After a while, Bai Jing and I came to Zuo Lan's residence, Bai Jing and I unbuckled our seat belts together, Bai Jing looked at me in surprise and asked, "Zhang Yixi, what are you doing, shouldn't you go back?" ”

"I'm looking for Zuo Lan."

Bai Jing said with a smile: "Aren't you afraid that your girlfriend will be jealous?" ”

"There are some things more important than worrying about being jealous." I didn't have the heart to finish laughing, and said very seriously.

Bai Jing nodded and said, "Count you Zhang Yixi still have a little conscience." ”

......

Bai Jing and I came to Zuo Lan's residence together, Bai Jing rang the doorbell, and Zuo Lan's voice came from inside: "It's here." ”

The door was opened, and I stood in front of Zuo Lan, but I didn't know how to speak, and Zuo Lan's face was not only embarrassed but also repulsed.

"What are you going to do with your big eyes and small eyes, hurry up and eat in the house, I'm dying of hunger." Bai Jing said and pulled me towards the house.

Pipsqueak was still ignorant and sitting on the carpet in the living room playing with blocks, but the smell of food from the kitchen didn't stimulate my appetite, and my heart was a little heavy.

Pippi, who was playing by herself, found out about my presence, got up from the ground, and pounced on me, with great joy.

"Zhang Yixi, you play with Pippi, and I'll go to the kitchen to help Zuo Lan." Bai Jing said to me.

"Hmm." I answered, and Pipsqueak grabbed my clothes and said to me, "Patrick, let's play with blocks, and you're going to help me build a beautiful castle." ”

"What do you do in the heap of castles?"

"Marry the princess." Pipsqueak said with a wink.

.......

Dinner began quickly, although the delicious food was in front of me, I had no appetite and ate absent-mindedly, Bai Jing and Zuo Lan seemed to be affected by my emotions, and they spoke very little, in short, a delicious dinner should have been spent in a dull state.

After eating, Bai Jing seemed to do it deliberately, playing with Pippi in the bedroom, while Zuo Lan washed the dishes and chopsticks in the kitchen.

I smoked a cigarette on the balcony, and then I mustered up the courage to come to Zuo Lan's side and say to her: "You have told me about your life in the past few years, let's talk openly tonight, okay?" ”

Zuo Lan froze, but as if he hadn't heard, he continued to wash the dishes with his back to me.

"I know you don't want to talk about the old things, but I really want to know what's going on, and don't let our lives be flawed by misunderstandings, okay?" I said persistently.

Zuo Lan finally turned his head to look at me, his body trembling slightly: "The past has long been solidified, if you forcibly smash it open, it will only make the people around you drenched in blood, do you understand?" ”

I said almost without thinking: "No matter how bloody it is, it is just a flesh wound, if you don't say it in your heart, it is a real internal injury." ”

Zuo Lan's emotions were a little out of control, and she pushed me heavily: "What can I do if I break it??" Can we ever go back in time? ”

"Whether you can go back to the past or not, but once you were my prettgirl, I was your superboy This is an indisputable fact, don't let the simplest and most beautiful love in your life be misunderstood, okay?"

......

Zuo Lan and I came to the balcony, I was nervous and apprehensive, habitually lit a cigarette for myself, Zuo Lan looked at me silently, and didn't speak for a long time, I knew that she was brewing emotions, because it took more than courage to tell me the grievances that had been hidden for more than three years.

I don't know how long I was speechless, Zuo Lan finally bit her lip and said: "Two days before I left you three years ago, my father and mother went to Nantong, and they gave me an ultimatum, no matter what, I am not allowed to stay in Nantong, they don't want to be old and have nothing to rely on....... You know what, struggling with affection and love, it's painful, it's painful!! ”

My heart tightened and I felt pain, but I still looked at Zuo Lan and waited for her to continue.

Zuo Lan turned around, looked at the vastness and lights outside the window, and finally said: "I don't want to lose anyone, I have to gain and lose, so I thought of Sister Shen Man, I hope she can give me some advice......."

"What advice did she give you?" I couldn't wait to ask.

After another suffocating silence, Zuo Lan said to me, "Sister Shen Man suggested that I leave you because...... She loves you too! She reassures me to hand you over to her, whether it is life or career, she will take care of you. ”

My emotions suddenly got out of control: "Just because of her words, did you agree?" What do you take our feelings for? ”

Zuo Lan turned around and looked at me with a gaze piercing my body and asked, "Do you dare to say that you don't love Sister Shen Man, if you dare to say that you don't love you, then all the suffering that I, Zuo Lan, have endured today is to blame." ”

"No, I've never loved her, why do you all have to force me a ridiculous love one by one."

My hysteria only made Zuo Lan smile and shake her head, and her smile made me feel like I was in the cold, shaky.

"If you don't love her, why do you cry her name in your dreams every time you encounter setbacks in your life or when you are sick....... You love her, just because you don't dare admit it, prince! ”

I stayed where I was like a fool, if I had ever suspected that Lin Xi had said the same thing, what about Zuo Lan, would the two of them tell me the same lie? This is obviously impossible!

After a deathly silence, Zuo Lan continued: "At that time, no matter how late you are, no matter whether we rest or not, as long as Sister Shen Man makes a phone call, you always leave me as soon as possible and go to her side...... Zhang Yixi, have you thought about my feelings? ...... In the case that you can't even give me a sense of security emotionally, I'm leaving, I believe that Sister Shen Man will take care of you and give you everything you want! ...... Since then, I feel that love is really not that important, because after graduation we have all seen too many vigorous couples who love and finally parted ways....... Perhaps only relatives are their truest reliance! ”

Cold sweat dripped down my face, and I leaned against the wall weakly, I always thought that Zuo Lan left me for the sake of the house and for the sake of material...... I never knew that I had wronged her so much.

With a last chance of luck, I stammered and asked, "Why did you argue with me the night before you left because of the house?" ”

Zuo Lan's tears fell down her cheeks, but she said with a wistful smile: "I always have to give you a reason to hate me, so that you no longer miss me as a dispensable person." ”

I held my head in my hands, pulled my hair, and my world was spinning!! I asked myself over and over again, "What kind of scum was I used to be??" ”

"Zhang Yixi, weigh it yourself, whether you want to be with your current girlfriend, I don't want her to repeat the tragedy of me and Lin Xi, in the deepest part of your heart, you must love Sister Shen Man, but you don't dare to admit it."

.......

After getting the truth, I left Zuo Lan's residence in despair, how should I face my future? How to face Zuo Lan and how to face Shen Man....... How to face Angel?

Who's going to give me the answer?

I still remember the joy and happiness when I was with Angel yesterday....... Now it seems like nothing more than a dream..... Just, why is it easier to wake up from sweet dreams?

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Yesterday's group,It's full.,Don't add it anymore.。。

The weather is too hot, the mood is irritable, two shifts today ///