Chapter 198: The heart is like ashes
That day, after Mu Chenyu found the hospital where Jiang Jingluo was staying, Wen Yijie immediately transferred Jiang Jingluo to another hospital, and asked the staff in the hospital to keep the news of Jiang Jingluo's transfer to another hospital secret. Then, no matter how capable Mu Chenyu was, he wouldn't get any news about Jiang Jingluo. And Jiang Jingluo's situation is still very unoptimistic, and he hasn't woken up for two days. The doctor said that maybe she was too tired to wake up so early and take a look at it later. While giving her the nutrient solution, he and his aunt took turns guarding her.
That night, Wen Yijie told Xu Xianxian that he would meet to talk about things, but as a result, he didn't go that day. Xu Xianxian also did not go to work. The two of them just like that, they didn't go to work in the company for almost three days. It's getting weird in the company.
"I don't know what's going on? The president and the girl didn't go to work, did the two say yes? ”
"Ah...... Isn't it that the two of them are secretly having a wedding? Maybe...... Honeymoon? ”
The people in the company were talking about it, and no one could guess that the two of them were actually in danger of breaking up.
Xu Xianxian, who lost his appetite all day, always stayed in his rental room and waited for his arrival, and he broke his promise. He shouldn't be like that, right. However, for Jiang Jingluo's sake, he broke his oath.
It's the third day, and he hasn't fulfilled what he said.
She couldn't hold it back, and she couldn't bear it anymore. She picked up her phone, opened her business card holder, and dialed his phone. Until he picked up the phone.
She calmly said to him on the phone, "I want to dodge...... Or run away from me? You can't dump me until it's clear......"
"Slim ...... Calm down! In half an hour, I'll go to you...... You wait for me! ”
She didn't give him a chance to say it again, she hung up the phone, she sulked, all the high-sounding things he said were fooling her! When she closed her eyes, she felt as if she was being tied, her hands pulling tightly at the clothes on her chest, as if she was about to suffocate to death. At this time, she really wants to be able to be relieved why it hurts so much to love someone. Falling in love with a man who doesn't love him, some feel like they're cheap.
However, in the past six months with him, she has only held hands, hugged, and occasionally kissed, but nothing has crossed the last line of defense. Sometimes, she consciously or unconsciously wants to seduce and seduce him. However, he was like a Yanagishita Megumi, as steady as Mount Tai, motionless. And didn't work out. And he didn't seem to have any interest in her.
That's it, once it passes, it's half a year. How she wanted to give herself to him.
In such a loss, she waited quietly for half an hour, and at this time, Wen Yijie came to her rental room as promised, pushed the door in.
"Slender ......" stood at the door, his face was haggard, and his eyes were all dark circles, she knew that he had been taking care of Sister Jingluo in the hospital for the past few days, as long as Sister Jingluo didn't wake up for a day, he would always accompany her like this. Envy and jealousy made her want to exchange bodies with Sister Jingluo, so that she could be noticed and cared for by Wen Yijie.
She leaned limply on the couch, her eyes fixed on him, his body gradually drawing closer to her. Wen Yijie came to her, squatted down, looked at her carefully, stroked her face, and was a little worried: "What's wrong with you?" So pale? Turning his head, he saw that the table was full of bowls of noodles that had already been eaten.
She pushed his hand away, turned her face away, and said unhappily, "Don't touch me...... Leave me to fend for myself! Go back and take good care of Sister Jingluo! Don't bother with me......"
Wen Yijie's mood is actually worse than Xu Xianxian's mood, his heart is very chaotic now, and his brain is not calm, I really hope that she can face the reality and see everything about the current situation.
"Don't do that...... Good no good? Slim, I know, I shouldn't have hurt you like that. However, when two people are together, they are not happy at all, and they cause harm to each other. It's better to let each other go. Give each other a chance to do it all over again! He sat next to her, holding her hand tightly, and she kept trying to pull it away from him. No one knows the pain in my heart. And he can't understand how fragile her heart is now, and she is very frustrated when she is repeatedly rejected for love.
This made her feel very sad. It's so hard to love someone! This effort has been in vain.
