It wasn't until the car approached me infinitely that Angel came back to her senses, her voice heartbreaking: "Don't ......."

I have never felt so close to death, in the darkness I even felt a warm current and a white light guiding me, all the heavy burdens on my body seemed to disappear, in the face of death, all the struggles, all the suffering, became so unreal, so meaningless, is this the realization before death?

The wind whistled in my ears, and the car that had slammed the steering wheel would pass me and stop not far away....... I didn't die, I don't know if I was lucky or unlucky.

"You're fucking impatient!" The driver opened the window and burst into foul language.

I ignored it, still reminiscing about the feeling I felt when I was on the verge of death........ People will die one day, when you meet death, you will find that when you are alive, greed, hatred, hatred, love, evil, desire, is so redundant, no matter how beautiful the flashiness, the most ferocious suffering, after all, it is just a passing cloud, it is better to find a quiet place, idle clouds and wild cranes to live a life, from now on not sad or happy, how good!

.......

I stood stupidly in place, Angel had already climbed over the fence, and she hugged me and beat me in shock: "Are you crazy? Are you going to scare me to death? ”

"Don't doubt me anymore, okay?" I said to Angel calmly.

"I doubt you, are you going to prove yourself with death, bastard........"

"I have nothing to prove myself but death."

"Woo~~~ bastard" Angel choked and thrashed me.

I finally gently hugged Angel who was holding me tightly, and suddenly everything became less important, I just wanted to live as I wanted, but can anyone in this world really live like this? Have it?

"Bastard, what are you going to do with those ambitions that you die? What about your family? What should I do, what should I do with Brother Luo who is still in prison? Don't you care? ”

I shuddered and took out a cigarette from my pocket, and instantly felt an overwhelming panic, and I was afraid for a while....... It turns out that I really can't die, because I still have so many responsibilities on my body, and at this moment, I believe that there is no kind of freewheeling, idle and wild crane life in this world, because I am bound and bound by too many responsibilities.

........

On the bench on the side of the road, I wiped the cold sweat from my forehead and smoked a cigarette, I asked myself why I put myself so impulsively on the line between life and death, am I really so irrational? Or am I just too depressed?

I sighed heavily, if only all the pain and hatred could pass by the clouds.

Angel grabbed my arm and leaned on my side: "Don't be so stupid in the future, I won't doubt you anymore." ”

"Hmm......." I hugged Angel tightly.

The two were silent for a long time before Angel said to me, "Tomorrow I will go back to France." ”

"Wait until you get back."

Angel nodded, and leaned into my arms again: "You also have to work hard, don't let anyone question you anymore." ”

I raised my head and exhaled the cigarette in my mouth heavily: "Angel's man must be the man who stands at the highest place to guide the country, one day I will break free from all shackles, I swear!" ”

Sadness is gone, and the wind is moaning!

........

Sending Angel back to the hotel, I went back to my home and rang the doorbell for a long time, but no one answered, my father and mother didn't know where to go, and I had nowhere to go, so I could only sit at the staircase and wait.......

In a drowsiness, the mobile phone rang again, I wiped my face to make myself more sober, and then took out the mobile phone from my pocket, it was Chen Qingyi calling.

I answered the phone: "Hey, Anchor Chen, is there something wrong?" ”

"Can you not call me Anchor Chen?"

I smiled: "Could it be that you just called me to ask for this?" ”

"I'm not that boring, where are you?"

"I'm sitting at the entrance of the hallway of my house."

"Oh, just now my uncle and aunt invited me and some of your relatives to eat at the restaurant, I just went back, and I should be home soon."

"Oh." I answered, no wonder they weren't at home, but I didn't understand why they ate together but didn't call me and Angel, could it be true that I was disgusted with the relationship between Angel and Angel to this extent?

I pulled another cigarette out of my pocket and lit it....... The melancholy also burned, but the entrance of the building did not blow away these melancholy winds, so it could only be allowed to diffuse, but did not dissipate.

Chen Qingyi seemed to see through my emotions: "I'm leaving tomorrow, let's talk, okay?" ”

"Hmm." I answered, I also want to know what they talked about with Chen Qingyi at today's dinner.

.........

I, Chen Qingyi, met in a small open-air garden near our home, and as we walked down the cobblestone path, neither of us immediately spoke.

It wasn't until the end of the road that Chen Qingyi opened her mouth and asked me, "Mr. An, is she okay?" ”

"Hmm....... She should have slept already, she is flying to France tomorrow. ”

"Ahh I'm going to leave so soon, I thought she wouldn't be gone when she came back this time. Chen Qingyi said in surprise.

I shrugged my shoulders and said that I was helpless, of course I hope that Angel will not leave, and we can get the approval of our family as soon as possible together.

The two of them found a bench on the side of the road and sat down, and I asked Chen Qingyi, "What did they say to you for dinner today?" ”

Chen Qingyi looked at me for a long time before saying, "What is their attitude when they ask me?" Are you willing to be with you Zhang Yixi. ”

My heart instantly became nervous: "How did you answer?" ”

Chen Qingyi smiled and said, "Do you want to know?" ”

"Of course ......."

"Call sister, I'll tell you."

"Do you take advantage of me?"

"Maybe I'm really older than you, why don't you call me sister."

"What is your birthday?" I asked Chen Qingyi, I know that we are the same age, but I don't know whose birthday is bigger.

"In June, listening to Lin Xi, you should be in November, right?" Chen Qingyi replied, by the way, I mentioned my birthday month.

"You're older than me." I nodded.

"That's called my sister, called, I'll tell you again."

I stared at Chen Qingyi for a long time, and looked at her very uncomfortably, so I shouted: "Sister....... Can you tell me now? ”

"Why are you so stupid! I asked you to call me sister, what do you say I answered your family? ”

I was finally relieved: "Thank you, thank you for not creating hope for my family and causing me trouble." ”

"Hey........ Don't say I seem to like you, I don't feel that way about you, why should I do so much to create hope for your family. Chen Qingyi glared at me and said dissatisfiedly.

My mood was finally not so bad, so I simply joked with Chen Qingyi: "I just like peacocks to open the screen, and I am amorous, what's wrong?" ”

"Don't open the screen at me."

"Is my feather too gorgeous to flash you?" I asked with a smile.

"I'm afraid that Mr. An will abolish you!" Chen Qingyi gave me a blank look.

........

"By the way, are you free next month, let's go to Shanghai together to treat your grandfather." After the silence, Chen Qingyi and I got down to business.

"I'll just go, don't go."

"Why can't I go, now your grandfather is also my grandfather, just now he accepted me as a godgranddaughter."

I was a little incredulous: "Take you as a godgranddaughter?" ”

"It's finally a psychological comfort for the elderly, right?"

I nodded, maybe this is not bad, at least for my family, I have completed a mental excess, and I will no longer be caught in the non-existent lie that Chen Qingyi is my daughter-in-law who has not passed through the door, and I can't extricate myself! (1st Update)