Look at the rain that stops in mid-air

Make the city seem vacuum

I live in a past

Try to miss you

I wish I could put you in the past

Make a silent movie

Some can be dated

But some should be forgotten

Do you remember that day

The smell of the wind that day

When the earthquake came, Du Xiaosu and his colleague Zhu Lingya were taking the elevator downstairs. The elevator vibrated violently several times, like a pendulum, and even the dull sound of the elevator hitting the elevator shaft could be heard, and then it never moved again, as if it was stuck. Zhu Lingya screamed in fright and grabbed Du Xiaosu's arm tightly: "What's the matter?" ”

Du Xiaosu didn't know, thinking that it was the elevator failure, but fortunately, after a while, the elevator resumed operation, and as soon as he got out of the elevator room, he saw that everyone was running towards the stairwell.

"There was an earthquake! Come on! ”

They didn't have time to react, they were carried to the stairwell by the flow of people, and ran downstairs in one go, only to find that all the people in the nearby office buildings had come down, and the street downstairs was full of people. Zhu Lingya beside her was shocked, and almost immediately picked up her mobile phone to call her boyfriend: "Scared to death, collapsed ......" and Yin Yin advised, "Stay away from the house, don't go up casually, go to work?" Don't be dead, don't go to work, the boss has the wrong brain, don't want to pay attention to Yi, Nong is too long, don't blame how you can Nong, don't go up, otherwise I won't pay attention to Nong......"

Tired of soft words, listening to the noisy background sound in his ears, Du Xiaosu raised his face, the high-rise buildings on both sides were like mountains and rocks, jagged and precarious, and the narrow streets were as deep as a river. Occasionally, a ray of sunlight shines down through a crack in a tall building, stinging one's eyes. She thought that if there was another more violent shaking of the mountain, all these buildings would collapse, and they would not be able to hide...... But what's the use, her whole world has already collapsed, and it has collapsed to the point where nothing is intact.

Zhu Lingya finished the call, turned her face and asked her with a smile: "Xiaosu, why don't you call, you should report your safety?" ”

She then remembered that she should call her mother, but then she thought that the magnitude of the earthquake was not high, and the house was thousands of miles away, so she shouldn't feel anything, so it was better not to worry her parents. Then I thought of Shao Zhenrong, I don't know how their hospital is, he will definitely be busy protecting the patients - when I think of him, I feel very sad.

Zhu Lingya watched her take out her mobile phone and put it back in her bag, and couldn't help but feel funny: "There's nothing embarrassing about fighting with your boyfriend, you have to wait for him to call first?" ”

Du Xiaosu smiled reluctantly, but didn't say anything more after all.

Because the office building where they work is a high-rise, the earthquake is obvious, and all the people are like frightened birds, standing on the road for several hours. There was a lot of talk about it, and it was not known exactly where the earthquake was, but there was no definite news coming. Some people received text messages saying it was Huangshi, and some people received text messages saying it was Sichuan. It's just that it's a rare busy Monday to stand on the road like this, so a male employee from another company upstairs came to talk, and bought milk tea to treat guests, which amused a few little girls in Xiaosu's company to talk and laugh.

At four o'clock, the director of the company finally announced that he would leave work early, and everyone dispersed. Du Xiaosu felt a little dazed, she was very busy at work, so busy that she didn't have the extra brainpower to think about anything else, but suddenly she was free for a few hours, and she could go home.

Because everyone was in a hurry to get home, there were no taxis on the road here. She walked two stops to the light rail station, but took the opposite direction and went to the hospital.

There are still sparse crowds on the road near the hospital, probably staff working nearby, or patients coming to the emergency department, and even family members of patients standing on the sidewalk holding hanging bottles. Du Xiaosu slowed down her pace, looking at the bustling people on the sidewalk, shuttling back and forth, but she didn't want to go to the hospital. So he turned a corner, dragged forward step by step, raised his head, and realized that he had unconsciously walked to the place where he had dinner with Shao Zhenrong last time.

He hesitated through the door, but walked in. It was not time to eat, there were no customers in the store, and I finally went to the second floor, which has a large floor-to-ceiling window facing the hospital. The waiter smiled apologetically and wanted to lower the curtains for her: "I'm sorry, it's a little noisy outside." ”

"It's fine." She stopped the waiter, "So be it." ”

The sun was about to set, and a faint sunset could be seen in the gap between the buildings, very light crimson, faintly purple skylight. She sat on the lanterns, watched the street lights turn on, and the lights in the hospital building opposite also lit up, and the whole building was as clear as a crystal tower, as if Qionglou Yuyu, the heaven on earth.

