One morning a few days later, He Yan went to the hospital again. The results of the examination came back and he was identified as having "leukemia."

The Father of Sickness". The cause of this condition has not yet been determined by doctors. The old doctor

Told He Yan that his condition was still deteriorating and advised him to be hospitalized immediately for treatment, if not as soon as possible

Hospitalized, it is likely that something will happen. The doctor didn't say anything directly, of course He Yan knew about the so-called accident,

In fact, it is death. Although he had thought of death when he encountered setbacks before, he didn't expect that once he died

When it really came to him, he realized that he didn't want to die.

He Yan did not promise the doctor to be hospitalized immediately, he said that he would talk about it in two days. He shuffled out of the expert's office with heavy steps

The door of the room, and then slowly walked towards the entrance of the hospital. He still didn't go back directly, but went to the park anyway. Maybe only

Staying in the quiet park, he didn't think about those terrible things, maybe he was used to meeting someone

When something unpleasant happens, go to the park. When he walked into the park, there was already a couple on the grass with a only

Two or three-year-olds were playing there, and they were teasing the child and making him laugh. Look at the child's innocent smile

face, He Yan also smiled, he didn't smile to others, but to laugh for himself. Thought not long after

When Hu Min no longer existed in this actually beautiful world, he suddenly wanted to cry. He felt self

He really shouldn't have left so soon, he still has something to do, and he hasn't tasted happiness yet.

He also thought that he was going to leave with Han Jie and Han Qingxue forever, and his heart showed great pain

Fear that I never felt before took over my heart.

When He Yan returned to his residence, he saw Xue'er standing at the door of the room. Han Jie saw him walking upstairs and hurriedly asked him, "You."

Where did it go? I've been waiting here for over an hour. ”

He Yanqiang pretended to smile and said, "Oh, it's nothing, I'm just bored by myself, and I want to go out to breathe." ”

"Why are you so ugly? Are you sick? After He Yan opened the door and entered the house, Xue'er looked at him

The pale and sallow face asked with concern.

"No, maybe I didn't sleep at night." He Yan replied lightly.

"Did you eat at noon?" Cher asked.

"Nope. What time is it? ”

"It's past eleven o'clock."

"I'm not hungry yet, I don't want to eat." He Yan sat on the sofa, looking very tired.

"Xiao Min, I ......" Xue'er suddenly wanted to say something, but didn't say it.

Hu Min looked at her suspiciously and asked, "What's wrong?" If you have something, just say it, why are you spitting it out? ”

"I'm divorced." Her voice was so low that she could only hear it if she was close enough to hear it.

"What do you say? Divorce? When did you leave? Why? He Yan asked her in surprise.

"During this time, Zhang Qi and I have been arguing about this matter. In fact, he doesn't want to leave, I want to leave.

Cher whispered, in a low voice.

He Yan once again thought of the melancholy look that flashed across Xue'er's face that day. Facts have also proved that Cher really does not

Not happy.

"Why are you leaving? Do you think he can't give you happiness? ”

"No, he's nice to me." Cher said. They asked me to leave. ”

"Why did his family want you to leave? This is between you, what is their business? He Yan said angrily

。

"His parents wanted us to divorce, mainly because I was infertile."

No wonder He Yan saw her for the first time and found that her abdomen was flat, and he felt strange at that time, thinking that she was

The child was born. But this kind of thing is not easy to ask, so He Yan didn't ask Xue'er about it.

"That's why his parents want you to divorce?"

"Yes".

"Do they love you? I mean, when you come into their house. ”

"Hmm. When I stepped into Zhang's house a year ago, everyone in his family was very nice to me. He Yan said.

"Later, they found out that you can't have children and can't pass on the Zhang family, so they turn love into hatred and want to treat you

Let's take it apart alive, right? He paused and asked, "Then do you love Zhang Qi?" "Maybe that's the problem

He Yan wants to ask the most, and he knows the most.

"I don't know if I love him or not. After marrying him, my material life was greatly satisfied, but

But that passion was missing between us. He's a few years older than me, and there's a bit of a gap in between. He Yan lowered his head

Look at your fingers. Those hands are very white and tender, and they can be said to be a pair of hands that have never done anything and are well maintained.

She suddenly raised her head and asked He Yan, "Why did you suddenly ask this question?" ”

He Yan didn't expect He Yan to ask himself, he hurriedly turned his head and didn't let his eyes meet her.

"I'm just asking. If you love him, then you won't divorce him. He Yan said.

