Even if we have a relationship, even if we are married, but in order to take care of my feelings, Shen Yu has always been gentle and kept a certain distance from me.

And now, he is always as intimate and ambiguous as a lover to me, and his gestures are full of love. He would kiss me, hug me, and be more intimate with me than before.

Seeing this diary at this time, I finally understood what was different about Shen Yu.

In addition to these, his feelings for me are no longer restrained, and they are all expressed in action, which is not excessive, but just right.

I knew in my heart that his change must have something to do with the contents of this diary.

I frowned and sighed to myself.

Neither of us moved for a moment, his strong arms around me, his lips falling to my neck, the burning breath spreading over my skin.

I was silent and didn't know what to say, let alone where to start.

We were quiet for a while, and then he pulled me over and put me in front of him.

I didn't look at him, so I lowered my eyelashes and stood calmly face to face with him.

He put his arm around my shoulder, his deep, magnetic voice flowing beautifully through the quiet bedroom.

He asked me, "Qiqi, do you still love me?" ”

I tightened the tips of my fingers holding the diary, the tips of my heart tightened, and my eyelashes trembled slightly.

Since I was a child, I have been very dependent on Shen Yu, and since I was a child, I always wanted to be with him for the rest of my life, to be taken care of and protected by him for a lifetime, and never to be separated from him.

When I was a child, I had a vague concept that I must marry Shen Yu when I grow up.

It was that time when he rescued me from that lake, and the nervous look he had I remember to this day.

Later, he was going abroad, and I felt that it would be too late to say some things, and I was afraid that he would like someone else, and I was afraid that he would be good with other girls in places I couldn't see, so I wrote a confession letter.

I got a reply from him, but the answer I got was......

His refusal, he told me, he just treated me as a sister, saying that it was impossible between us, and that he wanted to be good brothers and sisters with me for life.

He also said that he already has someone he likes, and he went abroad this time for that girl.

I was devastated, I was very sad, very uncomfortable, and my heart hurt.

I tried my best to forget, to forget about it, to treat him as my brother, and never to think about anything else.

Like a piece of pain, I felt sorry for the feelings in my heart little by little, and I even let myself forget, forcibly turning those feelings into brother and sister affection.

Later, Fu Jiu appeared in my world.

When I first came into contact with him, it was nothing, but after a long time, I felt that he was very similar to Shen Yu, and my feelings seemed to have finally found sustenance and found someone to vent.

Although it is because of Shen Yu that I like Fu Jiu, I can't deny that the feelings I paid are fake, and I can't deny that I loved Fu Jiu.

At that time, I was really wholeheartedly invested in my feelings, and I cared and loved that man wholeheartedly.

Shen Yu has been away for many years, I have been with Fu Jiu for many years, from high school to college, a man like Fu Jiu is no worse than Shen Yu, and a few years are enough for me to fall in love with him.

"Seventy-seven." After not getting my answer for a long time, Shen Yu called me in a low voice.

He held my jaw and straightened my face.

I lifted my eyelashes, and I saw that he looked at me seriously with a little uneasy, and he didn't hide it at all.

He approached me slowly, as if to be tempting.

Seeing that his lips were about to fall on mine, I turned my face away.

My emotions were a little big, I felt aggrieved, I felt uncomfortable, I felt unfair, so I pushed him a little harder.

We all stepped back, and the journal in my hand fell to the ground, and the silence was broken with a 'snap'.

I was in a hurry, I had a lot to say, and my heart was fluctuating.

I glared at me and gestured: Shen Yu, I don't love you anymore.

My eyes turned red at the thought of my pain.

I said: It was you who told me that you have someone you like, only treat me as a sister, and hope to be a brother and sister with me for a lifetime, these are what you said, and I did what you said, only treat you as a brother and a relative, why do you want to break this situation?

I don't understand his repetition, and I don't understand what he thinks in his heart, but I think he's very bad, why do you want to change when you say change?

In order to forget him, I even deceived my feelings, repeatedly saying to myself, it was just family affection, I only regarded him as an elder brother, and he didn't know how painful the process of self-numbing was.

In the end, I succeeded, successfully regarded those as family affection, and successfully fell in love with Fu Jiu.

After saying this angrily, I said again: If you say you don't love, you don't love, if you say love, you love, why? Why should I stand still and wait for you?

The atmosphere fell silent, and after a while, he came and stood in front of me, only half a step away from me.

He said in a low and serious voice: "Qiqi, I never said I didn't love you, never. ”

I was stunned and felt unbelievable, how could it be?

I have kept Shen Yu's letter for no other purpose, I just want to remind myself not to be sentimental.

I knew that I had brought my salute back, and I searched for it in the house, and wanted to confront him with the letter, and ask him, is this a fake?

I was rummaging through the room when his voice came from behind me, "Are you looking for this?" ”

I turned around, and sure enough, I saw the letter in his hand.

The letter was not given to me by him in person, but I accidentally found a piece of paper in my textbook during class, and it was this letter.

When I wrote to him, I put the letter I wrote in his notebook for the purpose of borrowing notes, and he also put the letter in my book and replied to me.

He said to me with some regret, "Qiqi, haven't you noticed that the words on this letter are a little different from mine?" ”

Not the same? What does he mean?

