I am willing to be sad with you (2)
The friendship of two people gives a simple and happy feeling, the friendship of 4 people is a small carnival, but 3 people ...... But it's a little awkward. Especially after a long time, this awkward feeling becomes more and more obvious.
They still go out to sing together, ride their bikes to the beach together, and do their homework together, just like they did when they were four of them...... But there is often silence between them. This kind of silent silence naturally has to be taken for granted.
Luo Xiaoqing remembered that she had read such a sentence in a book: Real good friends, even if they stay together in silence, will not feel embarrassed. We're really good friends, she thought, at least during the time we spent together, we wouldn't be awkward about each other.
The days passed day by day, and soon after the spring came, they ran away, Luo Xiaoqing and Yan Ge's friendship rose with the temperature of this summer, and at the same time, the relationship between her and Xie Yuxin gradually fell a layer of white snowflakes, this layer of snowflakes was thin, but enough to produce something called distance.
In addition, what Luo Xiaoqing, who has always been careless, did not notice was that in addition to herself and Yan Ge becoming better, Xie Yuxin and Yan Ge often walked together, if Yan Ge was not there, the two girls would feel a little uncomfortable. Invisibly, Yan Ge has become a bridge connecting this friendship.
Luo Xiaoqing chatted with Yan Ge, and it was often Luo Xiaoqing who told him the interesting news or stories she had seen. He listened to her words quietly, and smiled slightly at the appropriate time, giving Luo Xiaoqing a warm sense of presence and intimacy. But she is not like Xie Yuxin, because she has never told him the troubles in her heart, no matter how uncomfortable she is, she is supported by herself - for Luo Xiaoqing, who is strong and a little proud, confiding does not seem to be suitable for her. She is not a person suitable for others to reveal her heart to her, so she doesn't understand Yan Ge much.
During this period, she would see Xie Yuxin, who was staying with Yan Ge, whispering something to him, and seeing her coming, the topic between the two would stop abruptly, and then quickly change. A few times, Xie Yuxin looked at her and opened her mouth, as if she had something to say, but in the end she didn't speak.
Sometimes Luo Xiaoqing feels very tired, how should such a friendship be cared for? This small circle, which seems to be insignificant without itself, occasionally makes Luo Xiaoqing feel tired and bored. But she still carefully protects it, even if there are many things that she can't know, there is still a place in her heart that belongs to them.
At the same time, some things still have the taste of the past, such as Xie Yuxin will help her careless with her homework, will ride to Dongcheng to buy her the Black Forest cake she likes to eat, and will secretly help her when she can't answer the teacher's questions...... These will sweep away the tiredness in Luo Xiaoqing's heart, and add a few flowers with the smell of sunshine.
The days passed like this, and the next thing was the chaotic third year of high school. As the head teacher said at the beginning of the school year: "The days of the third year of high school pass quickly. ”
Luo Xiaoqing, who was in a mess in the third year of high school, quickly realized this, in such a black year, the three of them were busy with their studies, and they talked about their studies in less than 3 sentences, and Luo Xiaoqing, who was already very arrogant, didn't put much thought about the friendship of the three people - she didn't have time to think about these anymore.
No matter how many things Xie Yuxin and Yan Ge hid from themselves, this was all about to end.
Before graduation, a whirlwind of classmates will always sweep through the classes. Luo Xiaoqing also followed the trend and bought a copy to commemorate her youth. Many of the classmates she sent out were back in her hands, but Xie Yuxin's one was nowhere to be seen. Every time I asked her, she either said "I forgot to bring it" or "I'll bring it to you tomorrow". Asking and asking, Luo Xiaoqing felt bored, so the matter was quickly over.
However, in the end, this classmate record came back. On the second day after walking out of the college entrance examination room.
Xie Yuxin wrote in the message column:
I'm sorry, I didn't let Xu Boqin and Yan Ge tell you what happened. Xiaoqing, can you believe that I once wanted to tell you everything? But the reason I didn't do it in the end is because I don't want you to worry about us, I know that we are all good friends of yours, and you don't want any of us to be hurt, and in the same way, you are also good friends of ours, so we choose to protect you in a silent way.
There is always one person out of 4 who should have a clear sky, and among us, you are that person.
After Luo Xiaoqing finished reading it, she sighed softly and put Xie Yuxin's classmate record back in the book. Then she wrote a private post in QQ space:
You know, the way you protected me, I was hurt even more? If I could, I would like to exchange that clear sky for a sad time with you.
Then, Luo Xiaoqing glanced at the sky outside the window, which was as blue as youth with a little sadness, and whispered: "Everything ends with youth after all." ”
Those little things hidden in his youth also came to an end, for example, Xu Boqin asked him to break up with that girl because his family knew that he was in love, for example, Xie Yuxin spent 3 years liking Xu Boqin, for example, Yan Ge was the person who wanted to study science the most among the 4 people, and Luo Xiaoqing wanted Xie Yuxin to be happy the most......