Chapter 50: Cowardice
Chen Chen didn't care about them, she wanted to see what Zhang Zhe was drunk and whether he needed to go to the hospital. She was confused, dizzy, and stretched out her hand to shake Zhang Zhe: "Zhang Zhe? ”
He didn't say a word, frowning and muttering something.
Chen Chen, whose face was covered in blood, startled Zhang Xuan: "How are you?" What's going on? ”
"It's not serious, it's just a broken skin." Chen Chen shook his head, rejected Zhang Xuan's outstretched hand, and grabbed Zhang Zhe's arm to help him up. Zhang Xuan hurriedly helped.
"Why are you here?" Supporting Zhang Zhe on the bed, Chen Chen wiped the blood on his face with a tissue and asked softly.
"You said you couldn't get through the phone, and I didn't answer, so I came over. I'll stay here to help you take care of him. Zhang Xuan replied.
"No, it doesn't matter. Xiaoyuan is still waiting for you at home, you can go back first. ”
Seeing her resolute attitude, Zhang Xuan responded. If they have any contradictions to talk about, they probably don't like their presence: "I'll go down first to buy something to send it, and don't open the door for others when Zhang Zhe is not awake." If there's anything wrong, call me immediately. Replace the door password, and they folded back Wang Yang. ”
Chen Chen nodded and agreed.
After Zhang Xuan finished delivering the things, he instructed him again and sent him away, Chen Chen closed the door and went to the bathroom to wash his face and look at the wound. Still a little dizzy, maybe a little concussion. She pulled her hair down to cover the fleshy wound on her forehead, walked back to the bedroom, and lay down next to Zhang Zhe.
It seems that he has had a long dream, and the dream himself is running on a very long street, there is no one around, and the front seems to be light, but he can't catch up, until his legs can't be lifted, he gasps and kneels on the ground, and shouts out with the last strength: "Help me, I'm Zhang Zhe." A voice that appeared out of nowhere was responding to him: "Who is Zhang Zhe?" "The voice is so familiar, whose is it?
"Chen Chen!" Zhang Zhe sat up violently.
Chen Chen sat next to him with his upper body propped up, and worriedly stretched out his hand to put it on his face: "Are you awake?" Do you feel uncomfortable? ”
Zhang Zhe knocked off her hand, stood up and walked out of bed: "Why are you here." ”
Without emotion, Chen Chen suddenly felt distressed, like Zhang Zhe's impatient face when they met for the first time.
"This is my home, of course I'm here." Chen Chen replied softly, moved forward and approached him: "Are you angry because of yesterday's incident?" I.... ”
"I'll find you an apartment, you move out." Zhang Zhe interrupted her and swallowed.
"Can't you let me explain? Yesterday... ”
"Say no more!" Zhang Zhe suddenly became angry and interrupted her. Panting and looking at her.
Chen Chen lowered his head and didn't say a word, tears fell on the quilt, and disappeared in an instant, leaving a water stain. She slowly moved to the side of the bed, stood up and walked back to her room.
The moving company's car was parked downstairs, and Zhang Zhe leaned on the door and listened to Chen Chen's soft instructions for them to move their things, tears falling down his body. It turns out that people can really be uncomfortable like this, and the whole body spasms. Zhang Zhe wanted to open the door and stop her, wanting her not to leave. But every time I tried to speak, my memory returned to the moment when I stood in the parking lot waiting for her. The suffocating sense of despair starved his brain of oxygen, and in the next second it seemed to crumble into powder and disappear.
Chen Chen stood outside the door and knocked on the door: "I'm leaving, you take care of yourself." Without saying much, she didn't know what to say, or what else to say. Zhang Zhe didn't want to listen to the explanation, if this was his choice, it would be better to show up earlier. Chen Chen was very afraid of being kicked out, she didn't have a sense of belonging anywhere, even if she went home. She always felt like she was hanging in one place, and that she didn't have the slightest grip at her fingertips. Even if you explain that you will stay, maybe you will have to move out next time. She suddenly felt desperate, there really was no place for me, maybe I was really destined to wander around like this.
