I looked down gloomily, subconsciously took out a cigarette from the cigarette case and put it to my mouth, but when I looked up and breathed, I saw the bluestone road that stretched all the way, I once rode a bicycle to take Li Shi through, at the end of it there is an entertainment machine to catch dolls, and there are delicious foods hidden in the alley, and from now on, this road will carry my most beautiful memories......

At this moment, it was not only me who was torn out of the nerves, but also Yang Xuejun, who was watching us in the business car not far away, but he looked calm in the car, and he didn't even come down to say a few words to Li Shi, as if he was just here to say a final goodbye, she respected Li Shi......

"What time is the ticket?" Have you decided on your route and itinerary? ”

"Well, it's been decided, I'll fly to Beijing tonight, go see Mengmeng and Xiaobao first, and say goodbye to my uncles and aunts by the way, and depart from Beijing tomorrow morning."

"Why don't I go to Beijing with you!"

"No need, say goodbye as soon as possible, the farther you send it, the more sad it will be."

"If you're sad, don't go."

"Impossible."

After Li Shi said this, he seemed to have lost the desire to stay any longer, turned around and walked along the riverbank, I lit a cigarette, lay on the guardrail, remembered the rights and wrongs of these years, I suddenly felt tired, but suddenly remembered something, and shouted at Li Shi's back: "Can I make another lunch for you?" ”

Li Shi, who was wearing a floral dress, suddenly stopped, turned around when the wind lifted the hem of her skirt, and nodded with a smile on her face, which was considered to be an agreement.

When I was a child, I remember that every time someone travels far away, my family will cook a delicious meal as a farewell before leaving.

I went to the nearby grocery store to buy some ingredients, and then distracted myself by cooking, maybe one day, Li Shi missed my food, and would come back to see me, even if it was thousands of miles home, it was also with thoughts.

With such fantasies and anticipation, I once again tried to make it easy for myself, plunged headlong into the kitchen, rolled up my sleeves, and began to sort the ingredients and process them separately.

There are actually a lot of specialties in Xi'an, but I finally decided to make a gourd chicken for Li Shi, which is a traditional dish in Xi'an. The traditional selection of gourd chicken is the "Wa Wei" chicken from Sanyao Village in the south of Xi'an.

This kind of chicken is raised for a year, the net weight is about one kilogram, and the meat is fresh and tender. When making, it goes through three basic processes, namely boiling first, steaming in the basket, and then frying.

The more time-consuming the dish, the more willing I was to do it, and even selfishly thought that Li Shi would be able to stay for an extra night if she missed this meal.

In an orderly process, I put the boiled chicken in a basin, add soy sauce, refined salt, green onion and ginger, star anise, cinnamon, cooking wine, and add some broth, and steam it in the basket. The frying technology is strict, the vegetable oil is eight mature, put the whole chicken into the oil pot, gently pluck it with a hand spoon, fry it for about half a minute, until the chicken becomes golden brown, immediately take it out with an iron fence and pour it clean, and then put it on the table, with a plate of pepper and salt to accompany the food.

Soon the aroma of the cooking oil began to fill our room, and at this time, Li Shi, who had returned, asked at the door: "Okay, I still have to go to the coffee shop and chat with Nian Ge for a while, one dish is enough!" ”

I repeated "It's almost fast" in my mouth, but my hands accelerated, maybe my cooking skills have been rusty, and I was a little in a hurry, and I couldn't find the rhythm and calmness of cooking before, and now I don't want Li Shi to make a mistake, but I am more afraid that she will give up this meal because of time problems.

When I thought of eating, I still wanted to talk to Li Shi, so I didn't dare to delay any longer, so I quickly fried two seasonal vegetables and started the meal.

……

At the dinner table, Li Shi, who has always loved to eat my cooking, still has a good appetite, she spoke highly of my gourd chicken, and sighed: "After coming to Xi'an for a few months, I knew that there was this dish for the first time, the first and last meal." ”

I originally prepared a lot of words, but by her such a sad sentence, I was disrupted all the rhythm, and the strong smile that had been brewing for a long time failed to "act", I also tasted the gourd chicken, maybe the heat was not mastered well, although the intentions, the taste that can be made is not as good as before, too, some things are not done with all their strength to be perfect......

Such a perfect day, but there are too many regrets, but when is life not composed of regrets, so think about it, I am so simple, why do I care about the world, those annoying life and death parting?

As if the time was set, Li Shi ate for twenty minutes, raised her hand to look at her watch, and said, "It's almost time, I have to go to the coffee shop now, thank you for this meal, I like it very much." ”

"Can I drive you to the airport?"

"I've already asked Lin Ke to take me to the airport, but you can go to the coffee shop with me now."

I nodded, I didn't have time to clean up the dishes and chopsticks, so I took the key to reverse the car, only a moment, Li Shi dragged the suitcase out of the hostel, she said goodbye to the clerk one by one, and then put the luggage next to the car, and opened the trunk door.

To my surprise, she still used the box that I had dropped at the door before, although there were scratches on the surface, it did not affect the use, and those smiling dolls added a lot of fun, and I never felt as disgusted as I did the first time I saw it.

