This night, I didn't eat, I took the few cans of beer left in the warehouse, found a bag of peanuts, sat on the steps in the yard, took a sip of wine, put a few peanuts, drank and waited, until the alcohol worked, then I dared to put down the can, took out the phone and called my father.

The phone rang a few times and no one answered, I knew that my dad must be busy taking care of Meng Meng, since Meng Meng checked out the problem, my dad has not been idle, while taking care of Meng Meng, while making money and waiting for a miracle.

I often feel that my father is like an old oil lamp, boiling himself and life, maybe one day a gust of wind will blow him out, I dare not imagine the speed of his aging, so I work hard and "reluctantly" to live, except for money, I can't help him.

In a distraction, my father's phone called back, I habitually hung up, and he also knew that I had a lot of calls every month, and I had a tacit understanding not to call again. ”

I carefully controlled my emotions, for fear that my father would hear that I was not doing well, so I smiled lightly and said, "It's going well, it's all going well, this is not just today's quarterly bonus, I want to transfer it to you." ”

"The family doesn't need money now, there is still half of the 30,000 yuan you gave last time, Mengmeng's condition has not yet taken a turn for the better, so I can't spend a lot of money for the time being, and your mother and I take turns earning the money for chemotherapy ......"

"It's hard enough for you to take care of Mengmeng, you travel all day long, I'll figure out a way to deal with money, you and your mother have to take a break when you're free, I beg you!"

"We're not tired, it's you...... Your boss is really good, and he will give you a raise, you have to work hard and create value in your position, you know! ”

I rubbed my sour eyes and responded, "I know, tomorrow the hostel is probably fine, I want to go back and see you." ”

"Are you unhappy?"

I, who had been hiding my emotions for a long time, suddenly felt a little flustered and uneasy......

"What's the matter, it's so good, did Mom sleep with Mengmeng?"

Dad sighed and was silent for a long time before saying: "I just fell asleep, and Mengmeng wanted to go to school in the afternoon, but then I felt that I had no hair, and I was afraid of being laughed at by my classmates, so I dispelled the idea myself, hey...... She fell asleep crying with a book in her arms tonight, and she ate very little for dinner. ”

My nose was a little sour, and I was silent across the phone from my father, and finally asked him to tell Mengmeng that he would buy a few beautiful hats for her next time he went home, and hung up the phone in a hurry.

After hanging up the phone, I drank the little wine left in the bottle as if venting, and tasted the joy and sorrow in the heartburn and lungs......

After going through the joys, sorrows, and sorrows of the past few years in my heart, I wiped my face and stood up, ate the last few peanuts, washed up, and then lay down on the bed to rest......

……

Since Lao Gou resolutely refused to talk to me, he has already decided that I will not stay here for long, although I still want to struggle subconsciously, but I really don't know what else I can do to fight Li Shi, even if I continue to stay and mess around with her, I won't last long.

Lying in bed, I thought that tiredness and alcohol could make me fall asleep quickly, but this was not the case, my mind was very messy, and I didn't dare to plan my future life.

The wind outside the window was a little strong, and the wind chimes hanging in front of the door were blown "jingling", and in this crisp sound, I once again heard the violent quarrel of Li Shi, who seemed to be sitting on the roof opposite me.

After supporting myself on my elbows, and after some hesitation, I put on my slippers and walked to the window, opened the curtains a little and looked, and as I expected, she was indeed standing on the roof on the phone.

During the argument, her tone was choked and hurried, so that I couldn't hear what she was saying, and in fact I didn't want to be an eavesdropper, it wasn't my style to do that kind of thing...... Inadvertently lowering the curtains, through the moonlight, I saw her cold and lonely back, a little desolate.

Lying back in bed, I didn't want to think about it anymore, closed my eyes and told myself to go to bed early, and I was going to go home tomorrow.

……

The air conditioner blew all night, I forgot to turn it off before going to bed, the room became unusually cool, when I woke up, I had completely wrapped myself in the quilt, and then sneezed heavily, blowing the air conditioner all night, making my hands and feet cold, plus I drank some wine last night, I had a splitting headache, and then there was a feeling of dry mouth and bitter tongue, I took a glass of water as usual, and opened the curtains while drinking.

The familiar but unbelievable scene in front of me reappeared, Li Shi was cleaning up the garbage I made yesterday, I quickly changed my clothes, pushed open the door and looked around, the house had been cleaned by her, and all the bits and pieces had been neatly arranged by her.

She was busy with herself, and finally I broke the silence and said in the most sincere attitude: "I can see that you and the old ...... Mr. Gou has a very close relationship, and if you want to stay here, I think there must be hope......"

Li Shi looked at me, and finally said after a long time: "You are wrong, I came here to sell the hostel for him." ”

I couldn't understand what she meant, so I asked, "If you have no feelings for this place, how can you clean it?" ”

"It's just related to my habits, you don't need to think about it."

