He Yan did not take Li Qingyi to his residence, but let Xue'er take her home. Before coming, what a word

explained to Xue'er and told her not to tell Li Qingyi about her affairs, he didn't want to know more about his condition

, especially Li Qingyi. When she saw Li Qingyi, Xue'er had a smile on her face, but she was crying in her heart. This should

What is it like? Perhaps only those who have actually tried it will appreciate the feeling. But there are people

But he said: "The most valuable thing in life is not the beauty of life, but the bitterness of life." ”

After Xue'er settled Li Qingyi, she sent He Yan back. After knowing He Yan's condition, she was no longer at ease

He walked alone. When she sent He Yan to the place where he lived, she also followed He Yan in. She turned it off casually

When he came to the door, he suddenly hugged He Yan gently from behind and put his face on his back.

"Promise me to go to the hospital tomorrow, okay? I don't want you to leave us, she and I can't bear to let you go, you

Gotta live well. Cher choked up.

"Well, I promise you, I want to live well. I also promised you to go to the hospital, but not tomorrow, but waiting for her to go

After. He Yan said softly.

"Why? Are you going to hide it from her like this? Never tell her? Xue'er asked He Yan in confusion

。 "What would she think if she knew you were hiding something from her?"

"Actually, I shouldn't have told you. The reason why I don't want her to know is because I'm afraid that she will worry and bear it

No. She's still young, she hasn't experienced pain yet, and I don't want her to be in pain. "r /> Xue'er doesn't say anything anymore, she can understand He Yan's feelings." After she leaves, you must be hospitalized. ”

He Yan said to Han Jie worriedly: "But I don't have that much money to be hospitalized. ”

"You don't have to worry about this, the relevant leaders of the hospital have promised to treat you for free." Cher said.

"Free? Why are they so good to treat me for free? He Yan asked her in disbelief.

"I don't know about that. Just hear from them that your condition is something special, and they want to study it on you

If the treatment plan for this type of disease is successful, it will be good for you and their hospital as well as for future patients with the same disease

All are good. Cher said.

"I thought the hospital wasn't that good now. It's so nice, but it's actually for themselves. ”

He Yan said.

Xue'er didn't answer He Yan's words, and she didn't dare to look at He Yan. Afraid that he would see through her lies.

Of course, He Yan didn't know that the reason why the hospital was willing to treat him "for free" was not to study him as Xue'er said

condition. Those reasons are just made up by Cher. But Han Jie didn't tell He Yan that she was temporary

I don't want him to know yet.

There is no such thing as a free lunch, and certainly no hospital can serve an ordinary person with no reputation or dedication

Treatment conditions are provided free of charge. Especially in this real society, it is even more impossible to have that kind of pure charity medical treatment

Institution.

On the third day after Li Qingyi came, He Yan deliberately murdered her and scolded her because of a trivial matter. He said to Li Qingyi

I hate it when I see her, and I want her to leave immediately. The main reason why he did that was to provoke her. Sure enough, Li Qing couldn't stand He Yan's cruelty to her, she was angry and said that she would go back to Wuhan immediately, and never come to He Yan again. What a word

The purpose was achieved, but Xue'er on the side didn't say a word, she knew the reason why He Yan did this, so

She didn't persuade Li Qingyi to stay. Xue'er knew that only by letting Li Qingyi leave as soon as possible would He Yan be admitted to the hospital,

Being admitted to the hospital a day earlier gave him an extra chance to survive.

In the afternoon, Xue'er sent Li Qingyi to the long-distance station to take the train. He Yan didn't go to see her off, he hid in him alone

Tears fell silently in that room.

Li Qing also told Han Jie on the way to let her take care of He Yan, saying that he would not take care of himself. She also said in He Yan's heart

, in fact, he will always love Cher alone. What Li Qingyi said to Xue'er was what she said after she came back

Said. After He Yan heard this, he was silent. There was no expression on his face.

The day after Li Qingyi left, accompanied by Xue'er, He Yan was admitted to the hospital. The hospital is really special to him

He was placed alone in a ward with a good environment, with the best medicines and the best quality

Serve. In short, everything is the best. He Yan felt that the hospital should be good to him, because they also wanted to follow

He has developed new treatment options. It was to raise the profile of his hospital. So Hu Heyan didn't ask the doctor why he was hospitalized for free. After he moved in, he didn't say anything, he didn't ask anything

。 He did what the doctors and nurses asked him to do, like a very obedient child.