I wondered, but he added, "I have never written this letter, and I have never seen yours." ”

My eyes widened, how could it be? He didn't even see my letter? So where did my letter to him go?

Who gave me his reply?

I tried my best to remember what happened at that time, before I received his reply, I also went to their house, it was Uncle Shen who asked me to come over, but it was very unfortunate that day, his grandparents were also there.

I still can't figure out what happened when I didn't know it, why did it happen like this?

After a while, I heard him say, "Grandpa's handwriting is very good, and he has been the object of my admiration since he was a child, so my handwriting has always imitated his handwriting, and after a long time of writing, my handwriting is a little different from his." ”

He frowned, and his eyes fell on the letter in his hand: "Grandpa's handwriting is very smooth, as if it was made with a single stroke, while mine is not." ”

My heart skipped a beat and I felt incredulous.

I walked over and took the letter from his hand, but I noticed no difference.

Shen Yu said, "You can go and compare the words I wrote before." ”

He picked up my journal and flipped the first page.

On the first page, there is a congratulatory message written by Shen Yu to wish me a happy birthday, a few sentences that are neither long nor short.

When the two characters are put together, there is indeed no difference at first glance, and the style seems to be similar, but if you look closely, you can really find some differences.

The blunt pen of the two characters is different, and there are some differences in style.

Shen Yu's grandfather's words were written with one stroke, but Shen Yu's was written with one stroke.

I was stunned, when I received such a letter, I was very shocked, lost, and I didn't even dare to take another look, where is the time to pay attention to the difference in words? It is even less likely to pay attention to these details.

Later, it didn't take long for Shen Yu to leave, and I avoided him several times when he looked for me, and then we just stopped doing it.

I can't tell what I feel in my heart, it's a little painful, and it's a little astringent.

I knew that Shen Yu's grandparents didn't want me to marry Shen Yu, so he had a reason to do so.

However, his goal was achieved, but he didn't want to marry Shen Yu after many years, but at this time, it was already a matter of fact.

Shen Yu hugged me and pressed my head against his chest.

He said with regret and heartache: "Qiqi, give us another chance." ”

I closed my eyes and didn't respond.

He said, "I knew you must have had a hard time, but I wasn't much better than you. ”

"How painful you were at the time, how painful I felt when I found out that you had a boyfriend."

"I came back to see you, but what I saw was you walking on campus holding hands with him."

"It's not like I didn't want to rush up, but I never wanted to hurt you, I told myself, if you like him, if he is good to you, I bless you."

"But he didn't give you happiness, so I decided that I would give you happiness."

I felt very uncomfortable in my heart, and suddenly I was pinched, inexplicably painful.

He wiped the tears on my face and gently coaxed me: "Don't cry, don't cry, it's all my fault, it's okay if you beat me and scold me, but don't cry." ”

"I want to give you happiness, I want to give you the happiest days, I want you to be able to laugh every day......" he smiled bitterly: "But it seems that I have hurt you." ”

These words made me uncomfortable, and instead of stopping the tears on my face, I flowed more and more.

I don't know why I'm crying, I feel depressed, labor pain, and I just want to cry inexplicably.

He held my cheek and kissed the tears off my face, kissed my cheek, and finally tossed it on my lips.

He hugged me and kissed me deeply, from gentle and warm to stormy, which made me a little unstoppable.

His hand twisted around my back and reached out from the hem of my dress.

I shuddered, and he became more and more anxious.

I was wearing a short sleeve on the top and a long skirt underneath, which hung all the way down to the instep, and the thin fabric was very light, as thin as a layer of paper, and it would break when I poked it, so I could clearly feel the changes in his body.

Falling with me on the soft big bed behind me, he pressed against me, looked at me seriously and seriously for a while, and then kissed me again.

It was still like a temptation, because his movements were unusually slow, as if if he would stop immediately if I refused.

I was a little hesitant and a little nervous, my mind was blank, I didn't know what to do, I didn't know how to choose.

Just when I was at a loss, he had already kissed again.

The surging kiss fell on my lips and teeth like waves, and the palm of my hand ironed against my body like a soldering iron, winding over my skin.

Everything happened as a matter of course, and the bed became Ling under his shaking. Disorderly.

I don't know when the clothes on my body disappeared, and I didn't feel any pain, but I still felt a little uncomfortable when he went in.

"Just bear with it." He took a look at my hair and stroked my forehead.

I'm confused, my brain has stopped thinking, I don't know if it's good or not.

I didn't expect Yang Siqi to find here, and I was even more surprised that she would find here.

Shen Yu went to work and was not at home, and I was painting downstairs when she came.

As soon as Yang Siqi saw me, she begged me to save Fu Jiu, I didn't understand what she meant, and I didn't understand, what does it have to do with me whether or not I can save Fu Jiu?

If he's sick, she's more likely to see a doctor, shouldn't she?

Later, Yang Siqi told me that when Fu Jiu learned that something had happened to me, he rushed to the scene in the name of disaster relief, and later he had an accident and encountered a mudslide.

Now people are being gouged back, but the situation is not optimistic.

The doctor said he had no desire to live. Hope, so Yang Siqi thought of me and wanted me to wake up Fu Jiu.

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