"You don't have to tell me so much! I love you so much, but you broke my heart and broke up with me...... I thought...... I thought that my relationship would go well and that I would be able to fulfill my wish and marry the man I liked. No matter how hard I have lived in my life, I don't care, are you worthy of me like this? Why didn't you tell me earlier, why did you break up with me when I was deep in the middle! You're clearly trying to make me die! Break up with you...... I really can't do it! You can't be so cruel to me! She covered her eyes with tears, tears dripping from her hands, she didn't want to look up, she didn't want him to see her embarrassed side. Because, this will make her even more faceless.
Wen Yijie was very uncomfortable in his heart, he was very guilty, making her so sad, and he was also very uncomfortable, he lowered his head and said guiltily: "I'm sorry...... It's all my fault for causing your damage! Slim, whatever you want to do, I won't blame you...... I beg you to forgive me! It's not that I don't accept you, but ...... My heart is small, small enough to fit the heart of one person. ”
Xu Xianxian she couldn't listen to it anymore, she stood up and pushed his hand away, she really couldn't tolerate the man she loved was holding the heart of another woman in his heart. She really can't stand it, the mood of wanting to go crazy is really about to squirt out, why is it her who is so painful. Like Jiang Jingluo, she is uncomfortable with a man.
The positions are actually the same.
It's just that Jiang Jingluo is a little luckier than her. At least, she had a man who loved her so much, and she! But there was no one.
"I don't want to hear you go on! What you say is just perfunctory! You just want to get rid of me, don't you ......" She knew that Jiang Jingluo dumped him at the beginning, and now, she has contacted him again, so in those blank days, she was the one who filled the vacancy for him. However, now, after Jiang Jingluo re-contacted him, he no longer needed her. How cruel it can be to forget her!
He immediately stood up and put his hand on her shoulder, "No, Slim, how can you think that?" How could I be that kind of person, in my eyes, you are also a very important person in my life. It's just that my feelings for you are not the kind of relationship between men and women. I treat your feelings more like a relative. It's true. Originally, I thought it was love, but I tried it and knew that the feeling of being with Jingluo was different. You're more like my sister! ”
"Ridiculous!" She snorted coldly, it was the most ridiculous she had ever heard in her life.
Is the feeling she gave him just the feeling of a sister? Joke!
"I don't want to be your sister! You already have a sister, it's just an excuse for you to get rid of me. She yelled at him loudly.
He clasped her arms tightly with both hands, "You calm down. Feelings are really not forced. I hope you can face the facts. In this way, you will be able to open up a little. ”
"Let go of me, after playing with my feelings, you can say such a thing, I really misjudged you. I thought you were a good man, you were a man who wouldn't give up. However, as a result, I was wrong, and the more I didn't want you to be that kind of person, the more you were that kind of person. "Xu Xianxian is already about to collapse. I've never loved someone so tired. but they do not get his heart, nor the man who loves him.
How could Wen Yijie make her think of him so much! "Slim ...... You are not allowed to think so. How could I be that kind of person! I've tried, I've really tried to love you. But I really, really...... I really can't fall in love with you with my heart...... Really, you listen to me...... After the breakup, we were still together. It's just that the cosplay is different! Do you understand? I will love you as if you were my own. I will never let anyone bully you or hurt you. ”
Unable to take it any longer, she turned and threw herself into his arms. "No...... I can't believe it's true...... I really don't believe it! It hit me too hard. Don't do that...... Since you don't love me, what ...... Can I ask you for one thing......"
Wen Yijie didn't say half a word, just grabbed her tightly. Looking at her collapsed expression and sad face, he knew that he had been hurt the most in his life, and he was sorry for her and his conscience. It's not that he wants to be this kind of man that everyone spurns on. It's just that he only has Jiang Jingluo as a woman in his heart. I want to learn to give up, but I can't do it. I can't convince myself.
While hurting others in this way, you are also hurting yourself deeply. Forcing oneself to love a woman you don't love is the most cruel cut to yourself.
"Please...... Just once, just once...... I'll give up. I want to give you my own first time...... I just want to give the first time to the man I love. Although, you and I can no longer be possible, this is a pity. However, I want to keep only this precious one and give it to you as a memory for the rest of my life. Such...... All right? ”
Wen Yijie's eyes were wide and wide, which was something he had never thought about. I don't want to take advantage of her.