After the silence, He Yan suddenly felt something flowing out of the two holes of his nose. He dipped his finger when he

When he saw a little red liquid stained on his fingers, and there was liquid constantly flowing out of his nose holes, he

Only then did I know that my nose was bleeding. Of course, Xue'er, who was sitting next to her, also saw it, and hurriedly asked He Yan what was wrong, she

took out a tissue from his leather bag and gave it to He Yan, and then went to the basin to pour water for him to wash. But the blood was like unstoppable water

The same flow kept going on and on her xue er was frightened she didn t know what to do for a while but he yan was still calm he

Comfort Cher and say it's okay, just wait. Cher watched anxiously as blood flowed out of his nostrils and dripped to Sheng

In a basin with clean water.

After I don't know how long, He Yan stopped the nosebleed. Cher helped him drain the red-stained water from the basin, and then

He poured some more water on him and asked him to wash the blood off his face. After such a toss, He Yan felt it again

Feeling weak, he told Cher that he wanted to lie down and told her to close the door for him when he went out.

He Yan didn't know when Xue'er left, he felt that his mind was blank, groggy, and his whole body couldn't

Make a little effort. He didn't know what else to do but lie in bed. He woke up to see it on the desk

A bowl of steaming porridge. He Yan put on his shoes and came to the outside of the bedroom, and Xue'er, who was sitting on the sofa in a daze, heard the noise

Turning her head to see He Yan coming over, she stood up and smiled and said to He Yan, "Wake up, do you feel better?"

？ He Yan nodded.

"I went out to buy a bowl of porridge just now, you can eat it while it's hot!" He Yan said.

"Why haven't you gone back yet?" He Yan looked at Xue'er and said.

"It's the same whether I go back or not, anyway, I'm the only one living in such a big house now. But it's good

It's quiet. She smiled. But it wasn't a really happy smile, it was a bitter smile.

"What about them? Don't live in that house anymore? He Yan asked suspiciously.

"Hmm. We didn't go to court, everything was up to us. I agreed to divorce Zhang Qi, his parents replied

Give me that house. Han Jie said. Now, if you don't want to live here, you can move to me

There were several empty rooms in that house except for me. ”

"Still no, it's good for me to stay here. Besides, I'm a poor person, and I can't get used to living in a luxurious house like yours

。 It's still safe to live here. He Yan said with a smile.

"Don't patronize it, let's eat the porridge first, it won't taste good if it's cold." Cher said.

"Did your parents know about your divorce?" He Yan asked.

Han Jie paused for a while before replying, "They don't know, I didn't tell them, I don't want them to know." ”

"Why don't you want them to know? They have the right to know what happens to their children! He Yan said.

"Do you know why I married him in the first place?" Cher asked what to say.

He Yan didn't answer, of course he knew the reason why she got married in the first place. But he still pretended not to know and deliberately asked her

"Why?" ”

"Do you remember that phone call I made to you half a year ago?" Xue'er lowered her head and didn't look at He Yan. She told

What Hu Min said at that time was actually what she said to him.

Of course, Xue'er wouldn't know, in fact, He Yan already knew what she was going to express that time. But what if you know?

What is it? The raw rice has been cooked and can no longer be replaced. No matter how much you know, you can only add more to yourself

Big pain.

"At that time, my mother wanted me to get married, and I didn't want to marry at all, I still wanted to go to university. But my mom told me about it

More reason. Remember when my dad was smashed in the leg, right? At that time, I didn't have the money to pay for the hospitalization, so my dad had to go out

hospital, but the leg is not completely healed. Not long after the Chinese New Year that year, my dad's leg injury worsened again

Also at home. But they didn't have enough money to pay for the expensive medical bills, and they didn't have the money they borrowed for the previous year's hospitalization

I paid it off, my dad couldn't go out to work, my mom didn't go away at home, and my brother didn't have much money every month.

So there was no money to send home.

Later, my aunt came to my house and whispered to my mom that she wanted to introduce me to friends. She said that the family, that is, Zhang Qi.

My aunt said that his family was rich and good-looking, but he was a few years older than me. She also brought one

Show my mom a picture of Zhang Zhangqi. When my mother saw it, she immediately agreed to the marriage without my consent.

I was very angry when I found out and resolutely refused to marry. My mother scolded me for being unfilial, and saw that my father was so sick that he had no money for treatment

and refused to do a filial piety.

My mom didn't know that I already had a boy I loved in my heart. But I don't know if he loves it

Me, do you come to help me when I need his help. So I called him. I asked him if he had any

The girl you like. I asked him again if there was a girl who had liked him for a long time, and now that girl

The child is going to be forced out of marriage. The girl asked him if he would like to help her escape, and he said no. Hear what he really said

After that, I got angry and decided not to pray to anyone else. So I promised my mom, and I didn't want to

of marriages. Xue'er sighed and asked He Yan, "Now you should know why I did it in the first place."

