Are we separated?

I don't know, I just know that there are some things that can't go back at all, the identities of me and Su Xin will not be fruitful at all, she can't let go of her responsibilities and kindness, she is kind-hearted, and after I started Lin Xiaonuan's life, I also let go of my youthful attachment.

In ordinary days, missing her day and night, has long consumed my first love for Su Xin, it is true that I still care about her in my heart, and even when her life was dying, I risked my life to block the iron umbrella to save her.

Do I still love her?

Perhaps, but it's been so long that I've forgotten that feeling.

"Annie, the one I love is you."

"But what about her, why are you lying to me, because you still have her in your heart, right?" Calmly questioned, but with welling tears, Diane's eyes were full of loss and grievance.

I wanted to hold her in pain, but she pushed me away, her soft hands were very weak, but very resolute, I seemed to be pushed into the cold abyss, powerless to struggle.

"Anne, go to my house to rest for a while, you haven't been to my house for a long time." Xia Xinyu comforted her and motioned for me not to affect Diannie's mood for the time being.

With so many things happening in one night, my mind was already in a mess, physically and mentally exhausted, and the feeling of despair from many years ago seemed to spring up in my mind again, is it really so difficult to live a peaceful life? Is it really an unattainable dream?

"Now is not the time to sigh, exposing your identity in front of so many people, now you are in danger, solving this is the key." Han Xun was rare and serious, and pulled me into the car together.

Can things be solved so easily?

Su Xin, who is kind and soft-hearted by nature, will not betray the Confucianism and the Three Sects that raised her, just like she refused to go with me at the beginning, which is not to blame her.

So the time I rescued her from Rao Beitian, I knew that she would definitely report Rao Beitian's identity for the sake of responsibility and the three sects, and she also decided this way at the time, but I didn't expect that after several negotiations, she actually agreed to conceal it temporarily, which I couldn't predict.

And now?

Su Xin wants me to go back with her, back to the old days, even if she secretly loves for a lifetime, she is willing, is this her idea?

All of us had mixed feelings, and got into the car, the car was provided by Qin Wuyang, he meant to let us go to the place of Confucianism to rest, and Fu Qingjue proposed to go to Xia Xinyu's house, obviously to protect me, avoid Qin Wuyang's ears and eyes, go to a place where no one disturbs, and cut off everything that happened tonight.

This uncle, who is like a father, is still trying his best to help me, just like he did back then.

Along the way, my head was groggy, all kinds of confused memories and realities flashed, worried and afraid? I wasn't afraid, just a deep sense of despair and powerlessness, and God never wanted me to live my life to an end.

Three years ago, Lu Cong'an died in the hands of Jiang Junxian and disappeared into the world, but three years later, it was because of Jiang Junxian's appearance that I was forced to expose my identity, and Lu Cong'an was alive again. I can't escape fate because of the same person.

Unexpectedly, Xia Xinyu's home is an independent manor, from the beginning of entering the gate, there is a strong scholarly atmosphere, and the quaint decoration is everywhere, because it is late at night, and the mental exhaustion of the night, everyone entered the hall in silence, no one was in a hurry to take a bath to wash off the blood on their bodies, they all sat around tacitly, drinking the tea prepared by Xia Xinyu.

Su Xin, who cried the most, had slowly calmed down, and Diannie, who was aggrieved and lost, leaned on Xia Xinyu's side in a trance. My sister sat beside me worriedly, she cared very simply, no matter what happened to me in the past, she may not understand, but she just wanted me to be safe.

Shen Lingyu changed into the pajamas that Xia Xinyu gave her, her face was still ruddy, and the effect of the medicine was still in her body, she was even unconsciously putting her legs together, enduring the torment of her body, she should have let her go to the hospital, she took the initiative to refuse, but the charming burgundy waves already looked embarrassed and lonely, she also suffered too many blows and guilt tonight, and even my exposed identity was caused by her.

But she and Su Ze moved towards marriage, and it was also promoted by my appearance, which ...... She and I are so entangled.

"Okay, since everyone is here tacitly, I'll just say it." Fu Qingjue spoke first, taking the initiative to take on the responsibility of the elders, and he looked at everyone with a serious expression: "Everyone present is the one who knows about this matter, as a high-level of Confucianism, I have watched Cong'an grow up all the way, and I know the seriousness of this matter." ”

The atmosphere instantly lowered the temperature, and I seemed to be waiting for the verdict to be announced, and Diane, who was lost, also sat up, looked at me worriedly, biting her lip, and looking very nervous.

