There is still a year to graduate, and the days without Anna by his side seem very dull, Chen Chen still didn't go to see anyone, and started to study quietly in school, just like he had never had friends in this city. It's not that she doesn't want to see her, she's waiting for herself to be ready, and then she will go to see her easily and naturally, and she won't be sloppy.

No one grows up all at once, and neither does she. is not always strong, she is afraid that she will be uncomfortable when facing Zhang Zhe, and she will cry and want to hug. If those are not what he wants, all his dependent actions will either become his troubles or become his pains.

A week later, Xiao Yuan, who had been waiting for Chen Chen to appear, decided not to wait. He took advantage of the holiday to pack his things and went out to Chen Chen's school.

When Chen Chen came out of class, he saw Xiao Yuan sitting in Zhang Zhe's place, and wanted to cry for no reason. She stood in the doorway and paused for a moment, holding back her tears.

"Why are you here, I'm still thinking of going to see you in a few days." Facing Zhang Yuan, Chen Chen always wanted to be gentle.

"But if you don't come, I'll come to see you." Xiao Yuan happily pounced and hugged her arm.

"I just came back and had a lot of things to do, so I didn't go. It's the same when you come, I'll invite you to eat something delicious. ”

"I should invite you, let's go eat something delicious." couldn't help but say, Xiao Yuan pulled her out.

At the end of class, the cafeteria next to the school was full of students, and the chatting sound mixed into a buzzing noise in the middle of a group of people, and Chen Chen had a little headache.

"Does your brother still refuse to come to see you?"

"Well, it's okay, I understand he can't take it. Sister Anna talked to him, but to no avail. Take your time. Xiao Yuan lowered his head and rummaged back and forth in the bowl, not daring to look up.

"Don't be afraid, and me." Chen Chen shook his hand.

"Sister, have you gone to see Brother Zhang Zhe?" After hesitating to the end, Zhang Yuan couldn't help but open his mouth.

"No, I didn't go." Chen Chen lowered his head and replied softly.

"Sister Anna said you met an acquaintance over there? Is it a man? ”

"It's a man, he was the negotiator of the opposing company when we negotiated with GTE last year. It looks like a good person, a gentleman. ”

"You're with him?"

"No, what are you thinking?" Chen Chen smiled a little helplessly, and quickly denied it.

"Brother Zhang Zhe has been waiting for you to come back. Don't blame him. He was just scared and didn't know how. Zhang Yuan lowered his head, "You also know that children who grow up in our environment have this problem, and most of them have never been loved, so they don't love others." ”

The people around him have gradually dispersed, the leftovers on the table seem messy and lonely, and the sudden loneliness of the people who are born out of the tea is unprepared.

"But Zhang Zhe asked me to go." Chen Chen didn't expect that he suddenly said something that had been estranged in his heart for so long, and it was Zhang Zhe who asked me to leave. I didn't leave on my own.

"Sister, have you ever felt that way, that is, there is someone by your side, saying that she loves you and wants to be with you all the time, but you still can't believe it. I always say in my heart that people are so fickle, and if you are not careful, you may change and I don't love you. If you feel a little bit of trouble, you will feel like you are going to be abandoned. Be scared, and then simply drive people away by yourself, so that it seems that there is a special reason for loneliness, as if it was chosen by oneself. Zhang Yuan pinched the straw in the cup, the knotted straw was torn open and tied in his hand, and the white creases of the plastic due to excessive bending slowly covered the entire straw, which were clearly visible like the scars of life, "We are like this." My brother wasn't big when my mother left, and when I made a fuss, he yelled at me very fiercely and told me to be better. I actually just wanted him to accompany me, but he didn't have time, he had to support me, so he couldn't play with me. I didn't understand it until I grew up. Brother Zhang Zhe is much gentler and sometimes coaxes me, but he is busier and ignores me most of the time. I was so afraid that they would leave me. ”

"You see I'm like this now, as long as I don't have classes, I like to get tired of them, in fact, what class do I go to, I'm just an oil painter, and I understand their things." Zhang Yuan finally let go of the straw, leaned back in the chair and laughed embarrassedly.

Zhang Yuan's face is cute like a girl, smiling reluctantly, and still sunny. He is indeed cute, and perhaps cuteness is also to match his so-called well-behavedness.

"Let's go back." Chen Chen touched his head, but still didn't respond to his words.

If you go to see him, what reason and expression should you use? If he has let go, will the so-called longing turn into harassment?

When you face the person you love, all the courage seems to disappear in an instant, and it turns into trembling and cautiousness. I'm afraid that my carelessness will hurt him.

Seeing that she didn't plan to answer directly, Xiao Yuan decided to go home. He understands that everything is not something that can be obtained by persecution, and if she really doesn't want to forgive Zhang Zhe, it is not her fault. All cause and effect are doomed the moment they do things, Zhang Zhe doesn't save himself, and no one can help him. But he doesn't work hard at all, and it doesn't fit Xiaoyuan's character.

