Later, L confessed to me that at first he fell in love with me, really because of my appearance, dignified and decent, but he can still exude sex appeal and charm from time to time. But he has seen so many women, and this alone is not enough to make him emotional. Later, through further understanding, he found that I was very interesting, a girl full of positive energy and freshness; Later, he said that he found that I was very kind, very considerate, diligent and thrifty, and temperamental, and I was the best choice for a good wife. It's a pity that he already has a wife of his own.

When he first touched me, he was not as sentimental as I had imagined, and when he saw my lonely back that night, he just couldn't hold back his lust. That's just the way it is.

He later said more than once that I was a very coquettish woman at heart, and that I was inadvertently seductive with my gestures, and I was completely unaware of it.

At the beginning, I was still immersed in the sorrow of impossible love, and I couldn't understand that L was laying a net for me.

Sometimes I want to interview men who are in extramarital relationships: Are you really sexually loved?

Are some of those single girls who are friends dream of getting true love through this channel?

I don't think that's reliable.

Regarding interfering in other people's families, in my tutoring, it is definitely ruined, and I think girls who don't respect themselves will always be punished. So even though I like L very much, I never thought about any substantive deviance with him, I thought we could stay at the level of platonic spiritual communication, or at most act a little more ambiguously, affectionately, and politely. For me, that's enough. But the men apparently don't think so.

L is a normal man, he has his bottom line, although I don't know if he has ever messed with flowers and grass in the past (I feel that there is, juvenile ambition is not a good thing for the woman behind a successful man), but he also does not eat everything. Especially with the growth of age and experience, there is a more rational judgment on the input-output ratio of choosing a lover. Men are shrewd, and it's best to pick up girls without spending money.

So L laid me out a good game.

It's a little sad to say. In this regard, he, like all men, will think about it before he wants to hook up with a girl, to see if this woman is worth the investment, and whether it can be a low investment and a high return. After all, it was me who fell in love with him at first sight (experienced men will have the mentality of not wanting nothing when they find that a woman with acceptable quality falls in love with him), not how much he loves me before chasing me, so he doesn't know me well enough to be sure whether I will open my mouth in the future and threaten the harmony and stability of his family. These need to be discussed in advance, and then the model of the lover's relationship will be determined. The average married friend is such a naked reciprocal transaction.

But what L didn't expect was that I wasn't a little girl anymore, and naturally I wasn't a vegetarian. For men who leave after patting their butts in the name of love, I can see through it at a glance. Because of this incident, I underestimated L a little, but the subsequent development also completely exceeded L's expectations. Feelings themselves are a trap, and there is always a war between a man and a woman, with love and hate, no matter what your relationship is.

This game is a testimony to the mutual cocoon between two people who are wary of each other, it is cruel and unforgettable, and when the two meet frankly, they find that they have gone around in circles, and they can't help but smile bitterly.

Shortly after the KTV incident, L's birthday arrived. HR mm prepared a greeting card early in the morning for us to sign. I bought a beautiful cufflink from overseas and planned to give it to him as a birthday present. My girlfriend said I was crazy, and the price of that cufflink was worth half of my quarterly prize.

I am especially grateful to my best friend Xiao M, I have only told her all about this relationship, and she has also given me countless advice.

But I was so stupid at the time, I didn't listen to anything, I just thought he would like it, he would be happy, and I would be happy that way. Later, I was ashamed that I had never been so kind to my dad. After so many years, I fell in love again, but I haven't heard the other person's confession at all.

L's birthday was a Saturday and I was sure he would be spending it with his family. So before I got off work on Friday, I asked him on an excuse, "Do you have to work overtime today?" He said, "Plus." "I was glad to say he knew what the hell I was up to.

I handed him the gift in the dead of night, and he looked like he knew it, but he couldn't hide his joy. But I was embarrassed, turned my head and went out to turn on the water, and dropped a sentence: "Don't thank me too much!" He didn't even dare to look at his expression when he opened the gift.

I stayed in the boiling water room for a long, long time, and my heart was pounding, and I thought to myself, damn it, I should have just taken my bag and left, and now I went back to see him and said something! I was hesitating, and I saw him holding a glass of water to fetch water, and he didn't look at me, but whispered beside me, "Thank you, I like it very much." ”

"If you like it." With that, I quickly ran out first, and the cup in my hand was still empty.

