After the question was asked, I became uncontrollably nervous, compared to my restlessness, Li Shi was speechless for a long time, but this silence was also an answer for me, and I suddenly felt a sense of suffocation that I could not restrain myself, and she was already iron-hearted.

I tore open another can of beer, drank half a bottle in one sip before stopping, and asked Li Shi: "Putting aside personal prejudices, do you think that if you run it well, will the hostel have a future?" ”

Li Shi was silent for a long time, and then shook her head, but did not explain why she couldn't see the future, and in fact she didn't need to express her position, if she said that she could see the future, she would really see a ghost.

I closed my eyes and drank the remaining beer in the bottle as if venting, in fact, I didn't know that Li Shi also had difficulties, but in such a situation, I could only choose to be unreasonable, because I really didn't know what kind of attitude to take to face this real and cruel life.

The gushing liquor flowed into my stomach continuously, and I once again experienced the pleasure of alcohol in the depression, and temporarily forgot all the troubles and unhappiness in reality.

Li Shi snatched the can from my hand, but found that it was empty, so she flattened the can and said to me with a calm face, "Can you drink less?" ”

"This beer didn't cost you money, it's my business how much I'm willing to drink, sir." As I spoke, I tore open another can of beer, and then took a sip of it, and the overflowing liquor flowed down the Adam's apple into my chest, and this sudden coldness gave me a desire to break free from life. Hope.

Li Shi held down my beer can and said to me with a serious face: "If you continue like this, I will feel that you are hopeless." ”

I was a little surprised, and subconsciously confirmed to Li Shi: "Why do you casually make conclusions to others, who do you think you are?" I think you are no different from people like Shen Hao now, what is wrong with me getting in the way of drinking alcohol, I don't even have the right to get drunk, you are too good at squeezing people, right? ”

"I just think you're bad at drinking, and you'll go crazy when you're drunk."

"Speaking of which, you're still planning for yourself, this man ......"

After a brief silence, I picked up the beer bottle and drank it again, as if I was now very dependent on the pleasure of indulgence, for I had never wanted to get drunk so much......

……

As time passed, a candle came to the end of its life and melted at the bottom of the cup, Li Shi took out a candle from the bag and lit it, protected the candle flame with her hand, walked outside the house, and waited until she retrieved her phone, and put the candle on the table, I couldn't figure it out, the street lamp outside was enough for her to walk to the parking place safely, why did she light a candle?

Thinking about human thinking is the most difficult puzzle in the world, and what is unbelievable is not logic, but human heart.

After Li Shi left, I was the only one left in the hall where the candles were extinguished, and I gradually calmed down in the darkness, and then thought back to the life I had walked, but I couldn't remember when I was dominated by life, stumbling all the way, running in the desert with no end in sight, until I was exhausted and didn't dare to stay......

Turning on the flash of my phone, I fumbled and locked the door of the store, then lay down on the sofa, exhaled the sulk in my heart, took out Qu Sen's business card from my pocket, and with the light of my phone, I squinted and sent him a message, so that he could save my number as well.

Qu Sen is a very good friend of mine in college, and he often "invests" in my band, and then sells tickets to performances on campus, but he often loses in the end, and there are too many ticket evaders, but it is amazing that our relationship is maintained until I graduate from college.

Since graduating from college, they have been busy with reality and rarely contacted, but now they have a new state of mind, but they suddenly remember the old days...... At that time, I was invincible in youth, and I formed a band called "Gray and White", and the relationship cultivated together was really rare, but it is undeniable that the ups and downs experienced in it are also a very valuable memory in the whole university......

Thinking about it, I got tired, and between half sleeping, those glittering fragments left in the long river of time, as if carried to me by a gust of wind, like a wave, I reached out to fish, sat on the ground and slowly pieced together, as I gradually lost consciousness, the picture of memories completely unfolded in my mind.

……

The next morning, I was woken up by the ringing of the phone in a drowsy state, and I slept on the couch with a sore body. The bell rang non-stop, and I was forced to helplessly, I sat up and fumbled to pick up the phone, I didn't even look at the caller ID, and connected the phone while moving my neck.

A familiar voice came from the other end of the phone: "Yu Hang, I didn't talk well last night, are you free at noon?" ”

I scratched my hair, subconsciously looked at my watch again, and then said: "It's almost eleven o'clock, I still have to clean up, contact the people from the power supply bureau, come over to repair the circuit, and look for you when I'm done!" ”

Qu Sen immediately responded that I was busy first, and made an appointment to meet him at the nearby "Laiyue Coffee Shop" at one o'clock in the afternoon.

