The night completely covered the earth, as I got closer and closer to the previous position, I drove the car slower and slower, looked ahead and was about to enter the 312 national highway, I exhaled softly, slowed down, and drove in the direction that Jingqi had shown earlier.

After another five or six minutes of driving, the car reached the vicinity of the intersection of National Highway 312, I turned on the double jump lights, slowed down again, and honked my horn as I drove in an attempt to get Jingqi's attention.

On this night, I'd rather gamble all my luck this month than find Jing Qi, she is really important to me......

Finally, all the fears paid off after perseverance, and by the guardrail not far ahead, I saw Jing Qi with her arms wrapped around her knees and her toes lightly touching the ground...... As the car approached, her beautiful face became clearer and more real in my sight.

In the joy, I parked the car in the emergency lane and quickly jumped out of the car, and Jingqi also found me, covering her eyes in front of the strong headlights, and for a long time, she squinted at me with a side face.

I quickly stepped forward to help Jingqi, probably because she had been sitting for too long and her legs were numb, she was not able to stand up immediately, but instead made me sit on the ground, she just shrunk into my arms, her face against my chest, and sobbed quietly.

This kind of close snuggling gave us a sense of warmth between us, but this feeling was gradually dispelled by Jingqi's crying voice little by little, her crying was like a knife in the night, cutting me sharply, making my heart difficult to calm down, and I fell into a pinprick-like pain......

The night had calmed down for me since Jing Qi was on my chest, but I didn't have any evil thoughts, maybe because she was too beautiful to be real, maybe because I really liked her and couldn't bear to blaspheme......

After crying enough, Jingqi stopped crying, in fact, this was the first time I saw her cry, and she cried so carefully.

I stood up first, patted the dust on my body, and after reaching out to help Jingqi up, she picked up the guitar, but she didn't plan to get into the car, and asked me instead, "Why are you driving an unlicensed Porsche?" ”

Compared with Jing Qi's shock, I replied very calmly: "In a hurry, find a guest to borrow it, I just bought it today." ”

"Is that the female guest you pulled with last time?"

"How do you know?"

Jing Qi nodded, didn't ask any more, rubbed her crying red eyes, and said, "Yu Hang, my legs are numb, I want to walk and get in the car again......"

I knew that she didn't want her crying appearance to be exposed to me, and wanted to hide her emotions through the night, so I didn't persuade her much.

……

In the darkness of the night, Jing Qi walked in front and I drove alongside me, and eventually, we stopped on the side of a road with a wide view and relative safety.

I raised my hand and looked at my watch, it was almost twelve o'clock in the night, in the dark, the light emitted by the car next to me was not enough for me to see Jing Qi's expression clearly, I didn't say anything for a long time, but I felt her struggle and pain, but I didn't understand why she was so pessimistic, she has a lot now, even if she is not with Shen Hao, she can find a better one on her terms, why should she be so persistent in this absolutely paid love, and even take life and death?

In the repeated silence, Jing Qi suddenly asked, "Yu Hang, did you bring a cigarette?" ”

"Huh?"

Jing Qi still didn't skip the topic just now, and asked me again, "Do you have a cigarette?" ”

"Yes, there is."

"Get me one!"

I wondered when she learned to smoke, but I didn't ask, so I took a cigarette out of the case and handed it to her along with a lighter.

Jing Qi picked up the lighter and tried it, and then, in the flames that burst out, she lit a cigarette, and then, a burst of smoke spread from her mouth......

However, before she could enjoy the satisfaction of a cigarette, she began to cough, the kind of heart-rending cough, and it seemed that she did not smoke...... I gently patted her on the back and sat on the side of the road with her again, she coughed up tears because of a violent cough, but she didn't forget to say: "Yu Hang, thank you for coming with me, my mood is better, and I finally don't have to worry about being strangled at dawn by this lonely night." ”

"Be obedient, put out the cigarette, you don't know how to smoke."

Jing Qi smiled, snuffed out the cigarette butt, and responded to my words, then supported with both hands, looking up at the starry sky...... I was a little tired from the night wind, and it may have nothing to do with the wind, just because the night was too quiet at this time.

After my heart calmed down, the fragrance of Jingqi's body drifted into my nose with the breeze, making people feel comfortable and comfortable, I learned her movements, held my hands on my back and faced the sky, gradually closed my eyes, and fell asleep in the middle of the night after this thrill.

……

After a long time, Jing Qi next to me pushed me and said, "Yu Hang, can you sing a song for me?" ”

I sat up straight and looked at her with sleepiness, but I didn't know what song to sing for a while, but Jing Qi had already taken out the guitar and handed it to me.

