Waiting, forever endless, I have been waiting for you for many years.

In the late spring when the blue sky is blue, I met you, under the sun, your smile, let me dream for several years, maybe, it is your smile, maybe it is your melancholy eyes, such as the ripples projected under the blue sky and blue waves, inadvertently will stir up broken splashes.

Emerald love flowers, spring breeze sunset, spring rippling, I join hands with you, through the good years of spring dance, footprints gently shallow left on the poetic and singing traces of youth, once, I look forward to stepping on a river with you, wading through a road of life, ups and downs to the white head, love the years, infatuated.

Maybe some stories don't need to be told to others, but more astringent memories hidden in the bottom of the heart.

1 Meet

I met you when I was in middle school, and my age of ignorance was more full of dream-like expectations, and suddenly, you appeared.

You are my senior brother, and your graduation is imminent.

You are wearing a white sports shirt, black pants, and a pair of Nike, and you are full of youthful and vigorous atmosphere, especially your smile, like the breeze of spring and March, instantly illuminates my eyes.

"Hello, my name is Su Xiaoyu."

"Hello, my name is Li Mubai"

The handsome big boy has a poetic name, which matches your temperament, you have a faint smell of tobacco, mixed with the freshness unique to this age, for a moment, I have a feeling of intoxication, I look up at you, feel the meaning of admiration.

The first love is so unforgettable, that when I recall it now, I still feel sorry for it.

That weekend morning, you came to me with a big sketchpad on your back, and I quipped: I don't see that you are still a painter. ”

His eyes flashed with a cynical smile: "I'm just playing." Let's sketch. ”

You led me to a quiet place in the mountains, with a view of the town we were in, and in a meadow you sat on the ground while I watched.

You set up your stand, take out your drawing board, and start drawing with all your heart.

I was shocked when I watched it, you are not humble at all, every stroke is in place and expressive, although I am not proficient in painting, but I can still see one or two.

Quietly, I don't know how long it took, you finally put down the pen and stretched your waist: Mu Bai, I'm done painting, you can take a look. ”

In the painting, a graceful girl is dancing on the grass, and next to the girl, a handsome young man is walking affectionately, narrator: You are the landscape in the painting, and you are also the painting in my eyes.

This is clearly a depiction of the two of us, and I immediately blushed and you laughed.

In the days that followed, I also knew that you were not only proficient in painting, but also admired petty bourgeoisie, and gradually, I loved the house and Wu, and also began to listen to the piano, drink coffee, and watch ambiguous movies.

During the time I was with you, I was in high spirits, and it seemed that all the past had become the old time, and only the days with you were reborn.

2 First love

I walked with you on the tree-lined path, talking and laughing, and you said, "Li Mubai, I like you." ”

I looked at you and smiled brightly: Su Xiaoyu, I like you too. ”

I am in love with you. There is only each other in the eyes, I look at your eyes, there is a clear me in your eyes, twilight, you carry me, the evening breeze is blowing, I am in a sunset with you, guarding the common direction.

I began to restrain my flamboyant personality, from childhood to adulthood, the boy's personality was counted by my parents I don't know how many times, I began to wear red, just for that enthusiasm, I began to grow long hair, just for your hand through my black hair.

Love is like this, it can't be said, and I never think about whether it will be safe and sunny in the future.

"Li Mubai, if I only have fifty years in my life, I will only love you for fifty years." You say it seriously.

At this time, you have graduated, you have left school, you are going to do your own business, you say: love and career are your right and left hands, neither of them will be lost.

I fell in love with you like a moth to a fire, and your qualities and abilities have fascinated me from afar. Your cynicism and talent obsessed me. Your melancholy eyes flashed from time to time, and it made me want to stop. 3 Old wounds

Your socialization is gradually increasing, but you always remember to call me and ask for warmth. Once, I finished reading a book in the library, it was raining, I quickly pushed open the door, and a blue paper umbrella collided, I was angry, suddenly under the umbrella flashed your incomparably bright smile, you said, "rainy days are always emotional, rainy days in the unexpected encounter is even more moving", the rain flows down your hairline, but it seems vicissitudes and loneliness.

I laughed and gave you a big hug.

You are sometimes bright, sometimes silent, and the melancholy color is stained with your eyes, and I know that this is all because your career has just started, and things are trivial and complicated. I thought about helping you, but you always held my hand gently and said, "I just want you to go to school well, and don't step into society too early like me." ”

Our love, after all, still falls into the cliché ashes, his career, my study, may always have a diaphragm.

When you are free, you drive your newly bought car, take me for a ride, the wind and dust dazzle my eyes, your melancholy eyes are more affectionate than before, and the angular face is no longer the simplicity of the student days, you still prefer sportswear, chic and elegant.

Your body is no longer the fresh smell, but a mixture of fat powder and tobacco smell, every time I snuggle up to you, I can always smell the faint smell of fat powder emanating from your body.

Since you still love me, why don't you change out of your clothes full of fat powder, such an obvious ambiguity seems to be a blasphemy of emotions.

