The sound of Zhang Zhe opening the door interrupted his memory, and he walked out of the room and glanced up at them.

"Go home after work today." Zhang Zhe's face was expressionless, and his tone did not fluctuate.

"Brother Zhang Zhe, I want to stay with you for a few days." Zhang Yuan was relieved and refused to go home.

"There's no place for you to sleep at home, and Chen Chen doesn't like others to enter her room." Zhang Zhe did not accept it.

Zhang Xuan let out a 'hmm' sound, indicating that he heard it.

Throughout the day, Zhang Zhe didn't look unusual, but occasionally when he was in a daze, his unfocused eyes betrayed him. The saddest expressions are expressionless, heartbreak can't be pieced together, all the pain is piled up, and they are forced to shut everyone out, and they escape their collapse by diverting attention; Pretend that everything is okay and pretend that everything doesn't matter, and you can fool yourself for a while.

After the time to get off work, Zhang Zhe didn't delay for a moment, picked up his bag and said a word to Zhang Xuan to leave, and then turned around and left. Zhang Yuan seemed to want to chase after him, but Zhang Xuan stopped him and shook his head.

Zhang Zhe didn't want to collapse, so he needed to be alone. Pretend that nothing has happened, and the heart will not break.

Go to the supermarket as usual and pick two mangoes; Buy half of the watermelon, choose the ingredients, check out, and go home

When I opened the door, it was pitch black. The lack of oxygen in the chest seems to drain the blood from the heart; The heart, which had been beating happily, tightened into a ball in an instant, squeezing together. Zhang Zhe slowly sat on the ground with his support for the wall and slowed down for a while.

Ten minutes later, he slowly stood up and walked into the kitchen against the wall. The fruit was cut and put on a plate, and he wanted to pretend to beckon Chen Chen to come over and eat the fruit as before, but he couldn't fool himself. She's gone, she's gone, she doesn't want herself anymore. The feeling of abandonment swirled in Zhang Zhe's heart, as if when he was a child, he suddenly discovered that normal children have a father and a mother, not when he called the dean's mother like this; I was originally abandoned, and I was different from others.

He poured a glass of wine, raised his head and drank it down, the alcohol stinging his throat and running down his esophagus and into his stomach. He reached out to put the fruit in the fridge, hesitated and withdrew his hand and walked into the bathroom.

Without drying his hair, he got into the quilt to cover his head, closed his eyes and forced himself to sleep. It's not good to be quiet, he leaned over without Chen Chen reproaching him for his wet hair, but why did his heart hurt so much.

At Zhang Xuan's house, Xiao Yuan sat on the sofa and sighed as he watched his brother sitting in front of the computer. He leaned over, and Zhang Xuan's computer page stayed on the marriage website, and the photo on the homepage was Zhang Zhe's. He was stunned: "Brother, what are you doing?" "Find a new girlfriend for Zhang Zhe, how to forget your ex-girlfriend, of course, find someone better than your ex-girlfriend to heal. After all, Zhang Zhe doesn't have rich love experience, it's likely that he just suddenly has a girlfriend, which makes him feel a little home, let's change him one, maybe it will work. Zhang Xuan didn't look up, buried his head in front of the computer and continued to fill in the information. Xiao Yuan glanced at his brother and turned back to the bedroom.

When the day dawned, the sunlight shone into the room through the curtains, and it was as ambiguous gray as a cloudy day. Zhang Zhe opened his eyes and stared at the ceiling, and suddenly recalled the first time he slept in Chen Chen's house, and he was like this now, opening his eyes and looking at the ceiling. But now it's different, everything is true, without Chen Chen, everything familiar in the room reminds Zhang Zhe of what he once had, but now loses. Zhang Zhe lifted the quilt and walked out, opened the door of her room, and stood at the door for a while. The things were still in place, neat and orderly, and Zhang Zhe sent her a text message: "Your things are still here." ”

Then she's going to have to come back, and at least she can see her. After waiting for a while, there was no reply, Zhang Zhe hesitantly pressed the call button. The beep continued until I hung up, and no one answered, and the voice of the computer broadcast repeated the phrase 'No one answered for the time being, please dial again later...'

The blackened mango pulp on the kitchen countertop was still there, and he blinked and dumped it in the trash. Carrying garbage downstairs.

When Zhang Zhe walked into the office, Zhang Xuan was sitting behind his desk. Seeing Zhang Zhe walk in, he opened his mouth and said, "I helped you make an appointment with a girl, a blind date." Zhang Zhe was stunned for a moment, glanced at Zhang Xuan, lowered his eyes, and did not say a word. Zhang Xuan waited patiently. Zhang Zhe raised his head and put the computer on the table: "Okay." Zhang Yuan was stunned, not quite believing that this word was said by Zhang Zhe, he raised his head and looked at him directly, Zhang Zhe did not say a word, nor did he respond.