That asked you, right? ”

He Yan still didn't answer her. Perhaps at this time, silence is the most appropriate thing for him. He doesn't

To be able to tell her that he loved her, not to tell her that he had already known what she was trying to say later on, he was even more

I can't tell him that he is terminally ill, and that he may soon be saying goodbye to her.

"Later, I really married Zhang Qi, who was ten years older than me. He was really nice to me, like a big brother taking care of his little sister

My sister took care of me like that, accommodating me in everything, and his parents liked me very much. Although I didn't like it at the time

Joy him, but I still feel very happy, happy like never before. Maybe only such a man can give me this

kind of feeling.

Unfortunately, the good times were short-lived. I have been married to Zhang Qi for half a year and have not conceived a child. Later, at the persuasion of his parents, I

I went to the hospital for a check-up and the doctor said I was not fertile. Later, I received treatment, and all the medicines that could be treated

I ate it, but I didn't react at all. At first, during my treatment, his parents didn't get tired of me

Annoyed, but later saw that my treatment still had no effect, so he slowly rejected me, and finally forced Zhang

Qi divorced me. My marriage with Zhang Qi, which lasted less than a year, ended like this. His parents were quite compatible

Reasonably, they gave me the house and paid me a sum of money, while they bought another house themselves.

”

Xue'er simply told Hu Min what she had experienced in the past six months, and finally she asked Hu Min again:

"Xiao Min, didn't you really understand what I was trying to say at that time? You just don't really have a liking

Ever anyone? Her eyes were full of anticipation, expecting He Yan to answer her that she was, and that this person was

She. He Yan didn't answer her immediately, and after a moment of silence, he said:

"I didn't think about what you were trying to say at the time, but then I thought about what you said

and began to feel that something was wrong. Because I know you're never going to say those things to me, and you're not going to ask

I have a problem that has nothing to do with me. To find out if I was right, I called my mom and asked about it

Some of your circumstances. When my mom told me you were married, and it was after you called me. Listened to me

It wasn't until I really understood what Mom said that I understood what you said on the phone that time. I thought

Rushed back to figure out if you were really married, but unfortunately I couldn't make it back, I didn't get a ticket.

Later, I tried not to think about the things that had to do with you, and I wanted to forget about you completely. I thought at that time

Met another girl, and I wanted to fall in love with her and forget about you. But I will never forget you. You know

Dao? I also started liking you a long time ago, but I didn't dare to say it, I was afraid that I would ruin us by saying it

years of friendship between them. Do you know how painful I am when I learn that you are married? But what about the pain?

？ What if I like you? What shouldn't have happened has happened, and everything is irreversible. "What a word

The qi is very calm, so calm that it seems to be telling about something that has nothing to do with him. He told Cher that he already knew

She got married and told her what was in her heart,

"Since you liked me before, do you still like me now? Will you dislike me because I've been married? He Xue'er looked at him affectionately and said.

"No matter what you become, I'll like you. But I can't like you anymore, no

Probably with you. He Yan said bitterly.

"Why? Is it because of another girl? Han Jie asked.

"Not for her." He Yan showed the test sheet to Han Jie and said, "The doctor said that I don't have much time left

between. ”

Hu Min didn't want Xue'er to know, but in the end he decided to let Han Jie know.

He Yan's hand holding the test sheet was shaking, she didn't believe it was true.

"Impossible, absolutely impossible. Are you lying to me? Xiaoyan, you're lying to me, aren't you? You don't love me, so

You can deceive me with this test sheet, don't you? She asked what to say in disbelief.

"No, I didn't lie to you, it's true." He Yan covered his face with his hands, and his body trembled violently.

"What did the doctor say? Is there any salvation? Cher asked eagerly with tears in her eyes.

He Yan shook his head. "The doctor told me to be hospitalized immediately, otherwise it ......"

"Then why aren't you hospitalized? When did you find out? Why didn't you tell me until now? Cher tears

Flowing asked him.

"I only found out yesterday. Even if I tell you, it's useless, I don't want one more person to worry about. Again

I couldn't afford to pay the expensive medical bills and hospitalization fees. He Yan regained his calm tone.

"Did you tell your godparents? Do they know? Cher stopped crying, and she asked He Yan softly.

"I don't know, I didn't tell them, and I don't want them to worry about me, I already owe them too much."