"Since Cong'an is not dead, as a descendant of the Three Sects, what he has done is already an act of betrayal, and if he returns to the Three Sects, he will be imprisoned for life!"

Life imprisonment! There was an uproar!

"Impossible!" Su Xin shouted as if she was frightened, and pulled Fu Qingjue and shouted, "Impossible! Uncle Fu, don't you want An An to go back? The three of us were selected by the three sects, and we were punished at most for making mistakes, I can help An An intercede, uncle, you will also help An An intercede, right? ”

The long hair that was spread out was shaking in panic, Su Xin couldn't believe Fu Qingjue's words, she was very conflicted and painful now, which undoubtedly deepened her self-blame, and she would think that I was hating her.

Maybe I can go back with her to relieve the pain she has been holding back for years.

"You can't let An An go back!" My sister grabbed my arm tightly, she was afraid of being nervous, the only relative, she didn't allow anyone to hurt me.

"Sister, I'm also here for the sake of safety, if he doesn't go back like this, it will be more dangerous!" Tears welled up in her red eyes again, and Su Xin endured unimaginably complex emotions, but no one could understand the pain in her heart except me.

"Su Xin, you're hurting him!" My sister shouted excitedly.

Dianne looked at me reluctantly, already crying, I could read her eyes, she wanted me to hug her.

But seeing that the quarrel was about to break out, my brain was in a mess, Fu Qingjie interrupted the quarrel in a low voice, and said calmly: "That's right, if you don't go back, it will be more dangerous to be in peace." ”

"Why?" My sister asked excitedly.

"If he breaks away from the control of the three religions and refuses to go back, he will be directly wiped out by the three religions."

A killing word, the hall was instantly quiet, everyone understood the meaning, I will die, everyone was still in shock, Fu Qingjie said calmly: "However, the premise is that the three sects know the fact that he is still alive, and the people in the know are everyone present, now, do you understand?" ”

Understood, of course understood, that's why Fu Qing never asked to come here. All those who know keep it secret, then I am safe, and if anyone objects or discloses it, he has already said the consequences.

As soon as the decision came out, everyone immediately looked at Su Xin together, because she was also a descendant of the three religions, loyal to the three religions and Confucianism, and from the beginning to the present, she insisted on letting me go back.

And Su Xin covered her face and cried again and again, it was difficult for her to choose, and if she continued to insist, she would undoubtedly make everyone hate her, especially my closest sister, but against her heart, she had the grace of nurturing and the responsibility of the three heirs.

Contradictions and pain, no one understands her feelings, only me, who is closest to her, understands her pain and entanglement.

"The internal affairs of the three sects have nothing to do with me, I have long known Xiao Nuan's identity, he exchanged conditions with me in order to save Su Xin, and I also passed on his martial arts of iron fan." Rao Beitian's generous superficial stance said the conditions for me to save Su Xin at the beginning.

The crying Su Xin was stunned for a moment, her crying red eyes, looking at me affectionately, she realized that I silently guarded her and helped her resolve the crises that she had fought with Rao Beitian several times, even at the cost of her life.

I sighed helplessly, I didn't dare to look at her, let alone look at the aggrieved Diane.

"Brother Huolu, we are good buddies, I won't say much." Li Chenxi patted me on the shoulder, and also expressed his thoughts, this friend is not bad.

The women who have nothing to do with the rivers and lakes are silent, of course they don't want me to be in danger, Fu Qingjie didn't say anything from beginning to end, in fact, from the beginning to let everyone come here, he made his attitude clear.

The final unanimity is in Su Xin's hands, she is crying louder and louder, but she is lonely and miserable, over the years, she has endured too much alone, thoughts, guilt, contradictions, responsibilities, too much because of my sudden death, so that she can hardly let go.

My heart was soaked in sulfuric acid, burning with pain, I didn't want to see her in such pain, I didn't expect that my impulse to die would make her so unrelieved.

I was wrong.

"Su Xin, don't cry, I'll go back with you, it's all my fault." I walked up to her calmly, gently wiping the tears on her face, she slowly raised her head and touched my face, her tears were so gentle, as before.

"An An, do you still love me?"