After work that day, I saw that his WeChat sent a very rare photo, which was a cufflink sent by me, and the annotation on it was: I am very happy today, and I hope you are too.

I was genuinely happy for a long time. Until Xiao M woke me up and said, "Didn't that man say he wanted to invite you to a meal or something?" ”

I didn't think this proposal was too much, and it could promote communication, so I knocked on MSN and said, "Leader, when will we have a meal together?" He asked, "What, you want to be treated?" "I made a crying face. I thought he was just joking, and he would immediately say "then I'll please" or something, but he said, "I only have 200 yuan in pocket money every month......

I was frozen in an instant.

Then I was still unwilling, but after waiting for many naïve, I didn't see him say anything. Little M laughed at me and said, "You have met an iron rooster, before you can get into it, quickly retreat!" ”

But I feel more and more inexplicable, he used to invite me to dinner when I had normal workplace relations, why is he stingy now? Do you think I've become a bag or a turtle in an urn? But his desire to develop further was very urgent, often intimate, and there were many suggestive words, not like he looked at me as a chicken rib.

I'm confused. But I came to the right conclusion: he didn't really mean me.

Then I felt like it was a big deal!

I was angry about this for a long time, and I ignored him for about a month.

L is very busy during this time, so there is no time to please me, we just tacitly vomited, walking by the eye contact, I am deliberately indifferent, he is cunning and calm, as a result of a month passed, I suddenly felt that this relationship was very funny, I was originally a heartless person, because of the sesame big thing to ignore him for so long, it seems that I am too naïve.

The best revenge is to restore normal colleague relationships and stop having illusions.

I tried my best to confront him naturally, as I would with any male leader.

Soon L was busy for a while, and when he had time to chat with me, he took the initiative to ask me to dinner. I thought to myself: don't eat for nothing, don't eat. Naturally, he got off work and got into his car.

Compared with the first time he invited me to dinner, this time he seemed to pay more attention to my feelings, the last time I took his car I said, "You actually listen to Jay Chou's song", but this time he played Eason Chan all the way, and the volume was not so high; When I arrived at the Western restaurant, he even knew how to serve me food, unlike the last time when a pair of leaders waited for me to serve him tea and pour water. Actually, I didn't say anything last time, but he actually paid close attention to my subtle emotions.

I'm actually quite happy, but I don't say anything. Unlike last time, I've become more reticent this time, and I don't make jokes, and I guess I've been blushing all the time. When I meet someone I like, I'm always a different person, and I'm not good at words. L seemed to be the same, so we had a dull meal.

After eating, I went down to the basement to pick up the car, I sat in and fastened my seat belt, and I waited for a long time and didn't see him start the engine.

"Why don't you leave?"

"Wait a minute."

After another three minutes, he still refused to drive, but turned on the air conditioner and blew. I knew he must mean something else. So I hurried to find something to say to break the awkward atmosphere and avoid any dangerous topics.

He asked me to open the storage compartment in front of the passenger to help him get something, and when I opened it, I saw a delicate little jewelry box. He said it was the one and took it out to him. I guessed in my heart that it was not far from ten. Sure enough, he took it and handed it to me directly and said, "I gave it to you, and I wish you a happy birthday in advance." ”

I was pleasantly surprised, when I opened the box, it was a very thin bracelet that looked exquisite.

He reached over and put it on for me himself.

Is this his "feedback"?

But until this time, he was still quite disciplined, and he didn't take the opportunity to rub my oil or anything.

I was just happy until I heard him say, "This one is white." ”

It's a pity that I've seen this necklace in the Z counter, it's exactly the same, and I know it's silver.

At the time, I thought it was ironic, do you say you have to dress as a girl? In fact, I won't dislike a gift of a few hundred dollars, can you lie to me and say that it is thousands? Is it because you think the cufflinks I gave you are too expensive, and you don't want to buy such expensive ones, so you trick me to make me feel more comfortable? If I expose you directly, will you have to dig three feet into the ground? In an instant, I was completely emotional, and I sneered in my heart.

