After February, spring blossoms bloom and everything recovers. In winter, we gradually walk away with tired steps, and in spring, we slowly walk at a cheerful pace

Slow to come.

Recently, He Yan has felt more serious fatigue, headache, fever, cold sweat and other diseases

It is also becoming more and more frequent, and the whole person looks more haggard. He himself seemed to feel that the condition was somewhat serious, but

But I never went to the hospital for a check-up. Li Qing also persuaded him to go to the hospital, but he dragged it every time. And so it dragged on again

months.

By the third month of the lunar calendar, the weather has become completely warmer, but it is still a little cool at night.

On this night, the school is closed. He Yan and Li Qing also stood on the pedestrian bridge to blow the wind.

"I was exhausted during this time, and I had to go to class every night. I can finally take it easy today. Li Qing also carried it

Leaning on the railing, he excitedly said to He Yan who was standing next to him.

Cars on the highway came and went, dim neon lights shining on her beautiful face, and the spring breeze blowing her long black

hair, even more beautiful and moving.

"yes, it's been a long time since I've had it this easy." He Yan leaned on the railing with both hands and looked at the river thoughtfully

Endless vehicles, listening to the noisy whistle. But his heart is not here, and he is excited about Li Qingyi

It should have been calm and did not respond to her excitement.

"It would be nice to have classes every day!" He Yan is immersed in beautiful fantasies.

"It's easy, as long as you want to." He Yan said with a smile.

"Really? So what do you have to do to have it? Li Qingyi looked at him suspiciously and asked.

"The solution is: I can't take a leave of absence." He Yan said calmly.

"I thought it was a good idea! What you say is the same as not saying it. Li Qingyi said disappointedly.

"That's what I thought."

"What? Are you taking a leave of absence? Where to go? Li Qing also asked him as if he didn't believe it. You can't mean it, do you?

You don't really decide to leave here, do you? ”

"I want to take a break for a while, I'm too tired." He Yan sighed and said.

"That's right, you're often sick now, so you should take a break." Li Qingyi said softly.

"So I'm going to go back in a few days." Hu Heyan said calmly.

Li Qing also did not speak. In addition to the sound of cars and other noises, there are also pedestrian bridges on the streets

The voices of men and women who have spoken. But Li Qingyi's voice was not heard.

After a long time, Li Qingyi spoke. Her voice was soft, calm, but there seemed to be a hint of sadness

Cool, a touch of sadness. "When are you leaving? Will you come back again? ”

"I don't know when I'll be back. Maybe you won't come out again after you go back. I don't want to drift like this anymore

I'm tired of this wandering life, and I'm tired of it, and I want to have a stable job now, and then

Settle down and do what you want to do. ”

"Since you have thought about it, then remember to tell me before you go back, and I will send you when the time comes." Li Qingyi's voice became

Some hoarse. She paused for a moment and called softly, "What a word." He didn't answer, just turned his head to look at her.

"I have a letter for you, I'll answer me when I've read it." She took out an unsealed envelope from her body and handed it to Hu

Min, it seems that she has been prepared for a long time and can give it to him at any time. "I'll go back first, and you should go back early

Let's rest! After saying that, she walked away without looking back.

He Yan took out the letter paper from the envelope, and through the dim street lamp, He Yan could see clearly what was written on it in Na Juanxiu's handwriting

Per word:

"Brother (recognized, it is written in front, not biological)

I've known you for over 6 years, right!? During this time, I really had a great time. Although sometimes you will be right

I lost my temper, but I wasn't really angry. I know you're in a bad mood and every time you lose your temper because of it

I got up. If I weren't so headstrong, you wouldn't have lost your temper.

Remember the first time we met? At that time, I thought you were so cold and arrogant, and my first feeling was that you were willing

It's going to be very difficult to get along with. Later, after getting along with you, what colleagues said about you, and listening to your story, I

I know I'm wrong. Actually, you're not the kind of person I thought you were. Your arrogance and melancholy are gone

Don't open up the environment you used to live in. Since then, I've had a bold idea to get you from

Come out of the gloom and make you happy.

Do you know? In fact, the first time I saw you in the park, it wasn't really accidental, but someone else told me,

Say you like to run out into the park alone. A few times, your colleagues in the factory have seen you sitting quietly alone

Grass in the park in a daze. So I went with you that day. That day, I saw you

Laughed, laughed happily. You look handsome when you smile. I mean really, if you don't put on a cold look

Cool looks, there are definitely many girls pursuing you.