I couldn't help it, just for my love, in my career, it is inevitable to play on the spot, I know all this, and more importantly, my love for you has always been the same.

Your erratic eyes made me suspect for a moment that you must have something to say to me, but you didn't say anything. This has not been done before, although you are melancholy, but your eyes have never been so profound.

Although we have been together for a long time, I have never been to your house, and that weekend, without saying hello to you, I went straight to your house, which is located in a green shade, and you told me.

Your home is a small two-story building, and you can see that the family is not bad. I gently pushed the door open, the door was unlocked, a fresh breeze was blowing in my face, the green trees in the courtyard, and the unknown flowers were in full swing, and I was ready to surprise you.

A big drawing board, leaning in the corner of the living room, in the living room, a girl was reading a book, my appearance made her take aback, came back to her senses, and a mocking smile appeared on the corner of her mouth: "You are Li Mubai, right?" ”

I said yes, I'm here to find Su Xiaoyu.

She put down the book and walked up to me gently: "Sue hasn't come back yet, I'm just waiting for him here." ”

I really wanted to ask her what kind of person she was, but the words came to my mouth and swallowed back: I am Su's girlfriend, if he comes back, please tell me, thank you. ”

"Hahaha," she laughed, sat down, and crossed Erlang's legs, "Li Mubai, let me make it clear to you, I am the person he has loved for many years, and I am also the daughter-in-law designated by his parents, as for you, you are still too young, let's talk about it in a few years." ”

The girl was dressed well, with her hair in a high bun, a plain and pale floral blouse, and a green shawl, which was particularly dazzling.

I was embarrassed and escaped from your house, is everything fake?

So, when I went out sketching, wasn't the person in the painting me? But someone else? I was cranky all the way and walked aimlessly on the road.

At dusk, a familiar car flashed in front of me, but I clearly saw that you were talking and laughing with that girl, and at that moment, my heart was broken.

Maybe, according to your conditions and good family background, how can you look up to me as a cool woman.

My studies plummeted.

You looked for me, I avoided it, I changed my phone, deleted your number on the Internet, everything, just like never met at the beginning, you are you, I am still me.

4 All things are in the past

I've written a few books full of books written for you, and now they only hurt me.

I burned a few books and buried my love with you. The young heart can't stand a little deception and concealment, and is not allowed to smear the incongruous scenery on the drawing board of love.

In the end, I failed to get into the university I wanted, and my college dream was trampled under my feet and buried in my heart with my love for you.

I became depressed, my cheerful personality was gone, I no longer wore red, I cut my hair short, I stopped listening to the piano, I stopped drinking coffee, and I stopped watching the apocryphal love stories of death and life.

All of this has nothing to do with me, I am still me, Li Mubai, a lonely woman, walking in this cold world.

You never looked for me again, and everything seemed to disappear 5 The next day

Years have passed, and I am still alone, rejecting many suitors.

In my heart, I still love Su Xiaoyu.

The rain was falling haze, and I returned to my hometown.

Your home is still there, surrounded by greenery.

It's just that I didn't find you. When I come back this time, I just want to see you and leave, but I have been wishing for many years.

It was, how naïve, it hurt you and it hurt me.

The door was still there, locked, and the face of the man was gone.

Through the crack in the doorway, I saw that the courtyard was withered, and those unknown flowers, which had been depressed for a long time because they had not been cared for for a long time, had become wild flowers with withered vines.

What's going on with all this? What about people? Where did you go again?

I returned home full of doubts, and my mother sighed: "Son, you have been away for so many years, and you have finally returned." Here's a letter from you, and a guy told me to wait until you come back before giving it to you. ”

A letter without a postmark.

I opened it and there was a faint smell of freshness.

Mu Bai:

I know you hate me in your heart, that girl, she's my sister. She did it for you, too, and I hope you can forgive me.

I have always loved you deeply, but if this love continues to heaven, can you accept it? I didn't dare to explain my condition to you for a while, although my condition is getting worse, but I am still worried that you can't bear it, my sister, in this way, let you die and find another love.

When you read this letter, I am no longer there, my illness cannot be cured, sooner or later I will die, it is cruel to you, and it may not be so painful to know later.

I want to say to you, I love you, always be, pray for the next life, we meet again, the next dawn, it will still be spring......

Tears can't describe my feelings, do you know what it is like when people are most painful? If you want to cry without tears, it is the kind of heart that is shattered, but you can't make a sound.

The letter was burned by me, and the green smoke curled and went away with the wind, and let the green smoke carry my heart to the kingdom of heaven to convey my mourning.

The wind cut a gap, waiting for the next dawn, and I went in alone, just to meet you.

When I was young, I dared to love and hate, but after a few years, that broken heart still did not make up for it, and more remorse was tormenting it.

Things in the world are unpredictable, I just want to say, no matter when, you have to cherish a relationship, if you miss it, it will never be yours again.

The next day, the breeze slanted in, the peach blossoms were red, the pear blossoms were white, and I met you again.

"Hello, I'm Li Mubai,"

"Hello, I'm Su Xiaoyu."