"The result is the same......

Li Shi fell into a long silence because of my words, although her expression was as calm as ever, but her heart must be full of waves, and she said to me for a long time: "If Mr. Gou really owes you so much agreement, I can ask him to pay you 30% of the selling price of the hostel, so that even if you leave here, you don't go back to Youtu Travel Agency, with this money, you will live better." ”

"You're doing this to reduce your guilt, aren't you?"

Li Shi's tone was a little tired, this fatigue is not physical, but mental, she said emphatically: "I take back the hostel for Mr. Gou, it is reasonable and legal, without any guilt, if you want to use the details of life to dispel my thoughts, I can only tell you, it is impossible at all." ”

"Before yesterday, I had hope, but from now on, there is no more."

"That's good, let's be honest, I've re-appointed a catering company to come over for inspection today, since you've figured it out, please don't make any more trouble."

"Now that you've said that, I don't have much more to say, can I deal with my own things?"

Seeing that I was gentle, she showed a guilty expression and signaled me to be casual.

I smiled lightly, then nodded, without any words, went back to my room and picked up a baseball bat, returned to the yard, and looked at the hanging potted plants, and after three times, more than a dozen pots of bright potted flowers fell to the ground one after another, and the wooden fence was trampled down by me......

Li Shi screamed in fright by my sudden atrocity, and then she didn't make a sound, and rushed to grab my arm with both hands, her nails were deeply embedded in my flesh, and my arm was scratched and bleeding instantly, but I didn't feel any pain......

I continued to ruin everything here uncontrollably, she looked at me with hatred, and finally pulled me, raised her hand and slapped me, in an instant, I felt the fishy smell coming from the corner of my mouth, and in the dizziness, those happy times that happened in this yard resurfaced in my mind, like a well-made clip, like a movie replay, stimulating my fragile nerves at this moment.

Only then did I feel the hot pain, looked at Li Shi a little sluggishly, wiped the blood stains on my mouth with my hand, my eyes were still full of anger, I couldn't feel my body, and my soul could control my actions, and I unconsciously picked up the baseball bat again......

Li Shi clenched her fists and looked at me helplessly again, watching as I kicked down the wooden table, smashed the window glass, pulled the lantern, and pushed it to the bookcase......

I gritted my teeth and listened to every broken sound of the stick in my hands, like a goodbye......

……

When the yard was in a mess, as if it had just been hit by an earthquake, I stopped in the violent gasp, Li Shi stood in place and looked at me in a daze, tears fell from her face, she raised her voice in choking and said: "Stop and do something, are you done?" ”

"I don't need you to meddle with things!"

Li Shi had tears in her eyes, but said with a heartache smile: "You'd better smash it thoroughly this time, after this morning, you can move again and try, you are not the only one in this world who has a temper." ”

"Than temper? Then I'll wait for your customers to come and smash it in front of you. ”

Li Shi became less emotional, she didn't even look at me, just looked at the mess under her feet, and said, "You take care of yourself!" ”

After Li Shi finished speaking, he did not stop again, trotted towards his room, and I looked at the messy courtyard, turned to look at the broken glass opposite, the corners of my mouth began to twitch uncontrollably, and my expression was full of loss and pain, as if the soul had suddenly been stripped from the body, this pain, I had already anticipated.

I leaned against the pillar, looking at the dilapidated piece in front of me, there was an uncontrollable sour feeling in my nostrils, and tears rolled down from my eyes as if I were joining in, I raised my head and swallowed those tears back into my stomach, then lowered my head and blew my nose, turned and walked to my room.

……

After packing up the belongings, I didn't want to care about what I could take away, I dragged my suitcase and walked out of the hostel with exhaustion, the blackboard bulletin board in front of the door fell, I reached out to help it up, it fell down again because of imbalance, this time, I didn't reach out to help it up, because after I turned around, it may fall down again, and who will help it then?

I knew that outside the alley was a cheerful world, but I walked very lonely along the way, and after walking a few steps, I looked back at the hostel that was getting farther and farther away from me, but I didn't think about anything more, I just wanted to cherish the time before parting, and deeply engraved its truest appearance in my memory, and when I remembered it in the future, I could use these memories to comfort my loneliness......

After walking for more than 20 minutes, I arrived at the bus stop, took the bus to the bus station, and prepared to go home to adjust for a while......

9:40 car, I calculated, just able to rush home at lunchtime, waiting for the car, the mobile phone in my pocket rang, took it out and looked, it was my father called, I was a little depressed, after a while before I connected the phone, he asked me, "Are you in the store?" ”

"No, at the bus station, I'm going to go home and see you."

Dad didn't notice my abnormality, and said with a smile: "Come back quickly, don't wait for the car, we will be almost at the door of your store." ”