I thought he was bored, so I smiled and I lowered my head and said, "Knowingly, don't you think it's boring?" ”

Ning Yuan looked at me with far-reaching eyes, and after a moment of silence, he asked me, "Quiet, is it worth it?" ”

I didn't quite understand his words, "What is worth it or not?" ”

He said, "Is it worth it to give him a baby?" ”

I don't know if Ning Yuan knows something, that's why he asked me this question.

I laughed again and emphasized: "First, I gave birth to a child for myself, not for him, this child, whether he wants it or not, I don't care, as long as I want it." ”

"Second, there is no worthiness or not, as long as it is what I want, it is worth it."

He nodded, and then said to me, "You've changed." ”

I smiled at the corner of my lips: "People always change, and you have changed too, haven't you?" ”

Sensing that what I had said, he nodded.

I asked, "So do you think I'm getting better or worse?" ”

"In the past, although you didn't have a good temper and didn't like it, you were innocent and happy, and you were a rare rose, which would always leave a deep impression."

"Now you are mature, and you are more resilient than the impulsive and fiery you used to be." After a pause, he didn't look at me, but looked away, as if disappointed and as if stunned: "If you can, I hope you haven't changed, then few people can stand you, and ......"

"It will also be easier to satisfy happiness than it is now."

I also think he's right, if I'm still the same person I used to be, I'll be more satisfied, I'll be happier and won't have many people who can stand me, maybe I'm still single now, maybe I'll be able to wait until he comes back to receive me.

But this is just a hypothesis, and it doesn't hold water. ad_250_left();

"If it had been before, you would never have had this child."

"That's right, if it had been before, I would never have had this child......" I said silently in my heart, so I have followed Huaxu for all these years, I have never been pregnant, and I have always done a good job of contraception.

Because I never allow accidents to happen and I know to protect myself.

Slightly distracted, I suddenly remembered the phone call that day, the childish voice on the phone, the child was called Hua Xu's father.

Thinking of this, my heart was stung for a moment, and something was not good.

After that phone call, Hua Xu didn't call again, and I don't know if it was really busy, or because I already had a child who could call Dad, so my unborn became less important.

Because so far, he has not been able to hold this child.

I chatted with Ning Yuan for a while, and my mother and Xiao Zhao came back.

After those conversations, it was as if I had no common language with him, and most of them were silent, except for him, who kept talking.

He talked about some of his things abroad, about his confusion and depression when he first went abroad, about the treatment process of his hands, and about some friends around him.

I listened quietly like a listener.

I suddenly remembered that I was in love with him before, and it seemed that I was talking a lot at that time, most of the time I was talking, he was listening, and from time to time he would pick me up and say a few words.

At that time, we were fighting and had a lot of common language.

And yet now...... I didn't seem to know what to say to him.

When my mom came back, I felt relieved because I was finally able to go back to my room and hide for a while.

"Xiao Zhao, you help me stay with me for a while, I'm a little tired, go to the bedroom and lie down for a while."

After all, I am pregnant, and I have the habit of taking a nap every afternoon, but today I sat here with me for an afternoon without resting, and I was really tired at this time.

"Okay." Xiao Zhao answered me, turned his head and said to Ning Yuan apologetically as a half-joking: "Considerate of a pregnant woman, she usually has the habit of taking a nap, but she didn't sleep today, so she is probably tired at this time." ”

Ning Yuan nodded: "I understand." ”

He said to me, "All right, leave me alone, go and rest." ”

In the evening, Ning Yuan left after eating.

Before leaving, he asked for my phone number, and I gave it to him.

Not long after he left, I received a text message from him.

He said, "Rest early, I'll come back tomorrow."

Tomorrow? I don't know, is he going to leave, or will he take the time to drive over tomorrow?

Although I didn't understand, I didn't ask, just replied: Don't toss.

After my reply, the text message was terminated.

Xu is because of Ning Yuan, so in the dead of night at this time, I thought of a lot of things from the past.

At that time, we were simple and happy, even if we didn't have money, even if we weren't rich, but we had a common dream, so we always had a lot of common language.

Even if life is not satisfactory, every day is happy for us, until I meet Li Lu, everything has changed.

Youth is like the wind, it will be scattered when it is gently blown, and it will not be able to hold it, and even the memories will be gradually blown away.

At this time, I remember more things in my mind about me and Hua Xu, those things that I have always wanted to forget, but at this time, they are so clear.

Even if it's all bad, it's all about me and his memories.

His cruelty, his domineering, his ruthlessness, his unreasonableness, and his self-deeds are so profound that they can't forget it.

Listening to Xiao Zhao's gentle breathing, I knew that she was asleep, but I was so difficult to fall asleep, and this night, I didn't sleep until late.

Because I slept late at night, I woke up the next morning and it was already three poles of the sun.

My mother has gone to kindergarten, and Xiao Zhao and I are the only ones left in the house.

When I woke up, I heard Xiao Zhao's voice, a very low voice, accompanied by the noisy sound of cars outside the window, intermittently.

Her low-pitched voice, and the way she speaks, always give me a sense of deference and caution, which makes me wonder who she is talking to.

Opening the bedroom door, her voice on the phone in the living room became clearer.

"Mr. Hua, don't worry, I will take care of Sister Jing."

"Well, we have regular check-ups at the hospital, and so far Sister Jing and the child have no major problems."

