After coming out of Xu Jie's room, I took a taxi and went out to the small beach in Hanoi, during which I called Fei Zai, Dong Dong, Yang Wei, and the three of them, and asked them to go to the small beach in Hanoi to meet now.

Because today happened to be Saturday, Dongdong and Yang Wei didn't have to go to school, and when they received my call, although they were very confused, they still said they would go.

Along the way, Xu Jie asked me where I was going, I didn't tell her, I just said that I would know where I went, and when I arrived at the small beach in Hanoi, it was already more than nine o'clock in the evening.

Xu Jie and I got out of the car, I led her down the beach, Dongdong and Yang Wei and Feizi had arrived, I went over with Xu Jie, as soon as I passed, the three of them asked me what I was going to do, I said mysteriously: "Wait for the swallow to come." ”

Yang Wei said: ", what the hell is going on, you don't make it clear, it's so mysterious." ”

Dongdong joked: "Do you want to propose to Xu Jie, so why did you choose a romantic place?" ”

Anyway, Xu Jie also looked at me in a little surprise, I explained no, and then Xu Jie rolled her eyes, and if she said no, she left, so I quickly pulled her and asked her to wait.

Feizai looked at Xu Jie at this time and said, "Xu Jie, I haven't had time to say sorry to you for Uncle Xu's incident, so I'll take this opportunity to say sorry to you today." ”

Xu Jie shook her head and said, "You don't have to say I'm sorry, we don't want that kind of thing to happen." ”

Fei Zi breathed a sigh of relief and thanked Xu Jie, Xu Jie waved his hand, then looked at me and said, "What are you bringing me here for?" ”

As soon as I wanted to speak, Swallow came in the Mitsubishi Jeep, and as soon as I got out of the car, I hurriedly asked us to help carry things to the trunk, and I hurried up, and the four of them followed me.

After we brought down the beer and snacks on the swallow car, Yang Wei took one of the boxes and said, "Huh? Isn't this a Kong Ming lantern? Swallow, won't you, you let us put the Kong Ming lantern now? ”

Yanzi spread his hands and said: "This is what my brother asked me to buy, and I don't know if I want to put it." ”

Then all of them looked at me, I smiled and nodded, Xu Jie was a little angry and said, "This is what you said you should do now?" I'm not in the mood to put this kind of thing now, I thought it was something, it turned out to be this kind of thing, I didn't have time to play with you! ”

After saying that, she was about to leave again, so I pulled her and said, "Listen to me, okay?" ”

Xu Jiehu looked at me suspiciously, didn't speak, I took out six Kong Ming lanterns from the box, handed them to each of them, and said while doing so: "We have to complete the commemorative ceremony that was not completed before, we must let the wounds heal, we have lost too much, especially recently, I feel that we have become numb, we escape, we joke, pretend that nothing has happened, we try to ignore our feelings, but we can't change, a lot of sad things have happened, So it's time to release our grief. ”

Xu Jie said helplessly: "So you want to put Kong Ming lanterns?" ”

I nodded and said, "Yes, we need to put Kong Ming lanterns, when I lost my parents, my sister often brought me to this place, she would buy two Kong Ming lanterns, and then tell me that this is a wishing lantern, as long as you light this, you can release your sadness, I thought this thing was amazing at that time, because it really has healing properties." ”

As I spoke, I lit the candle of the Kong Ming lantern, then closed my eyes and said to the Kong Ming lantern: "This is for my brother Dai Hui, I hope he has a happy life in heaven." ”

Then I handed the lighter in my hand to Dongdong, Dongdong took the lighter with a slight smile, and also lit the Kong Ming lantern in his hand, he said: "This is for Han Lingxue, I hope her illness can be cured soon." ”

After Dongdong lit it, he handed the lighter to Feizai, who also lit it and said, "This is for Lili." ”

Then there was Yang Wei, who also took a lighter and lit the Kong Ming lantern, then looked at us and said, "This is for Brother Heizi." ”

Yanzi also hurriedly took the lighter, lit the Kong Ming lantern in his hand and said: "This is for all my friends who have suffered misfortune, Dai Hui, Han Lingxue, Brother Heizi, Lili, Brother Hu Tou, I hope they can become lucky, and myself, I hope I can be promoted to a red stick soon, and Su Mo, I hope he will always be with me, and little brother, I hope he ......"

As soon as Yanzi said something, we all laughed, scolded Yanzi for being greedy, and ruined the atmosphere, Yanzi laughed and said: "It's rare to make a wish, and you don't want to be full at once?" ”

Then the five of us boys all looked at Xu Jie, Xu Jie sighed helplessly, looking at our group of big children, he didn't know what to say, but she also picked up the Kong Ming lantern, and after lighting the candle in the lamp, she took a deep breath and said sincerely: "This is for my dad, for all of us who have lost, and for myself......"

