An Anyan covered his cheeks, tears flowed from the corners of his eyes, and looked at An's father in disbelief, "Dad, you have never beaten me before, just for this illegitimate daughter who came out of nowhere, you actually beat me......"

Father An's hand stopped in the air, looked at the crying An Anyan, looked at the silent Nian An, and said to An Anyan again: "She is your sister!" ”

An Anyan bit her lip and said resentfully: "She's not she's not!" I don't have a sister! I don't have a sister! ”

After saying that, he ran into the room and slammed the door shut.

An's father and mother comforted Nian'an, "She is young and may not be able to accept this fact for a while, don't mind too much, it will be fine after a while." ”

Su Nian'an pursed her lips and looked at the nervous look of An's father and mother, because she was sorry and treated her very well? But what she wanted was not an apology, she smiled slightly, and said softly: "Send me to study abroad, I applied to a school before, and I have already replied." ”

Father An hurriedly asked, "Is it because of his heart?" She has a childish personality, you don't take it to heart. Dad just picked you up, and he was reluctant to send you away. ”

Father An's voice was slightly choked, and there was a sad look in his eyes, but it was rare for her to make her own decision, and she was even eager to leave.

In the past few days, An's father and mother have been very good to her and take care of her carefully, she knows that they want to make up for the debts they have owed for so many years, but the emotional lack of those years cannot be made up for in a day or two. But she sees those sincerity in her eyes, but now she is even afraid, afraid that once she gets used to it, what will happen when she faces loss?

"Dad, I'll be back in two years."

Father An was stunned, that 'Dad' was the first time Su Nian'an called him, his eyes were a little moist, "Dad promised you, but don't force yourself if there is anything, which country are you going to, which school do you choose, and what do you want to study?" Dad went to contact you and see if anyone could take care of you. When a girl goes abroad alone, she will suffer a lot. ”

Su Nianan shook his head, "No need, I just want to train myself when I go abroad, I'm not a child anymore, I can take good care of myself." ”

"But where can Dad rest assured that you, you have always been Dad's heart, Dad hasn't seen you for so many years, and now I've only seen you for a few days, and I'm going to leave again, Dad is reluctant, Dad thinks that you may be displaced outside, you may meet bad people, Dad's heart hurts."

Father An's face was kind, Mother An had already left quietly, Su Nianan saw everything in her eyes, after all, her biological daughter was important, she looked at Father An, held his hand, "I will take good care of myself." ”

For a few days in a row, the family seemed to be on alert, as long as she and Anxin Yan appeared at the same time, An's mother would inevitably take Anxin Yan away. In fact, she didn't care so much, if she cared because of the word 'illegitimate daughter', it was better to say that what she cared about was that An Anyan was once under Qin Muchen's body-

She remembered the events of that night so clearly, the sound of her heart breaking into powder, and the entanglement and contradiction that she fled from him but was reluctant to let go, she tried very hard to forget, but she never learned to let go.

Qin Muchen, did you lock me up, or did I trap myself?

Su Nianan asked herself again and again, when she was alone, at night, when she was silent, the memories in her mind were clearer than anything else, bit by bit, his good and his bad, her laughter and her crying.

It should have been a relief to leave him, but she always felt like she was carrying a heavier shell.

"Tell me about my mother."

Father An seemed to be deep in thought, his expression was soft and happy, "Your mother looks very similar to you, she is a very independent, very cheerful woman, her smile is very sweet, she never skimps on her smile, I remember when we were together, she smiled brightly almost every day." She is very good to people and very loving, but the things she believes will not change, and I was responsible for your mother back then. I compromised when I was forced to marry at home, but I never thought that your mother was pregnant at that time, if I knew...... It's Dad, I'm sorry for your mother and daughter. ”

"It's in the past."

Father An couldn't let go, frowned, and stroked the few photos that were left behind, "Muzhi, I'm sorry for you, I went to look for you, but I couldn't find it." I didn't expect you to die two years after giving birth, it's all my fault, but why didn't you even tell me you were pregnant? ”

Su Nian'an quietly left the room, An's father's pain was something she couldn't understand, probably because she had never had the slightest impression of her mother, and when she heard what An's father said, she could only imagine. She thinks, will her mother smile at her? Will her mother spoil her?

But thinking about it, I thought of Su's father and Su's mother, thinking of Su's father, Su Nian'an felt a pain in her heart, thinking of Su's mother, she began to understand Su's mother, she was never biological, how could she treat her brother the same as her.