He walked a few steps, and suddenly turned around, "Sister, at least you should go to my brother for me to talk~ Love you" It can be regarded as hard work. Zhang Yuan turned his head and ran away quickly.

After a night of insomnia, she decided to check it out. was going to find Zhang Xuan, and she silently encouraged herself in her heart. How many of them were excuses, only she knew in her own heart.

She walked straight into the showroom without going to the office. Buffer it and then face it, maybe you can prepare a little better. Standing here after a year, I feel like I'm in a different world. The things that had happened were still in her memory, and Chen Chen seemed to be able to recall the position in which they were standing, what they said, even Zhang Zhe's expression, and a certain restless and curled hair, she seemed to be able to recall it exactly.

She came to find Zhang Xuan, or maybe she was just using Xiaoyuan as an excuse to come here to take a look again.

"Sister Chen?!" Zhou Ziang held the propaganda leaflet in his hand and looked at her in disbelief: "You're finally back, come in." He handed over the things in his hand and enthusiastically stretched out his hand to signal Chen Chen to come in.

"It's been a long time since you've been back, and you're only here now."

"Well, stop by and have a look." Chen Chen was a little nervous and smiled unnaturally.

"Mr. Zhang has been thinking about you, and we are still thinking about when you will come back." Zhou Ziang looked at Chen Chen happily.

She grabbed her hair and planned to ask Zhang Xuan directly. Just as she wanted to speak, Zhou Ziang interrupted her

"Mr. Zhang! Sister Chen is here! Zhou Ziang shouted excitedly behind Chen Chen.

Zhang Zhe stood behind her against the light, like a sculpture, as if it was there. Chen Chen's thoughts suddenly returned to the time when he was eating with Lin Sen, Zhang Zhe was also standing outside the door like this, and then everything began.

Chen Chen suddenly seemed to run away.

"I still have something to do, I'll go first." She bypassed Zhang Zhe and ran out quickly.

She passed by, and Zhang Zhe reacted, turned around and chased out.

"Chen Chen!" Zhang Zhe's speed was much faster than her, and he caught up with her in a few steps and grabbed her. She didn't dare to look back, she was afraid that she would cry when she turned back.

"Why did you run away, didn't you come to see me?" Zhang Zhe's voice was hoarse, with a hint of pleading.

"I... I'm looking for Zhang Xuan," she replied confidently.

"I miss you so much. I didn't dare go to you. Zhang Zhe still couldn't help it, he couldn't pretend to be light and light, and his choked voice couldn't hide it at all.

Chen Chen didn't say a word, and began to question him in an instant. 'If you really miss me, why didn't you pick me up at the airport?' She knew that this would only worsen her emotions and relationships, 'don't say hurtful things,' Chen Chen told herself in her heart. Turn your head slowly.

It's been a year. Zhang Zhe's face appeared in her dreams countless times, but when it was really in front of her, she didn't know how to pretend that it didn't matter. She suddenly began to complain about why I should bear the heaviest side. What's the use of not saying hurtful things, and what does it mean to yourself? Dissatisfaction replaced reason in an instant.

"Zhang Zhe, what I am most afraid of is being driven away, so last time I walked away first. But this time you drove me away. ”

Chen Chen's expression was not hideous, his tone was not crazy, and he did not shake off his hand in anger as before, but Zhang Zhe felt that he had really lost her.

He let go of his hand and stared at her. The face that haunts her every day is in front of me, and there are pictures of her on the table, but she no longer belongs to herself. It seems like the whole world is really letting go. But I don't want to embarrass her. Without herself, she would have to bear more than half of what she would have to bear.

"I've made a clear cut with the people of the Wang family, and they won't come to me again." Zhang Zhe withdrew his hand, with tears in his eyes, trying to make himself smile more naturally.

"We changed to a group, after winning GTE, many companies took the initiative to communicate with each other, hoping to settle here, and after making more profits, Ah Xuan said that if we changed to a group, we can get in touch with other industries."

"Thanks to you and Anna."

"Last year, we reached the number one sales in the Asia-Pacific region."

"We 。。。。。"

I know, I know it all. I check your news every day, I dream of you every day, I think of you every day; I put the vase you gave me at the head of the bed, and I put your picture next to me. I know it all. I love you. Chen Chen lowered his head and listened to Zhang Zhe tell her like a child what he had done this year, and followed his words in his heart one by one, but he refused to say it.

I still love you, I just don't know how to tell you.

"Chen Chen, I miss you so much." Zhang Zhe finally finished his words.

She didn't say a word and slowly left. Zhang Zhe clutched his heart and knelt on the ground behind her. The pebble stuck in his chest reappeared. He finally learned how to love someone, but the person he loved didn't intend to stay. The pebble was firmly stuck in the middle of her ribs, and her entire chest ached together with a breath, until her shadow disappeared and she did not recover. Zhang Zhe stood up, stumbled back into the exhibition hall, and collapsed to the ground.

"Mr. Zhang!" The clerks gathered around.

It's been a year, and I've finally waited for you to come back, but you're not mine anymore.