In fact, there is a sentence that I want to say to your face, but every time I want to say it, I am swallowed hard.

I don't really know how to speak, I really don't know what you're going to think of me after hearing those words, will you

Think I'm a very casual girl?

I don't know when I started to feel that way for you that way beyond the camaraderie of ordinary friends, maybe

It's from the first time I see you, maybe after being with you for a while, maybe it's listening to you

There is a story between him and Han Jie. But those don't matter anymore. I can't find one that makes you that special

The reason for the special feeling. When a person does something or decides to do something, they usually don't need a reason

。 But I know you won't choose me. In your heart, there is already a girl who has preconceived notions, although she has become

For someone else's bride, but you still can't let go of her, and I also know that she has always held irreplaceable in your heart

Status. But no matter what, I still have to say it to you, I still have to tell you what is in my heart, I don't want to

To be the second you or her, I don't want to miss this opportunity. I don't dare to say it to your face, I'm afraid of it

I'm afraid of the embarrassment of your refusal, so I can only say to you here: Brother, I like you! When you look

Can you give me a clear answer after this letter? If you don't like me, if you hate me, you can too

Say to me, I won't embarrass you, and I won't blame you for it. I hope that whatever happens between us

Why, I hope we will always be friends.

Li Qing also wrote it himself

After reading Li Qingyi's handwritten letter, He Yan was taken aback, he never dreamed that this beautiful girl would be

I like myself silently. He originally thought that the reason why she was so good to him was really just to listen to him

It's so simple, he didn't expect that there was another thought in her heart, and it was actually the same as what he thought in his own heart

Same. He was now feeling at a loss and didn't know what to do with it. Of course he liked her, of course

Willing to work with her to create a better future, but can he really give her happiness? Now he seems to be standing at a crossroads,

I don't know which direction to go to get to where I want to go. I don't know what to choose

That's right, I don't know how to choose so that I won't regret it.

At night, Hu Min lay on the bed tossing and turning and couldn't sleep. He repeatedly thought about every sentence Han Qingxue wrote in the letter and

Every word. He wanted to say to her: Qingyi, I like you too! But can he say that? Can it really be like

What others say: To love someone, you have to be brave to love, not to be cowering?

Hu Min left on the third day after the night of the letter Li Qingyi sent him. The night before he left

, in order to see him off, they drank a lot, and everyone was drunk unconscious.

The night before He Yan left, Li Qing did not come to him. From the night of the letter that Li Qingyi gave him

, He Yan never went to her again, and he didn't give any reply to her. She may be waiting for his reply

。 But on the day he left, after he got in the car, he saw Li Qingyi standing there motionless from a distance, He Yanxiang looked at her again very clearly, but the car took him away and erased his sight of Li Qingyi. He didn't

There is a look on her face, and certainly not a tear stain on her face.

"Come in a hurry, go in a hurry, gather in a hurry, disperse in a hurry." Life is like this, there are gatherings and scattering

, there are comings and goings. When you get together, live happily every minute; Say respects to each other when they disperse. life

It's like a long journey, and every place you pass through is just a sight. One never will

Stay on just one spot to see the sights. You will meet different people at each attraction, but they will be different from each other

It's a passerby, and there aren't too many topics to talk about, except for a few cold words. As Zhang Ailing said: "To tens of millions of people."

In thousands of years, in the wilderness of time, there is no earlier step, and there is none

One step late, just in time. ”

He Yan silently said sorry to Li Qingyi in his heart, and he could only watch her stand there from a distance without the courage

To call her, he didn't know what else to say except to say sorry to her. He Yan left a letter for her, but

He did not hand it to her, but sent it at the post office. In the letter, he said:

Qingyi, I'm sorry, I can't answer you yet, and I don't dare to face you. I hope you understand me, I hope you don't

Hate me. I can't forget the past, I can't forget her. I'm not sure if I'll be able to give you happiness either

, so I'm not sure if I really love you. Let the time decide! I don't want to be in my own mouth

While saying that he loves you, he is still thinking about another person in his heart. If when I say love, I hope

It is a true love that comes from the heart, rather than loving you as a shadow of a person. Love me like that

Don't want to give. I hope you can give me some time and also give yourself some space so that we can all calm ourselves

Think about it. If, years from now, I'm sure I've forgotten the past, and you're still in love with me, then I'll be

will accept your love, I will love you with all my heart and give you a complete space for love. But now, I'll give

No, so I can't reply to you either, I hope you can understand me. Of course, if you can find it after I'm gone

My true love, I will bless you, I sincerely bless you! You are a good girl and I am sure you will find yourself

Believe in me, and believe in yourself. Let go of your mood to find true love, and you will find yourself

their own love. Bless you forever!

