On the day Zhang Zhe arrived at the orphanage, the sky was clear, the sun was just right, and the sea breeze was unbearable. It was a lovely afternoon to roll up your pants and take a walk by the sea with your loved ones. He was wrapped in a blanket with blue patterns, lying quietly at the door of the orphanage, and he should have wailed and cried to reflect his sorrow, but he looked at the sky with his eyes open, as if he had not been affected by anything.

Aside from this blanket, there is no trace of his life. In the 80s, when surveillance was not yet popularized, he was like a child who suddenly appeared at the door in the gap between time and space, and all his belongings were wrapped around him.

Aunt Dean didn't gently pull off his blanket and shook it, not expecting a falling note or anything, she had just become pregnant, and was looking forward to the birth of her child, the baby in front of her didn't know how old it was, and the staff in the orphanage began to estimate his age of about eleven or twelve months with experience. But what about the name?

Aunt Dean stared at him with a frown, this was the first 'three-no' child since she took office, thinking about it, she waved her jade hand and interrupted the discussion of the employees: "Okay, this child will be surnamed by my husband, and he will be called Zhang Zhe in the future!" ”

Well, this was the first day of his life, because no one could explain it to him in the days ahead.

When he was already able to play in the mud with the younger children in the yard, he didn't think about what his life would be like in the future. He also wants someone to adopt him, so every time someone comes, he tries his best to express himself. But it never worked. Because all the children are cuter than themselves, they can play treasures, they can sell cuteness, and Zhang Zhe will only be well-behaved.

The friends who grew up together have been adopted one after another, and Zhang Zhe feels that he may have to stay here for the rest of his life.

Zhang Zhe on his eighth birthday, felt that he was really hopeless, everyone knew that the older the child, the fewer people liked to adopt, and it seemed that he was really going to grow up in an orphanage. The night before his birthday, Zhang Zhe squatted at the window and secretly made a wish to Xingxing: If you can't let me be adopted, I will be compensated for a beautiful girlfriend like Aunt Dean, who likes to joke in the future, thank God.

Zhang Zhe, who happened to be eight years old, was squatting in the corner of the courtyard looking at the sky, and the dean's aunt stood at the door and shouted: "Zhang Zhe! You come here. ”

Maybe there was sugar, Zhang Zhe ran over happily.

"Look, this uncle and aunt will be your parents in the future, do you like it?"

The couple in front of him is well-dressed and looks intellectual, the man wears black-rimmed glasses and a short-sleeved shirt buttoned up at the top; The woman wore a floral dress and leaned gently against the man.

Zhang Zhe was a little unable to come back to his senses, why did he give my parents today when he made a wish for a beautiful girlfriend last night? Is it true that I won't be able to find a beautiful girlfriend like Aunt Dean in the future?

But the joy broke through Zhang Zhe's crankiness in the next moment, he nodded excitedly, my girlfriend will take many years, give me a parent first, it's actually quite good.

He took the hands of his new parents and took a photo at the entrance of the orphanage, his little hands left and right, holding the hands of his 'parents' tightly, and left the orphanage. Looking at that back, it seems that the wine that greeted him in the future is only happiness.

For the first time, Zhang Zhe had his own bed to sleep on, but he was a little scared when he suddenly slept alone. The projection of the tree on the window is strangely shaped, like the shriveled lifeless arm of a witch in a cartoon, dancing in the wind. He wants to try to shout 'Mom and Dad', but if he does, won't he be annoyed? The aunt who takes care of them in the orphanage will feel annoyed, there are so many children, they don't have time to take care of their emotions one by one.

Zhang Zhe pulled the quilt on it and covered himself tightly. The sweltering heat was the catalyst, and after a few minutes the sweat was soaking through his pajamas, he poked a small hole in the quilt and pressed his face against the edge of the hole to take a deep breath. I can't stop thinking about it: the new home looks good, clean and comfortable. However, they are a bit serious, they don't like to talk and they don't like Zhang Zhe to ask questions. Not as fun as Aunt Dean. He slowly fell asleep unconsciously.

The first meal in a new home. The table was full of food. Zhang Zhe happily ran over and sat at the table, raising his head and waiting for his parents to come over for dinner.

"Go down, go down!" The new mother came over and pushed him off the table irritably. Zhang Zhe walked down quietly and stood at the table honestly. Probably because I was rude, I ate at the table first. He stood against the wall, staring at the dining table in a daze.

The new mother finally began to resent Zhang Zhe's eyes staring at the dinner table and swallowing saliva. She picked up a bowl and filled a bowl of rice, spread a few mouthfuls of food and handed it to Zhang Zhe, "Go away and go back to your room to eat." Don't stain the floor, or I'll hit you. ”

Zhang Zhe didn't dare to resist, and the dean's mother told him to listen to the words of the new mother, and the mother's words could not be disobeyed. He slowly rubbed the room with his rice bowl in his hand, and looked back at the dining table greedily. There were chicken thighs and fish on the table, and only tofu in his bowl. He didn't want tofu, he wanted a chicken thigh. But will new parents be like the aunts in the orphanage, who will be disgusted by the children's demands? If that's the case, you'll be hated by your parents if you say it.

