By the time we arrived in the East Side, it was already evening. Su is followed Shenghu back to his original apartment, rested for two more days, and when the hospital examination was completed, Su was able to take office according to Ouyang Key's new personnel appointment!

"Are you sure you want to live alone in that dormitory?"

"Well, I'm going to be very busy next, I guess you have a lot of things to deal with in your company, I see that the phone keeps ringing in the days you have been with me. By the way, it's not called a dormitory building, it's the best business suite that the company rents. ”

"Okay, okay, it doesn't matter what it's called, you just have to get used to it."

"Alright, I'll go buy something after work, goodbye."

There was no familiar goodbye on the other end of the phone, so Su hung up, because she didn't like to hear this goodbye, saying goodbye too much, and sometimes she felt that she was looking forward to seeing each other again.

Now she just wants to work hard and come out of the shadows of all this as soon as possible.

Shrinking her neck, she continued to walk forward, it was cold, the cold wind soaked into her clothes, maybe she should have to buy a thick dress, although the professional clothes on her body were good-looking, but they were not warm.

In the next few days after work, she will often suffer from this cold, and she always deliberately lets her body feel it. Maybe it's just trying to prove that you're real, really alive. Everything that happened, whether it was the man or the child, was once real, and then the real was lost. Enjoying nature as it is is a function that human beings should learn to enjoy.

Walking on the way to get off work again, alone, turning right and then turning right, she decided to go grocery shopping. Walked for about ten minutes and finally saw the vegetable market, of course, sometimes she walked addicted, and went directly to another vegetable market far away, the market was small, not popular, one of the women who sold vegetables said that her family's vegetables did not look good, all her men went to the countryside every other day to recover from the farmer's field, did not play pesticides and erythrocin, tomatoes are old taste can be eaten raw, this kind of vegetables are small and often can not be harvested.

Sue believed what she said, bought her tomato and ate one immediately, although it was a little cold, she felt it was true. I want to live in this city authentically, then put down roots and start over.

Further ahead, there is a shop that sells fried small fish and shrimp and crispy meat, the iron pot is at the door, most of the half pot of oil, the fish and shrimp meat is wrapped in flour, the woman fried the fish, the man is responsible for the sale, hot, Su is stopped, buy 20 yuan of fish and shrimp, very fragrant, is the oil of the fried fish is not assured, repeated use. Of course, Sue's favorite is still coarse grains.

She buys sweet potatoes, mushrooms, turnips, peppers, tofu, all kinds of greens. I looked at the fruits, the fruits were always cold, and I had no desire to eat them, but I still had to buy some back, no matter what, the fruits always had to be bought. No, just buy it for yourself, but as for eating or not eating, that's another choice.

"You're off work?" Shenghu called again, greeting him like a friend, Su just hung up the phone after a few words, not because he wanted to keep his distance on purpose, but when he took the phone, his hand was blowing cold outside.

Back in the suite, close the door. Before she started to take off her coat and shoes, wash her hands and change her clothes, and turn on the computer first, she never turned on the computer, probably because she was alone here, lonely, so she also played the Internet, and walked around the Internet, from constellations to zodiac, to Taobao, to Jingdong, to Amazon. to Douban. to music, to movies. When it comes to news gossip, you don't need to look for gossip, you just come to your face. When I go to the blog and Weibo, I can't find anyone, I don't take the initiative to talk to people, I don't leave messages, and of course, I don't learn from others to like and forward them everywhere. It can only be said that she is introverted and has difficulty interacting with people, and this is true. After a relationship, she saw her personality more and more, and it turned out that she was really introverted.

Use everything possible to waste, no, pass the time of loneliness.

I looked for books in the book city, thought I should look for books, always thought that I was a reader, criticized some books in my heart, deliberately did not buy them, added them to the shopping cart, and put them together with clothes, shoes, kitchenware and household items. Look for it again, buy two or three copies, and pay for it so that you don't feel guilty.

Re-look for a movie or TV series, and if you don't want to watch it, go back to the website page and stare at it in a daze. I found dust on the computer screen, and the dust was getting bigger and bigger, drilling into the eyes. Su got up and went to the bathroom to find a rag to wipe the dust. Leaving a curved line of water on the computer screen, she tried it again with a tissue, it was clean, sat down again, and continued to be in a daze. Being in a daze is a good feature, you don't need to learn, you can go straight to the road. And the execution is getting stronger and stronger.

"Did you sleep?" It's Shenghu's message, she doesn't need to read it, she also knows it, but again, she still replied with two words: good night. And then in a daze. When she lived alone, she didn't know if she was sleepwalking at night, but at least the nightmares were gone, or even dreamless, and this dreamless day made her feel unreal, as if nothing had happened before, she was still the newcomer who had just come out of school to look for a job, and the first time she came to Dongcheng alone to look for a job.

There are cars speeding by outside the house, the sound rumbles, passes quickly, and a little sound is left, until it all disappears for a total of a few seconds, there may be no traffic lights at night, and some drag racing people are used to picking this time point to play. Su is suddenly remembered that when she was in Haicheng, the company's dormitory building was very close to the train station, and she could still hear the sound of the train running every night, which was much slower than the car just now, rhythmic, and her heartbeat beat followed the train for a while.

