm not very good at talking, but An An, if I was so good to you just because of a few words from your father, do you think I'm too obedient, or do you think you're not attractive? ”