"Do you want to keep it like this until you die?" Cher questioned him loudly.

"So what can I do? How do you teach me how to do it? He Yan cried and said, "I don't want to die either, but I have to wait."

What else can you do besides death? ”

"You can, you still have me, I can help you." Cher said excitedly.

"Can you help me? How can you help me? The doctors said that I can't be saved, can you save me? ”

"Trust me, as long as there is a glimmer of hope, we will not give up." Cher said firmly.

"I don't need you to be so nice to me, I don't want to owe you anything anymore, I'm afraid I won't be able to pay it back

Finish. ”

"Have you forgotten? Didn't you help me when my dad was lying in the hospital? I haven't paid you back the 1,000 yuan yet

Have you forgotten? So you owe me nothing, but I owe you, so I will pay it back to you. ”

“……”

"Will you go to the hospital tomorrow? Didn't you listen to me before? Just listen to me one more time! ”

“……”

"Bell, bell, bell". Just then, Cher's cell phone rang. When she saw the phone number called, she looked at it

He Yan glanced at it, then handed him the phone, and then she walked into He Yan's bedroom.

He Yan took the phone, and his mother's voice rang on the phone.

"Mom", He Yan said into the phone.

"Xiao Yan, just now a girl called and said to be looking for you, I told her that you were not at home, and she asked me for your phone

But I didn't know Cher's mobile phone number, so I didn't tell her. Later, I asked Cher about her mother

I found out Cher's number. The girl said her name was Li Qingyi, and she also said that she was in Wuhan now, and she gave me one

a phone number for you to call her. Then the mother reported the phone number left by Li Qingyi to He Yan to He Yan, and He Yan took the notes and put them on paper. After hanging up his mother's phone, He Yan pressed the phone number given by his mother

, using Cher's mobile phone to pull through the string of numbers.

"Hey, is Qing Yi here?" He Yan asked into the phone.

"You wait". Then I heard Li Qingyi's voice coming from there.

"Hey". Hearing this familiar voice, He Yan suddenly didn't know what to say.

"Hey, Kiyoya." He Yan said.

"He Yan, is it really you?"

"yes. When did you come to Wuhan? ”

"I only arrived yesterday. Actually, I quit my job the day after you left. ”

"You didn't do it? Why? ”

"For the sake of ...... That letter. ”

"Which letter?"

"The letter you left me?" Li Qing also said.

She suddenly said to Hu Min, "Xiao Min, I want to come to you." ”

Hearing Li Qingyi's request, He Yan didn't know whether to agree to her or not. Honestly, he really wanted to see it

She, especially in the last moments of his life, he wanted to see her even more.

"What's wrong? Why don't you answer me? Li Qing also saw that He Yan did not answer, and hurriedly asked.

"If you want to come, come here, and when you arrive, call this number, and I'll pick you up at the station."

"Okay, then I'll come over tomorrow." Li Qing also said excitedly on the phone.

He Yan hung up the phone and returned it to Han Jie.

"Is she your girlfriend?" Xue'er suddenly asked He Yan.

He Yan didn't know how to answer, he wanted to admit yes, but he didn't dare to admit it in front of her.

"She's nice, isn't she? Love you? ”

He Yan nodded.

"You met where you used to go to college, right?"

He Yan replied, "Yes."

So he told Xue'er everything about his acquaintance with Li Qingyi.

After Xue'er listened, she said to him softly: "There is such a good girl, why do you want to reject her?" ”

"Because I can't let go of another person in my heart." He Yan looked at her and said.

Perhaps without a word of answer, Cher had already guessed who he was referring to. So instead of asking, she asked

He Yan: "When did she say she would come?" ”

"Tomorrow". He Yan said.

"Then we'll pick her up tomorrow." Cher said.

That night, Xue'er didn't leave He Yan's residence until after eleven o'clock in the evening. She returned to her home when she was already willing

Nearly twelve o'clock. She returned to the empty and quiet room, and found some loss, some emptiness, a

I can't tell how lonely it is.

twenty

The next morning, after He Yan received a call from Li Qingyi from the station, he followed Xue'er to the long-distance station

Go pick her up. Li Qing was also dressed in a casual spring dress with long black hair. When she saw He Yan coming, it was far away

Look at him with a smile.

When He Yan and Xue'er walked in front of Li Qingyi, they pointed at Xue'er and said to her, "This is Xue'er, I told you before."

Target. He pointed to Li Qingyi and said to Xue'er: "This is what Li Qingyi told you about last night." "Finished

She lifted the suitcase in Li Qingyi's hand and said to them, "Let's go!" ”