After lighting the candles, we stood in a row, counted one, two, three, and we let go of the Kong Ming lantern in our hands together, these five lights, with the last warm wind in November, drifted to the sky, I know that this may not work, but at least, it can make our hearts feel better, the wishing lamp of Huaxia symbolizes letting go of the past and having a better future, I hope each of us can do the same.

I know what we are, it's like a candle and everything will be fine, stupid, delusional, angry children, but youth isn't like that, it's like a ritual, although we don't believe in it, but at least we need a ritual of remembrance, as if telling ourselves, hypnotizing ourselves, everything bad will pass.

At least, we really needed to release our grief at that time, and we all endured too much as a group, and I always felt that very few people's youth could be as wanton and arrogant as we were, with laughter and tears.

Many years later, I will remember that when we were 17 years old, we put on the Kong Ming lantern, and we made those wishes that we didn't know if they would come true, no matter what the final result was, we did not regret it, because, at least the moment we let go of the Kong Ming lantern, we had already been redeemed.

That night, we drank beer and chatted about our own hearts and dreams for the future, Yang Wei said that he was going to join the army, and we were all surprised to hear the news, and asked him when he had decided.

Yang Wei took the beer and said: "A few days ago, my family told me, they thought it was useless for me to continue reading, so they let me go to be a soldier, I originally wanted to tell you in a few days, just while everyone is here today, I will say it by the way." ”

I looked at him and said a little reluctantly, "When are you leaving?" ”

Yang Wei said about a week later, I said did you tell Zhang Yiyi about this, Yang Wei shook his head, and said that he didn't have it yet, and he planned to tell her on Monday, so I didn't speak, Yang Wei patted me on the shoulder and said, "Little brother, don't be like this, it's not that you don't meet, do you know?" I still think of you, and I still think of you who followed my ass before, but you have grown up now and don't need my protection anymore, but no matter how you say it, I am your brother, you have to listen to what I say, whether it is Dongdong, Yanzi, Feizi, or even Li Jiaxin of the new school, they are all friends worthy of deep friendship, okay, good to Xu Jie, the little girl likes you so much, you can't let her down. ”

I nodded, and Yang Wei said happily again: "Okay, brothers, don't be sad, come, do it!" ”

Dongdong was the first to raise his glass and said, "Have a good trip, Viagra!" ”

Under the leadership of Dongdong, we all toasted Yang Wei, and after Yang Wei finished speaking, it was Feizai's turn, and Feizai said: "I'm going to go the day before than Viagra, little brother, I'm going to go to Yangcheng with your dad to mess around." ”

When I heard this, I scolded angrily: "Fuck, let's go, get out of here one by one!" ”

Fei Zai said happily: "Okay, we are not small anymore, naturally we have our own ways to go, what I want to say, Viagra has helped me say, but there is one sentence I want to add, no matter where you go, you people are my big brother, all the time, thank you for taking care of ......"

Fei Zai choked up when he said this, and when he did this, we all couldn't help but shed tears, and even Dongdong, who has always been strong, secretly wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes.

Xu Jie leaned on my shoulder and didn't speak, but I could see that she was also a little reluctant to Feizi and Yang Wei, after all, they have been in a relationship for a year, she and I have long been used to having these people around, and if there are two less at once, we will naturally feel uncomfortable.

I picked up a bottle of wine and said to them: "Okay, brothers, go what should go, stay what should stay, I have always known what kind of banquet in the world will not be dispersed, but I always hope that time can pass slowly, we can get along a little longer, but no matter what, since the direction of progress has been decided, just follow that road, I will do it first as respect!" ”

After I finished saying this, I drank all the wine in my hand, Yang Wei and the others too, they all stood up and drank with the wine, and then we all tacitly agreed not to mention these things, chatting, bragging, I felt as if I had returned, that year and that month, that campus, everything had not changed.

That night, we drank very happily, at least on the surface, after that, I sent Xu Jie home, and when I arrived at the door, I confessed to her about Zhao Shuang, Xu Jie also forgave me, and told me that she would not go abroad with her mother, and she would always be by my side.

Then I looked at her and didn't speak, she said: "Little brother, I know your intentions, I will be strong to face these realities, and I will no longer rely on those drugs to confuse myself, don't worry, I will definitely quit!" ”

As soon as I heard what she had to say, I was overjoyed, and went up and hugged her, and then we kissed downstairs, and the bright moonlight sprinkled on me and her, as if symbolizing hope, and drove away the accumulated despair in our hearts at once.