Li Shi, who was standing in front of the door, suddenly reminded me of when she first came three months ago, she was domineering and rational......

At the moment, in the sun, she is wearing sunglasses, I can't see her expression, I just see some eyes looking at her, her posture and countenance, always able to attract the attention of some strangers.

I subconsciously wanted to take the suitcase in her hand, but she opened her arms and asked me for a hug......

With nervous breathing, I watched Li Shi leave his embrace, and said with a final request: "Can you take off your sunglasses and let me see them?" ”

Li Shi nodded, motioning for me to take it off for her, I tried it, and was about to reach out, but found that the crystal liquid slowly slipped down from her nose, and the hand she just stretched out retracted like an electric shock, and she said with palpitations: "Get in the car!" ”

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In the car to the "Yijian" coffee shop, Li Shi sat in the back seat, she looked out the window of the car, perhaps because the familiar scenery was too boring, and after a moment she was a little tired, leaning on the saddle, as if asleep......

After arriving at the coffee shop, she seemed to have made an appointment with Song Niange in advance, and after the two of them exchanged pleasantries for a while, they held hands and entered the store.

Lin Ke, who had been waiting in the coffee shop for a long time, sang a dull ballad on the stage, and after being glared at by me a few times, he changed to a cheerful style, but how could the mood be controlled by a cheerful song, and the more I listened to it, the more sad I became.

Li Shi seems to have a lot of things to explain to Song Niange, she narrates in an orderly manner, but I don't know what they are talking about, I hope she will leave me this last little time......

In the dreary, I walked to the stage and took the guitar from Lin Ke's hand, but I didn't have any intention of grandstanding, I just wanted to quietly give Li Shi a piece of music as the background music when they talked.

After searching for songs in my mind for a long time, I finally thought of a song "Actually", and after reading the lyrics a few times, I sang while playing the guitar sheet searched on my mobile phone: "...... We walked for a long time that day and didn't quarrel, don't say it's sad when you separate, if you laugh at it, it's better to let you choose the life you want, after separation, I will smile and say, when a friend asks you about me, I will understate as if I haven't loved, in fact, I don't have anyone to say, in fact, I can't live without you, in fact, I give you more love than you think......"

While I was singing, Li Shi suddenly stopped talking, and she looked at me intently, listening to my song, so that I was distracted and misread the words, and I didn't even sing the song well.

Time seemed to be slow, but it passed quickly, and I kept singing, hoping that her gaze would stay on me for a few more moments, but Li Shi finally withdrew her gaze, and then got up and picked up the handbag.

When she was about to leave, she looked at the creeper from the angle where she usually sits, and then said for a long time: "Yu Hang, I'm leaving, goodbye!" ”

My thinking seemed to have stagnated, and I couldn't bear the impact of this "goodbye" on me, so I looked at Li Shi like this, and shook my head slowly for a long time, "Do you want to leave now?" ”

"It's not too early, take care, run the hostel well, make friends in the store, and sing your favorite songs......"

I had a sour nose and couldn't help but ask, "Will you come back?" ”

"I don't know."

"Promise me, if you can come back, you must forget all the unpleasantness before today, be a happy self, find your pride, your arrogance, your fearlessness, I prefer to see you carefree than you who are sad now."

"Okay, I promise you!"

I was about to say something, but Li Shi made a shushing gesture to me, then turned her back and motioned for Lin Ke to hurry away.

……

In a hurry, Li Shi finally got into the car in the twilight, she rolled down the window, looked at everyone who saw her, then waved her hand to the crowd, and finally drove in the direction of the wind from the edge of the city to the airport.

My heart is empty, I don't dare to look at the speeding cars in front of me, because I can't find Li Shi's car, Lin Ke understands me very well, he knows that the slower the car drives, the longer the car drags on in my sight, the more sad I am, at this moment, I can't see the direction clearly, I can't understand the time, and I'm not sure if the final relationship between people will end up so sad......

In fact, autumn has come, and the wind blowing on the body is not hot, but only blows down the yellow sun on the horizon, bringing boundless loneliness and desolation to those who have left them......

I raised my head, swallowed my saliva, did not move forward, did not go backwards, stood in place for a long time, and muttered the song again: "Don't say that you are sad when you are separated, if you laugh at it, it is better to let you choose the life you want, after separation, I will smile and say, when a friend asks you about me, I will understate as if I have never loved, in fact, I have no one to say, in fact, I can't live without you, in fact, I give you more love than you think......"

Song Niange comforted me softly on the side, and I smiled bitterly until I noticed another anxious figure walking towards me, we took a look at each other, and he asked me with a painful and extremely nervous expression, "Li Shi is gone?" ”

I sat back on the bench, pressed my forehead with both hands, looked at the fat man in front of me, who wanted to cry without tears, and said, "As you wish, she is gone!" ”

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I recorded this song "Actually", and I wanted to listen to it into the group 264684194, and I have been feeling a little emotional recently, and some of the things I want to say have been written at the top of the book review area!