Looking out of the window, there is a sea of bright lights. The night of this city has always been so beautiful, just like her eyes, which reflect the starlight of the cold night. But the starlight was shattered, and when he finally left, he never dared to look back, for fear of seeing the tears in her eyes.

If she was really lying to him, why was she crying?

He couldn't help but sigh.

"Doctor Shao!" The nurse's hurried voice interrupted his thoughts, "Bed 17 suddenly vomited, do you want to go and see it?" ”

"I'll be right here." He turned around and hurried towards the ward, leaving behind the sea of lights outside the window.

The night shift was very busy, and a car accident patient with a head injury was transferred to the emergency department in the early hours of the morning and resuscitated all night. After the routine ward rounds in the morning, Shao Zhenrong and the colleagues who came to take over the day shift were handed over. I took off my doctor's gown and changed into my own clothes, only to feel tiredness hit me. Rubbing his eyebrows, he was about to go home to catch up on sleep, when suddenly the nurse called him: "Doctor Shao, the emergency phone is looking for you." ”

It was a familiar nurse in the emergency center: "Doctor Shao, come down quickly, your girlfriend has an accident." ”

When he arrived at the emergency department, Du Xiaosu had not woken up yet, and her face on the hospital bed was very pale, her eyes were slightly sunken, and she looked very haggard. The attending doctor said: "The basic examination has just been done, but the blood pressure is a little low, and the initial diagnosis should be excessive fatigue." The nurse on the side said: "I just took over the shift in the morning, and an old man who exercised early sent her in, saying that she was fainted on the road outside." We didn't pay attention, we were busy checking blood pressure, heartbeat, and pupil reaction, and the more I looked at it, the more familiar I felt, and then I remembered, isn't this Dr. Shao, your girlfriend? I'll call you quickly. ”

Shao Zhenrong looked at the drip that was hanging, it was glucose. The doctor asked, "Dr. Shao, does your girlfriend have any chronic diseases or drug allergies?" ”

"Nope."

"Oh, that's good. Then I'm going to write a medical record, by the way, is she medical insurance or self-paying? ”

"I'll pay the bill." Shao Zhenrong said, "I guess she didn't have a health insurance card. ”

After bargaining and paying the fee, he returned to the emergency observation room, and Du Xiaosu was already awake. Seeing him come in, her body suddenly moved slightly, but she hadn't seen her for a few days, her big eyes had sunken deeply, her lips were crumbled, and the whole person was like a puppet with peeling paint, looking wooden and dull. Her hands were still resting on the quilt, and the blood vessels could be clearly seen under the tape that staggered the needles, and she had lost a lot of weight recently. Her eyes finally fell on the slip in his hand, and finally whispered, "I'm sorry." ”

He didn't say anything.

At this time, the emergency doctor walked in with a test sheet: "Awake?" The report of the blood test has come out, and the hemoglobin is a little low, which may be iron deficiency anemia. In the future, we should pay attention to blood replenishment and eat more foods containing iron, copper and other trace elements...... Let Dr. Shao teach you this, anyway, you should pay attention to nutrition in your usual diet. He handed over the medical records and a stack of test sheets to Shao Zhenrong, "There shouldn't be any big problem, you can go home after the glucose hangs up." By the way, pay more attention to rest and don't stay up late. ”

After he left, Shao Zhenrong asked, "Where were you last night?" ”

Like a child who has made a mistake, she silently lowered her eyes.

"You're not going to spend the night outside the hospital, are you?"

Seeing that she was still silent, he couldn't help but get angry: "Du Xiaosu, what's the matter with you?" If you come to me for something, you just come to me. What does it mean for you to spend the night outside the hospital? Do you find it meaningful to do this? ”

She had never seen him angry, and the stern tone of his tone made her lose even the last touch of color on her lips, and she looked at him in a daze, as if she didn't know what to do.

He finally restrained the nameless fire in his heart in time and turned his face away. There was a lot of noise outside, and it sounded close, but it was far away. She still didn't say anything. The potion in the dropper dripped down one by one, vibrating with slight ripples, but the air gradually solidified, as if something was gradually seeping in, and then, weathered into mud, but it shattered slightly, cracked into tiny pieces, pierced into people's eyes, and also pierced into people's hearts, which made people feel uncomfortable.

"You didn't have breakfast, did you?" He calmed down, "I'll go buy you something to eat." ”

In fact, she didn't want to eat anything, although she didn't even eat dinner yesterday, she didn't feel hungry, on the contrary, her stomach was stuffed with stones, heavy, and she couldn't stuff anything else. Her lips moved slightly, and she wanted to say something, but he had already walked out.

Seeing his figure disappear behind the door, Du Xiaosu suddenly felt that maybe he would never come back after he left, maybe he was just looking for an excuse...... She tried to stop him, but his name was already on her lips, but she was silent.