She stood on the balcony and took one last look at the place where she had lived for a year, Zhang Zhe's books on the bookshelf had been taken down and stacked in the corner, and the shelves had been unsealed and sealed. She put the kindle that Zhang Zhe bought for her on the kitchen bar, held the box containing the old Kindle that was broken, and slowly walked out.
Hearing the sound of the door closing, Zhang Zhe seemed to wake up for a moment, opened the door and rushed out. "Chen Chen?" He twisted open the door of the second bedroom, and there was a lonely bed in the room as if she had never been here, and the furniture in the room was all of her own choice, and she took it with her. The shelves she bought in the living room are also gone. She took away all the traces of her own transformation in this home, leaving nothing, the white kindle was lying alone on the bar in the kitchen, Zhang Zhe seemed to be back on the plane for a moment, and she stretched out her hand and secretly pulled out her kindle and put it in her bag, she opened a slit of her eyes and looked at everything about herself, only she knew later.
Now, now? This time it was he who drove her away. Zhang Zhe squatted under the bar with his Kindle in his arms, shrunk and began to cry.
When he walked into the company and saw Anna, he was stunned for a moment.
Seeing him alone, Zhang Yuan asked suspiciously: "What about my sister?" ”
He didn't say a word, kept his head down and didn't speak.
"Chen Chen's next work will be completed by me, you should hurry up and settle the two of us' salaries. Money must be remembered exactly one cent, and I must be accurate after the decimal point. Anna said coldly.
"Handsome sister, where is my sister? Why not come? After listening to Anna's words, Zhang Yuan asked nervously.
Anna ignored him, sat on the couch and raised her feet on the coffee table, looking out the door.
"Brother Zhang Zhe, where is my sister?" Anna didn't answer, and Zhang Yuan turned his head to look at Zhang Zhe.
Zhang Zhe lowered his head and didn't say a word, and his body couldn't stop trembling.
"Sister Anna? What about my sister? No one answered, and Zhang Yuan cried anxiously.
"Ask your good brother Zhang Zhe what he did, ah? You kicked her out? You've got it, you're doing a good job. We don't need to step out in one step, kick us out, right? Let me tell you, if the salary is less, I will apply for help from the embassy and go to the labor bureau to sue you for transnational fraud. Anna stood up and walked to Zhang Zhe's desk: "People like you should be orphans, and you should do something wolf-hearted with your poor background, and you are not afraid of retribution." You don't deserve a loved one! ”
"Have you scolded enough?" Zhang Xuan stood up and pulled her away, and Anna picked up the balance ball on the table and smashed it on Zhang Xuan's head. Zhang Xuan was in pain and let go of her arm.
"This one is for you, everyone is injured together. A bunch of bastards. Anna turned to leave, but Zhang Yuan cried and took her hand
"What's wrong with my sister? What happened? ”
"Let go, her mother didn't give birth to a big brother like you, get out of the relationship!" Anna tried to shake off his hand and pushed him away.
"Anna, don't kill him." Chen Chen stood at the door and looked at Anna.
"Sister!" Zhang Yuan ran over and hugged her.
"I'm here." Chen Chen comforted him in a whisper and patted him lightly on the back.
"What are you doing here? Didn't I say I'll do the rest? Anna walked over violently and pulled Zhang Yuan away and forced Chen Chen out.
"Work can't be done by temperament, it's done well." Chen Chen pushed Anna inside: "I'm fine, really." ”
Hearing her voice, Zhang Zhe raised his head and watched her walk in stunned. 'It's okay to stop at this moment, it's okay to die now, just don't let me face the next days', Zhang Zhe thought silently in his heart.
Her hair was tied up a little on the top of her head, leaking a bright red wound, seeing Zhang Zhe staring at herself, she smiled a little embarrassedly: "I'm afraid of infection, the doctor said that it will be better soon." ”
"How did you get it on your forehead?" Zhang Zhe's tone of voice to her was still the same, gentle and slow, always with a little distress.
"I accidentally touched it." She touched the wound: "I'm just coming to take a look, I'll go back first if there's nothing to do, and call me if I have work to do." ”
"Where do you live?" Seeing her turn around, Zhang Zhe still asked.
