I gasped heavily, my brain "buzzed", and my tone was uncontrollable: "Dad, why didn't you tell me before you came!" ”

"I'm your father, can I still know that you're in a bad mood? You're so short on time, Meng Meng is clamoring to see you, we'll come over, you hurry back, hang up first, and your mother and I will go to buy some food nearby......"

Listening to the hang-up sound of the mobile phone, I sat on the chair and was stunned for a few seconds, and then ran to the exit with my suitcase, came back to my senses and returned the ticket, and waited for more than ten minutes before getting on the bus back.

Once people calm down, they will think crankily, and I was too busy to think about the consequences before, but now I have to be free.

A few aunts in the car were chatting happily after buying groceries, and I sighed heavily, causing them to look back at me.

I have imagined a lot of scenes waiting to meet later, and I also fantasized that there are a lot of adults in Li Shihui, anyway, the fate of the hostel will eventually be redecorated, Rao is so comforting himself, but the suppressed emotions have not been alleviated, I only feel that I am about to be torn in half, half of the embers have not disappeared, and half of them are helpless to think about apologizing and passing this level, because I really don't want my parents to worry about me anymore, this feeling is really bad.

The thought of smashing the store's landscape potted plants and public facilities with me this morning made me feel an unforgivable and unforgivable sin, and I couldn't face Li Shi, let alone the hostel that I didn't plan to go back to...... Thinking about it, my sense of burden became heavier and heavier, and my heart struggled violently.

At this moment, I am more deeply aware that no matter how many excuses you make to comfort yourself, but if you are wrong, you will not be able to escape the condemnation of conscience, once anger comes, it will make you do everything to hurt others, but after this bad mood is gone, it will be a permanent wound that you cannot erase, and it is too important to manage your emotions.

……

Under normal circumstances, my father would have called me for nearly an hour and a half to ask where I was, but he hadn't given me any information so far, and I didn't dare to take the initiative to ask......

With anxiety along the way, I took a reincarnation through all the assumptions, and after getting out of the car, I trotted back with my suitcase, not daring to rest along the way, I was afraid that Li Shi would tell my parents all my bad deeds while I was away, and even inform them of the imminent sale of this hostel.

When I arrived at the door of the hostel, I carried the box that made a sound, and cautiously leaned into the store to take a look. ”

I came back to my senses, stumbled, and said weakly: "Dad......"

"You came back just in time, why don't you finish your things before leaving, and you can't leave things to other girls in a hurry!"

I asked confidently, "What about the girl?" ”

"Drive your mother and Mengmeng to buy hats."

I looked at the piles of dirt that had been swept away, broken flower pots, wooden fences, broken tables and other things, and I couldn't help but ask my father tentatively, "What...... Before the girl left, did she explain ...... What to say? ”

"We don't need to explain to the girl, we have to clean up this yard, and no matter how much we decorate, we can't make it like this!"

"That girl didn't say anything about me, did she?"

"What can people say about you...... Oh, by the way, you follow the drawings she just made, hurry up and put the flowers and trees together, bury them in the soil next to them, don't kill them. ”

Looking at the dying flowers and plants, I can't help but feel distressed, these flowers and plants are cultivated by my own hands, if they all wither and die in the flowering season, it will be too self-reproachful.

According to Li Shi's layout, she put these flowers and plants in the garden in the corner of the yard, it is too late to buy flower pots, if they are planted in the garden, it is not impossible, besides, since she ordered it, I have to carry it out, otherwise I don't know what disgust she will incur.

I dig a soil pit, my father is responsible for directing and planting, my family lives in the suburbs, Meng Meng was not sick at that time, my father who came home from work on weekdays has always liked to raise flowers and grass, guided by him, the survival rate of this batch of flowers and plants is quite guaranteed.

"Yu Hang, how come some of these flowers are still discounted, you intend to cultivate, why don't you be careful."

I don't know how to answer my father's blame, and suddenly there is a sound of a car stopping outside the store, and my thinking is a little stagnant, it must be that Li Shi is back.

I buried my head and continued to work, and suddenly there was a cute laughter at the door, she didn't dare to run, cautiously walked to my side, and said to me affectionately: "Brother, Mengmeng wants to hug and hold high." ”

Seeing Meng Meng this time, I suddenly felt that she was much more cheerful than the last time I went home to see her, I quickly washed my hands and wiped it again, so I dared to carefully pick up her in a white dress, a beam of noon sun fell on her black hair, fluttering in the wind, I was a little distracted, and suddenly realized that the wig on Meng Meng's head was newly bought.

I kissed her face, and before I had time to dot on her for a while, I suddenly saw Li Shi approaching with her belongings, she looked at me out of the corner of her eye, but ignored me, but went straight to the kitchen with my mother.

After playing with Mengmeng for a while, she was a little hot, and in the gap between my mother going to change her clothes, I slipped to the kitchen, Li Shi was washing rice by the pool, as if she was ready to cook, I stood behind her, she didn't look back, and said to me: "I don't want to see you, let me die!" ”

Me: "......"

I couldn't speak, so I finally chose a vague way and accosted me weakly: "Okay! You don't have to look back to guess it's me! ”

Li Shi finally turned around and looked at me quietly, but I was flustered, often the calmer she behaved, the more likely she was forbearing, I didn't dare to imagine at what point she would suddenly erupt.

