[Ginger flowers always appear with summer]

In the second year after his parents' divorce, Lu Ye began to walk with his head down, like an ostrich that would never raise his head again. That day, she bought a bouquet of ginger flowers from a flower seller. A bouquet for a dollar. A bouquet of 4 flowers, she bought a 5 yuan one, and happily walked down the street with a bouquet. The streets are clean, the air is clean and the hearts are clean. The girl with a large bouquet of flowers, whether it is roses or ginger flowers, should have a story to tell, or something to come.

She threw her head up, and suddenly she saw a clear blue sky, and a pink balloon that I don't know who had dropped, hanging on the top of a tree.

Then she stopped at an open-air basketball court. She saw a boy in a straw-colored suit playing basketball.

She stood there and watched for a long time. This boy only came to their class yesterday, his name is Qin Shang, and when he introduced himself, she sat in her seat and looked at him quietly. He turned around and wrote his name on the blackboard. The name was written into her heart one by one.

He ran over and spoke to her through the barbed wire. She didn't dare look him in the eye, but by feeling, she knew he was smiling.

Those conversations were all tedious questions, such as the name of the class leader and the temper of the teacher. She kept her head down. Finally, she pulled one out of the bouquet of ginger flowers, carefully stuffed it through the mesh of the wire, and said timidly, Give it to you.

She inadvertently raised her head, and saw those eyes, mixed with a hint of ginger blossom fragrance in the summer air, and suddenly pushed the door in her heart open.

[Is it unqualified or not courageous]

The day before her birthday, Qin Shang stuffed a small object into her school bag, which she saw outside the window.

At that moment, her face was slightly flushed. She pretended to peel the green moss that grew from the window, but her heart was about to jump in shock.

When she was out of school, she happened to hear a girl talking about Qin Shang. His family is very wealthy, his family is happy, his father is a political dignitary, and his mother is from a scholarly family.

At that time, her heart sank a little. She thought of her divorced parents, and buried her head like an ostrich.

What Qin Shang gave her was a small sachet, and when she opened it carefully, she saw that it was full of stars folded from paper. It smells of flowers on paper.

She spread out the stars. So she saw what was written inside.

After reading it, she smiled. After laughing, I was a little worried. In the end, she quietly returned the sachet to him, which read: Maybe I don't deserve to be in love. After all, we're all very young.

The next day, Qin Shang stopped her at the door of her house. He was stubborn about giving her a birthday present, and she wouldn't ask for anything, so the two of them pushed and shoved until her mother coughed softly upstairs.

She was startled and quickly ran upstairs. When she went up the stairs, she waved to him and said, "You go quickly, go quickly, we are still friends." Qin Shang stubbornly refused to leave, and finally said: Do you think I won't wait for you? Her steps up the stairs slowed slightly. At that moment, she was a little shaken.

But she was a precocious child, and she learned too early that there was no point in having it in an instant. At that time, she understood that the gap between Qin Shang and herself was insurmountable.

[Do you think I won't wait for you?] ］

When filling in the college entrance examination, Qin Shang filled in the school in the same city as her. Her grades are excellent, but Qin Shang's grades are average. She picked and chose among the key schools, and he stubbornly filled in the three books and junior colleges to fill in the same city as her. Everyone could see that he liked her, but she had to pretend that she didn't know anything, and after the college entrance examination results came down, her results surprised everyone. Her mother always felt that her divorce affected her.

She went to a far city to study three books, and the school that Qin Shang was admitted to was very different. On the day of departure, Qin Shang called her name downstairs at her house, but she didn't go down.

When she left, she was walking through another door. Seeing Qin Shang's back from a distance, her tears rolled down.

She began to feel that her fate was irreversible, always desolate, always sad.

In college, she was even more inferior, even a little autistic. She doesn't like to go out of the dormitory building, and she doesn't even want to walk around the campus on a regular basis. Everyone is very strange about this girl, always thinking that she has a full heart, but she is unwilling to talk about it, like a toy with sadness written on her face, which always exists, but I don't know why it is made so sad.

She was brushing her teeth that day when she was foaming at the mouth when she heard the phone ring.

There was no one in the dormitory, and they all went out. So she hurriedly ran to answer the phone and heard Qin Shang's voice.

Tears fell from the ground.

Qin Shang asked her, why did you avoid me after the college entrance examination? She didn't answer, she just kept crying.

Qin Shang said again, I asked a lot of classmates before I asked for your phone number. I said I was going to wait for you, do you think I won't?

She wanted to say something, but when the words came to her lips, she was suppressed alive. She had been listening to him, babbling about his life in college, the girls in his class, the boys in his dorm.

She listened quietly, just as she had sat down and listened quietly when he had introduced himself to himself on the first day.

Qin Shang called her every day, and he told her about what was happening around him. Every time the call ended, he waited a few seconds. She knew what he was waiting for, but she didn't dare to say it, she didn't dare to bear it, she didn't want to let him know the truth.

It's like being in a masquerade, the other party has already stretched out his hand, but he refuses to take it.

[Ginger flowers are old in this summer]

Qin Shang still called her.

Later, Qin Shang told her about a girl in her class. He said, "You know what? She was fat, and the boys in the class often guessed her weight. She should go to lose weight, it's really ugly to be too fat.

Her heart suddenly froze, and she didn't speak again.

Qin Shang still called her.

But she didn't take it anymore. Her roommates occasionally helped her pick her up, so she hid away and gestured to them, asking them to tell Qin Shang that she was not there.

It didn't take long for Qin Shang to disappear from her contact book.

At the masquerade dance, the hand that stretched out was finally tired. No matter how sure you are, there is still a tiring day.

After Qin Shang disappeared, she bought ginger flowers from a flower seller. She walked back to school with a large bouquet of flowers, and people on the road looked sideways. When she returned, she put the flowers in a few bottles, and the whole room was filled with the fragrance of ginger flowers.

In the past four years, every summer, she would buy flowers to plant in the dormitory.

After graduation, she did not go back. She got a job in a private business and was a small accountant. When she was on the computer, she had access to the Internet, and then she entered the high school class.

She contacted most of her former classmates, but she didn't contact Qin Shang.

She heard from them that Qin Shang was about to get married, and his fiancée was a well-informed woman.

It's another summer, long, muggy, and lonely.

After dark, she got off work. When she passed by a clothing store, she stopped for a long time, looked at the straw-colored dress inside, and looked at it wistfully. The color reminded her of a person. Remembering that summer, she had been avoiding him, not because she didn't get into the ideal school, nor because she didn't like him.

It was because she was sick, and during a summer of hormone therapy, she suddenly gained weight. So fat that he can't even move.

She has always been inferior, sensitive, and vulnerable. She understood early on that the best state of love is to live alone. Just like the flower language of ginger flowers, the memory will always be left in the summer.

In this way, you can grow old forever. Forever and forever left in the memories of the two people's youth, full of future lives.