When He Yan was admitted to the hospital, Xue'er asked him again if he wanted to tell his family. He Yan still said resolutely

No. Xue'er didn't say anything anymore, and of course she didn't want He Yan's family to watch them suffer after learning that he was sick.

She wanted to take care of He Yan alone and take on this heavy responsibility alone. It's a reward for him!

At Xue'er's request, the hospital installed a single bed for her in He Yan's ward, so that she could take photos conveniently

Gu He Yan.

The hospital is a hell on earth for He Yan. In addition to injections and chemotherapy, you have to take a lot of medicine every day

to control the deterioration of the condition. Drugs are absolutely guaranteed in quality and quantity. Every time he was about to lose the pain

When he was in pain, Cher was constantly comforting him and encouraging him.

He Yan stayed in the hospital for more than a week, and although the doctor controlled the further deterioration of He Yan's condition, it was not for

His recovery did not help at all, and his condition did not improve at all.

On the morning of the fifteenth day of He Yan's admission to the hospital, the doctor called Xue'er, who was feeding Hu Min, out of the ward

Sheng muttered something to Xue'er very softly, but he didn't hear a word clearly. After the doctor left, Cher walked into the hospital room

When He Yan asked her what the doctor said to her, Xue'er smiled and said nothing, just told me not to feed you

Eat too much to avoid bloating. He Yan believed that it was true, and he didn't ask more. After feeding He Yan what he ate, Xue'er told He Yan that she had something to do and might not be able to come over in the afternoon. He Yan asked her what she was doing, and she only said

Something. After Xue'er left, the hospital sent a nurse to take care of He Yan.

He Yan didn't notice the change in Xue'er's face. Her eyes were red as she left.

It was past seven o'clock in the evening, and Cher still didn't come. He Yan asked the nurse who took care of him why Han Jie went, and the nurse said

I don't know. He Yan didn't ask any more. That night, Cher didn't come to the hospital.

A nurse was changed to take care of him at night. Didn't come the next day and didn't come to the hospital until the afternoon of the third day. at

After she came, He Yan asked her where she went, why she went, and why didn't she come for so long? Cher said with a smile still on her face

It's nothing, saying that I'm a little tired these days, and I'm going back to sleep. Hearing Xue'er say that she was tired, He Yan felt very guilty,

So he said to Xue'er that if you are tired, go back and rest, anyway, there are nurses in the hospital to take care of you. Cher said no

Now, it's good to rest for a few days.

On the twentieth day after He Yan was admitted to the hospital, his condition was no longer under the control of the medication, and his condition deteriorated rapidly. doctor

After checking on him, he shook his head helplessly. Cher is then called out of the room, and the doctor takes Cher to him

The office went. He Yan got up from the bed with force, then put on his shoes and quietly followed them. In the doctor

Outside the office door, He Yan overheard the conversation between the doctor and Cher. Although they speak in a small voice, though

He couldn't see the expressions on their faces, but he heard every word they said very clearly.

Doctor: "Today we did a full examination for him again and found that his condition is no longer under the control of the medication

, the medicine that should be used in the hospital has been used, and now that it has reached this point, we don't want to, but we have tried our best

, you better prepare for him! ”

Cher: "Please, doctor, think of a way again!" I'll pay for the hospitalization, I've already sold the house

Now, I have some money now, as long as your hospital is willing to treat him, I am willing to spend as much money as possible, if money

Not enough, I'll try to find a way again, but I beg you to save him. ”

Cher's voice was already crying, and she was a little emotional.

Doctor: "Miss Han, I can understand your feelings,......

When He Yan heard her say that she had sold the house, he felt very uncomfortable, as if he had been cut by a knife. It turned out that she was

The fact that the hospital was willing to treat him for free in order to study his condition is all fake and all lies. he

All she had to pay for in the hospital was her money, and she sold her only possessions. He didn't expect Cher to be

Saving him, she ruined his family, and after spending all her money, she still couldn't save his life. He has

I can't take it anymore. He dragged his tired body back to the hospital room, he didn't want to see Cher when she came out

Eavesdropping on their conversations, he has to pretend he doesn't know anything.