Chen Chen turned his head, didn't answer, and pulled Anna with an angry face and left. Zhang Yuan followed
The whole company was used to Zhang Yuan's frequent crying, and no one cared about him crying and walking out.
"What are you doing here?" Anna blamed her indignantly.
"I'm afraid you'll make trouble." Chen Chen replied softly, holding Zhang Yuan's hand without letting go of him.
"I'm here to make trouble, otherwise what would I do?"
"There's really no need to make the worst fuss." Walking outside the door, Chen Chen stopped and looked at Zhang Yuan: "Study hard, you are the best-looking person I have ever seen." Be sure to keep drawing. ”
"Sister, will you come to see me?" Zhang Yuan's face was full of tears.
"You can come and see me, give me a call, we'll make an appointment and you'll see me. I'm still your sister, stop crying. Chen Chen wiped away his tears: "I'll leave first, I'll call if I want, it's okay." ”
Zhang Yuan nodded, watching her and Anna leave.
Chen Chen didn't answer his words, and Zhang Zhe didn't know if he had the right to continue asking. It was himself who drove her out, but it was also himself who was sad. He couldn't figure out what he wanted, and the discomfort in his heart magnified in his chest, affecting all his internal organs. His hands were shaking, but he didn't know what to do.
"The wound on her forehead was caused by Wang Yang." Zhang Xuan explained: "The night before yesterday, I was cleaning up the house at home, Chen Chen called me and said that I couldn't find you, I called your phone and no one answered, so I rushed to your house. When I arrived, you drank too much, and it was already broken, and the security uncle downstairs was helping her, Chen Chen's face was covered with blood, which was particularly scary. When I left, the security guard told me that Wang Yang had beaten me. What the hell is wrong with you? Zhang Xuan didn't seem to understand Zhang Zhe's state, and asked with concern.
Zhang Zhe lowered his head and remained silent, the feeling of despair and discomfort occupied his brain, invaded his body, delayed his reaction time, and it seemed that the transmitted function could not be completed in an instant in an environment beyond the speed of light, and he could only walk on the road step by step like a human being
Letter: "I was in the library and saw him with Lin Sen. Zhang Zhe replied in a hoarse voice. He can understand Chen Chen, just like Xu Anran chose Anna, if Chen Chen wants to face the Green Park Group now, Lin Sen, the son of President Lin sent by the GTE headquarters, will be far more helpful to her than herself.
But in the next second, all understandings and assumptions were shattered.
"But Lin Sen is looking for me!" Zhang Yuan, who had just come back, stood at the door and shouted loudly.
"What did you say?" Zhang Xuan asked.
"Lin Sen is gay, he wants to find me." Zhang Yuan cried again.
"How do you know that Lin Sen is. You.. Zhang Xuan looked at Zhang Yuan in surprise.
"I don't like girls, I'm gay, I don't dare tell you. Lin Sen didn't want to find his sister, I didn't give me the phone number he asked for, he only knew his sister, so he kept harassing her."
"But Lin Sen is her predecessor..."Zhang Zheran asked.
"So it's an ex-boyfriend! Why don't you understand! Many people will fall in love with girls before accepting themselves and try to correct themselves! ”
"She never said..."Zhang Zhe seemed to be unable to digest the message, and seemed a little sluggish.
"You seem to have heard her say that others are good and short! Why don't you understand! Zhang Yuan rushed over and pulled him up and pushed him out: "What are you doing, you go chase it!" ”
He seemed to come to his senses and stumbled out.
Zhang Xuan stood in place, staring at his younger brother in disappointment. Xiao Yuan knew what the problem was to face after saying it, he didn't like Lin Sen, but he didn't like girls either. No one in the LGBT community lives in Tanmeiwen, and the attitude of the real society towards them is much colder and more chilling.
When Zhang Zhe ran out, they had already left. The streets were deserted, and it was as if he had returned to his dreams, running alone in the empty streets.
"Chen Chen!" He shouted hard, but no one responded. The voice asking him who he was in the dream did not appear. He stood there, with a highway leading in all directions, but he didn't know where to look for her.