Time seemed to be very slow, and it took half an hour for a drop of potion to drop, but it was so fast, so fast that she felt at a loss. I had to count the droppers of the dropper, one, two, three...... I couldn't remember where I was, so I had to count it from the beginning...... One drop, two drops, three drops...... She forced herself to concentrate and not think about anything else. The potion fell little by little, and her hands became cold little by little, so cold that it seemed like her heart was beginning to freeze.

His steps were so light that she didn't even hear him, and when he reappeared in front of her, she felt unreal and just looked at him in a trance.

"Crab roe dumplings." He handed her the hot buns, "I wanted to buy you some porridge, but it's sold out, and that's all there is to it." ”

The bun was very hot, and she only felt hot when she held it in her hand. He gave her the chopsticks: "You eat first." Whatever it is, let's talk about it after eating. ”

There was a thick heat, slowly touching the sour nose, she lowered her head, and he said, "I'll go out and smoke a cigarette." ”

She looked at him, he had never smoked before, and occasionally when someone gave him it, he would say no. She looked at him in a daze, he had already reached the door, but suddenly turned around, her gaze could not be evaded, and it had already met his. He frowned and said, "I'll be back later." Then he turned around and walked out the door.

Shao Zhenrong walked into the garden, took out a lighter and a cigarette, they were all bought in the small shop just now, and when he first lit them, he was choked on a mouthful, which made him cough. He doesn't know how to smoke, but when he came back from buying steamed buns just now, he passed by the small shop, but he couldn't help but pay for a box of Chinese. He tried to take another puff, but he still choked, reminding him that when he was four or five years old, his second brother Yu Zheng stole a box of cigarettes from his grandfather with him, and the two of them hid under the garden rockery and secretly lit it. At that time, he sucked hard with all his strength, but he choked and cried, and finally the orderly heard the sound and found it, so he brought the two of them out. Grandpa who was born in the army has a big hand like a fan?? I don't know how much it hurts in my buttocks: "Little rabbit, okay, don't learn this!" ”

He didn't want to think about it anymore, rubbed his face, snuffed out his cigarette, and threw it in the trash.

When he returned to the observation room, the glucose was almost gone, but Du Xiaosu fell asleep. Her face was slightly bloody, and her long eyelashes cast a faint dark shadow on her eyes. He stood there and watched for a moment, then slowed down the drip a little more and sighed slightly.

The nurse came to pull out the needle, she woke up in shock, struggling to get up and put on her shoes, Shao Zhenrong said: "Observe for a few minutes after the infusion before walking." After a pause, he added, "I'll take you home." ”

Only then did she remember to call the company to ask for leave, but fortunately, her boss didn't say anything, only told her to rest.

In the parking lot, the bright sun still gave her an illusory feeling, the city was already a little hot in May, and there was a last touch of spring in the wind. She stood there watching him reverse, everything seemed a little unreal in the sunlight, as if it were a dream.

There was just silence all the way. The little bean sprout she gave him was still on top of the center console, stretching little by little, shaking two leaves, as if they were alive. The traffic was smooth, it was rare that there was no traffic jam, and he dropped her downstairs from the apartment without turning off the car.

She whispered, "Thank you." ”

He didn't make a sound.

She plucked up the courage to raise her eyes, and he didn't look at her, just held the steering wheel and looked ahead.

"Shao Zhenrong......" she said almost with difficulty, "I'm leaving, you have to take care of yourself in the future." And, thank you. ”

He clenched the steering wheel tightly, but still didn't say anything.

She quickly opened the car door and ran away.

Someone behind her called her name, and the voice was far away, and she knew it was an illusion, so she ran faster. Regardless of it, she rushed up the steps in one breath, and suddenly a hand grabbed her arm. It turned out to be Shao Zhenrong, he chased too quickly, panting slightly, and her chest rose and fell violently, still breathless, as if she was about to suffocate.

He said, "Wait for me for a few days, please, wait for me for a few days." ”

She didn't dare to move, she didn't dare to speak, she was afraid that she would wake up if she moved. She had never had the luxury of expecting it, and at this moment, she didn't dare to expect it. His eyes were bloodshot, and he didn't seem to be sleeping well, and he said, "You can't do this, you have to let me figure out ......why," and he seemed to hold back the latter words, and finally, he just said, "Please, wait for me for a few days, can you?" ”

He finally let go of his hand and looked at her very quietly, into her eyes, at himself in her pupils. His eyes reflected her shadow, but there was indescribable pain, and she felt slightly dizzy, unwilling and unable to think about it again.

It was a long time before he turned and walked out, and the sun outside was so brilliant that it was like a fluffy golden frame that stuck him in it, and her own shadow cast on the smooth marble floor, as if infinitely depressed.