After beating my head vigorously, I suddenly remembered what happened last night, and looked at the table that had been cleaned up, and then realized that Li Shi should have been up for a long time, but she didn't seem to be in the store, in order to confirm this idea, I quickly went to the door of the store to look, and her car was really not there.

Her heart is quite big, so dare to let go?

……

At noon, I found someone to come over to fix the circuit, take a shower, and then go to the "Laiyue Coffee Shop" that Qu Sen had made an appointment with, and after arriving for a while, Qu Sen hurriedly walked in from outside the store with his handbag.

I looked at him a little puzzled and asked, "It's so hot, why did you come here on foot?" ”

He smiled and said to me, "I bought something nearby, and the car didn't come with me." ”

Before I sat down, Qu Sen thought that the position I had chosen was a little uncomfortable, and motioned for me to follow him, and while walking, he took me to the private room, and then motioned for me to sit down.

"Jiang Laiyue?"

The intellectual woman in front of me, who was dressed luxuriously and drinking coffee elegantly, made me lose my voice.

Jiang Laiyue put down the coffee cup, with a contemptuous temperament, looked at me helplessly, and said: "I am used to being called by Mr. Jiang and Mr. Jiang, and I almost forgot what my name is, I will forgive you for your impolite behavior this time, after all, there should not be too many opportunities for you to call me by my name." ”

While speaking, Qu Sen, who was respectful on the side, turned his face and asked me if I was drinking the usual instant coffee or freshly ground coffee, I directly refused his behavior of ordering coffee for me, and sat down and said calmly: "Mr. Jiang, we don't have much intersection, you are usually so busy, why do you have time to find a small role like me?" ”

Jiang Laiyue leaned on the sofa elegantly in a comfortable posture, kneading her temples and said: "As far as the current situation in the industry is concerned, Laiyue Travel Agency should meet all your fantasies about material requirements, right?" ”

After the point was over, she didn't continue, but I vaguely understood some of the reasons, but still asked in disbelief: "Mr. Jiang came here today, won't he come to dig me?" ”

Jiang Laiyue was quite surprised, and subconsciously sighed: "Deliberately...... You say yes, even if it is! ”

Her attitude made me a little speechless, but I also vaguely understood the purpose of coming, so I said bluntly and frankly: "No matter what Mr. Jiang's purpose is, I think I may say sorry, I am very good in "Youtu", and I have no other ideas. ”

"Uh, really?"

Jiang Laiyue stood up, looked at me out of the corner of his eye, with an inscrutable smile on the corner of his mouth, but ignored me, and then walked outside the coffee shop with great momentum, threw his handbag into the car, started the red Porsche 911, and followed the traffic towards the crowded road.

The sunlight reflected on my body through the huge glass, which made people feel comfortable, but I was not happy at all, I turned around and said to Qu Sen helplessly: "Qu Sen, please don't make this kind of proposition for me in the future, you can find out what kind of coffee I drink, you can talk to me about anything, but don't give me this kind of stimulation, okay?" ”

"Yu Hang, I'm not doing this for your good, who doesn't want to go to a high place, besides, you are in a difficult time...... Hey......"

I walked out of the café quickly, I didn't want to listen to Qu Sen's nagging, this uneasy bad friend, it's not that I don't understand his good intentions, it's not that I really don't want this sudden opportunity, it's just because there is still an obsession in my heart that is difficult to let go, to protect the hostel.

……

I took a tired taxi back to the vicinity of the hostel, in order to save a few dollars, I chose to walk, boring, passing by the door of a store, I took a closer look at the glass door of my own figure, this should be a refreshed afternoon, but the face is so haggard and tired under the scorching sun.

We are all just a tiny individual among the glitzy beings, and in the midst of the surging desires and the heavy chaos of life, we have to learn to manage our dreams in addition to coping with the things that may happen at any time in our lives. Sometimes, an expectation, even too small to be worth mentioning, can lift you up when you want to give up.

Thirsty, I went to the store to buy a bottle of water, while drinking while walking step by step, close to the hostel and 20 meters, but the more and more heavy the walk, the scene on the other side of the road made me a little suffocated, a little out of control, stunned for a few seconds, subconsciously threw away the mineral water bottle in his hand, and began to run madly towards the youth hostel......

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Encourage all readers!!

When you are tired of chasing your dreams, please don't give up lightly, remember: it is not the reality that supports your dreams, but the dreams that support your reality! Growth always comes so fast, and old age comes so fast. It's good to express your thoughts about your past self once in a while, use the identity of an outsider, ridicule or pity, ease or pain, and finally don't forget, shake hands with life, shake hands with suffering.

Tribulation is a lie detector, time is an alchemist, there is no need to drag the person who does not leave in his heart, and there is no need to embarrass himself at any time. Because you, the unique you, are already the greatest capital and wealth in your life.