After taking the guitar, I sneered: "This Shen Hao is quite stubborn, he left you down, and he didn't forget to throw the guitar to you, is he afraid that you will be bored?" ”

A grumbling remark, but it aroused Jingqi's sense of loss, and she said sadly: "I gave him this guitar, and after we had a quarrel, he threw it out." ”

"Why did he get so angry, did he eat the gun or did he eat it*."

Jing Qi suddenly choked up, my heart was even tighter, I stopped talking nonsense, hurriedly took out a tissue and handed it to her, and asked her to wipe away her tears first.

Wiping the corners of his eyes with tissue paper, Jing Qi still choked up and said to me: "I'm sorry Yu Hang, I was going to help, but at noon Shen Hao temporarily received an interview with a director, and he was dragged to accompany the wine, and I was accidentally poured too much by the director and producer, and when I sobered up, I found that I was already on the highway, so I quarreled with him, and finally was thrown on the side of the road......"

Because it was too unexpected, I asked a little out of shape: "Take your girlfriend to accompany you to drink, is his brain in or is he being hooked?" ”

"I'm really guilty of delaying such an important matter for you......" Jing Qi's expression was a little dazed and painful, she pressed her forehead with both hands, and couldn't cry......

I gently patted her on the back to make her breath smoother, but my heart became more and more blocked, and after a long time, I finally thought of comforting words: "Don't worry!" It didn't take a delay, the customer in my store finally helped, and the photographer you found was also very helpful, helped us shoot twice, and gave a lot of guidance. ”

Jing Qi wiped her tears and asked me in a somewhat self-reproachful tone, "Really? ”

I nodded earnestly.

Sitting cross-legged with my guitar, I couldn't remember what song to sing for a while, so I looked at Jing Qi's face again, her tearful eyes mixed with flickering light, as if illuminating the dark night, making the world I was in more and more hazy, hazy to unreal, hazy to like a dream!

I tried the guitar sound, no need to ask, what Jing Qi gave to Shen Hao must be good things, plucked the strings, I was still searching for the song in my mind, and suddenly remembered a very warm song:

"That spring, I was lost in a dream, that summer, as quiet as her, the autumn wind of that year, reflected in the panicked ears, that winter, there was a lack of you around me, if spring, there was no you in the dream, if in the summer, I couldn't meet you on the street corner, even if the autumn wind couldn't take you back here, my heart was like a cold winter, spring, summer, autumn and winter lost you, how could I live the year, aimlessly rambling nonsense, let me monologue whose memories ......"

Jing Qi listened very seriously, and felt with her eyes closed throughout the whole process, I looked at her, but sang until I blushed, and she still closed her eyes for a long time, but asked with a wistful expression: "Have you ever thought about the future life scene?" ”

I nodded and said, "May one room, two people, three meals, and four seasons." ”

At this time, Jing Qi grabbed my arm and snuggled in my arms, while I was a little dazed in her rare tenderness, she sighed: "Yu Hang, how long have we known each other?" ”

"It's been almost two years!"

"Time is so fast, a month before I met you, I was alone in Beijing, and my memory is the basement where the sun can't be seen, and the life trajectory cast by the subway. Sitting on the last train, plugging in headphones, I feel that the city is so big, and life is still strange no matter how long it is...... Later, I became a deserter and fled back to the familiar place of Xi'an, but what happened in that city, I will always engrave it in my heart, and when the wind and rain are hideous, the hot pot and white wine are just right, and then slowly recall that short period of life......"

"You met Shen Hao in Beijing, right?"

Jing Qi looked at me and asked suspiciously, "Yu Hang, did you hear what Shen Hao said?" ”

"Uh......"

Jing Qi still looked at me, waiting patiently, her breathing seemed to be a little short, and she didn't seem to have ...... In short, at this moment, I was full of nervousness, and I didn't have time to look at her expression carefully, and whispered: "I'm just guessing......"

We just fell into silence, but what we experienced was the helplessness of living......

I think at this moment Jingqi's mind is also churning like mine, because I can feel the delicacy of her mind, although she looks indifferent, but the inner world is as rich as mine, even if she is very arrogant on the surface, but she always uses the most real side to meet the wind and rain of life.

……

The night breeze is cool, blowing until the boring soul sprouts, a single man, unwilling to be friends with her, but dare not develop into a lover, can only try his best to maintain a relationship that seems not salty, not light, but also mysterious and loyal.

I think, Jing Qi has always known my thoughts, but she has always maintained her own attitude, never given me hope, but has always helped me with the most sincere heart, aside from others, we have already become comrades-in-arms who can face the empty life together, but what is it that we have become what we are now?

I don't want it to be because I once saved her, but I also hope that it is the subtle life that has accumulated over time that has changed us, maybe one day, I am if, if Shen Hao is really no longer worth her effort, I hope she can see me behind her......

The night is deeper, Jing Qi is quieter, looking at her, my tired heart suddenly twitched, at this moment, I don't want to think of the past that hurt me, I hope the rest of my life is well......

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