Taking the taxi back to the hostel, I got out of the car with a few black suitcases, and almost all of the clerks who came out to help carry things looked at me with surprised eyes, which I had become accustomed to, ridiculous.

Back in the room, I dismantled the items one by one, and then counted each gift, Li Shi was very careful to use comic style expression, for each gift owner to draw a portrait, and write blessings by hand, which made me a little speechless, it turned out that he was not stingy with writing, but divided people.

Among all the gifts, there are no things from me, but the small gifts to my parents, Mengmeng, Xiaobao, Lin Ke and others are quite attentive and meticulous to the point that every tape is neatly sealed.

Perhaps: she completely intended to make me break my mind, and deliberately said goodbye to me in this way, and sometimes not contacting me is probably the best blessing.

As far as Li Shi's case is concerned, it seems that all the mistakes now are caused by myself, and without the cause I once planted, there would be no current effect, and suddenly I feel that I am so redundant, as if I have wasted a lot of oxygen in this world.

I felt sad in my heart, but I didn't know how to express it, so I lit another cigarette and looked blankly into the distance shrouded in darkness.....

At this moment, my heart was filled with the desire to express, so I overcame my fatigue and sleepiness, turned on the computer, and prepared to make a complete plan of my recent feelings into words, this plan will be a travel plan for the healing department, as for the final theme, I have not been able to think for a while.

……

The next day, when I woke up, it was almost noon, I opened my mobile phone to see the exact time, but I unexpectedly received a WeChat, which was sent by Jiang Laiyue, the content was very simple, a sad expression was attached to the sentence "I'm buying potted plants!" ”

I can't figure it out: why add a sad expression when you buy a potted plant, and what's so sad, is it because I didn't help her move?

I smiled and sent her a message back: "Did you buy it, what kind of potted plants did you buy, and how do you still have the leisure to raise plants?" ”

After sending the message, I looked at the time, it was not yet 12 o'clock, and now that the tourist season has passed, the idle business makes me no longer nervous, so I fell into waiting, so that I forgot to wash.

The mobile phone rang when it finally rang, and I hurriedly picked it up from the coffee table, but Jiang Laiyue replied to me: "I'm in the cake shop on Chang'an Road, you should hurry up now!" ”

According to speculation, Jiang Laiyue is in the cake shop, is she going to celebrate her birthday or someone else's birthday today?

Since she didn't tell me directly, I pretended not to know, so it could be regarded as accumulating some interest for her, after all, she has been in a period of depression these days, even if she didn't force a smile and showed a heartless look, but this is not natural, I know that this is not her, Jiang Laiyue I know is cold and ambitious.

When I arrived near the cake shop on Chang'an Road, I saw Jiang Laiyue's car parked on the side of the road from a distance, and through the window glass, I found Jiang Laiyue closing her eyes, leaning back in a chair, tears falling from her face.

I looked at Jiang Laiyue, who was crying, with some consternation, and hurriedly pulled the car door and said, "What's the matter, the cake was robbed?" ”

Jiang Laiyue turned her face away, and after not letting me see her face, she said, "The ghost of more than ten inches of cake is coming to grab it, you take the small ticket and go to the store to see if it is done." ”

I looked down at the order in hand, and then glanced at her, the car fell into a deathly silence, and after a long time, Jiang Laiyue faced me and said, "Go and get it, there are still many things ahead!" ”

Jiang Laiyue's face was tired, she didn't plan to say anything more to me, this silence made me feel depressed in the relative atmosphere, and I remembered her in the depression, I felt sad, why did she become like this, where was she placed in the past at this time?

After retrieving the cake, I suddenly noticed a potted plant in the back seat, and the plant in it was slightly taller than the green onion, and I couldn't help but sigh: "You are too picky, this plant has to grow until the year of the monkey." ”

"The transformation of life needs a process, and it has its own wind, rain, and snow to give it experience, and it can't reach the sky now, but it will eventually become a ...... in the future."

"Where are you going to take me today?"

"Go to a place where life and death don't matter."

"How can there be no distinction between life and death, you can do a lot of things while living, and death is just worthless."

I was afraid that Jiang Laiyue would be cranky, so I consciously reminded her that life is still full of flavor, at least we can breathe and think freely, and we can also indulge in struggle and realize our wishes.

"The reason why you say this is because you have not experienced despair, and today I opened your eyes."

After she said this, I was even more curious about where we were going, and after a period of silence, I finally said to Jiang Laiyue: "No matter what, I hope you can live with the best attitude and the healthiest way, maybe you are very negative, very hard, and desperate now, but these are not reasons for you to want to give up, because you have been persevering for so long." ”

"Are you trying to persuade me that I should pursue a little?."

I nodded and said, "I came out with you to relax, not to pursue anything, and there is nothing to pursue, I just want to live and understand, I've been confused for too long!" ”

"I think you should still be confused, because when you consider life and death, you change the level of age, but you don't consider it from the humanistic connotation, and this fear will become a means of living."

……

To my surprise, the car was not driving near the city, but was getting farther and farther away from the suburbs, and kept walking in the direction of the road, as if escaping from the sky.

I lay back in my chair exhausted, imagining that when my world was condensed in this small space, I felt as if I had stopped growing, and I didn't know where to go......

As soon as the car stopped, Jiang Laiyue opened the door and walked out of the car, although she quickly borrowed a tissue from the side of the road, we chatted, although she kept trying to relax, she could still feel that she was a little nervous.

Jiang Laiyue was holding a potted plant, I was carrying a cake, and after walking for a while, there was a pile of buildings in front of me, and I carefully identified it, it was a mental hospital.

The closer she got to the hospital, the more excited Jiang Laiyue became, and her face was finally full of smiles, and she said, "I hope to have a happy birthday." ”

"You came here for your birthday?"

"yes, nostalgia!"

"Then let's have a good birthday, and I'll sing you a "Happy Birthday" song later."

Jiang Laiyue's tone became more and more relaxed, and she kept repeating the words "Happy Birthday" in her mouth, and I realized that these four words touched the deepest secrets in her heart.