"Didn't you ruin this place, so you don't plan to come back? Everything that belongs to you here is smashed, and you still have the face to come back? If I were you, I'd have died a long time ago......"

I made a "shhhhhh......h

"Get out of here!"

While peeking outside the door, I continued to beg for mercy in a low voice: "I want to get out, don't you go halfway and come back, you don't remember the villain, let me hide it from my parents first?" ”

Li Shi had a hesitant expression, and at this time she was probably very contentious in her heart, and finally said to me: "You are really not human, even your parents are ...... lie."

"Do you think my parents can accept reality, or my sister can accept reality? If you don't come and get rid of me, can I cheat my family? ”

Li Shi's expression finally changed, and this time she was silent for a long time before she said to me: "I have no obligation to help you deceive people." ”

"Then you want my parents to disappoint my sister back, right?"

At this moment, Li Shi finally avoided my inquiring gaze, and then said nothing...... Her non-response made me a little irritated, and my mother was already walking towards the kitchen, and I impatiently asked, "Are you talking?" If you don't say it, there are some things I don't know in my heart! ”

Li Shi just smiled comically, and then fell silent, and this silence magnified my embarrassment even more strongly......

I can't describe the mood at this time, but all my thoughts are really on Meng Meng's body, I am worried about her, as long as I think of her will be disappointed and leave, lying in the ward, my heart will be irrepressibly throbbing, this throbbing, a little bit swallowing me.

After a while, my mother entered the kitchen, and Li Shi, a strong woman, made me feel powerless again, I finally gave up the idea of continuing to ask, and took the initiative to ask: "Mom, I'll just cook with Li Shi, you take Mengmeng and Dad around." ”

At this time, Li Shi turned around, was silent for a while, and then looked at me and said, "Mengmeng has been talking to you all the way, you go and play with her!" ”

I just stared at her in a daze, looked into her gaze, and then countless gratitudes swirled in my mind, making my mind unable to run smoothly......

……

It was noon, and as usual, I took Meng Meng to the wooden bridge by the river and sat on the ground.

The wind blew with some warmth, I looked at the sparkling river and lost my mind, and Meng Meng suddenly leaned on my arm and whispered to me: "Brother, I miss you so much, but the doctor doesn't let me come every time, we are not far away, but we can never be together." ”

I stroked her hair and said with a smile: "Because Mengmeng has to cooperate with the doctor's treatment and get healthy as soon as possible!" ”

"Brother, do you see that my hair looks good, my sister bought it."

I almost burst into tears, but I still smiled and said, "Beautiful!" ”

A gust of wind blew, when the cute hair stuck to my arm, I felt the extremely familiar breath again, and I was in a trance for a moment, as if I went back to three years ago, when she first came here to sit, she was still full of black hair, ruddy face, but now her face is bloodless, it looks very weak, but this is already in a very good state, I am afraid that she has a fever, a fever will be sent to the hospital for rescue, this disease has also been seen by experts, experts said that they can only go to Beijing for treatment, through bone marrow transplantation may still be hopeful, But in the vast sea of people, where is the appropriate bone marrow match?

When I was stunned, Meng Meng pulled my sleeve and asked me, "Brother, can I stay here for two days?" ”

I came back to my senses and asked, "What did the doctor and my parents say?" ”

Meng Meng looked at me aggrievedly, and said, "I've taken so many medicines, and I've always been obedient, so you can promise me this time!" ”

"Okay, my brother promised you, but I have to talk to my parents later......"

"You must promise me, I feel very uncomfortable these days, I just want to be with my brother, I don't want to go to Beijing, I don't want to see a doctor......"

Meng Meng's words made me chill, seeing that I hesitated, she pouted and looked at me again, looking aggrieved, in fact, this is already a kind of coquettishness, in this case, I really can't refuse her.

"Okay, brother promises you, sleep well here tonight."

Meng Meng nodded excitedly, continued to hold my arm affectionately, looking at her thin little hands, the development is much slower than that of a normal child, and thin and small, which makes me worry for a while, I just looked at her in a daze, looked at her face, remembered the time when she ran and frolicked, and the corners of her eyes were uncontrollably warm.

As soon as the tears overflowed her eyes, Meng Meng raised her head like a smart heart, looked at me with a smile with her wavy eyes, pinned the somewhat messed hair behind her ears, and then reached out to wipe the tears from the corners of my eyes, and hugged my arm again, leaning against me.

I hummed the song, and after a long time, she had fallen asleep on my shoulder, and at this moment, I could no longer see the liveliness and activity in her body, only tranquility and tranquility, a quiet close to death...... Over the years, thanks to Mengmeng's positive and optimistic, I have been fighting the disease for so long, I feel that I, the elder brother, am a waste, and I can't let her grow up healthily, and I can't let her have a beautiful life like other children.

Perhaps, in Mengmeng's eyes, this is still a place where she can sleep peacefully, although when I was guarding the hostel, I was arrogant and unscrupulous, and I saw Mengmeng, I think it was right from some angles, and I still had to work hard to keep the hostel......