He Yan handwritten

He Yan is gone, he left the place where he lived for more than six years, and the place where he has good memories

He Yan still called his grandparents and said that he had suspended school and wanted to go home to rest

, He Yan was as reluctant as when he left home. He couldn't bear this place where he had lived for six years, and he couldn't bear him

's colleagues, Li Qingyi, who is even more reluctant to love him. Even if there is too much reluctance, he still has to go. After all, since

I don't belong here, and my home doesn't belong here.

On the train, he looked out at the fields that brushed by, and the rape flowers that bloomed on the fields. As if that's wide

Don't be home for two years. For more than ten hours in the car, he didn't say a word, and he couldn't find the person to talk to, he

Just sit quietly like that, sleep on the table when you are tired, wake up and sit again, and so on

survived the difficult more than ten hours.

As the train arrives at the terminal, the doors are opened, and a group of adults and children in dirty, tattered clothes rush to pick up the passengers

The empty bottles left in the car after drinking water in the car, they crowded without any scruples, grabbing them without scruples.

He Yan dragged the heavy suitcase and followed the crowd to the exit, and under the crowd, he was passively pushed

Moving forward. He knew that another two-hour bus ride would be enough to get home. Thinking that I'm about to go home,

His mood was particularly excited.

After two hours, He Yan returned to his home after a six-year absence. When I got home, it was about noon, and it was time to eat

Lunch time. He Yan's parents (Chen Tong and his wife) were surprised the moment they saw him, they didn't expect He Yan to come out suddenly

Now in front of them, before he came back, there was no phone call to Chen Tong. He Yan saw the one standing in front of him

The parents were visibly older, the father had a lot of gray hair on his head, and the mother's hands had become rougher

。 He also saw his little nephew from afar. Although he hasn't seen him for six years, he has grown taller and grown up, but He Yan can still do it

Recognize him, but the little nephew fails to recognize him. He looked at He Yan with a strange and frightened look, though

However, his parents told him that this was his uncle, but he still didn't dare to call or recognize it.

His father helped him with his luggage, his mother cooked for him, his brother was not at home, and his sister-in-law was not at home. The neighbors heard what he said

When he came back, they all came to see him, and of course the first thing he said was to ask him why he came back and didn't he go to school. Only slightly

Shyly said no. Of course they won't believe it,

He felt a little guilty for not being able to help his family change their living circumstances.

The long journey of more than ten hours did not make him feel very tired, on the contrary, he felt exceptionally cheerful and tired

Tiredness has long since disappeared without a trace. After the neighbors left, He Yan sat at home for a while, and he was to his mother

said that he wanted to give birth to his grandparents, He Yan came to the nursing home of his grandparents,

"Grandparents, I'm here to see you, are you okay" Li Guoxiang and his wife were chatting with their peers in the nursing home, and they also came to Li Guoxiang's room to see when they heard that the college students were back, "Yan'er, you are here, sit down, grandma will pour you a glass of water" Saying that, Wang Jingli got up to give He Yan boiling water, but was stopped by He Yan, "Grandma doesn't need it, I'm not thirsty."

Sister Wang This is your college student grandson, really handsome, these old men in the nursing home began to interview He Yan.

"University is not very big"

"Do you have a girlfriend, I heard that college is easy to find a girlfriend"

"How much does it cost to find a job after graduating from college?"

He Yan didn't know how to answer this question that he didn't want to answer. He didn't know why he was there now

When you meet, there is nothing to talk about other than asking those boring questions. Not everyone is been

Money takes possession of the whole mind? Or is he lagging behind and not keeping up with the times? He Yan felt his thoughts

It's really different from most people's thinking, so I can't talk about it at all. In the eyes of some people, except

Aside from money, everything else really doesn't matter to them. As some people say: one person can

With no rights, you can have no status, but absolutely not without money. In their eyes, as long as they have money,

Anything is easy to do. The book says: Money can turn a kind person into a devil and a good person

Become murderous. For the sake of money, some people can give up everything, or they can sell everything, including their loved ones

own soul. In a way, money seems to have come to dominate everything in humanity.