Xue'er's eyes were red when she returned to the ward, and she couldn't say a word when she saw He Yan. He Yan saw her injuries

The way his heart looks, he doesn't feel good in his heart. When she returned to the ward, He Yan smiled and said to Xue'er that she wanted to eat

Order something. Xue'er saw that he was happy, so she had to pretend to smile and ask him what he wanted to eat

Eat fruit. So Cher went to peel an apple for him. She wept silently as she peeled the apple. What a reason

I asked her why she was crying? She said she didn't cry, saying that her eyes hurt a little, so she couldn't help but want to drop them. Of course she didn't

Dao He Yan had already heard the conversation between her and the doctor, and of course knew that she didn't really have eye pain, but for

He wept.

He Yan left on the twenty-first day after he was admitted to the hospital, and there was still half a year before his twenty-first birthday. He goes

It was calm and showed little pain. From the time he was admitted to the hospital to the last moment, he didn't

Jean Cher tells his parents, and he tells Cher that he doesn't want to see her parents sad. In the last few days, Cher has been by his side without leaving an inch.

When He Yan left, Xue'er didn't cry, her tears had dried up. In moving He Yan's body to the hospital's morgue

Later, Cher finds five unsealed letters under his pillow. One of them was reserved for her, while the other three,

One is for Li Qingyi, one is for his godparents, and one is for his grandparents.

Xue'er opened the letter He Yan left for her, and the words were written crookedly on the paper:

Cher, I'm leaving, I hope you don't feel bad. Thank you! Before you give so much for me, for me make you a few

I feel guilty for giving everything you have, and I can't repay it. In addition to saying thank you to you, I

I don't know what else to do.

Don't wonder how I would have known what you're silently doing for me. I just eavesdropped on your conversation. Right now

, You even sold the house for me, and you have no money, what will you do in the future alone? You really don't

It should be so much for me!

Xiaojie, there is something I really want to tell you in person, but I dare not say it.

Do you know? It was only after I learned that you had moved that I realized that you already had an irreplaceable place in my heart.

。 Although I hated you and why your family moved, now, I don't resent anymore, I really don't resent anyone anymore

Finish. And, until the last moment of my life, I finally understood that in my heart, you and Li Qing are the same

I can't choose between the importance of waiting. Please forgive me for not being able to have feelings for you from beginning to end, please forgive me for being in mine

There is also the existence of Li Qingyi in his heart. I can't lie to you. When I felt sad and sad, it was Li Qingyi who accompanied me through that bitter journey, and with her company, I had a period of happiness

of life.

I've figured it out, and I've seen it all. Our life is like a journey, just for each person

The time and place of the journey are different. Although my journey was short, I saw what I wanted

Something, I've met a lot of things that make me happy, and I've met a lot of people who care about me. I don't feel it

Regrets, I hope you don't feel regrets either.

One more thing, I'd like to ask you for your help. I hope you can help me finish my unfinished "Live with a Smile", that

It was my wish in this life, but unfortunately I could not fulfill it.

Mark my words, don't be sad, don't cry. Face life bravely and face life with a smile.

What a pen

×, ×, ××

The date of payment was the twentieth day of He Yan's hospitalization, and the handwriting in the letter was a little sloppy. When Cher saw the back, she burst into tears

Stopped eyes. When she insisted on reading the last word, she couldn't hold back her crying out loud anymore.

Xue'er called his parents the morning after He Yan left. Wang Jianqiu learned that He Yan had been eternal

Far away from the news of the fainting. All the friends who knew He Yan after learning of his death

, all shocked and regretful.

After finishing He Yan's funeral, Cher handed over the letter He Yan had left for his parents and his brother.

Mom and Dad:

When you read this letter, I was no longer alive. Promise me not to be sad for me. Please forgive me

I can't see you one last time, it's not that I don't want to see you, it's that I'm afraid to see you sad for me

Appearance.

In the past 12 years, for my illness, you have been running too much and paying too much, how can I pay it back, my parents please help me take care of my grandparents, because I have no chance to repay you, and I hope it will be your biological son in the next life.

Mom and Dad, I'm a little tired and I want to take a break. Take care of yourself and don't get too tired.

Love your words

×, ×, ××

Grandparents When you read this letter, Yan'er has already left, thank you, give Yan'er countless lives, come to Yan'er, hope to be your grandson again, goodbye grandparents

Words are unpretentious

×, ×, ××

Goodbye, love, and love you again in the next life.

Xue'er walked alone on the street where she had walked with He Yan, looking for Hu in the vast sea of people

Min's shadow, looking for the path he had walked......