Li Shi squinted her eyes and smiled at me, I saw something called "confidant" in her clean smile, and the generation of this idea also made me know how to live a better life next, life can't be counted, everything is known, how can you live? In addition to being cautious and frightened, is there anything exciting?

I lit a cigarette, and I couldn't imagine if I would come here after Li Shi left, or in what mood I would come here again, to remember or look forward to the future?

In the smoke drifting away, Li Shi said to me in a deep voice after a long time: "Yu Hang, even if the innocence of being a minor is desirable, I don't want you to show this side to everyone, if one day, someone hurts you with your kindness, you will be very sad......"

Speaking of this, Li Shi stared at me and said: "Sometimes, the love and kindness of you are really you, which makes people feel very distressed, but this world of affection is very realistic, some people never know to cherish your affection and kindness, and use these as tools to hurt you, if you are unwilling to fight back and respond, then please at least don't be so stupid......"

I looked at her with sour eyes, and replied, "Why did you say that all of a sudden?" ”

Li Shi smiled, she straightened her somewhat messy hair that was blown by the wind again, looked at me and said: "You don't have to react, just listen, I just feel it, we have known each other for a short time, not to mention that we have experienced the ups and downs of life together, but it can be regarded as an acquaintance, which is also the purpose of I want to go here with you tonight." ”

I pursed my lips and lowered my head again, tempting to say the phrase "I can't do it if I don't go", but in the end I just replaced my answer with silence......

Li Shi closed her eyes, and I became more and more calm, facing the edge of the city in the distance, but when I was least prepared, I saw the isolated island outside the city again, where the barren land became luxuriant, like a utopia outside the distant world.

"Li Shi, you see, there is a sea outside the city, and there is an island on the sea, which used to be barren, but now it is overgrown with grass and trees, and the birds are singing, it is so beautiful!"

"What should I do, how can I perform with you?"

I was amused by Li Shi's anxious, innocent expression, she really gave me all the innocent side, and realized that this kind of non-physical performance is indeed quite a test, after all, the "island outside the city" only exists in my faith, and I have not described it to Li Shi.

"I want to tell you, it's empty, far away, the wind blows from a distant place, there is the fragrance of flowers and plants in the air, if I can get there one day, even if I am covered with wind and dust, I will have a happy face, the light of joy is radiated from the inside out, without pretension, the island is the power of faith for me, the satisfaction of the material world, it is never my pursuit, because it is a faith that can be pursued for a lifetime."

"The world is kept in the naïve people, I want to say, because of innocence, will always be on the road, because of naivety, so there is no scruple to pursue, and because of innocence, life will not be so boring. The years change, some things that are ignored by the heart, it is easy to lose, and your faith makes people see a different pursuit. ”

"Your answer is so official!"

Seeing that I was not satisfied, Li Shi shrugged his shoulders and said, "I'm afraid that the answer is too exciting, and you have to continue talking." ”

I put the smoke that was about to go out again, put it to my mouth again and took a deep breath, when the smoke was all dispersed from her mouth, a sense of loss and loneliness followed, I looked at the cigarette in my hand, and said: "Leave Xi'an, I'm afraid you will never find such a good night view of the city again." ”

Li Shi didn't respond to my words, she just put her hands in the pockets of her jacket, quietly looked at the hazy neon in the distance, and then turned around and walked back, at this moment, we seemed to walk on the reversed time tunnel, became a pair of friends who met for the first time, I still remember the night when I came here to open a video for Meng Meng, I also followed her, stepping on the light and shadow to go back.

I sighed softly, imagining that after we left here, it seemed as if we were beginning to come to a fork in the road of separation, and I could not guess what Li Shi had been thinking during the time of silence. I could only walk and look around, trying to remember this night firmly, looking at the stone bricks of the city wall full of the marks of time over and over again, and I reminded myself that it was time to do something tangible, for the sake of the future, and for the responsibility that I had once relieved......

……

Xi'an, as a tourist city that never sleeps, seems to try its best to coax every lonely tourist with liveliness, I drove through the streets that were no longer lively, and the street lights flashed past and kept reversing, as if alternately telling the joys and sorrows of the city, and then kept leaving.

It was almost eleven o'clock at night when I returned to the hostel, and I didn't know how long I had been standing on the stone bridge in front of the hostel, and I wanted to go back to the store to rest, but I realized that all my belongings had been sent home, so I was so lonely on the streets, tormenting in the long night......

The stalls in the entire scenic area are still open, and the Laiyue Hotel seems to have closed...... I finally have a place to go, I want to go back to the hospital to see Jiang Laiyue, as a friend, I don't have to talk to her, just stand outside the door, make sure that she has slept, and my heart will be more stable.