During the lunch break, Zhang Zhe sat in the restaurant where the two of them came when Chen Chen invited her to dinner for the first time. Still in the old position, Zhang Zhe was in a trance for a moment, as if he saw Chen Chen walking from the door wearing that red skirt, pinching his face with a smile and asking him what he was laughing at. Just when Zhang Zhe's mind was in a trance, the girl in the short skirt bent down and asked, "Hello, are you Mr. Zhang Zhe?" He stood up and nodded, and the girl sat down opposite him, in the place that was originally Chen Chen. Zhang Zhe felt a pain in his heart and did not say anything. He didn't speak until he finished eating. The girl tried to maintain the atmosphere at first, but after saying a few words, Zhang Zhe was not enthusiastic, and closed his mouth in amusement.

Huff. Zhang Zhe even forgot that there was someone on the other side at the end, and stood up and left after checking out. When Zhang Xuan asked about the result, Zhang Zhecai remembered in a trance that he was going with someone else. Seeing Zhang Zhe's expression, Zhang Xuan had already guessed most of it, and he didn't blame or be dissatisfied, and told him that there would be tomorrow.

In this way, at the rate of one a day, Zhang Xuan stuffed strange girls opposite Zhang Zhe one by one to show him. Every time Zhang Zhe was the same, every time it was the same, he could see Chen Chen walking over and sitting next to him in a trance, his lips lightly imprinted on his forehead.

More than a month. Zhang Xuan still has the patience to arrange various girls for him to meet. But Zhang Zhe is still the same, silent and not angry at all.

When it was almost time to take a lunch break, Zhang Xuan stood in front of the table and told him not to be so cold today as usual. After Zhang Xuan felt that he had nothing to say, Zhang Zhe slowly spoke:

"I'm not going. The more I saw them, the more certain I could be that they weren't her. ”

"But she's gone." Zhang Xuan tried to make him recognize the facts.

"But I love her. All my things were given to the people of the Wang family. She just hoped that I could be decisive and choose to be by her side. But I didn't make a decision. She asked for the least and loved me the most, but I didn't give anything. Zhang Zhe hadn't spoken such a long sentence for a long time, and the organization of such a long language seemed to break through his limit, and he seemed a little incoherent: "I want to wait, maybe there is a chance to compensate her." He tried to put on a relieved smile, and uncontrollable tears suddenly filled the corners of his eyes, overwhelming the hypocritical relief and dominating the expression. He frowned and turned his face sideways, not wanting them to see it.

Zhang Xuan looked at him silently and stopped talking.

"I know where my sister is." Zhang Yuan lowered his head, secretly swept Zhang Zhe with his eyes, and whispered.

"Do you know where she is?" Zhang Yuan nodded, but did not say a word.

For a month, every night, Zhang Zhe sent a good night to Chen Chen, she didn't block Zhang Zhe, but she never replied to Zhang Zhe. After a long time, Zhang Zhe felt that she might really never see her again. There was never a shadow of her on the seaside and the street where we walked together, and the only clues left were the photos on the table and the things that were not taken from the room.

Zhang Zhe suddenly felt dizzy and leaned on the table.

He asked in a low voice, "Is she okay?" Zhang Yuan didn't say a word, lowered his head and wiped his nose.

"I really want to see her, can you take me there?" Zhang Zhe leaned on the edge of the table, bent over, his unstraight back and dark yellow face, as if he would collapse in the next second and become a piece of shards. Zhang Yuan glanced at his brother again, and Zhang Xuan looked back at his younger brother's gaze, looking a little uncomfortable.

Seeing that Xiao Yuan said that he was coming, Chen Chen opened the refrigerator to see what else he had to eat. Since moving out of Zhang Zhe's house, she has been living in Zhang Yuan's empty house. It's not a big one-bedroom apartment, and no one lives in it or rents it out.

Zhang Zhe would send a text message every day and also made phone calls. She ignored it. Chen Chen wasn't sure if he was reluctant or if he didn't plan to do it too ruthlessly. The exam is coming soon, and this graduate exam is her third battle. She wasn't sure how many more failures she could withstand, and she wanted to erase her previous failures, which she could only do if she succeeded.

Chen Chen likes Zhang Yuan. He was like a little pet, screaming around Chen Chen's sister and sister every day, and Chen Chen's heart was crisp and wanted to protect him. He never mentioned Zhang Zhe embarrassing Chen Chen, as if they had known each other and were friends.

Seeing Zhang Zhe standing behind Zhang Yuan, Chen Chen put away his smile. She said nothing, turned and walked back into the house. Zhang Xuan grabbed Zhang Yuan, who was about to follow in, and shook his head.

Zhang Zhe followed behind her, Chen Chen lost weight, the butterfly bone on his back was outlined under the soft T-shirt, and the collarbone was more obvious than before, Zhang Zhe suddenly reached out and grabbed her wrist.

"Let go." Chen Chen's tone couldn't hear the emotion, Zhang Zhe didn't move, just stared at Chen Chen's back distressedly. "Let go!" Chen Chen lowered his voice and roared, shaking his arm hard, he was startled and obediently let go of his hand. Chen Chen took two steps back with his wrist.