She didn't leave in a hurry, but before leaving, she saw a man by her side and smiled at her, "Hello sister." ”

Su Nian'an was surprised, she chose to study psychiatry, could it be that the man in front of her was too?

"There is no need to doubt that we are in the same school and in the same major."

Father An smiled and put his hand on this man, "Yanmo, you must take good care of Nian'an." ”

Qi Yanmo nodded, "Uncle An, I will." ”

So, Su Nianan embarked on the road of studying abroad, she applied for a school famous for psychiatry, she chose this major, all of which have a great relationship with Qin Muchen, in the case of physical and mental exhaustion, she can't forget him, during that time she began to doubt her spirit, she began to be interested in psychiatry, she inquired about various information, and even decided to study further.

"Very few women will be interested in this subject, Nian An, why did you choose this major?"

Su Nianan didn't think about it, and returned directly: "I think I'm mentally ill." ”

Qi Yanmo was stunned for a moment, then patted Su Nian'an's head, "Don't think nonsense." ”

Su Nianan looked at Qi Yanmo and repeated it very seriously, "I have depression, I once thought about suicide, I think you know more about depression than I do." ”

She laughed as she spoke, "Teasing you." ”

Qi Yanmo looked serious, "You can't joke about this kind of thing in the future." ”

Su Nian'an nodded, it was very comfortable to be with Qi Yanmo, he was an extremely serious person, but now she was forcing a smile all the time, she was afraid that if she didn't smile, she would have a bitter face and show her thoughts on her face.

In fact, during those days of being tortured by Qin Muchen, she didn't think about committing suicide, during that time, she was repeatedly immersed in her own world, as if she couldn't hear or see, and she only remembered the scenes of him torturing her in her brain.

can remember the ones he tortured her, and remember the ones he used to be good to her, the two emotions were entangled in her heart, and she was even always biased towards his good, and she once suspected that her brain structure would help him.

But it turns out that she really remembers Qin Muchen better than his bad.

The school went smoothly with the help of Qi Yanmo, her language has also improved day by day, and she has made unprecedented progress, on campus, she enjoys a quiet and leisurely time, but the psychiatric department is always full of unknowns, and even their first professional class is in a psychiatric hospital, and the tutor allows them to perceive more through real experience.

Su Nian'an began to rejoice, glad that she did not set foot on another door because of those two extreme thoughts, and she began to be more interested in this subject. Wandering around the library, she even looks forward to having more contact with the mentally ill, learning about all the characteristics of each patient, hoping to diagnose what disease she is talking about and what medication she needs to take.

"Elementary school girl, you are very serious."

Su Nianan raised his head, looked at Qi Yanmo opposite, and smiled at him, "If you don't take it seriously, it's easy to hang up on this subject." ”

Qi Yanmo handed the packed meal to her, sighed, and said faintly: "You can't skip meals because of studying, right?" ”

"Because I know you're not going to leave me hungry."

Qi Yanmo really had no choice but to take Su Nian'an, put away the book on her desk, put the food in front of her, and looked like a lecturer, "Believe it or not, I called your dad and told him that you don't eat all day." ”

Su Nianan swallowed the food in his mouth, "Don't, don't, if you say this, he will make a transatlantic phone call and nag me to death, you also know that international calls are very expensive!" If one accidentally runs over, then it's a big problem. ”

"You also know that your dad cares about you, and he does these worrying things all day long, studying is learning, life is life, where can you always forget to eat because of studying because of reading, and run out in the middle of the night to buy something to eat like before? Do you know that it is dangerous for a girl to run out in the middle of the night, not to mention that you don't understand the language, it's really ......"

Su Nian'an looked at Qi Yanmo with interest, listened to his tirade, and finally concluded: "You're worried about me?" ”

Qi Yanmo looked at Su Nian'an's gaze and said firmly: "Yes." ”

Su Nian'an swallowed a mouthful of saliva, she felt that something was wrong with the atmosphere, so she immediately jumped away from the topic and said obediently: "I will remember to eat in the future, by the way, I have a question I want to ask you, that is, ......"

"Okay, Nian'an, don't take the topic away, I know what you're thinking, and I know that you deliberately don't want me to say it, but there are some things I think I should still say. I'm worried about you, I take care of you, partly because of your father's confession, partly because of myself, I'm afraid that you won't be used to it in a foreign country, I'm afraid that you will be rejected after more contact with psychiatry, I'm afraid that you will catch a cold and get sick, I'm afraid you're ...... But all this is because I like you. From the first glance, from that drinking party. ”

His expression was attentive and even affectionate, but—