L, however, was still immersed in the romantic atmosphere he had created, and he thought that I had received the gift and waited for the right time, and kept looking at me, and suddenly reached out and pinched my chin.

Then, according to his previous idea, I should kiss him!

But I directly waved my arm to block his hand, didn't look at him, and said, "Leader, you can drive quickly." ”

After a few more roundups in between, he was smart enough to find the atmosphere uncomfortable, so he finally started the car.

I didn't say anything all the way. In short, in a bad mood. He still didn't find out why, thinking that it was the surprise that scared me, so he always told jokes to lighten the mood.

When I went back to talk to Xiao M about this, she first scolded me for not knowing the danger and daring to be alone with a man in a confined space; Secondly, she scolded L Iron Rooster for being a selfish man, undoubtedly, and he is not worthy of my love at all. I was a little discouraged and felt bored.

Ever since the bracelet incident, I have always felt like a fish in my throat, and I don't vomit unhappily. I'm an acute sub-rectum person, and I really can't do it, and I can't hide it when I look at L's smugness. So in a small mouth, I itched my teeth and said, "You are an iron and a stinky fart, and you don't know the goods!" L first said, "No one ever said I was an iron rooster," and then he was smart enough to realize something and turned away from me.

Then there was a long period of indifference to each other, I think it should be that he is a thief, and thinks that my woman is more tricky to soak, so he retreats.

I don't have any special thoughts about him anymore, although I still feel that he is handsome and dizzy in meetings with him every day, but the eagerness in my heart gradually subsides. At the time, I thought to myself, this is exactly what I need to be in a state where I don't tear my face or step into a minefield.

It was the easiest time I've had since I met him. It was as if we had reverted back to a normal subordinate relationship, and he didn't pay much attention to me anymore, and I wouldn't confide in him my emotions.

During that time, there was another bonus: S confessed to me.

In my opinion, this is a fantasy.

Although I may be a more fun-loving woman in L's impression, I have always maintained an independent and dignified posture in front of S (in order to reject him thousands of miles away), he actually developed a "can't ask for it" mentality, and it fermented into an irrational attachment over time - maybe no woman has ever rejected him as seriously as I did. He felt like he was in love with me.

Sometimes I feel like I have a very low eye for people.

Because since S decided to chase me seriously, it suddenly seemed like a different person. He normally invited me to dinner, to the movies, to the concerts, never reluctantly, and never again did anything wrong. I was very wary at first, but later I found out that he was very serious, and he was really attentive and attentive, and he was very willing to spend time and money.

Actually, I didn't agree to him in the end, but he was still trying, first of all, saying that he was a friend. Actually, I never wanted to make friends with the prodigal son, but since he changed his attitude, I suddenly found that he has a lot of inner brilliance that is worth learning. For example, he has more career pursuits than L (L is busier in comparison, but the height is different), and there is a big pattern, no wonder he is the boss's celebrity. S has a flexible brain and is very sociable. He confessed his heart after watching a movie, and he seemed to say casually: "Why don't we date?" I shook my head and declined: "I'm sorry to ......" "OK, that's fine." Would you like a cup of milk tea? "He interrupted me very cleverly. Dating S will never make you feel uncomfortable, unlike L who still needs to adjust. He is funny and humorous, very observant, strong but comfortable.

Sometimes I think I have a better understanding with him than with L, but I intellectually attribute this to his imitation and ingenuity without leaving a trace. S is a master of love, but I would never dare to trust this kind of man.

Maybe everyone will think that they are about to enter the bloody plot, but in fact, because of my constant refusal, it didn't take long for S to give up. He doesn't want to get married at the moment, or he just wants to talk about love, and S at this stage is still career-oriented. I believed that I was by no means the first choice of his wife, so I was not tempted.

But in the face of L, I was even more entangled: he obviously has a wife! Am I not a moth to a fire?

I was very sober when I was sensible, but every time I saw his malicious eyes and smile, and it was only for me to bloom, I suddenly felt so beautiful that I could do anything about it.

How lacking love I am!

To be honest, I wasn't really happy during that time. The energy that I used to want to go to work every day, want to see L, and think about how to dress up to be beautiful is gone all of a sudden. Women are those who please themselves - there is no expectation at the moment.