Zhang Zhe held back his tears, and looked at Chen Chen with a lame and flattering smile: "You have lost weight, haven't you eaten well?" ”

His flattering expression as usual made Chen Chen anxious for no reason, and he might also feel distressed if he didn't want to admit it. She didn't know if she was afraid or irritable, and only an attack could hide her own vulnerability.

"Zhang Zhe, when are you going to admit your relationship with Wang Qian?"

She asked so directly and unabashedly, which directly caught Zhang Zhe off guard.

"What are you talking about?" He nervously tried to hide his clenched hands.

"You've been with Wang Qian, or have always been together, right? But she didn't take you seriously, at least not before I showed up, didn't think of you as anything important, did she? Spare wheel? Or is it a free object of appeasement? After I showed up, she felt like she was going to lose the cash cow, so she caught up? I can understand your reasons for giving them unconditionally, but you never thought about solving these problems, just running away from them. I've waited enough, it's over! Chen Chen went from trying to be peaceful at the beginning of the narration to an uncontrollable roar, gritting his teeth and saying word by word.

Zhang Zhe looked at Chen Chen, who was furious like a lion cub, and trembled to listen to Chen Chen tell his most despicable secret. He couldn't support his body and sat down on the ground, and for a moment, Zhang Zhe suddenly felt that he was dirty and shouldn't stand with her at all.

"You know everything about me and Wang Qian?" Zhang Zhe smiled bitterly and asked softly.

"On the day of the event, Wang Qian told me that your hesitation in the face of Wang Qian was too obvious, I can be sure that it is true." Chen Chen replied, looking much calmer, but his eyes were red: "Zhang Zhe, I have also had a boyfriend, and I don't plan to blackmail you with this." But you don't intend to fully accept that I'm by your side for the rest of your life. I can accept your previous questions, but I don't accept that you are lingering. ”

Zhang Zhe listened quietly to Chen Chen's words, and asked in a low voice: "I will solve it now, is it too late, can you forgive me?" Zhang Zhe was begging her. Chen Chen's heart hurt, she had seen Zhang Zhe's indifference and toughness in the face of this world, and his low prayer made Chen Chen feel uncomfortable. The heart is distressed, but the reason is not. It clearly reminded Chen Chen that Zhang Zhe would not solve it, he was really a mess.

"I can't." Chen Chen turned his back to him, not daring to look back. She was afraid that after seeing Zhang Zhe, she would be reluctant to drive him away.

Zhang Zhe stood up against the wall. Chen Chen shouldn't be like seeing him now, and it should be best not to hear the sound of his breathing. He took a deep look at her back and walked out slowly. Zhang Zhe's eyes are like a deep well, so deep that you can't see the bottom, dark and silent, and like a pool of stagnant water, which will dry up anytime and anywhere.

Zhang Xuan stretched out his hand to help him, but Zhang Zhe shook his head. Zhang Zhe comforted the overwhelmed Zhang Yuan in a low voice: "You go and see her, don't leave her alone." Watching him walk in, Zhang Zhecai followed Zhang Xuan and slowly left.

The most shameless thing in the world happens every day, and who hasn't done something shameless? But everyone has things hidden in their hearts, and the last thing they want people to know, the last thing Zhang Zhe wants Chen Chen to know, is the time when he was with Wang Qian. Wang Qian is very beautiful, and many people pursue her. One day, Wang Qian called him in the middle of the night and said that he had drunk too much and asked him to pick him up. After Zhang Zhe went, Wang Qian insisted on not going home, so he took Wang Qian to open the room and stayed.

Since then, Zhang Zhe occasionally received a call from Wang Qian late at night to go out and leave, and came back before dawn. Wang Qian never recognized their relationship, and told Zhang Zhe not to go out and talk nonsense, Wang Qian never broke off being ambiguous with others, but often asked Zhang Zhe to appear. This relationship lasted until Wang Qian went abroad to study.

He also thought that Wang Qian would marry him in the end, and accepted the relationship without finding a girlfriend. But after Wang Qian returned to China four years later, he was as cold to him as before, and began to talk about boyfriends, he thought that the relationship was over, and found two girlfriends, but every time Wang Qian would be very angry and break up. That's it, until I met Chen Chen.

No one wants the person they love to be treated as a cheap commodity by another person, and the person who holds it in the palm of his hand is worthless in the eyes of another person, and it will never hurt one person. Zhang Zhe was very afraid of being known by Chen Chen, she was so arrogant, every time she went to the publishing house, she would secretly go by herself, and she never mentioned why she was wandering alone in this city, she refused to let Zhang Zhe know that she was wronged. How different is he, everyone wants to be flawless in the eyes of the person they love, and Zhang Zhe hopes even more. Because I am afraid that my flawed self will be abandoned.

We are all the same, pretending to be fearless, but in fact a drizzle can pierce a lonely heart.