Chapter 31: Lost (1)
An Nianchu couldn't communicate with him, she spit out loudly, "That's just an analogy!" Tell me, what have you thought about for me? Take the beginning, do you have a lot to hide from me, take the family members as an example, what did I know at that time, if it wasn't for Qin Muche and Qin Musi to appear, would you introduce me to them? At that time, did you think about what kind of feelings I had, I took you to meet my parents, and you didn't even want to say to me, what is it? Okay, I was stupid at that time, I liked that your favorite brain was convulsed, and when I hadn't even seen your parents in person, I even had to have a wedding with you, and the result? As a result, I saw your sister take my father away, and I only knew that she was your sister at that time, Qin Muchen, did you think about what kind of feelings I felt at that time? ”
She took a deep breath and continued: "Okay, let's not talk about those things, it's already in the past, just take it now, have I rejected you many times, did I say I didn't want to see you, but what about you?" You took me away three times and twice, and even locked me in this room, I'm not you, I'm not the president, I'm just a student, and there is a group of students waiting for me, you just make a phone call and find an excuse to help me ask for leave, did my class drop? I didn't do what I promised my students because I didn't have time, but what about you? Have you ever thought about this? You've certainly never thought about it. ”
Qin Muchen frowned, didn't say a word, and kept listening to An Nianchu again, he pursed his lips and slowly spit out, "I can treat those women the same before, they have never been ......"
An Nianchu interrupted his words and spit out quickly, the smile on the corner of his lips looked very helpless, "Qin Muchen, it turns out that you have always regarded me as the same as those people, right?" They want your money, do I want it? I asked myself, I have never asked you to ask for anything too much, I have never asked you to buy me a designer bag, I have never asked you to send diamond jewelry, even the necklaces, earrings and rings you brought me when I attended the cocktail party, are they still in your room, if I were to ask for your money, I would definitely be the same as them, absolutely I would never mind. Because it's supply and demand, you need their bodies, they need your money, they don't know each other, but what about me? I've never thought about anything from you, all I want is a man who loves me and loves me. When I loved you, I ignored all those things, but now all those problems are exposed. Qin Muchen, although I am not very good, I think I can still find a man who loves me, loves me, and spoils me. ”
"I've never treated you the same as them, An'an, I don't know what to do with you. You say I haven't thought about your feelings, but have you thought about my feelings, everyone's perspective is different. If you are a bystander, you may see more clearly, but if you are not a bystander, if you are not an outsider, what you see and what I see may not be the same, and if you see things differently, then your self-perception must be different. What you said, I never thought of it, I thought it would be okay to help you ask for leave, the coursework of graduate school is not heavy, I thought it would not have any impact on your studies. ”
"You think you think, everything you think, why don't you find out what I'm studying, why don't you learn about my life, you think I'm not busy? Do you think I'm like you, the big president, signing and stamping every day or making a phone call for the assistant to handle it, and it's over? I don't necessarily have to do less than you do, and I'm not as idle as you think. I used to be fine, it was because I was a senior at that time, I was going to graduate, I wanted an internship, not to mention that you were working in the company, at that time, you could let me go to work and go to work if you wanted me to take a vacation, but now I am not an employee under you, nor is it the girl who was so obsessed with you at the beginning, now I have what I want to do, I have my own career that I want to develop, and I am no longer the Su Nianan who can only fit you in my head and eyes, now my name is An Nianchu, can you understand? ”
An Nianchu was a little thirsty, glanced at the neighborhood, there was no water cup at all, and she didn't bother to talk to Qin Muchen, just waiting to hear his reply. He turned to leave, and she was a little disappointed.
It turned out that she could say these words, it turned out that there were all kinds of problems between them, but they didn't concentrate, or she didn't think those problems were important at the beginning, because she thought he was the most important at the beginning, but when those things happened, she found that she cared, no, she cared a lot.
She was very concerned that he hadn't introduced her to his parents in the first place, and she was very concerned that they didn't have a marriage certificate, and she found that she really cared about a lot of things, so many that she couldn't count them herself. But the moment Qin Muchen turned around, she found that she cared more about him, otherwise she wouldn't be disappointed.
Even if she knows her heart clearly, but she doesn't know his heart, she can't read or understand, the kind of heart that wants to get close but is afraid keeps haunting her heart, and she can't make a decision.
Will you leave completely, or will you stay by his side? An Nianchu asked herself again and again, she didn't know what to choose, she chose to leave completely, she was afraid that she would regret it, but by his side, if she found something else, she was afraid that she would regret it even more. For the fear of the unknown, she closed her eyes and did not think about it. But some pictures are always projected back and forth in front of her eyes, his good, his bad, his smile, his domineering, she ......
The ceramic cup was close to her lips, An Nianchu opened her eyes slightly, looking at Qin Muchen holding the cup, she took the cup from his hand, and there was a trace of emotion in her heart, at least this time, she didn't say it but he saw it. Should she have a hint of relief? But why does she still feel empty in her heart, is he not doing enough, or is she really asking too much?
An Nianchu looked at him and drank the water in the cup in one go, Qin Muchen took the cup and put it down, then reached out to hug her waist and transferred her from the bed to his arms. "Are you hungry?"
Qin Muchen asked softly, but An Nianchu looked at him, but he didn't know what to answer, she said so many words before, he didn't plan to answer? An Nianchu frowned, "Are you changing the subject?" Are you going to ignore what I've said before? ”
He smiled slightly, "An An, it's time to eat, aren't you hungry?" ”