Exhaled, a white mist came out, only to know that her hands and feet froze, this is also her own finding, in the local dialect is made, she has a habit, as soon as she gets home, she is used to taking off her socks, bare a pair of feet for several hours without moving, every time it is like this barefoot. The cold can't be colder anymore. The air conditioner was hanging on the wall, and I didn't want to turn it on, the air conditioner smelled bad, and I didn't want to turn it on no matter how cold it was. When it was hot in the summer, she remembered that there was still this machine in her room, but now, she felt that she was deliberately tortured.

She didn't know if she was sorry for that child or if she was sorry for Chengfeng, she just wanted to torture herself on purpose. Perhaps, in this way, she can better forgive herself.

Stand up from the computer desk again, jump on both feet, and do some simple exercises, such as taking a deep breath, standing on tiptoe and raising your hands and pulling up with your whole body, relaxing, and pulling again, three rounds, half a minute each. This action was taught to her by He Huan before, she practiced for a few years, and the effect of weight loss and body beautification was good, from a fat duck to a swan. Of course, for the current Su is, heating is also good! Standing under the air conditioner, so warm, looking up at the air conditioner, she felt that she was also very strange. Burpees are difficult, but jumping jacks are absolutely successful.

smiled and walked in place again, his body swayed, and he played Tai Chi again, Tai Chi? It was really Chengfeng who taught him. No, don't want this guy. She wanted to think of herself as a real boxer, of Tyson, the snow-white socks he wore every time he came out, and a new pair of socks every time. Su began to consciously punch and close like a real boxer, with one hand in front and one hand behind him, and each punch made a roar, fierce or soft. Please pay attention to your footwork, running and standing, and try your best to do enough kung fu with one move and one style, and your body must not shake from side to side.

The exercise time is short, anyway, after the exercise, it is still very refreshing. Sit down again, it's not so cold, but she's bored and greedy, and she still wants the feeling of being hot, boiling water, holding a hot cup! People are wise, so they are not afraid, no matter how lonely they are, they are not afraid.

I haven't been in touch with He Huan and Xiao Qing for a long time, and I didn't notify them when I changed my mobile phone number, do I want to wake up her friends, Su is looking at herself in the mirror, she really laughed. Could it be that she is really a little insane?

Su is patted his head, and fell on the bed with a goo, closing his eyes, imagining that the police can still be red and green, blue sky and white clouds, the most comfortable season of the year.

"It's a pity, it's still winter." As soon as she thought of this, she actually said to herself, "How good it is to go out to climb the mountains, travel far away and make new friends." How nice it would be to find a place where no one knows me and start over. ”

The stars flashed outside the window again, yes, she wanted such a flash, not bright but comforting to the lonely.

According to the test sheet sent by Xiao Qing, Su felt that she might really have depression, but it was not obvious during the day, after all, she had a job at hand, but at night, or when she was alone, she felt more and more that she might be really sick.

However, she felt okay when she realized that she was sick, and this contradiction also drove her crazy.

I wanted to ask for leave to go back to my hometown to see, but the work at hand had just taken over, she had to give up, Ouyang Key was obviously a lot more polite to her, almost all the instructions at work were approved, and the words were mostly encouragement and trust, but she never mentioned the word Chengfeng.

I happened to see the newspaper, and I could still see a photo of Shenghu on the page of Douda, after all, as a foreign entrepreneur, he was still one of the best in Dongcheng, but what does this have to do with her? She just saw the eyes of a fellow countryman and put down the newspaper.

If she could do it all over again, Sue didn't want to meet these people again and go through these things again.

No matter how beautiful love is, no pain is real, it is better to look forward to Xuan Window at the beginning, and the classmates of ten years will eventually become married.

didn't take the initiative to contact anyone, but it was Qiongyu who took the initiative to contact her. Naturally, she has her new number. What's more, the layout of the Dongcheng branch may also be under her control.

As soon as he thought of this, Su is heart began to get irritated again. So for Qiongyu's call, she was not polite, just simply reported the work of human resources, it is only the recruitment stage, and the others can't start yet, and she wants to get off work after hanging up the phone. I want to escape from this office area.

Back in the house where she lived, she wanted to go back to the office to work.

After tossing and turning like this for two weeks, she clearly understood that it was only herself who wanted to escape.

How can you escape from yourself! This is a big problem, and Sue laughs again at herself in the mirror. It's okay if you're really crazy, a madman doesn't know pain.

If you are not crazy, how can you conclude that there is no pain after you are crazy! This is the same philosophy as Zifeiyu.

Escaping oneself is the best martial art, and it follows you like a shadow. If the cure is not good, you can't escape, you can't avoid it, you can only find time for this doctor to come, but this time, it is no longer an expert outpatient clinic, but like a charlatan, the course of treatment is too long, the effect is not good, and there is a slight sense of deception.