Zhang Zhe did not resist, and obediently returned to the room with the bowl, and even washed his own bowl after eating.

One day a year later, when Zhang Zhe came home from school, his mother happily went back and forth between the kitchen and the living room, and her mother looked happy, humming a little song and doing the housework she usually hated the most. Seeing Zhang Zhedu, who walked into the house with hairy hands and feet, he didn't feel irritable, but smiled and beckoned him to pass.

Zhang Zhe was a little nervous, not knowing if he had done something wrong and was about to be punished again. She didn't punish Zhang Zhe, but just told him to hurry up and do his homework. Still unsure, he walked back to his room with the old schoolbag he had brought out of the orphanage.

After Dad got off work, he heard Mom's laughter coming from the living room, and she didn't know what she was talking about, and Dad laughed too. The two of them couldn't hide their joy, Zhang Zhe opened the door and looked out through a small gap, and they held hands and circled around the living room. Mom's laughter was as crisp as the beautiful cuckoo quartz clock in the street department store, and when the time came, it would pop out of the small house, and call a few happily, and the green feathers seemed to be stained with its crisp chiming sound, and Mom was now like the beautiful cuckoo.

Zhang Zhe happily opened the door and wanted to join the small circle of spinning. But when she saw her, her mother slowly restrained her smile.

There are no quarrels and no blame. The next day everything seemed to be back to normal. The only thing that is different is the mother's slowly growing belly. One night a few months later, his parents did not come home, Zhang Zhe was hungry at home alone and waiting for them to come back, he wanted to wait for them to come back before sleeping, but the exhaustion broke through his nerves, and before he knew it, he fell asleep. When he woke up, he went out the door to wash up, and he saw his parents sitting on the sofa in the living room. At their feet lay his luggage, all sorted out and in the package. There was only one small bag, Zhang Zhe didn't bring anything, and he couldn't take anything away. The sound of a baby crying came from the house, and Zhang Zhe laughed happily, it turned out that he had a little brother or little sister.

I don't know what happened, Zhang Zhe got out of the car in a daze, in front of him was the familiar orphanage and the familiar mother of the principal, the complex emotions on her face could not be understood at all, many years later he saw that expression again from Chen Chen's face, Chen Chen was frowning and holding him in his arms, gently rubbing his temples, Zhang Zhe understood the expression of the dean's mother at that time, called distress.

But at that time, he didn't quite understand, so he had to stand in place with his small bag, staring at the distant figure of his parents, and slowly turned around and walked back to the orphanage.

He knew he was abandoned, again. But I also know that crying is useless. Maybe they'll come back to pick him up, maybe they just can't afford to raise three children, maybe they'll be crying on his invisible face when they leave.

The uncle who practiced Tai Chi outside the courtyard wall always said that the children here were the lives of the Heavenly Evil Lone Star, and whoever stuck to it would not start and finish well. Zhang Zhe wanted to refute several times, they are also children, why do we sound unlucky. But he was stupid, and when he wanted to open his mouth, he stumbled, and he couldn't organize complete sentences at all.

He finally understood now that, just like him, it should be a solitary star.

The dean's mother had already prepared new luggage for him, Zhang Zhe obediently took it and spread it on the bed, opened his small package, put the only change of clothes back into a small iron cabinet for each person in a neat manner, pulled the corners and placed them neatly, and then closed the door.

"Zhang Zhe" Dean Mom said softly: "Someone loves you, I love you." He is the first three-no child she completely took over, and she loves Zhang Zhe as much as she loves her son Zhang Xuan; It will also be like this child in his own belly.

"Mother of the principal?" The sullen Zhang Zhe asked in a low voice: "Is there something wrong with me?" So mom doesn't want me? ”

She wanted to answer no, but Zhang Zhe's eyes didn't look like he would accept any of her lies. Such clear eyes, as if they can see through all illusions and hypocrisy.

But the truth is so hurtful, how can she tell the truth. After thinking about it, she stubbornly replied to Zhang Zhe's gaze: "Mom and Dad gave birth to twins, and they really can't afford to raise three children." Your younger siblings are still young, and they need mom and dad around them. ”

"They'll take me back when they grow up, won't they?" There was another hope in his eyes, he was still a child, and no matter how smart he was, he was just as easy to deceive.

couldn't bear to break Zhang Zhe's illusions, her words were stuffed in her throat and couldn't be spit out. This moment of hesitation was regarded by Zhang Zhe as all the hope for the rest of his life, if she knew that she would tie him up for so many years, she might tear open the wound that Zhang Zhe wanted to cover up and let him face reality. How terrible, it almost ruined his life.