The peaceful days passed like water, and I still tried to maintain my perfect state, not to make myself happy, but not to make myself too mediocre in L's eyes all of a sudden. During that period of time, I began to have a rational understanding of L and L to me, no longer confused by the surface, and saw more of the truth of the other party, which can be described as "idol pulling down the altar". The irrational attachment to the frenzy and restlessness is over, and we begin to slowly understand the true thoughts of each other, and return to the original intentions of our colleagues and friends.

In fact, this is the beginning of a serious relationship.

Originally, I thought that if I was no longer infatuated, it would be bleak, but it is difficult for two people who are consensual to really give up on each other.

After the successful conclusion of a big case of the year, L took his colleagues in the department to take a hot spring together. I always stayed close with the girls in the department, ignoring the jokes of my male colleagues and making my own.

Glancing at L, he was not as good as I thought, and he looked a little thin when he took off his clothes. But it still can't hide his melancholy and handsome temperament...... I turned around and told myself to stop being delusional. Although deep down I was vaguely looking forward to some romantic adventure.

The two-day, one-night event passed quickly, and nothing happened. I protect myself very well, I deliberately keep a low profile, but in fact, the voice in my heart is: so you should also take the initiative to create opportunities! How can a girl take the initiative first? But until we left, L didn't say anything, not even to say a word to me alone. So on the bus back I fell asleep.

Stephen Chow's old-fashioned classic movie "Tang Bohu Dots Autumn Fragrance" was playing in the car, and I basically memorized some of the lines. A few hours later, getting out of the car, everyone waved goodbye.

I saw L go to the basement to pick up the car alone, and I felt lonely: have you returned to the original unrequited love stage? I made myself so determined to go as fast as I could.

yes, isn't that exactly what I wanted? Wouldn't it be nice to end like this? What unrealistic things could I expect from me?

When I got on the subway, I suddenly received L's WeChat: "I put the watch in your bag, remember to bring it to me when I go to work next Monday." ”

In an instant, the ice disintegrated, and the spring flowers bloomed. But I pretended not to move.

A woman in love is a fool, thinking day and night for each other's smile and cheek, and the meaning of a casual small act of the other party will be infinitely magnified.

L knows the mind of a little girl like me, and his casual words can make me happy or lost.

In front of him, I was always submissive, not like the original me, I seemed to borrow a shell, trembling and playing a perfect role that could please him. I know it's not a rational relationship, but I'm happy to be in it.

Sometimes I scolded myself and said, "Actually, you don't want to marry him, and you don't want to have a serious relationship, you just want a handsome guy to fall in love with you!" Or rather, you want to possess him! ”

Yes, I'm possessive, too.

However, one thing soon upset the "balance" between us.

L's superior, that is, our leader in charge, suddenly left, and the boss air-conditioned a new leader in charge, and he didn't get along well with L. When the old leader was here, he attached great importance to L, and he could have been promoted in a few years, but now there is no play.

Later, I heard that when the old leader left, he wanted to take L with him, so he was very entangled at that time.

I vaguely felt that L was in a bad mood during that time, and he hardly had time to talk to me, so I did my job well and rarely had direct contact with him. He always had a haggard face for a while, looking tired, and he didn't look energetic to do his work.

Maybe it's when people are vulnerable, people are the most easily moved, I automatically worked overtime that day, and I wanted to change his report PP more beautifully. L came back from dinner to work overtime, found that I hadn't left yet, and asked me what I was doing, so I smiled and said, "It's the first time I've reported to the new leader, I want your PP to be perfect." Inadvertently looking up and seeing the deep meaning in his eyes, I quickly buried my head in doing things.

He walked up behind me, suddenly patted me on the head, and said, "Thank you." ”

I didn't dare to move, and whispered, "Yes." ”

After a while, I felt as if he was still standing behind me, and just as I was hesitating to look back, his arms suddenly wrapped around my shoulders and neck, and his face was buried on the right side of my face, his ear close to his ear. It's so warm, so warm that my neck and face are red. Before I could react, he immediately stood up again, and silently returned to his desk as if nothing had happened.

Only when he is moved to thank?

My typing fingers were a little too agitated to listen. The whole heart melted.