"Sister Jing's condition has improved, except for her body is a little weak, the rest of her condition is not bad, I believe everything will be fine."

Seeing this situation, I knew that he didn't call me, presumably he had been in contact with Xiao Zhao all along.

I think before this, he didn't know how many times he had called Xiao Zhao, and he also knew my situation clearly from her.

I walked over with a cold face, took the mobile phone in Xiao Zhao's hand and said to Hua Xu, "Are you caring about me?" ”

"It's really surprising that Mr. Hua still has time to care about me in addition to his busy schedule."

"In that case, why don't you call me and ask me personally? How can the bystander know how the person is feeling? Do you say it's Mr. Hua? ”

I spoke quickly without pause, so he didn't have a chance to speak.

It wasn't until I said enough and stopped that he asked me, "Are you okay?" ”

His voice was not as high-spirited as it used to be, with a faint tiredness and a sense of indescribability.

That feeling, like, he did something wrong, inferior, like he couldn't hold his head up, like guilt......

My heart is a little cold, guilty?

Is he guilty of me? Guilty of what?

I was in a panic, and some words were no longer unpleasant, and I didn't vent my unhappiness, so I basically didn't think about it, and blurted out with a sneer.

After clearing my hoarse voice, my ridicule was accompanied by ridicule and sarcasm: "Yo, Mr. Hua, what's wrong?" Haven't eaten? How can you be weak when you speak? It's like I've done something sorry for me, and I can't even lift my head. ”

As I said this, my hand holding my phone tightened.

I wanted to be indifferent, I wanted to pretend I didn't care, but I couldn't seem to do it, so I put up a sharp thorn.

"Quiet, you ......"

Before he finished speaking, I interrupted him: "Talking slowly, weak and weak, this is not like your Mr. Hua at all, aren't you usually quite arrogant?" How do you look like a mouse meeting a cat now? ”

I sneered: "What is there that you Mr. Hua find difficult to say?" Are you going to kick me away? Do you feel sorry for me because you can't open your mouth? ”

My eyes were moist, but my tone was extremely light, especially heartless: "If that's the case, Mr. Hua, you don't have to feel guilty, because I don't want this child because of you, just because I want it." ”

"...... Now"

"Now I don't want him anymore, it's not because of you, it's just because I can't hold on anymore, so I'm angry."

He was a little hesitant to speak, but Hua Xu, who was plain and bland, finally had an emotion, and he finally regained his calm and aggressive self.

He asked me sharply, "What do you mean?" ”

"It's not interesting, it's literal, Mr. Hua's business is also quite big, and I've seen a lot of contracts, so profound things can be seen at a glance, so simple, don't you understand?"

He said in a deep voice, "You want to have an abortion? ”

I smiled: "I really don't think Mr. Hua understands." ”

"You dare!"

I replied, "The child is mine, why should I not dare?" ”

"I really can't get through it, so I'm not going to have him anymore, and the doctor said that this child may or may not be healthy, so why should I take this risk?"

"Quiet!" He called my name in a deep voice: "If you dare to have an abortion, try it!" ”

"What am I afraid of? And let me tell you, Ning Yuan is back, and no one wants to stop us from being together this time. ”

After saying that, I hung up the phone, because I felt dizzy when I calmed down a little just now.

I was dizzy, and Xiao Zhao hurriedly helped me: "Sister Jing? ”

With Xiao Zhao's support, I sat down, and after a while, the dizziness passed.

I held my forehead to calm my emotions, the living room where no one spoke seemed extraordinarily quiet, and the sound of the engine of the passing car outside the window added a bit of excitement to the quiet living room, but it was still quiet.

After a long while, Xiao Zhao asked me, "Sister Jing, you don't really want to have an abortion, do you?" ”

I smiled: "Flow, why not flow?" ”

Xiao Zhao was a little anxious: "Sister Jing, why are you doing this?" ”

Before I could speak, her phone rang.

When she saw that it was Hua Xu calling, she glanced at me, a little hesitant, not knowing whether to answer or not.

I didn't speak, and I didn't give any hints.

Giving me a tentative look, she answered the phone; "Mr. Hua."

I think Hua Xu must be telling Xiao Zhao to tell her to watch me closely and not let me have an abortion.

Therefore, Xiao Zhao nodded busily: "Mr. Hua, don't worry, I will not leave an inch, and I will not let her do stupid things." ”

I endured the discomfort of my body, squinted my eyes, and said loudly to Hua Xu on the other end of the phone: "No one can stop what I decide!" ”

When Xiao Zhao hung up the phone, I calmed down and said calmly: "Xiao Zhao, I'm hungry, uncomfortable with hunger, dizzy and stomach reflux." ”

I'm not lying, I'm really hungry.

Xiao Zhao asked me hesitantly, "You won't sneak to the hospital while I'm not paying attention, right?" ”

I amusedly replied, "No." ”

She didn't believe it, "Really? ”

I nodded: "No, those words ......"

I whispered, "I'm just talking casually, you don't have to take it seriously." ”

Xiao Zhao became happy: "Really? ”

"Really."

Soon, the smile on Xiao Zhao's face sank in the afternoon, and she asked me cautiously, "Sister Jing, do you know something?" ”

I pretended to be stupid and asked, "Is there anything I should know?" ”