Stopped a taxi, I went back to the hospital again, before entering the hall of the inpatient department, I stood downstairs, looked up, Jiang Laiyue was in the room there was no strong light, perhaps, at this moment, she had fallen asleep, or, she had lost the strong disguise of the day, and was lying in the quilt silently wiping tears.

Actually, I really don't know her very well, but subconsciously, she doesn't seem to be so strong, so that when she smiles at me tonight, she seems to be more lonely and disguised, I am not a fairy who has mercy on the world, but I don't want to see someone as helpless as myself lonely in the middle of the night.

I stood downstairs and smoked another cigarette, and I felt the urge to go up to her, but I was not able to take another step after the first step up the stairs, and I remembered her disguised appearance tonight, which reminded me that she needed space to meditate alone, and after several iterations, I decided to test if she was resting.

I took my phone out of my pocket, edited a text message and sent it to her: "Don't be cranky, remember to cover the quilt." ”

She texted me back: "Don't catch a cold, find a hotel to rest!" ”

As I expected, she didn't sleep, maybe she had been standing in front of the window, and saw me when I first stepped into the inpatient department, and after some hesitation, I walked out of the hallway with my head down, stayed where I had been standing, and looked up in the direction of the room where she was, and then lost my mind for a while, I wish she hadn't replied to my message, at least to prove that she had fallen asleep.

……

After leaving the hospital, I found a hotel nearby, these days, I have hardly slept enough, and what has happened in the past few days has made my mental state extremely sluggish, I really need to take a good rest, and then get up to face the things of tomorrow!

When I woke up the next day, the sky was already slightly bright, as usual, I still did not have the habit of sleeping lazy, opened the heavy curtains, the whole city was still waking up, a ray of light through the clouds, through between the two buildings, quietly fell on the eaves in front of me, the slow and orderly pace of life downstairs, so that the whole world seemed so harmonious, I clasped my hands in front of my chest, stared into the distance, as if I had lost all the troubles of the world, in silence watching the past turn into fragments, following the first ray of sunshine, Looking forward to a new life......

After a night's rest, I returned to the hostel, but unexpectedly found that Yang Xuejun, who had not been seen for a few days, came to the hostel, at this moment she was sitting in the courtyard with Li Shi chatting, I immediately realized that he may have come with cooperation, and I couldn't help but be happy, if he can cooperate with Li Shi, then Li Shi will have a bargaining chip not to leave.

I finally came to my senses and didn't bother them, but I was looking forward to the results later......

……

After observing for a while, I noticed that the topic they were talking about was not about business, but more like reminiscing, and the two seemed to have a difference of opinion and quarreled while chatting.

It's ridiculous to think about it, I would actually pin my hopes on Yang Xuejun.

After a while, Yang Xuejun angrily shook his hand and left, but Li Shi did not follow, turned around and went back to his room.

I looked at her and didn't speak for a while, because in this fluke thought, I kept praying that she would be by my side, but unfortunately it was just wishful thinking on my part, I could only watch my dreams being worn out, even if I tried to tell myself that it was nothing, at most I was a little regretful, but I still couldn't convince myself.

I caught up with Yang Xuejun and asked, "Mr. Yang, has there been any progress in the project we came to talk about this time?" ”

Yang Xuejun wanted to speak and stopped, but in the end he ignored my desires, and just said: "You already know that Li Shi is leaving, why do you still come to ask me this, it can be seen that she trusts you very much, but how can such a trusting assistant not help her resist Gou Yongqiang's aggression?" I don't want to talk to you now, I'll go to Gou Yongqiang to settle accounts. ”

My mood was constantly touched by Yang Xuejun's words, and I was silent for a long time, and finally raised my head to look at him and asked, "You can't save the situation she is leaving?" ”

"I'll tell you the truth, from what I know about Li Shi, in fact, you had a chance to stay, but I don't know why you didn't have such a chance in the end, it's too late to say anything now, I know her personality, I decided to leave, and no one can stay......"

I felt as if I had been pricked by a needle, I just lowered my head, exhaled softly, and had a sharp blade in my heart, but said to Yang Xuejun calmly: "Don't go to Lao Gou, even if everyone spreads rumors about him and Li Shi, I still don't believe it, it's not interesting, and I can't solve any problems......"

Yang Xuejun looked at me, I didn't avoid his gaze, I also looked at him, but he sneered: "What do you want others to spread the rumors about her and Lao Gou, which fart do you put in?" ”